CHAPTER 12
You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date
You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you 'cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need
'Cause you're the apple to my pie (pie)
You're the straw to my berry (berry)
You're the smoke to my high (high)
And you're the one I wanna marry (marry)
'Cause you're the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two
You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages
You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you 'cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need
'Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry
'Cause you're the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two
You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle
'Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry
'Cause you're the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two - AUBURN
Nessie's POV
I remember repeating the night in my head, over and over again in my dreams, tweaking it with things I had seen in movies or read in books.
And then I woke up, uttering his name in a sacred whisper, "Jacob"
He was already awake. Looking at me weirdly.
"Good morning." I said, kissing him. But he didn't kiss me back.
"What's wrong Jacob?"
"I...I hurt you. I bit you...the bruises are now showing." He said tracing his index finger down from my next to my chest to my waist and my shoulders and hands.
In a weird way I wished that the bite mark on my neck and chest would not disappear. It would be like a sign or something, that the last night actually happened and it was not a dream. But alas I was a half vampire.
"So? I didn't feel hurt one bit last night. You know how I felt last night. I showed you everything. And these marks...these marks will disappear in an hour or so...they are already faint. And don't think I'm weird or something...but I kinda wanna keep a couple of marks to remind me last night was real."
"Are you sure, you're not hurt?" He asked again.
"Of course I am!"
"Good, because I wanna bring some of your dreams true. They were pretty...interesting."
I blushed so hard. But not in an embarrassed way, in a I can't-wait-for-it-way-as-if-I-am-a-sex-addict way.
"So...it was good for you too, right? I mean thought it was and you looked happy...but-"
He put a hand over my mouth and said, "It was the best night of my life and I would go back everyday in time if I could to marry you and spent the first night with you again and again."
Relief washed over me. "It was the best day of my life too." I passed him.
"Though you know...there is something I wish we could do." I said out loud.
"What?"
"I wish...I wish I could see and feel you the way you do when I connect with you. You can hear my every thought, feel my every feeling. I wanna...I wanna be inside your mind too."
"Do you think you can do that? Reverse your power?" He asked.
"Mom could expand her shield. But she had to train. I mean I can try. But I don't know if the powers even work that way. Hey wait a second! You actually don't mind if I could read your thoughts?"
"Of course not. I wish...well I wish you could see, so that you would know what effect you have on me. And well after all these years, I'd rather you read my mind than Edward."
"Oh my god! Dad! I won't be able to go in front of him for a while now, will I?"
Jacob smiled and shook his head. "And I won't be able to phase for a while."
"Oh god! Our world is complicated."
"But without it, I would've never met you. So yes I'm very very thankful to our world." He said and kissed me. For a long time.
We were getting carried away. But he stopped me.
"We should eat something and well...I need to make a call...get some work done."
I nodded. I got up from my bed as I was which was naked. At fist I felt a little pain, but after a few steps I felt fine. A little sore but fine. I was sure this was gonna go away in a few hours.
"Why are you walking like that Ness? Are you hurt?" He asked jumping of the bed and carrying me in his arms. Hero to the rescue.
"I'm a little sore. That's all...see it doesn't hurt that much." I passed him my pain to let him know it didn't hurt.
"Okay. Well you take rest today. I'll cook us something." He said and pushed me towards the bathroom. I decided to take a warm bubble bath to relieve the soreness.
By the time I was done I felt completely rejuvenated. I opened my closet in a hope to find some nice comfy clothes. And instead I was greeted with extremely lacy and sexy and revealing clothes and lingerie. I imagined myself wearing those and going in front if Jacob. And I blushed thinking about what it would lead to if I wore them now. But I decided to save them for the night. So I tried to find something comfortable and nice, which turned out to be only a pair of tight denim shorts and a tank top. Thanks Aunt Alice. How am I supposed to step out of the house now?! After seeing my closet filled with these stuff, I was intrigued to check out Jacob's. But his was filled with his usual clothes. I decided to wear his shirt to at least cover me up a little bit.
I could smell delicious chicken and some veggies from downstairs. I followed the scent to see Jacob wearing an old pair of shorts and a t-shirt and placing the food on the kitchen table.
"You look good in my clothes." He said and for some reason I blushed.
"Well if I wear the clothes Aunt Alice has left for me...we aren't gonna be getting out of the bed at all."
"Can't wait to see them." He said smiling a mischievous smile at me. "Sit. I'm starving. Your family has stocked the fridge for weeks worth. Remind me to thank them later."
So we sat down on the dinning table beside each other and had our food.
"Ness, we need to discuss some things."
"What?" He sounded serious.
"The house...and well our future."
"Okay."
"Well I have used up most of my savings from the garage in the wedding. I have extra money of course saved in some accounts thanks to Alice who lets me know time and again where and when to invest. So yeah we have enough money saved up, but I think...well if we are going to start a family...then well I should start working again." He said.
So my honeymoon is gonna be cut short this means.
"I...I understand. When?"
"Soon." He said.
I nodded and let it sink in.
"I'm gonna work too. Dad has taught me a lot about internal and family medicine. We just need a few papers and certificates from Jenkins and I'll first find some work in the hospital and then on my own in the clinic. I need the hospital experience."
"You don't need to work, you know that. Seriously I have saved up enough."
"I know Jacob. I trust you. I just...I just don't want you to be the only one working hard to provide us...I wanna contribute too. And what will I do sitting at home all day long?"
"Hospitals have a lot of blood." He said looking away from me. I know that was not a valid excuse. He just didn't want me to work.
"I know. And you know I'm very good at controlling my thirst."
"Even donated blood?"
"Yes Jacob! Even donated blood is out of bounds. It's for the patients."
"Okay...so we are really doing this aren't we?"
"Doing what?"
"You know, getting married, thinking about the future, planning a family. Like normal human couples." He chuckled at that.
"We need something normal after all that we've been through." I said suddenly remembering all the people we lost in the war against the Volturi.
"Yeah. Ness...have you...who is going to look after you...if you...get pregnant. Like we can't go to a human doctor and Edward can definitely not...you know...that'd be totally weird. So who?"
"Well, I had this discussion with mom and only her. And she said she'll study up everything she can and help me through it. She and my Aunts are grilling Nate and Lucy over how things happened in the Volturi labs."
"But we are...we are different. That's why those bloodsuckers wanted us. So what if this is something...something we aren't prepared for?"
"Well...I was a surprise and I turned out just fine and mom also made it through."
"Only just."
"Jacob Black. You are not going to talk me out of this. We have discussed it before. I will go through any sort of pain and whatnot as long as I can survive it. I have agreed to that compromise and I can't agree to anything more!"
"Okay. Okay. I'm sorry. I don't want you to be in any pain or have any danger hanging over your head. Wouldn't you have done the same in my place?" He said kissing my forehead.
I thought about it. And yes I would've done the same thing. Maybe fought a bit more. But our places are not exchanging and I'm who I'm and I'll be more vampire than human after a year and a half. I'm gonna take my chances and have a kid, no matter how hard it is. Because this is my one and only chance.
"I'm sorry. It's just that-"
"I know." He said "I know."
I rested my head against his chest and finished my breakfast/lunch listening to his heartbeat.
"So...what do you wanna do now?" He asked.
"I was thinking..." I blushed. Why was I feeling so shy again? So instead of just saying it, I passed him images of me in the clothes Alice had left me. And images of us trying to reverse my powers.
"Well let's go try." He said picking me up and kissing me all the way until the room.
I removed his shirt and let him see the clothes I was wearing underneath. I somehow felt...sexy.
"It's gonna take a lot of effort on my part to not rip those clothes off you!"
I laughed and we spent most of our time in bed, recreating the magic of last night and trying new things, learning new things. Just losing ourselves in the bliss.
"Alright so now I'm gonna touch you but concentrate on reading your mind instead of showing you anything. And you concentrate on one thought really hard. Like as if you just want to show me that one and only one thing. Okay?" I said sitting on his stomach after we felt well rested.
He nodded. I touched my hands to his face and concentrated on trying to read his mind. I opened the connection but just waited to receive something instead of passing on something. It took a lot of effort on my part to not pass anything once I opened the connection.
"Are you thinking hard enough?" I asked.
"I think I'm thinking so hard that you maybe able to hear it without your powers."
"Hmm. Well I guess it doesn't work that way then. I seriously wished I could read your mind." I said getting off him and snuggling in his arms.
"We'll give it one more try." He said taking my hand and placing it against his cheek and his hand over it.
And as soon as I opened the connection I saw it. I saw myself walking down the aisle in the white dress down the First beach.
"You saw it, didn't you?" He asked.
And I nodded. We did it.
"We need to try again. Come on." I said jumping over him again and trying. And again. And again. But it didn't work.
"This is frustrating!"
"It's okay. We have all the time to practice." He said kissing me.
"Hmm." I was disappointed. Hey wait a second! "Jake, put your hands on my hands."
And he did. I opened the connection. And I could see it. The way I looked from his eyes right now. How he is thinking that I look cute when I'm slightly frustrated or when I'm concentrating so hard. He likes that my hair is long and he can play with it.
And then he changed his thoughts. "You're reading me, aren't you?" He asked through the connection.
"Yes." I passed him.
"We can...we can talk like this?" He passed.
"Well it seems so."
"Interesting." He said enunciating every letter in his mind.
"Well now you'll see." He passed and kissed me.
And then I saw how he felt everytime I touched him, everytime he touched me. What effect my moans, my reactions had on him. And in the end I could just feel the endless love he has for me.
"Now you know." He said out loud breaking the connection.
"Now I know." I said.
Embry's POV
"Well Jacob is gonna stay out for a while. Jared is also staying this one out. Come on man, you and I need to do this job." Quil said trying to get me out of the house and on the patrol duty.
"No. Get out."
"Seriously dude! This is enough. I know how you feel. I've been inside your head! But you've got to do your duty too. You've got to protect the boundaries and all of the people here. Just remember she is now someone you have to protect. She is human. And you're her imprint. So get off your ass, because fir all you know, her life could be in danger too."
Leah. Why are you doing this to me?
We were getting along just fine. When Harry got a cold, we both stayed up all night to take care of him. When she was sleepy, I turned into the warmest pillow for her. Hell I even kissed her forehead without earning myself a glare or anything. We enjoyed at Jacob's bachelor party and she even cracked a smart joke! We were getting back to normal.
I thought...I thought after Jacob and Nessie's wedding, she'd see that the imprint is gonna make everything right. I hoped that would be us very soon getting married. But for some reason she left soon from the wedding and was ignoring my calls and my attempts to meet her. It was taking all my effort not to break down Charlie and Sue's house.
But Quil is right. She is one of them now. I have got to protect her. The bloodsucker community seemed endless. We had already killed at least a dozen stray vamps since the war with those Italian bloodsuckers. But they never stopped. It seemed for some reason, Forks is the tourist attraction of the vamp population.
When I shifted, I opened my mind to six other people. And Quil was clearly excited. He just wanted to get done with the hunt o he could go play with Claire. She had the weekend off from her school.
And in that moment I envied him. A lot. How does he get such a simple and uncomplicated imprint? I mean the most difficult job for him probably now is dealing with Claire's parents. And why do I get to imprint on her girl and have her taken away from me only to imprint on a girl who is complicated as hell but makes me feel so right and so complete that I'd let her kick and push and play around with my feelings as long as it makes her happy. How is it fair?
"I'm sorry. I won't think about it." Quil said reading my thoughts. He moved away from me and concentrated on the hunt.
I was way too occupied with other thoughts to bother to apologise. He'll understand. I frankly didn't care who was listening to my thoughts. How much could I have kept in anyways?
We had the bloodsucker in the fire after an hour of chasing him. But before I bit off his head he said something weird. "You don't know what is gonna come your way. I'm the least of your worries."
The guys let me kill me. Probably to cool off. But I felt better after I killed him. One less bloodsucker to worry about from attacking Leah and Harry.
I went home and straight to my room, running without looking anywhere else, ignoring my mom's, "Embry we need to talk right now! Embry! Embry!"
She had had figured stuff out on her own. I didn't ever confess anything but she had stopped asking questions. Until the war with the Volturi and everything that followed.
"Leah is here to see you Embry!" Mom shouted. And just like that I opened my senses and felt her. I could smell her downstairs. How did I miss that?
I walked down and she was sitting there with a cup in her hand.
"I called her here! I don't know what it is between the two of you, but Leah I see you upset and I see my son upset and I know there is something very serious going on. So solve it. I'd rather you guys fight and be done or kiss and make up already than avoiding whatever it is you two are avoiding. Go upstairs. Now!"
My mom. Always being the best mom. But I don't even know if she will talk to me.
She got up and walked ahead of me. This is the first time I have seen her without Harry. She must've left him with Sue and Charlie.
I closed the door behind me and just stood there leaning against it, waiting for her to say something. But I know she isn't gonna say anything. She just kept looking away from me. Everywhere but me. I'll open it in five minutes and let her go.
Five minutes later I held the door open. She walked towards the door but closed it. She also leaned against it, facing me, trying to find her words but closing her mouth again and again.
"I want you." She said looking into my eyes finally.
"You have me. At your disposal." I said. I didn't want to be rude. But it just came out like that.
"No Embry...I...I want you...for whatever life I have left."
"What do you mean by whatever life you have left."
"After Jake and Nessie's wedding...I...I could see that they'd get infinity to spend together and...I...I left early that day...because I...I tried to shift and I couldn't. And if I can't shift then that means...i'll die."
"You will not die until you are a hundred year old batty lady, playing with your great grand children."
"Yeah but that's it. I get another few years. I don't get forever. But you get. If we get together, you'll have to stop shifting. And I know you like being a wolf. I can't...i can't ask you not to shift just because I'm a human now."
"That was the reason you were not talking to me?"
"I didn't...I didn't want to disrupt the already disrupted pack. It's not like anybody likes me anyways. They'll hate me more if I take you away."
"Who care about them?"
"Both of us."
"Well...yeah we do. But Leah...you are before it all, you are before everything in this world for me! I want you to remember this for as long as we both shall live. If you start aging then I'm gonna age too. There is nothing that will stop me from following you."
"But you don't have to. You have a choice. You can protect these people forever."
"There are other protectors. There is no other Leah." And then I kissed her. I didn't care if she was ready or not. I had to show this woman, how much I loved her!
And she kissed me back.
"Leah, stay with me?"
She had her eyes still closed. But she opened them to stare at mine for a long minute and then she nodded.
Suddenly this day had turned out to be one of the best days.
A.N. So yeah this chapter was just a lot of fluff. I think I'm gonna skip a few days for the next chapter. Not really sure. It may take a while. Exams coming up.
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