E pov
It's been a month since we heard about Bella's comatose, and I can barley breathe it gets harder and harder every day by I make it through somehow, it's also been a month since Jake found someone, yeah he found someone her name is Lucy, and they haven't been apart almost never, she nice and kind, she has brunette hair with some dark red highlights and her skin is light brown like Jake's but lighter, she helped all of us through out, but she can try to help me but it never works, I cry at night when I'm by her side praying she'll wake up.
Today it's been officially 2 months since Bella's been in comatose, and I hear people all around me saying, that there thinking of asking us if we want to get her off the life line, and in other words there saying they want us to give up her the one we love, my heart, my soul, and air, here I sit by her side holding her hand in mine as tears escape my eyes and scatters across my face, while looked at her opened eyes I think about song that would be perfect for this crises.
I hate feeling like this Is waking to you Comatose
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of
Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing you
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you
She the one in the comatose and I'm the one needing overdose cause close to losing her second by second I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
I can't breathe
'les I feel you next to me
you take the pain I feel
Its hurts the pain is real
Waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
I can't sleep I hate living without you
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
Dead wrong to ever doubt you
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away
Oh how I adore you
Oh how I thirst for you
Oh how I need you
Comatose I don't wanna live Breathing life Waking up My eyes Don't leave me alone
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
you take the pain I feel
waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
Open up
Comatose I don't wanna live
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
you take the pain I feel
waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
This pain I feel
The song hurt to sing, my voice burned from the tears I was chocking on and when I sang the chorus, I always choked on the words you take the pain I feel, because of this comatose there's only pain everyday and Bella's isn't by my side so it's killing me.
As I was grieving, the door opened and moments later a hand was on my shoulder, I looked up to met with Jacob, he pointed towards the door, so I sighed and started getting up and kissed Bella's forehead, and walked out of the room with Jacob behind me, I turned around looked at his square in the eyes.
"Edward…. I have proclamation for you" I looked at him waiting for he would go on.
"I want you to be the new singer of skillet" this shocked me more than anything, Jacob basically built this band-along with Bella-why would he want to give this up.
"Why" when I heard my voice was so hoarse I guess it was from the tears.
"Because I'm hating this, I just want a life with Lucy, and can't do that while she in this town and I'm on tour, so I want you to be the new singer and you can still be with Bella" I thought about it for moment, then something came to mind.
"What about Three Days Grace, I can't just leave them"
"I thought about, I talk to both bands about this and Claire and quill feel like I do and Seth wants to be with his family, so your band can change to Skillet, like Rosalie and jasper can be bass players and Emmett can be a guitar player while Bella's the drummer/singer and you're the lead singer, and you band liked the idea so it's all up to you"
"I don't know how about we talk about this after Bella is better?" I looked down while saying this unable to say her name, to somebody straight in the eye.
"But what happens if she doesn't get better, Edward" after he said that I saw flashes of red pass my eyes.
"Don't ever say that, she will make it through" I was so close to attacking Jake but, I calmed down enough to think again.
"Think about it again Edward, what are you going to do if she doesn't" I couldn't listen to this I walked away, I couldn't think of what would happen if Bella was never alive.
I walked into Bella's room and sat by her bed side and laid my head gently on her lap as tears came down my eyes, I waited for unpeaceful slumber to come.
I was a woken by the most beautiful sound in the world, but I didn't know if it was my imagination or the real thing, then I heard again.
"Edward"