I have decided there will be sex, but not in this chapter. I'll put a warning up when I write it.
It won't be in awhile though.
Enjoy this chapter though. ~Ash.
Chapter Twelve:
A school festival? Has the author of my life become a basic bitch? Yeah, seems like it because I am stuck going. It can't be that bad, can it? School things are usually lame, but I've never actually been to one in my life before. I guess because of that I can't judge, I should give it a chance.
"Eren…" Mikasa says awkwardly, her face burning red. "Are we going together..?" She asks, looking very uncomfortable. He is crossing her arms over her breasts and twisting her foot against the wooden floor as she requests this. Right now, I find myself throwing things outta my drawer as I search for a good outfit to wear.
"Yeah, you're my sister. So why not." I state with a smile on my face. "I'll be with Levi, I know you hate him but can you get along for me?" I ask, my green eyes moving up to her. That's when shock finds it's way through my bones, she looks offended, hurt by what I said. Her eyes look sad and she opens her mouth.
"You see me as a sister?" Mikasa asks, quietly.
"Y-yeah… why?" I responds, watching her face burn a bright red that soaks into her cheeks. Her shoulders move up and down as she shrugs, awkwardly trying to act cool. Mikasa ends up saying "nothing" and makes her way out of the room. What Levi said before pops up, the way he said she most likely was hardcore crushing on me. The only issue is… i'm gay.
I stand up, wearing my green jacket holding onto my body. Turning out the door, my feet slam down on each step as I make my way to the living room. My mother smiles at me as I grab my wallet, waiting for my sister to join me. She does, looking very awkward, walking over to me still wearing the scarf she loves. We moves our bodies to the door as we start towards the city bus, hopping up through the two doors. Placing ourselves in the back, we sit side by side, our shoulders hitting each other. Mikasa black hair falls in front of her pale asian face as a sigh escapes her thin lips.
"Eren, do you love me?" Are the words that fall from her tongue as her pupils move up to mine. My eyes widen as I feel my heart start to pound heavily, bruising my ribs. She continues to sit there, not moving as she waits for my answer. I find myself not knowing what to say, I want to tell her about my love for Levi, but she hates him with a burning passion. If I did that, I might as well have sex in front of her. Both would be equally bad to her.
"Why are you asking me that..?" I mumble as I see two old ladies smiling at us, being able to hear our conversation. "Y-you never seemed to care about these things before.." I stated, feeling very red in the face. One of the ladies chuckle, whispering "young love" which makes me feel awkward due to the fact that I don't love her.
"Because, I was curious." Mikasa answers, her fingers twirling around themselves as anxiety floats inside her.
"Oh…" I respond. Should I tell her about Levi? About my undying love for him and the way he makes me feel… or should I deny and just reject her? I don't love her, I know that. She's been my sister since I can remember and now I feel weird. Like my sister is trying to hook up with me, something frowned down upon. I know I should tell her my true feelings that willow inside, but I feel stuck…. Sadly, I know what i have to do.
"I'm sorry Mikasa, I love someone else."