Chapter 12: Ghost of her Memories

A/N: First I want to say WooHoo I finally reached 100 reviews! I also want to thank my awesome beta Paramore-Twilight for correcting my spelling and grammafication errors. You rock! Playlist for this chapter CrushCrushCrush by Paramore and Thanks for the Memories by Fallout Boy. So here you go my sweets Chapter 12.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Twilight Characters they belong to a Ms. Stephenie Meyer.

I watched her walk away

Setting the trail she walked ablaze

Her memory not the same

As she took her love away

And there still in my hand I held the forget me not's

But how could I ask if she remembers

When she looks at me not the same as yesterday

Her sweet honey kisses I'll miss

Because to her I am nothing but the fading

Ghost of her memories

By Me.

Bpov

It was Saturday a week since my fall down the stairs and I had officially moved in with the Cullen's. Sure Charlie was upset at first, but I was an adult now and I would be getting married soon, not to mention that my change would be happening after the wedding. He kept muttering how his baby girl grew up too fast. He finally agreed that it was best, since he had been working the late night shift a lot lately. He just made me promise that I wouldn't make him a grandpa before the wedding. I promised. That was easy to keep since Edward wouldn't go anywhere below the waist. Hell he would barely do anything above the waist! Besides I wouldn't be conceiving any grandchildren for Charlie or Renee. After the wedding I would be encased in my 18 year old body for all eternity, but I would be along the side of my personal Adonis.

With my head injury being a week old everything was finally back to normal. Well actually it wasn't.

Everyone seemed to be talking in hushed tones a lot more these days. Esme was always shooting me sad looks which I could never get her alone to ask her what that was all about. Emmett was still Emmett except I would catch him looking at me out of the corner of my eye, studying me as if I was a specimen under a microscope. Rose was always trying to get me alone for some girl time, I mean, sure we were closer now but we weren't that close.

Every time she did manage to pry Edward away from me (or was it vice versa) she would get me alone and it would be fine until she starts to ask me what I think about Jasper. Then it was either I hightail it out of the room or Edward would come and get me, shooting Rose glares.

Carlisle would ask me if I remember anything, which would always draw the family around, only for them to be disappointed when I said no.

But Jasper he was the strangest of them all lately, He would look at me with longing in his eyes and when Edward would notice he would growl at Jasper. I would then shoot Jasper a questioning look but he would just shrug and leave the room. Asking Edward got me no where it was always: Nothing love, or It's your blood that's calling to him.

Everyone would give him glares when he said stuff like that so I quit asking him. Besides I don't think my blood is the case, because if and when Edward would ever leave the room Jasper would come and sit by me and talk. He would ask questions and I would ask questions and we would talk about our likes and dislikes. That is until Edward would come back into the room. Then Jasper would remove himself from my side and I would get this empty feeling that appeared whenever he moved away from me. But not once would he look at me like he wanted to drain me. In fact Alice told me he was the one who cleaned my head wound before Carlisle got here to stitch me up.

Edward didn't like that she told me that bit of information, in fact he was kind of leery when it came to Alice being around me but I couldn't understand why he would be. Alice was Alice. She hadn't changed. The only difference is that her and Edward wasn't as close as they used to be, but I shook the suspicions off.

I was currently sitting on Edward and mine's bed with my old battered copy of Wuthering Heights. He was actually out of the room! Usually he was hovering somewhere near by if not clinging to my side. But somehow today Emmett convinced him to go with him to Seattle to the mall for the latest Wii and X-Box 360 games. I was thinking about what I could do besides reading while Edward was out. It was at that point that the door burst open and my hyper little sprite of a friend came rushing in.

"BELLLLA." She said in her usual sing song voice.

I put my book down and looked up into my best friend's face.

"Yes Alice."

"You're not planning on spending the afternoon in this room are you?"

"Of course not Alice, I was just thinking that I might go downstairs and make some lunch for myself then maybe I'll see what Esme is doing. Why do you ask?" She smiled.

"Well…." I cut her off before she could finish.

"I am not allowing you to play Bella Barbie. Not today, not while I have my freedom."

Her face went into a look of mock hurt, which was quickly overcome by a look of curiosity.

"Bella, what do you mean while you have your freedom? You make it sound as if you're a prisoner."

She had quirked her brow waiting for me to reply.

"Alice it's not like that it's just Edward has been…. Well he's been suffocating lately. If I thought he was bad before when Victoria was still a problem, he's worse now. Everywhere I go he goes, the only times he leaves my side is when I go to the bathroom. Sometimes I just want to stay in there but I'm believe if I did that he would eventually come in and get me. Even his protectiveness is over the top! I mean Alice I'm surprise he doesn't feed me, clothe me, or burp me yet. He's smothering me Alice and I don't know how much more I can take before I scream."

I'm sure my face was completely flushed with its usual red color.

"Wow Bella! Who knew that under that shy interior there was a spitfire of woman ready emerge. I see Edward has definitely been annoying you lately. Bella sweetie, I didn't mean to get you riled up, I really just wanted to know if you wanted to watch a movie with me and Jazz?"

"Oh I'm sorry Alice." I looked at her sheepishly. "I would love to watch a movie, But can it be something with action? I really don't want to watch an romance movie." I looked up to see her face held nothing but shock.

"Bella, I thought you liked romance movies."

"Um…sort of… well not really Alice. I actually prefer action movies."

"Oh, well alright. Action it is then." She tugged me to my feet and was pulling me to the door when a question popped into my head.

"Alice can I ask you something?"

She turned, giving me her million dollar smile. "Sure Bella you ask me anything."

"Okay, well…um… what's going on between you and Jasper? I notice that he no longer stays in the same room as you?" She bit her bottom lip looking at me she sighed.

"Bella, Jasper and I have gotten a divorce." I gasped I couldn't believe my ears, they couldn't be divorced! They were in love! They were each other's soul mate!

"Alice, I'm so sorry to hear that. You two were great together." She gave me a small smile.

"Bella don't be sorry. Jazz and I were not each other's soul mate. Yes, we still love each other but it is strictly platonic. Besides, our true soul mates are very close. While mine is getting closer by the day Jasper's mate is so close he can practically touch her." She gave me a sly smile. "Now come on Bella we're wasting precious freedom time."

I laughed and shook my head as she pulled me along the hall. I still couldn't believe Alice and Jasper were divorced. I was happy to hear that they would find their true soul mates; I just hope Jasper was taking this as well as Alice. When we had reached the bottom of the steps I looked around. The house was quiet. Where was everybody else? I looked at Alice as she steered me toward the living room.

"Alice where is everyone?" She stopped pulling me and looked at me.

"Well let's see… you already know that Edward and Emmett are in Seattle. Esme went to Port Angeles to do some antique shopping. Rose is in the garage working on the cars. Carlisle is in his study working on a research paper and Jasper is waiting for us in the living room."

She dropped my hand as we walked into the living room. I looked up to see Jasper standing there. He looked sad but as soon as he realized that we were standing there his eyes lit up and he graced us with a beautiful smile. I didn't notice that Alice was turning to head out of the room until she spoke.

"Bella why don't you and Jasper pick out a movie and I'll pop you some popcorn, or would you prefer a sandwich?" I looked back at her.

"A sandwich would be great Alice, thank you." She nodded her head and left the room.

I walked over to the cabinet that held the some of the Cullen's movies. I saw Jasper drift closer out of the corner of my eye. I scanned the movies. When I saw House of Flying Daggers I didn't know why but it seem familiar. But that was ridiculous since I had never seen that movie before. As I reached for the movie so did Jasper our hands touched for a brief moment and I felt an electric spark and I was overcome by déjà vu. That one touch brought on a lost memory.

"So what are we watching?"

"House of Flying Daggers. Have you seen it yet?"

"No I can't say I have. What kind of movie is it?"

"It's an action movie lots of fighting but don't worry there's romance in it as well."

"Humph. Jasper, romance is not the only type of movie I like. Matter of fact, action movies are my favorite."

I snapped backed to reality shaking my head, I looked up to see Jasper looking at me with concern.

"Jasper have we watched House of Flying Daggers before, you know… together?"

He hesitated for a moment. "Um yes Bella we did. Why do you ask?"

"No reason really… it's just I guess it brought on a memory I lost." I looked at him there was a small smile playing at his lips.

"Hey Jasper do you think you could tell me what else we did that day?"

Immediately the small smile that was there was erased and replaced with a frown. "Bella I'm afraid I can't do that,"

I pouted just a little and he saw it. "It's not that I don't want to it's just that Carlisle said that you had to regain your memory back on your own."

He placed his hand on my shoulder and again I felt that jolt of electricity course through my veins. I was submerged into another memory.

Me and Jasper kissing on the couch… Jasper kissing me in the guest room and telling me I'm beautiful.

I snapped back into the present, there was no way that was an memory. I was just thinking about that because I sexually frustrated and Edward was still rejecting me. But I probably should ask just to be sure.

"Jasper did me and you….."I trailed off as I saw Alice walk into the room. "Never mind."

He looked at me clearly confused but he didn't press me to continue. Instead he popped the movie in and we settled onto the couch me on one side him on the other and Alice smack dab in the middle. I could feel his eyes on me as the movie started, but I couldn't bring myself to look at him. There was no way that Jasper and I could have done anything like kissing right? So why did I get the feeling that so call memory was true?

Jpov

I watched her as she looked at the movie. I couldn't help thinking about the spark that flew between us or that she got a memory back of us together. No matter how small the memory was it was still great, it just meant that she would eventually get all of her memories back of us together. But what had me curious was the last memory she had I could feel lust and longing pouring off of her for the brief moment she was lost in her memory.

When she snapped out of her thoughts she looked at me and was about to ask me about something we did together but she stopped when Alice walked into the room. For all the times Alice could walk into the room it had to be then.

The movie was just finishing when we heard Emmett's jeep pull up. I could hear Emmett and Edward laughing it looks like those two are on better terms. Then again Emmett could never stay mad at anyone long when it came to gaming he hated to play games alone for a long period of time. They walked in to the living room, Edward look at the three of us sitting on the couch and stopped dead in his tracks. I could hear a low growl escape his throat, I couldn't believe he was growling and for what reason.

Honestly Eddie did you expect her to stay in the room upstairs locked away from everyone. Relax she was just watching a movie with us; she wasn't planning on running away from you. Although she should run away from you and your conniving ways. I looked up at him to see him clenching his fists, his jaw was tight, and eyes narrowed. So you want to hit me now Eddie go right ahead, but think of how that would look to Bella. His eyes shifted to Bella than back to me, I saw him unclench his fists. I smirked, that's what I thought Eddie I knew you wouldn't do anything that would tarnish your little charade.

I heard Emmett clear his throat as Edward moved to Bella's side. She looked up at him with love pouring from her but the emotion felt tainted like the love she had was wavering. I could tell she was unsure, but I wasn't sure why she would feel unsure when her love was so strong just this morning. Emmett cleared his throat again I looked up and he was looking at me.

"Um Jazz dude let's go for a short hunt." I shot him a questioning look but he just gave me a look that told me dude we need to talk but not here. "Sure Em, I got up and ruffled the pixie's hair she gave me a glare but then she smiled.

"Hey guys mind if I join you two?" She gave her best pout. I promise I won't be in the way of your male bonding."

Emmett looked at me and I shrugged, he sighed. "Fine pix you can come." She jumped up shooting Emmett her million-watt smile. We said our goodbyes to Bella; Emmett was actually the only one to give a half-hearted goodbye to Edward before we left out the door.

Empov

I took off for the trees that lined the backyard, at first I was a little upset that the dark Tinks was coming but I brushed it off; maybe she could come in handy. I admit when everything about Bella and Jasper was let out I was shocked and a little hurt that nobody trusted me enough to tell me the secret. But I was over it now. I had wanted to talk to Jazz since that night of the accident but I couldn't find the right words to say. I knew one thing for sure: Edward wasn't right for Bella anymore- he was suffocating her. We ran a distance and Alice, who was behind me and Jasper, started to complain about us running too fast.

"No short stuff! Your legs are just to close to the ground, it's not helping you get distance at all!" I shouted over my shoulder at her.

"Well newsflash Emmett: Jasper is holding back." I looked over at Jasper and he smirked before he quickly pulled ahead of me. I tried to catch up but the fucker was too quick. That's when I heard the evil smurfette.

"What's wrong Emmett? All that brawn holding you back?" She laughed.

I chuckled I loved our little quick repartee that we have. Jasper had slowed down so that he was going the same pace as I. When I looked around at the clearing we were coming upon I stopped. Alice and Jasper followed suit, coming to a stop behind me. Alice danced in front of us before she stopped and turned to face us.

"I'll leave you two to talk and I'll hunt." Her eyes were a little dark due to the fact that she probably didn't get to hunt last week. We both nodded and she turned darting through the trees. I turned to face Jasper gesturing that we take a seat on the falling tree that was laying to the left of us. He took a seat and I sat down beside him. It was quite for a moment before he cleared his throat.

"So Em you wanted to talk so talk." I looked at him and raked my hand through my curly hair.

"So dude how are you?" He quirked his eyebrow.

"Em that's not seriously why you brought me all the way out here for, just to ask me how I'm doing?"

"Yeah that did sound pretty stupid but what I meant to ask was, how are you dealing with the whole Bella losing her memory of the weekend you two shared?"

I watched as his shoulders slumped.

"I've been terrible Em, it hurts to see her everyday and know that she doesn't remember anything that has happen between us. Then to see Edward clinging to her and kissing her but pushing her away when she wants to go further. But what hurts the most is seeing her return those kisses with just as much love as she use to kiss me with."

I placed a hand on his shoulder. "Dude you definitely got it bad, I mean I understand she's your soul mate but you should see how you act when she walks into the room. Your eyes follow her around like some love sick puppy, not to mention the lust you emit out into the room. Not that I'm complaining- thanks to you- I've had some wild and crazy nights with Rose. But dude you need to stop waiting on the sidelines because I tell you one thing: Eddie sees her as a marionette and he is the evil puppeteer that controls her every move. Do you want to see Bella's invisible strings pulled for all eternity or are you going to cut them?"

"Em I don't know man… I mean I love her but I don't want to say something that may jeopardize our possible future together. Em you should have seen her today, we were selecting a movie when our hands touched she said she had a flash of a memory. I was excited she remembered something it was from the day we watched House of Flying Daggers but that was all she remembered. But when we touched again she had another flash but before she could get the question all the way out Alice walked in and she told me it was nothing. Face it Em right now all I am is a ghost in her lost memories."

I looked at him and smiled which he returned my look with a questioning one.

"Dude don't you get it you two touching is triggering her memory. Tell me… when was the last time you touched her before today?"

"The last time was the night of her accident; Edward hasn't really let me get that close to her if you haven't notice."

"See Jazz it has something to do with your touch I bet you if you hold her hand long enough she probably get a string of memories to come back."

He looked at me and smiled. "You know Em you may be on to something." The smile that was there a second ago vanished and was replaced with a frown. "There's just one thing: Edward will never let me get that close to her."

I scoffed at his words. "Dude since when did you become such a pussy? I think Bella has soften you man. I remember when you could kick Edward's ass with little or no effort at all. Now you're afraid of a little confrontation with Pussward. I don't know, maybe with you going all soft it would be a close match. Hey will you fight like a girl just like Pussward? You know: kicking and scratching? Maybe a little hair pulling because some girls like to fight dirty.

He gave me a glare. "Em in no shape or form am I a pussy, I just don't want Bella to look at me and hate me. And she probably will if I hurt Edward, especially since her memories aren't back."

Apov

I darted through the trees letting my senses take over I could smell an elk about a .5 mile away to my right. As I changed my course I thought about what the boys were talking about. I couldn't believe Emmett wanted to be all secretive. It's not like I didn't already know what he was going to discuss.

I spotted my elk and took it down with ease. Just as I drained the elk of its final drop, I caught a strange scent but quickly realize it was another vampire.

The scent was an intoxicating mix of sandalwood, cloves and cinnamon. I could tell whoever it was that they were getting closer; I quickly disposed of the elk's carcass. As I was standing from burying my lifeless prey he came in view and came to an halt in front of me. I was utterly speechless: he looked even better than he did in my visions.

The way his wavy brown hair hit the top of his collar of his moss green button up shirt and how his golden eyes shone bright even in this gloomy weather. How his dark washed jeans hung loosely on his hips, I looked back up to his face and his perfect lips. Then he spoke.

"Hello, I didn't realize that there were other vampires in this area. Especially beautiful little fays such as yourself." His Irish lilt was beautiful. If I could blush I would probably be bright red at the moment.

"Well my family and I don't live that far from here." His brows rose with surprise.

"Family you mean there are more than just you?" I giggled.

"Yes there are actually eight of us. Well one hasn't been changed yet but that will be happening soon."

"Eight? Wow that's a lot for a coven. And one of you is still human?"

"Yes but she will be changed soon." I rushed the words out quickly.

He smiled. "Don't worry little wee one your secret is safe with me. By the way me name is Tegan. Tegan O'Shellan." He held out his hand for me to shake as I took it into mine I felt an electric current travel between our hands. I looked up to see the surprise look upon his face yet again, he had felt it too.

"I'm Alice." He smiled that breathtaking smile again.

"Nice to me you Ms. Alice." I looked away to the direction my brothers were located.

"Would you like to meet the rest of my family?" And maybe stay with me forever I added in my head.

"You sure I wouldn't be intruding."

I scoffed at the idea of my soul mate intruding; well he didn't know he was my soul mate yet.

"Of course not my family loves new faces."

He nodded. "Well okay little fay lead the way."

I turned and ran in the direction where I had left my brothers; Tegan was hot on my tail.

Boy were Jazz and Emmett going to be surprised.

Jpov

Emmett was right. If I could just touch Bella then maybe I could bring some of her memories back. Even if it was just some maybe then it would restore the love she was feeling before that dreadful night. I felt Emmett shifted beside me.

"Dude, if you love her like you say you do and she is your soul mate. Then you should do whatever it is to help get her memory back so you can tell her you two belong together."

I looked at him running my fingers through my hair I sighed.

"Em, man, I don't know if I can every since she hit her head her love isn't at the same magnitude it was before besides her love for me now is what she would feel for an brother." He cut me off before I couldn't continue.

"Jazz, that's because she doesn't remember the time you two spent together! Jog her memory and I'm sure the love will come back, hey probably stronger than before."

I looked at him and smile but then got frustrated again.

"But Fuckward has been feeding her so much bullshit lately it's sickening. The love she feels for him and she's happy. Except for today man she was not happy today she felt unsure my inner voice nagged but I pushed it away. I don't want to ruin her happiness, even if it's without me. I will endure the pain as long as she's happy. But what I don't get is that Edward doesn't return the same magnitude of love that she has for him for her. I think he just likes the fact that he can control her because at the moment she weaker than him and I'm not just talking physically. I'm talking emotionally: he uses her love that she has for him against her, knowing that she would do anything to make sure he never leaves her again."

Emmett nodded his head.

"Well bro, you know what I say to that. I say man the fuck up! Get your head out of your ass and stop denying yourself love. Go get your woman help her see that you're her love not Eddie. Because this here, he gestured at me with his hands. Is not the Jasper I know. The Jasper I know wouldn't take this shit. So now are you going to use those army tactics and southern charm to get your mate back. Or are you going to sit here and continue to act like a bitch? I hope not because dude I so don't need another sister. Besides being a bitch is Eddie's job and he doesn't take well to being terminated off a job."

I looked at him. His face was serious and I think that's what did it for me. I burst into laughter. I can never understand how he could be so serious but funny at the same time. But he had a point and his advice was something I wasn't going to take lightly.

We laughed and joke until there was a shift in the wind and we caught the scent of Alice and another. Immediately we jumped into a defensive crouch just as Alice cleared the trees.

"Hey guys…whoa relax." A tall male stepped out of the line of trees behind Alice, Emmett growled but I relaxed once I felt his emotions. Once Emmett saw me relax he relaxed, Alice rolled her eyes. "Like I was saying: I met a another vegetarian. This is Tegan, Tegan these are my two dumb brothers: Jasper and Emmett."

She pointed to us as she said our names. I looked at her raising my brow. She shook her head and I smiled understanding that this must be the one who would become her soul mate.

"So you are Alice's real brothers, I hate to say it but I don't see the family resemblance." Fuck me this guy was Irish. The pixie had found someone who probably believed that she was a fairy.

"Naw were not her real brothers were all sort of adopted, although were not kids." I chuckled and looked at him. But Emmett of course had to add more.

"Yeah were all one big happy family, hey I notice that your Irish." He nodded his head at Em. "Cool can you say top of the morning to ya?"

He looked at Alice then to me we both shrugged. "Um okay, Top of the morning to ya."

Emmett whooped. "Yeah man that was frigging awesome! Dude, please tell me you are coming to our house!"

"Um I guess so," he looked at Alice and she smiled up at him. "Yeah I guess I will be coming to your house."

Just then Alice stilled and her eyes glazed over- she was having a vision. When she came out of the vision she smirked.

"I guess Tegan isn't the only company we will be having. The Denali's are coming for a visit."

What? The Denali's were coming here? If what Alice has said in the past about her suspicions was true then this visit should be interesting.

"Well what are we waiting for we should get home so that we can greet our guests." We turned to run in the direction of the house. Man I couldn't wait to get home to see if Alice suspicions are true and if so. The golden boy is going to squirm.

A/N: So I hoped you liked the chapter and my character Tegan. Please review.

Lunar