Chapter 12: Ignoring the Major and forgiveness
It had been almost a week since Jewel had spoken to Bordon. Although Bordon pretty much tried to avoid her too, not knowing what to say to her or how to act. Tavington saw this and thought it was all because of him as to why Bordon was staying clear from her, but he couldn't be more wrong. Tavington saw Bordon standing by a wooden fence by himself, so he decided to join him.
"You all right, Bordon?"
Bordon looked over at his commander "Yes sir, I'm fine. Just a bit tired is all. I didn't get much sleep for the past few days."
Tavington nodded "Yes, well, one cannot get much sleep during this particular war. I wanted to tell you that I appreciate that you obeyed my warning."
"Sir?" Bordon questioned.
"About staying away from my sister. It's for the best, Bordon."
Bordon sighed "Yes sir."
"But no need to worry. We'll find you a woman soon and if I am lucky so will I," Tavington said smiling. "Well, I will talk to you later, Bordon. I have some things to do."
Bordon nodded and watched Tavington walked off. He looked back into the field and saw Jewel with another soldier and it seemed as if she were laughing about what the soldier had said to her. He could feel a sense of jealousy rising up inside him and he could also felt hate for himself for what he had said to her. He wanted to yell out her name, but couldn't get the words out. Jewel then looked over to him and did nothing but glare at him. He figured that Jewel told the other soldier to leave with her since she grabbed his arm and they left.
"Oh dear god, how could I have been so cruel to her? I've made her hate me which is exactly what the Colonel wanted me to do," Bordon thought to himself. He turned on his heel and went inside to his room to lay down. There ended up dreaming, but it wasn't dream that made him happy. He could see Jewel and she was calling to him, but he was unable to reach her. Bordon then saw a rebel that was coming after Jewel and he saw the rebel kill Jewel in front of his eyes.
"Noooooo!!!!!" Bordon screamed as he rose from his sleep with sweat on his head. He looked around and realized the nightmare he just had. He had to try and talk to her tonight, he just had to.
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It was now time for dinner and Bordon seemed to be the first one at the table. Jewel saw Bordon and decided to sit herself between her brother and a Lieutenant that was new at the table for the night. Bordon could hardly keep his eyes off her, just wanting to pick her up in his arms and kiss her and apologize over and over to her for what he said.
"Are you enjoying your stay here, Miss Tavington?" asked Cornwallis.
"Yes, my lord. I am enjoying it very much."
"Will you be joining us for the ball tomorrow, Jewel?" asked Ban.
"Why yes Ban, I think I will come to the ball tomorrow."
Ban smiled "Wonderful. I shall look forward to you being there."
Tavington shot Ban a look, a look warning him not to touch his sister. He then looked over to Bordon noticing that he had not said a word at all during the dinner "Are you awake over there, Bordon?"
Bordon came out of his daze "Sir?"
"You seem to be awfully quiet."
Jewel looked over at Bordon and he looked right back at her.
"I'm fine, sir, but I'm afraid that I must retire for the evening, I feel somewhat ill and I think it would be best if I left. I'm sorry, my lord."
Instead of anyone saying anything, everyone was quiet while Bordon got up and left. Some of them knew that something was wrong and some did not, for none of them knew of Bordon ever leaving a dinner especially if there was a lady at the table. Jewel watched Bordon the closest feeling sick to her stomach as well. She hated the man, but at the same time she loved him.
"I'm feeling a bit tired, gentlemen, I think I shall retire and go to bed."
"Are you all right, Jewel?" asked Tavington.
"Yes, I uh......I'm just feeling a bit tired is all. I'll see you all at the ball tomorrow. It is tomorrow, right my lord?"
Cornwallis nodded "Yes, it is and we will look forward to seeing you there, Miss Tavington. I hope you feel better soon."
"Thank you, my lord. I'm sure I will."
Jewel then went upstairs to her room and rested on her bed. She got her journal and started writing on it:
Dear Journal,
Today, was a heartracking day today. I saw Michael and I did nothing but ignore him. I hate him so much, but at the same time I cannot help that I love him. I do not even know how well Michael and I would work together. Once he knows my secret, I am sure that him and my brother will hate me. I want them to know, but at the same time I do not. I'm so confused right now, I do not know what is right or wrong anymore. I have so many questions that have been unanswered over the years. Why was my father was a drunk and so mean to us all? Why did Michael say that he did not love me when I saw in his eyes that he does? When will this war end? Will my brother survive it? So many questions, so little answers. Perhaps someday I will find a way to make everything work out, but I keep getting this bad feeling that something is going to happen and soon. The feeling is dark and what I will see is dark. A dark heart, no feelings, just complete evil. I fear for my brother and Michael. Oh lord......what do I do?
Jewel Tavington
Just as Jewel got done writing she heard a knock at the door "Come in." She then raised her head from the journal and who she saw surprised her.
"Hi," said Bordon.
Jewel sighed "What do you want? To insult me again?"
Bordon shook his head "No. It was wrong what I said to you before, Jewel. I did not mean to hurt you."
Jewel jumped off the bed "You didn't mean it? You know what? Just forget it. Just get out of here before I call my brother in here and he'll want to kill you and you know he will, so get the hell out of here........now."
"Jewel please. Just please let me explain and then if you wish I will leave."
Jewel crossed her arms on her chest "Very well then. You have two minutes. Then you will be on your way."
Bordon nodded "I will take that. Ok, this is what happened." Bordon sighed "Jewel, your brother came to me and practically threatened me if I so much as touched you again. I told those things to you.....to keep you away. I did not want to and as the words left my mouth I could feel my heart start to break. I'm so sorry, Jewel. I understand why you hate me because to tell the truth, I would hate me too. Can you ever forgive me?"
"Do you love me, Michael?"
Bordon looked down then back up.
"Do you?" asked Jewel again.
Bordon walked towards Jewel, put his hand on her cheek, and smiled "Yes. Yes, I love you. I love you more than anything on this earth."
Jewel smiled and reached up and kissed Bordon "I love you too."
"I am so sorry again, Jewel."
"It's over and done with, Michael. Would you like to stay here in my room with me tonight?"
Bordon smiled and kissed Jewel on lips "Yes, my love. I would."
Jewel and Michael layed next to each other and while Jewel fell asleep, she was unaware that Michael was watching her the entire time.
Michael kissed her forehead "I love you."
He then fell asleep next to the love of his life.
It had been almost a week since Jewel had spoken to Bordon. Although Bordon pretty much tried to avoid her too, not knowing what to say to her or how to act. Tavington saw this and thought it was all because of him as to why Bordon was staying clear from her, but he couldn't be more wrong. Tavington saw Bordon standing by a wooden fence by himself, so he decided to join him.
"You all right, Bordon?"
Bordon looked over at his commander "Yes sir, I'm fine. Just a bit tired is all. I didn't get much sleep for the past few days."
Tavington nodded "Yes, well, one cannot get much sleep during this particular war. I wanted to tell you that I appreciate that you obeyed my warning."
"Sir?" Bordon questioned.
"About staying away from my sister. It's for the best, Bordon."
Bordon sighed "Yes sir."
"But no need to worry. We'll find you a woman soon and if I am lucky so will I," Tavington said smiling. "Well, I will talk to you later, Bordon. I have some things to do."
Bordon nodded and watched Tavington walked off. He looked back into the field and saw Jewel with another soldier and it seemed as if she were laughing about what the soldier had said to her. He could feel a sense of jealousy rising up inside him and he could also felt hate for himself for what he had said to her. He wanted to yell out her name, but couldn't get the words out. Jewel then looked over to him and did nothing but glare at him. He figured that Jewel told the other soldier to leave with her since she grabbed his arm and they left.
"Oh dear god, how could I have been so cruel to her? I've made her hate me which is exactly what the Colonel wanted me to do," Bordon thought to himself. He turned on his heel and went inside to his room to lay down. There ended up dreaming, but it wasn't dream that made him happy. He could see Jewel and she was calling to him, but he was unable to reach her. Bordon then saw a rebel that was coming after Jewel and he saw the rebel kill Jewel in front of his eyes.
"Noooooo!!!!!" Bordon screamed as he rose from his sleep with sweat on his head. He looked around and realized the nightmare he just had. He had to try and talk to her tonight, he just had to.
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It was now time for dinner and Bordon seemed to be the first one at the table. Jewel saw Bordon and decided to sit herself between her brother and a Lieutenant that was new at the table for the night. Bordon could hardly keep his eyes off her, just wanting to pick her up in his arms and kiss her and apologize over and over to her for what he said.
"Are you enjoying your stay here, Miss Tavington?" asked Cornwallis.
"Yes, my lord. I am enjoying it very much."
"Will you be joining us for the ball tomorrow, Jewel?" asked Ban.
"Why yes Ban, I think I will come to the ball tomorrow."
Ban smiled "Wonderful. I shall look forward to you being there."
Tavington shot Ban a look, a look warning him not to touch his sister. He then looked over to Bordon noticing that he had not said a word at all during the dinner "Are you awake over there, Bordon?"
Bordon came out of his daze "Sir?"
"You seem to be awfully quiet."
Jewel looked over at Bordon and he looked right back at her.
"I'm fine, sir, but I'm afraid that I must retire for the evening, I feel somewhat ill and I think it would be best if I left. I'm sorry, my lord."
Instead of anyone saying anything, everyone was quiet while Bordon got up and left. Some of them knew that something was wrong and some did not, for none of them knew of Bordon ever leaving a dinner especially if there was a lady at the table. Jewel watched Bordon the closest feeling sick to her stomach as well. She hated the man, but at the same time she loved him.
"I'm feeling a bit tired, gentlemen, I think I shall retire and go to bed."
"Are you all right, Jewel?" asked Tavington.
"Yes, I uh......I'm just feeling a bit tired is all. I'll see you all at the ball tomorrow. It is tomorrow, right my lord?"
Cornwallis nodded "Yes, it is and we will look forward to seeing you there, Miss Tavington. I hope you feel better soon."
"Thank you, my lord. I'm sure I will."
Jewel then went upstairs to her room and rested on her bed. She got her journal and started writing on it:
Dear Journal,
Today, was a heartracking day today. I saw Michael and I did nothing but ignore him. I hate him so much, but at the same time I cannot help that I love him. I do not even know how well Michael and I would work together. Once he knows my secret, I am sure that him and my brother will hate me. I want them to know, but at the same time I do not. I'm so confused right now, I do not know what is right or wrong anymore. I have so many questions that have been unanswered over the years. Why was my father was a drunk and so mean to us all? Why did Michael say that he did not love me when I saw in his eyes that he does? When will this war end? Will my brother survive it? So many questions, so little answers. Perhaps someday I will find a way to make everything work out, but I keep getting this bad feeling that something is going to happen and soon. The feeling is dark and what I will see is dark. A dark heart, no feelings, just complete evil. I fear for my brother and Michael. Oh lord......what do I do?
Jewel Tavington
Just as Jewel got done writing she heard a knock at the door "Come in." She then raised her head from the journal and who she saw surprised her.
"Hi," said Bordon.
Jewel sighed "What do you want? To insult me again?"
Bordon shook his head "No. It was wrong what I said to you before, Jewel. I did not mean to hurt you."
Jewel jumped off the bed "You didn't mean it? You know what? Just forget it. Just get out of here before I call my brother in here and he'll want to kill you and you know he will, so get the hell out of here........now."
"Jewel please. Just please let me explain and then if you wish I will leave."
Jewel crossed her arms on her chest "Very well then. You have two minutes. Then you will be on your way."
Bordon nodded "I will take that. Ok, this is what happened." Bordon sighed "Jewel, your brother came to me and practically threatened me if I so much as touched you again. I told those things to you.....to keep you away. I did not want to and as the words left my mouth I could feel my heart start to break. I'm so sorry, Jewel. I understand why you hate me because to tell the truth, I would hate me too. Can you ever forgive me?"
"Do you love me, Michael?"
Bordon looked down then back up.
"Do you?" asked Jewel again.
Bordon walked towards Jewel, put his hand on her cheek, and smiled "Yes. Yes, I love you. I love you more than anything on this earth."
Jewel smiled and reached up and kissed Bordon "I love you too."
"I am so sorry again, Jewel."
"It's over and done with, Michael. Would you like to stay here in my room with me tonight?"
Bordon smiled and kissed Jewel on lips "Yes, my love. I would."
Jewel and Michael layed next to each other and while Jewel fell asleep, she was unaware that Michael was watching her the entire time.
Michael kissed her forehead "I love you."
He then fell asleep next to the love of his life.