Somewhere deep down Sam knew what he was doing was wrong in every single way. Deep down he understood that Ruby was a bad influence, a bad person to be around. Deep down he knew that Ruby would never satisfy Sam. He knew that Jess wouldn't want him to be like this.
In the end Sam couldn't muster that small part of him up enough to stop him from crowding Ruby's space, grab her forearms and press her back against the brick wall of their school.
"Come on Ruby, I can take it. It has been too long since I last had it," Sam said his voice low. Ruby's lips stretched out into a sadistic smile.
"Oh, has it?"
Sam made a noise that was something between a grunt and a moan.
"Come on Ruby, don't tease me. I'm not in the mood."
Alistair rolled his eyes.
"Ruby, just give the goody two-shoes his drugs. We don't have the luxury to play around like this," he said. Ruby sighed heavily and handed Sam a paper bag. He opened it up, peered in and then sighed in relief.
This shouldn't make you so happy. Those drugs won't make you happy like Jess did.
Sam gave Ruby a kiss on the cheek, which she turned into a make out session with one fluid motion.
"Sam?!" A voice asked in disbelief. A month ago Sam would have instantly recognized it. Right now, Sam couldn't care less who it was. He turned begrudgingly and saw Gabriel staring at him with wide eyes.
"Gabriel. Leave," Sam replied. Gabriel stepped closer.
"You are doing drugs now?" Gabriel asked in disbelief. He shook his head slowly. "Never did I ever think you would do this. Get mixed up with these people."
"I told you to leave," Sam muttered. Gabriel snatched Sam's drugs away, which made Sam's nose flare in anger. "Hey! What the hell Gabriel?"
"What the hell Gabriel?!" Gabriel snapped back. "What if you get caught with this shit?"
Sam eyes hardened.
"I won't get caught," he said firmly.
"Oh really? What if someone were to find out then? What if Dean found out?"
"Dean doesn't care about me anymore!" Sam yelled back.
"You know that isn't true," Gabriel replied. "You know that we all love you. We are all worried. Dean would literally kill you over this."
"Let him," Sam said, his voice low and cold. Gabriel stared at him.
"You have to stop doing this," Gabriel said, holding up the bag of drugs. Sam's eyes hardened.
"Make me."
Gabriel, make me please. You have to stop me.
"I'm taking these, and I'm leaving. Are you really going to tell me you just don't care anymore?"
"I do care," Sam said with a bite to his voice. "About the drugs."
I can't care anymore, I'm broken.
"Good bye Sam."
"Good riddance," Sam snorted.
Don't leave me here.
A flash of hurt went through Gabriel's eyes. He shoved the bag of drugs into his pocket. He didn't say a word as he walked away. Deep inside Sam felt bad, like he should stop Gabriel from leaving and apologize.
Instead he just stared.
"Now that the dramas left," Ruby muttered. Alastair looked at her.
"Lucifer's in town."
The cigarette in Ruby's hand fell to the ground.
"Holy shit, since when?" She asked. Sam's eyebrows furrowed.
"Lucifer?"
"Since a few days after that Novak kid arrived," Alastair replied. "He wants to meet Winchester over there."
Sam pointed at himself, just as Ruby pointed at him.
"Me?"
"Him?"
"Yeah, I don't know why either but you know the boss."
Ruby's eyes lowered a bit and she made a low noise, close to a growl.
"Did he say anything about me?" She asked. Alastair was not a nice person. Sam almost never saw emotion on his face, but he could have sworn he saw something akin to sympathy cross his face when Ruby asked that.
"No, I'm sure he'll ask about you later. He is distracted with something. I think one of his favorite toys ran from him."
The last part seemed more interesting to Ruby than the first part.
"Holy shit, and they aren't dead yet?"
Alistair shrugged.
"In due time I'm sure."
Alistair turned to Sam and a smile crept on his face.
"Get back to class Winchester, I'll catch up to you after school to meet the ring leader." He snorted. "And we'll deal with that Gabriel kid for you."
Leave him alone.
"Okay."
Unlike most people, Sam didn't let his grades drop just because he was hanging out with a new crowd. He may not be very happy about the things he used to be happy about now that Jess was gone, but that did not mean he didn't still like Calculus.
He still loved Calculus. He loved Calculus, and latin, and physics, and English, and all of the classes he used to love so much. They used to just be a happy past-time. Now they were simply a pick-me-up.
He still did his homework, and classwork. He acted like a level kid in class and he smiled while he did it. It was one of the few things that made him feel like Sam Winchester. At home with Dean and their dad, it was all a bit too much for him. In school, it was like nothing had ever changed. Sometimes he could even convince himself that Jess wasn't gone.
Sometimes.
"So is… Lucifer this guy's real name?" Sam asked Ruby after school was out. She snorted and nodded with a shrug.
"Yeah. He loves it. Frankly I think his parents must have hated him," Ruby replied.
"He likes it better that way," Alistair added. He smiled cruelly at Sam. He pushed a bag into Sam's pocket.
"Gabriel was dealt with."
Sam nodded. Alistair grinned.
"Follow me, you'll get to meet the boss."
Alistair lead him to an old building Sam had never even seen before. He stared in silent awe at the old bricks, jumping when he realized he was alone inside.
"Alistair?" He called out.
"Wrong," A low sinister voice replied. Sam jumped. Before him stood a man he had seen before. He wasn't sure where, but he was sure he had seen him before. "Different demon."
"Lucifer," Sam corrected himself. His eyes rose to Lucifer's and he swallowed hard. "You wanted to see me, I heard."
"A deal," Lucifer explained, a slow smirk crossed his lips. "I want to make a deal with you."
"A deal with the devil?" Sam asked skeptically. "Forgive me for saying so but that sounds like the exact opposite thing I should be doing right now."
"Smart," Lucifer leered. "Most people just agree."
Sam rolled his eyes.
"I'm not most people."
Lucifer nodded slowly.
"I can tell."
He grinned.
"Come here Sam Winchester."
Sam obeyed hesitantly stepping closer to Lucifer. Lucifer placed a hand on his arm.
"You'll be allowed to hang out with my group, buy their drugs and all of the above for as long as you care, and when you don't care to anymore; which you eventually will, you are allowed to leave."
"But?"
Lucifer reached into Sam's pocket, and pulled out his phone. He was silent for a few minutes, then he put the phone back inside Sam's pocket.
"When you get a text from me, you will no question, no hesitation send me your location," Lucifer explained. Sam frowned.
"That's it? Why?"
"There will be a time where I am going to have to collect all my souls Sammy. I won't do anything to hurt you or your brother. You won't even be affected," Lucifer replied. "Deal?"
Deep down Sam knew not to say yes.
"Deal."
He didn't listen.
Lucifer grinned and leaned in close. The next thing Sam knew he was kissing him. He didn't pull away but he didn't contribute to it. Lucifer pulled away and licked his lips.
"Delightful, wish I could replace my lost lamb with you."
Then he turned.
"See you when the time comes Sam Winchester."
Lucifer then slipped away into the darkness. Sam let out a breath he didn't know he was holding. He turned away and left the abandoned building to join Ruby and Alistair.
He was bombarded with questions from Ruby. She quieted down about it after a while.
The next day at school Sam heard that Gabriel got arrested for drug possession and spent the night in jail. When Sam saw him at school, looking like a sleepless wreck, Sam tried to not let the guilt it him away.
It did anyways.
Author's Note:
So I'm visiting my grandparents before a family reunion and my Uncle Daryl comes over and he's soaking wet while I'm typing this. So it's up on the screen and he hugs me and I'm protesting and stuff and he looks at my computer as he is pulling back and says: "Lucifer grinned and leaned in close."
I have never closed my laptop so quickly. And he was all innocent and confused as I begin to laugh nervously and he was like: "Can't I read it?" And I was like: "NOpe, No, it's not- just- It'll be confusing"
And that's how come my entire family thinks I'm writing porn with Lucifer (they're probably joking...)
Well. That's story time with Brie.