Hello to everyone reading this. I hope you all are still enjoying this journey. I've gotten a few requests for a chapter where Erin is sick, and Jay and Micah take care of her, and I am working on writing it special just for you guys! I struggled at first to come up with how I'd write it but now that I've got the ball rolling I think it should be done soon.

"Mommy someone's here!" Micah yelled from the living room where he had been watching Toy Story for the millionth time, and also playing with the toy police car Atwater had gotten him for his birthday.

"I'm coming." Erin yelled to both the mystery guest at the door, and to Micah.

She opened the door to see Jay standing there with his hands in his pockets. He had a sly grin on his lips, and if Erin was being honest with herself, she found it incredibly sexy.

"What are you doing here?"

Jay removed his hand from his pocket dangling Erin's red lace panties in front of her. She snatched them away from him and stuffed them in her jean pocket, before checking over to shoulder to make sure Micah hadn't seen.

"I left in such a hurry I forgot to grab the file I was reading, so I had to go back down there later, and I found these. We're lucky it was me that found 'em"

"No one would have known they were mine anyways."

He shrugged his shoulders. "Maybe. Maybe not."

"Is that it Jay? I'm busy. We don't have to talk about earlier. It was a mistake." She moved ready to close the door.

"Can I see Micah for a bit?"

She ran a hand through her hair considering it. "Fine. For a little bit." She opened the door wider and Jay walked inside. When Micah saw him she stood up and ran into his arms. Jay enveloped him in a tight hug.

"Daddy, are you back for good now?"

"No buddy. Just visiting."

Micah's lower lip pouted out in disappointment. "Hey don't be sad. You can't be sad when Toy Story is on." He carried the little boy to the couch and sat down with him to watch the movie.

"I'll be in Micah's room with Burgess setting up his new bed."

Jay looked to Micah with an excited expression. "You're getting a new bed?"

The child nodded enthusiastically. "Yeah a new big boy bed. All to myself."

Burgess cocked her head towards the living room, and Erin didn't need words to know that she was asking why the hell Jay was there.

Erin shook her head and rolled her eyes in response. "Exactly. He's the one that walked away. He didn't want me, and he didn't want Micah, so why does he show up like this?" She whispered being cautious so neither Jay nor Micah heard her. "It's not fair. If I don't let him see Micah anymore it'll break Micah's heart. If I keep letting him come around all the time it's only going to hurt Micah more down the line. Either way I'm the bad guy, and no matter what I can't win."

"That's frustrating." Kim agreed.

"I can't think about Jay right now. I have to figure out what I'm going to do. I need to find out if I really have a shot at making Micah staying with me a permanent thing. And if so, I need to decide if I can handle it on my own." She sighed and rubbed her eyes. "Can I see the instructions? Lets just get this done." She was ready to move on from talking about Jay and keeping Micah for the time being, because it was starting to upset her.

"Yeah here." Kim handed them over knowing not to pry anymore into the details of Erin and Jay's relationship.

A few minutes later there was a slight knock on the bedroom door. Both girls turned around.

"Need any help." Jay asked walking into the room.

Kim could feel the tension rise immediately. It was thick enough to cut with a knife. She wanted to make up an excuse to leave the room, but knew it would be too obvious.

Erin disregarded the fact that Burgess was even in the room and went straight to grilling Jay. "Why are you here Jay?"

"What do you mean? You know why. I was returning your underwear, and also to see Micah."

"No more bullshit Jay. Are you just here to mess with my head? If so, congratulations, it's working."

Burgess was squirming, pretending to be putting pieces of the bed together, although she desperately wanted to get out of the room.

"Why do I have to have an ulterior motive Erin? Cant I just want to see you guys?"

"No Jay, you can't. You left. Not the other way around. I don't understand why you would show up here unless you're trying to mess with my head, and I don't understand why you would sleep with me today either. I know it takes two, and I take responsibility for that, but we both know why I did it Jay." Her voice was cracking and she was doing her best to will away tears. They were the kind of tears that came from being so angry, hurt, and confused that you had no other way of coping. She stopped herself from letting them leave her eyes though because didn't want him to see her cry.

"Why didn't you stop me? Why would you let me sleep with you when you know you don't feel the same way I do?" By the end her voice was cracking so badly she struggled to get the words out. She took in a shaky breath trying to calm herself down.

Jay stared not knowing what to say. Most of what she had said he agreed with, he knew he shouldn't have slept with her today, and it wasn't fair of him to show up at her apartment, but he hadn't done anything to mess with her head. He did it because he was confused about what he wanted. He knew he was the one that walked away. He was afraid, and didn't believe he was ready to be a father, but that didn't mean he didn't still care about Micah. It also didn't mean that his feeling for Erin just up and evaporated.

"Maybe you should just leave." Burgess drew him from his thoughts. She didn't like seeing Erin like this, and if Jay couldn't give Erin a response, she saw no reason for him to be there.

"I think that's a good idea," Erin agreed.

Jay nodded sadly. "Okay. Yeah." He replied to Burgess, and then looked to Erin. "I am sorry."

He began to walk away before Erin called him back. "And Jay."

He turned around hopeful, hopeful for what? He had no idea.

"Maybe you should go out there and explain to the little boy that calls you daddy why you don't live here with us anymore. Because I can't keep trying to explain it to him, and if you're gonna keep coming around like this I shouldn't have to."

He nodded in agreement and went to the living room to have his chat with Micah. Erin could feel her heart breaking in her chest knowing the conversation, taking place in her living room was only going to hurt her little boy. She wanted nothing more than to shield him from it all, but it wasn't possible. They needed to be honest with him. Well, honest about the fact that Jay wasn't coming back to live with them. He obviously didn't need to know the reasons why.

When Jay left she went out into the living room and wrapped Micah up in her arms. Sitting in her lap he brought his little hand to her face, and whipped the tears from her cheeks. "Don't be sad because daddy's not here, mommy. I'm still here." He told her sweetly.

She smiled at how precious he was. "I know you are baby," She brushed his hair out of the way and kissed his forehead.

"Why don't you go on and use the potty, and brush your teeth for bed? You can sleep in my room tonight if you want since your bed isn't finished yet.."

Usually he would argue about getting ready for bed, but not tonight. Not when he saw how sad she was. "Okay mommy. I love you." He kissed her cheek.

Burgess had been standing back watching. When she saw Micah disappear into the bathroom she emerged. She placed a hand on Erin shoulder in a comforting way.

"I'm fine. I'm fine." Erin sniffled trying to convince herself just as much as she was trying to convince Kim.

"It's okay not to be. You love him Erin, and you're hurt. It's okay not to be fine."