Huzzah!
I have returned! There should be a lot more updates with these guys over the next three weeks. University has finished for Christmas and I've finished all my assignment so that leaves me with more time to write! Yay!
Nothing feels as good as lying in the sun, a cold ice tea in one hand a good book in the other knowing that there is no rush, nowhere you have to be. You can just relax and soak up the lovely sun rays not worrying about a thing.
Well except for the fact that you just up and left and didn't really tell anybody.
Or the fact that you have been gone for over a week and yet all you can still think about is your best friend.
And you have to start writing a novel soon.
Other that that you don't have a care in the world.
I sighed and sat up being careful not to move to quickly. Floating in the middle of a swimming pool on a flimsy little lilo with a book in my hand probably wasn't the best idea but hey, I was on holiday.
Unfortunately I had been so desperate to avoid a certain someone that when I had rung the parents they couldn't come too. But I didn't mind being alone, it gave me some space to think. This was the first time in a long time that I had that chance. I spent the days before I left with Edward and before that I had been travelling night and day on the book tour and it was nice just to sit around and do nothing.
I started the paddle myself to the edge of the pool with one hand whilst trying to keep my balance and not drown myself, my book and the drink. I made my way inside the apartment and immediately reached for the after sun, whilst I enjoyed my little paradise I knew that I was most likely going to return home looking like a lobster.
That was when I returned, something I had yet to decide. I had purposefully turned my phone off and left it hidden in my handbag. I kept telling myself that if I left it off I would not know if he had contacted me but also then I would not have the temptation to contact him. Of course that meant I would have no other contact with the outside world, but I almost liked it. After all the hassle of the book tour and everyone knowing where I was every minute of the day it was nice to be unavailable for a while.
Then again something bad might have happened, I contemplated grabbing my bag just to check, I mean things might have gotten worse with little Lily, after she still had a slight temperature when I left…
Ahh! I was doing it again.
I needed to write, if anything would take my mind away from Edward and well away from everything it would be writing. I would have to focus on the characters and them alone.
I grabbed my laptop from the table and strolled outside to the balcony dragging the parasol over to where I was sat.
Unfortunately a shrill ringing started to sound from my laptop. Well frick. My laptop had automatically signed me into skype and when I looked at the screen I saw Edward's name flash across.
I sighed and decided to grab the bull by the horns, and besides I may have had a lot of feelings to sort out but he was still my best friend and I had missed him.
"Hello?" I really hoped he hadn't heard my voice break at the end.
"Well I guess we can call off the search party." Well I knew I could here the anger in his voice and I cringed when though my camera was off.
"I'm sorry?"
"Where the hell have you been Bella, it's been a week! Nothing, absolutely nothing, you haven't answered my calls or messages do you know how worried I've been!" I sighed heavily before pushing my sunglasses onto my head and turning the camera on. Edward did the same and I noticed he was sat in his office and that it was still dark.
"Wait Edward why are you up in the first place? Isn't it like six in the morning over there?" He sighed heavily and rubbed his hands over his face.
"It is but I've been up all night reading these medical journals. Dad has cut down my shifts at the hospital so that I can have more time to look after Lily and study." I studied him closer and noticed the dark circles under his eyes.
It suddenly hit me how much of a coward I had been, running from Edward and my feelings hadn't helped anyone and Edward couldn't run away or take time off to go figure out his feelings if he wanted to. Suddenly I felt like a spoilt brat.
"I'm so sorry Edward." His head shot up and he looked at me in shock.
"Bella, why are you crying?" I quickly rubbed my eyes trying to wipe the faster flowing tears away.
"I suddenly realised what I've done, I'm sorry I ran off. It's just I had some feelings to sort out, but I swear I'll be on the next plane home. And I'll look after Lily for you if you need to study or sleep or even if you just need a break. Because I know I've been a terrible friend this past week abandoning you like that because I couldn't cope. But you haven't been able to do that and now I feel terrible!" I let out a small whimper before wiping my eyes again.
He looked confused "Bella, I don't blame you for getting away for a bit, the past few weeks have been stressful for you. And then having to come back to this must have made things worse. I'm just upset that you didn't tell anybody, especially me that you were going! And then you didn't return any of my calls and I have been worried sick thinking up all sorts!" I quickly let out a dignified sniffle before smiling slightly.
"Sorry again about that. I think I just had a little panic. Where is Lily anyway?"
"She's still sleeping, at least I hope she is. This might be the third time this week where I get some proper sleep." I felt the guilt twist a little deeper.
"Once again I swear I will look after Lily when I get back and you can have a night off."
"Bella, honestly I have a never ending list of people offering to take her off my hands for a night, hell when Emmett and Rose found out they offered to come home early, it's actually another reason I'm up and Lily isn't. I was skyping them late last night so they could see her so I'm not surprised she's still out of it. But whilst I love the fact that everyone is offering to come see here, its nice spending all this time with her and getting to know her. It's like I know all her little quirks now. Like did you know she refuses to sleep without that damn rabbit anymore, or when I'm reading to her she has started to pat the pages in an attempt to get me to read faster!" I watched the smile on his face grow as he spoke about her and the way he suddenly became more animated and knew I was an idiot for missing this but that it was no ones fault but my own.
I knew it was time to go home. I told Edward to go to bed whilst I booked a plane ticket back for tomorrow morning.
It was time to stop being a coward and face my feelings head on, I wasn't going to miss out on anymore.
There we have it folks! The next piece in this puzzle!
See you next time! (which will be soon I promise!)