Your Guardian Angel

I've been sitting here for a good twenty minutes now, just waiting. Waiting for her to walk through that door and hopefully refraining from running out again. If she did run again though, I'd go after her…no doubt. I'd run after her, spin her around, and kiss her like there was no tomorrow; just to prove to her how much I love her. I'd go down to the bottom of the god damn Atlantic ocean to get that stupid diamond the old lady dropped down there if she asked me to. Anything she asked me to do, I'd do it. No hesitation. I made that mistake once, which led to another mistake (going out with Aiden again), which effectively led me to the biggest mistake (not talking to Spencer for a month). I've said it so many times and I doubt that I'll ever stop saying it…I'm an idiot. Capital I.D.I.O.T. End of story.

I was starting to lose hope of her coming home anytime soon and I was ready to just call it quits. That was until I heard her coming up the stairs, making her way to the door, turning the knob, walking in…and a look of complete shock spread across her face.

"Ashley?"

"Hey Spence…"

"What the hell are you doing here? How did you even get in?"

"Chelsea gave me a key."

"I'll kill her."

"Spence just calm—"

"No Ashley! I will not calm down! Oh and by the way you're not allowed to call me Spence anymore. You gave up that privilege on prom night."

She was seething to say the very least. I could see it in her eyes that she was pretty much ready to murder, but I needed to talk to her. I needed her to understand. I needed her.

"Spencer. Listen. Before you freak out anymore just please listen to what I have to say."

"Ashley I can't do this. I just…I can't. It hurts too much."

"Please Spencer…please don't do this."

"Just leave Ashley."

I could feel the tears coming again. Damn it, I can't break down…not now. She needs to see. I stood up from the bed and with as much resolve I had, I spoke.

"I can't do that."

She looked me in the eye; I could see all the pain there. She was trying just as hard as I was not to cry.

"Get. Out."

"I can't Spence. Because if I do, I know I'll be making the second biggest mistake of my life. I refuse to just walk out on you again. I would never forgive myself. My first mistake was ever letting you go in the first place. I'm not losing you again Spencer Carlin. You're going to have to drag me down the stairs and throw me out of the house to make me leave."

She clenched her jaw a few times, debating what to do I guess. In the end she decided to do just what I'd said. She grabbed me by the elbow, pulled me down the stairs, opened the front door and pushed me out; slamming the door in my face as if to make her point more than clear.

I had a feeling it would come down to this, so I went to my car. Opening the trunk I rifled through the contents, I saw the spare tire and smirked.

"Never leaving home without that bad boy again."

I found what I was looking for and closed the trunk. I rushed around the side of the house, situating myself outside her open bedroom window and pulled it out; my red cherry wood acoustic guitar. It was so smooth and it shone in the moonlight with a brilliant gleam. Having already tuned it prior to my arrival I began to play.

"When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven."

I stood there and waited, for what seemed like an eternity, for something, anything to happen. Her bedroom light remained on, her window still open, and yet…nothing. She hadn't even come to the window while I played. I began toying with the idea of either A. kicking down the door, charging up the stairs, kicking down her bedroom door and doing things to her that she'd never even dreamed of, or B. going all Spiderman and scaling my ass up the wall and through her window, just to see her face. I realized that option b would probably end up doing more harm to me than I'd really wanted and option a wouldn't exactly work because granted I was strong for such a little girl, but even I couldn't kick down a door, much less two. So I decided to leave. There really wasn't anything else I could do. I'd done everything possible.

I turned back towards my guitar case and was shocked at what I found…

"Spencer?"

"Did you mean it?"

She had tears running down her face, staining her cheeks. But even then she looked so amazingly beautiful. Looking her straight in the eye, I told her.

"Every word."

She didn't say anything. I didn't say anything. We couldn't, our mouths were too preoccupied with each other. As soon as I'd said 'every word' she merely nodded and lunged at me, pulling me in and planting what could be described as the most intense, hot, burning, passionate, love filled kiss I'd ever experienced in my life. She wrapped her arms around my neck willing me closer, and I granted it. I wrapped my arms around her waist, wanting as much contact as possible. We continued until that whole issue of breathing caused us to stop.

We pulled apart, foreheads resting on one another and panting like we'd just run a marathon…which, I guess if you think about it…we had. Only, it was an emotional marathon. One I never plan to take again.

"So I guess this means you forgive me?"

"You could say that."

She had a sly grin on her face.

"God I missed you so much Spence. You have no idea."

"Oh I think I do…I love you Ash."

"I love you too. Always and forever."

"Forever."

We walked back into the house, hands intertwined and eyes never breaking contact. And all was right with the world.

The End