This is really hard for me to do, and I don't want any shit for it. Please finish reading before you make any assumptions.
This has been in the back of my mind for a little while now, and I think that it's for the best. While it might seem like I'm just throwing it away, or giving up, I swear I'm not. This has been something I've thought long and hard about, which is why I hope you won't hate me when I say that I think it's time I put a cap on FLttC.
Obviously it's been a while since I last updated, and it's not for lack of having a chapter, or for lack of trying. I've always said that I was determined to finish FLttC because I've "gotten this far." By "gotten this far," I don't mean that I've come a long way, because let's face it, I haven't. What I mean by that is that I've become so invested in it, that I couldn't stand to let it go to waste. I've spent hours planning and having fun with ideas and plot twists. I've developed characters and come up with backstories and endings and even children for some of my favorite ships. I love the pinterest boards that I've made and all the long convos I've had with submitters. I truly love this story.
Which is why I have to let it go.
It's become a stresser. I'm beginning college applications now, as well as working full time over the summer. During the school year I thought I could find time, but clearly, by the end, I couldn't. Every time I was able to write, and felt the inspiration to write, I did. But I didn't feel like I was giving it everything I could.
In the beginning, this story was like my child. I wanted to make it perfect and give it everything I had. I had so many high expectations, and the thought of not fulfilling them killed me. I don't want to put this story on HIATUS. It's too good for that. I want to let it go peacefully, and not force it to sit there, just waiting for me to be ready to pick it back up again. It's like putting a dog down, except, not at all like that. I just want it to be clean.
I'm sorry if some of you regret ever submitting to my story or reading it, but I don't regret making it. I don't regret the time that I spent making individual storylines for your characters, and finding futures for them. I don't regret daydreaming about the plotlines and character development. It was fun for me, and it was beautiful, and I'm so sorry that I couldn't share it with you. But I don't regret it. I'll never regret it.
Who knows, maybe someday I'll reboot FLttC, but not right now. I want to have the time to dedicate to it, and a plan to back it up.
This is not me just abandoning my story and moving on to something bigger and brighter. This is not me giving up. This is me letting go. I can't keep fantasizing about it. It needs to be on the paper, and right now, I just can't do that.
Thank you to all my readers and submitters and amazing friends that I've made along the way. I hope that you don't hate me. Nothing makes me jump up while sitting in school, or grin madly in the car more than reading reviews and talking to ya'll over pm/pinterest. It's been a good time.
I won't completely delete this story, because I can't quite bring myself to do that, but we're just gonna tuck it in for now. I'm literally crying writing this - no lie. But I can't lead ya'll on or myself anymore.
Thank you , and goodbye.