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Chapter 13

Beck Pov.

So, yeah it's Tuesday and you all can guess how I feeling. Life sucks. I miss Tori but I'm not gonna be the one to apologize. Why should I?

"Beck, why do you just zone out when you're talking to me", Jade asked me. We were currently standing at my locker. I used to love Jade, yeah used to. Never as much as Tori, but maybe she could get me over this heart break.

"Probably because I don't want to talk to you", I stared at her harshly. "Why are you here again? I know I didn't invite you," I said.

"Why are you being mean to me," she asked, innocently.

"Karma's a bitch," I said simply. I shut my locker and made my way to homeroom. She was on my heels. She just doesn't get enough. My God.

"Beck, I know you want me," she insisted. Following me like a little kid.

"Jade fuck off. I'll see you later geez," I walked into homeroom and sat in my seat.

HATELOVE

After talking to the gang before lunch, I realized how miserable Tori is without me. Well now she knows how I feel. I just want to punch something, someone. Jade…she's a girl, I think.

The popular people invited me to sit with them for lunch but I turned them down. I couldn't bare sitting anywhere near Tori so, here I am just sitting at an empty lunch table eating my turkey sandwich when all of a sudden this bitch comes running over to me in her all black clothing, yelling my name; and plastered on her face was a crocked smile. The devil.

Jade and I used to have a decent relationship. That is until she started treating everyone like crap, including me. I found someone better, but I stuck with her. I didn't love her, but I kissed her. I hated her attitude, but I defended her. I knew that she had her reasons for her ways and I tried to help her. You cant always save everyone. You can't help people that don't want to be helped. Yes I care for Jade, I don't want to see her hurt, but I don't love her. She knows I feel that way, yet she constantly tries to get rid of Tori. Tori is my love. Jade wants to hurt me, but I wouldn't feel right if I was to hurt her. I can say as many bad words to her and she won't care. She is desperate.

"Yes Jade," I sighed defeated. She was never going to give up

"Beck do you mind if I sit by you", she asked hovering over me.

"Yeah actu-,"

"Great," she says and sits down.

"Yeah Jade just sit down and let's share this turkey sandwich together, why not," I said sarcastically. Her presence wasn't going to lighten up my mood. She was part of the reason why Tori and me aren't going to be together.

"Sure," she complies.

There was dead silence as she held her hand out for Beck's famous turkey sandwich.

"I am not sharing," I simply say. She looks at me and feigns hurt. We all know she could care less about me; she just wants to see Tori jealous.

"Beck why must you make things so difficult. Tori's gone, it's over and I", she pauses and points to herself like I don't know what the word "I" refers to. "I am sitting here in front of you…willing," I stare at her.

"Willing for what Jade?"

"You know."

"No actually I don't. Please enlighten me."

"For commitment. I'm ready for us to get back together", she forced a smile which wasn't a very pretty one.

"Jade," I sigh.

"Yes," she looks deeply into my eyes.

"I'm not ready for a relationship. Tori and I just broke up. You need to understand this," I took out another turkey sandwich out from my brown plastic bag.

"Why does everything revolve around Tori? Tori. Tori. TORI," Jade stood up angrily and slapped my sandwich out my hand.

"Ah, you see Tori wouldn't do that", I said calmly, pointing my finger at her. I watched her huff and puff in range. Ha, Jade the big bad wolf. And tori and I the piglets. The other piglet died. Unfortunately Jade got a hold of him. I did tell him to stay inside….but nooo no one ever listens to Beck.

"I will never be Tori Beck," she said furiously.

"Exactly", I stood up and took a few steps away from her, before turning around and saying, "you owe me a turkey sandwich. Extra mayo," I laughed and walked away. Was that mean of me?...nahhh.

HATELOVE

Remembering Jade and my argument I decided that no one could ever be Tori. I wasn't going to find anyone better and if I wanted to get rid of this pain deep down in my stomach, then I was going to have to win Tori back, no matter how long it takes.

I don't care-okay I do care about her lying to me about her and Derek but I can forgive. I miss her, I need her. I've also messed things up. I told her it wasn't meant to be, I broke up with her out of anger. And I was going to kiss Jade, out of anguish and affliction. I just needed someone to be there for me. I needed someone to love me and pay attention to me. I know that Jade isn't that person but she was the only person that seemed to care at that moment.

Making my way to my locker I see Andre standing there, waiting for someone.

"Hey dude, what's up," I greet Andre.

"Hey. I need a favor. My car's in the shop; do you think you could give me a ride home," he asked.

"Yeah man…,"

"But?"

"Come with me to Tori's after school. I just- I want her back and if she doesn't accept. I'm going to need some company. We could hang out at my place. I'll drop u off at home after," I say.

"That's fine with me," he looks at me with sympathetic eyes. I dodge his glare. I feel like, if he stares at me any longer with his piercing eyes he might be able to read me. Look deep into my soul and read my story. He would show pity on me, I don't need pity. Most of this was my fault, so I need to be a man and make things right.

"Alright. Well let's go," I said before walking with Andre out the school building.

HATELOVE

I pulled my white convertible into Tori's driveway. I took in my surroundings and surprisingly there were no other cars in the driveway. The lights in Tori's bedroom were dimmed. The front door was wide open, that was unusual. I sighed and turned to Andre, "this is it."

"Go get her," he smiled at me. His smile gave me some encouragement. I thanked him for being here with me and he gestured for me to go to Tori.

"Right," I say. I opened the car door and ran over to her front door. I was going to knock but the door was open; so instead I let myself in.

"Tori," I called out into the silence. "Your door was open so I let myself in." "Tori," I asked again.

She immerged out from around the corner, a fake smile plastered on her face. I could tell it was fake because I know Tori. She had a red ruffled blouse on and some black skinnies. On her feet were some black ankle wrap sandals. Her little makeup made her face look natural. One thing that I noticed the most was that her lipstick was smeared. That made me cringe.

"Hey Beck," she put on a cheerful attitude but I knew deep down inside she was hurting, just like I am.

"Tor, I need you back," I stated. "We need each other. And the other day when I said that it was over and that it wasn't meant to be; I was lying baby. I don't know how I got through this long without you," I said as I took her hands and held them tightly.

"Beck, we can't," she whispered softly. Why was she whispering? Was someone here? She slowly took her warm hands away from my cold ones. She took a step back and I took a step forward. She had her back to the wall and mine to the door. She looked up at me with her big brown eyes. The strange thing was that, I couldn't read her.

"Beck," she said softly. Her voice was tempting, I wanted her.

"I'm not letting you go," I grabbed her hands again. She looked at me and smiled that beautiful, non-fake smile. Finally I could read her. Her eyes begged me to kiss her.

I leaned in close smelling her wild berry perfume. "You smell beautiful babe." She blushed and I kissed her temple. She moaned softly as I sucked on her neck. I marked her, she was mine.

"Ohh Beck," she moaned as I pulled the strap down on her red blouse and sucked her tenderly. She broke one of her hands free from my grip to cover her mouth to keep for moaning any louder.

"Tori I want you," I kissed her shoulder. "I need you," I pulled her blouse strap down more and kissed the top of her boob. I smiled when she made a muffled sound when she moaned against her hand.

I sucked on her boob inching closer to her nipple, when I stopped she look at me confused. I said, "I'm sorry I told you to grow some boobs," I kissed her lips. She giggled and said, "I'm sorry I called u a dick and told you to use protection…and I'm sorry for attacking you," her cheeks flushed red. "Don't worry. It turned me on. It was kinky," I chuckled when she called me a perv. I kissed her lips roughly and tugged on her lips. My hands made their way to her butt and her hands rubbed my sides.

"Tori, did you find your purse. We're going to be late for the movie," a male's voice said from upstairs.

She broke the kiss. "Shit, Ryder's still here. I forgot about him."

I smirked; I made her forget about him. "So that's who smeared your lipstick."

"He caught me off guard," she said pushing me away, and moving around to find her purse.

"Really? So does he make you happy? Does he satisfy you? Does he kiss you better than I do? Does he love you," I teased her.

"Oh please Beck," she glared at me and I smirked. "Help me find my purse so we can leave," she pleaded.

"You're not going to leave with him are you? Stay with me; I wanna cuddle with you."

"I know babes, but I promised him we'd catch up. Go see a movie and have dinner," she still looked around for her purse.

I spotted her red Louis Vuitton (don't ask me how I know what that is) underneath the couch. I walked over to the couch bent down and grabbed it and flung it at her. "You should want to spend time with me."

"Tori," Ryder yelled from upstairs obviously annoyed.

"I'm coming! I'm just freshening up." She looked at me with remorseful eyes. "You have to go," she walked over to me and kissed my cheek.

Andre beeped the horn, and I smirked. "I'll see you later," I said.

"I have to make a quick phone call," Ryder said coming down the stairs. He didn't even look my way. He walked outside.

"Err," Tori was more than irritated. It was obvious she didn't want to go. She went to the bathroom, and I took this as an opportunity to eves drop on Ryder's conversation. What? There is something suspicious about him. He never paid Tori any attention before. Once in music class, but then that was it. And now he wants to "catch up."

I made my way to where he was. I stood behind a fat tree, listening to his conversation, and I was shocked with what I heard.

"Yeah, were going to be leaving soon," Ryder said over the phone. "I can't hear you Derek. I'll put you on speaker. Don't worry no one's around."

"Alright. Well remember put your charm on. Take her to the movies and to dinner. Pay for all her things," Derek said to Ryder.

Ryder sighed. "What time do you want me to bring her to you?"

"When dinner's done. Spike her drink when she's not looking. It will make her sleepy; she will never remember how she got there," Derek said.

"Ok. Dude what are you going to do to her?"

"What do you think," he said sarcastically.

"I don't know. You never really discussed that with me."

"…I'm going to have my way with her, and then choke her to death. We don't want her to get away and tell, now do we? I mean, the first time was really close."

"Do you really have to kill her?...why do you want her so bad?"

"Let's just say I want something that I can't have. Yes! I have to kill her, do you want in on the deal or not?"

"Yes, yes, ok. I'll bring her to you. Make sure you have my money," Ryder hung up his phone and called out to Tori. As he walked by me I crouched down behind the tree. Once he was in the house, I ran over to my car and quickly got in.

"What happened? It took you long enough," Andre jumped up from his sleep at the sound of the car door slamming.

"Tori's in trouble. I'm going to need your help."

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