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Felix's POV:
"No! It's not like that! Sorry, Jen, but you're really not my type." I said.
It killed me to say that. It was just… I didn't want everyone to tease her about that. And I most likely wasn't helping, but maybe…
"It's fine. I'll be right back." She said.
Fuck. I'd done it. I deserved to be whipped for making her feel worse. Was I making her feel worse? Maybe she was just going to the bathroom.
I doubt it.
But none of us stopped her. Marina and Ryan were still on Operation: Clean Sheets, but they were having way more fun than a normal person would. Giggling and stuff. Lana was giving me a look like "NOW you've done it."
"You can slap me now." I said to Lana. I thought that maybe she'll just roll her eyes and walk away.
She kicked me in the chest and slammed a book against my head.
"I didn't want her to get the wrong idea!" I said, standing up, rubbing my head.
"You could have at LEAST led her on." She screeched at me.
"I'm so sick and tired of doing that to her! That wouldn't help her at all!"
"Yo… the…sh… okay, maybe." She said, brushing her black hair out of her face. She huffed loudly and stomped off.
I sighed and plopped into a nearby chair, trying to get my thoughts straight. Way too much has happened in less than a week. I just wanted Jennifer back. The happy, crazy, amazing Jennifer. I just wanted all of us to go to a movie and laugh. But that's like asking the blind to see. It just doesn't happen. I'm not lucky like tha-
"FELIX!" A voice screamed out.
Jennifer.
Marina's POV:
"No! Just put it in the washer machine. Shove it in!" I told Cry because he kept putting the gross thing over his head and tackling me to the ground.
"That didn't sound wrong at all-" He said, with a grin.
"CRY!" I said, shoving him, but I couldn't help but laugh.
"Okay!" He said, putting his arms up then placing the sheet in the washer.
"So, about everything that's happened. What was it like finding her?" He asked me, those freakishly blue eyes honing in on my face.
"It was like the peak of a nightmare. I couldn't believe that she'd done that." I whispered, feeling my eyes well up with tears.
"It smelled like hell, it looked like hell, she was so pale Cry!" I heard my voice break many times and my voice got louder and louder.
I turned to him and said
"Do you have any idea what it's like?" I whispered.
"Yes. Empty. Cold. Alone." He whispered and took me in his arms. I started sobbing, feeling stupid and I knew he was crying, too.
"FELIX!" Jennifer's voice screamed out.
That damn feeling. That horrible feeling. It was back again. Cry jumped away from me and ran out of the laundry room. We both sprinted to where the sound had came from.
That bathroom.
Felix's POV:
I just stood there, hands clasped over my mouth.
The girl who I've known for years is out cold.
And there's so much blood.
I could feel myself crying and I knew I was screaming and letting out choking sobs.
But everything was numb.
The world was just a black and white blur of static.
Was this what Marina had felt when she had found Jennifer?
I could hear the others footsteps, running towards me.
I dropped to my knees and held Jennifer to my chest.
Why? Why was she doing this to herself?
I held her close to me, her blood staining me. I brushed her hair away from her face.
Through my tears, I managed to choke out a scream for help.
"Somebody call a fucking ambulance!"
I cried and held on to her.
"Stay with us Jen, don't you dare leave us! You can't leave, you can't!"
I had my face buried in her hair and I just kept crying. I didn't think I was able to stop.
"You keep your heart beating okay? Don't you dare fucking die on us!"
I felt someone try to pry me off.
"No! Let me go!"
Cry knelt down next to me.
"Pewds, it's just the paramedic. She's going to take Jennifer to the hospital."
I held onto Jen for a few more seconds, but I finally let go.
"If you wish, sir, you can come with us in the ambulance."
The young girl spoke kindly, but her smile was worried.
"Yes, please" I sobbed.
~A while later~
I sat on the guest's bed in Jennifer's house, remembering when the paramedics shocked her with the paddles, over and over again, trying to get her heart to restart.
They had sent us home and were planning on moving Jen into the ICU.
If he lived, that is…
Jennifer, you idiot.
You better not leave me here.
I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks again.
Jen, why do you do this to yourself?
I stood up and walked into the bathroom.
Why did she do it?
I stared at my reflection in the mirror for a little while.
I opened up the cupboard and brought out the tiny nail scissors.
Maybe I could understand why Jennifer did this to herself?
I rolled up the sleeves of my shirt and brought the sharp edge to it, dragging the blade along lightly.
I hissed at the pain and tossed the scissors onto the counter.
How the hell did Jennifer do this over and over? It hurts so much!
A soft gasp came from the open door and I glanced up.
Ryan was staring at me in shock.
"Pewds…"
He reached into the cupboard and pulled out the roll of bandages and wrapped it around my arm.
I stayed silent for a moment, watching him doctor my arm.
And then I cried.
I just kept crying, letting out hiccups as I tried to explain.
"I- Just- wanted- to understand- why…"
I cried and Cry hugged me gently.
"I know Pewds, I know. But I don't think any of us will ever understand."
He pulled back and smiled sadly.
"Just try to be strong, okay? Jennifer will be fine, she's tough. And I won't tell anyone, don't worry."
He walked out the room and I went back to sit down on the bed, tears falling onto the clean white bandage.
ANNND that's it. Yup. I'm tired, but I hope everyone likes it. I know you're reading this. I can see you. By the way, you're looking gorgeous today. I'm not kidding. Keep with that look. It gives you a glow. Now, I leave you with this musical inspiration behind this chapter:
She's a china doll with a teenage daughter,
I seen it all before,
But i never thought I'd warn ya',
When we're struggling to think straight,
There's another change in us,
And we both knew this time,Tell me all before you remember where we started,
I'm all caught up in love shaking hands with fickle hearted,
I remember you were puffy eyed,
In the morning,save yourself for,
Another guy,Ahha-ahha-ahhaAnd I get used to it,Ahha-ahha-ahhaI get used to it,She's a china doll with a teenage daughter,
I seen it all before,
But i thought you knew better,
And you'll never live the same way,
There's another change in her,
And we both knew this time,Ahha-ahha-ahhaAnd I get used to it
Dog Is Dead – Teenage Daughter