After the lengthy confession Tracy and Belinda were closer than ever. It also was making it harder and harder to accept the fact that she was leaving in a few days. After dinner they were just watching a Real Housewives of Orange County marathon.
Dave had come back from his walk and finished the steaks and the three ate out on the patio as a family. Tracy was falling more and more in love with Dave as her father and she hated Jessie more and more.
"Well I hate to be a downer but it's getting late and you might need to call Roman to come get you," said Dave.
"I'll just sleep in my old room tonight," said Tracy.
Dave came and sat on the other side of the young woman and put his arm around her. "Listen when I left earlier I went to the Shield compound to talk to Roman. I found out all I needed to know and I do want to let you know that you have nothing to worry about with him. He will take really good care of you and you will never have to worry about your dad again," he told her.
"I just want to spend as much time as possible with you guys because I have no idea when I will get to see you again after you guys move. That includes staying nights here just so I can spend as much time as I can with you two," said Tracy taking a sip of her wine.
"I know you feel that way but you need to cut Roman some slack also. Trust him he is one of the best guys you could ever be with just over look what he does for a living. Otherwise he is great," said Dave.
"So I guess you two want to be alone and I should call home for a ride?" asked Tracy.
Dave and Belinda both hugged her as she relaxed in their arms. She loved her parents and would miss them like crazy when they left. Also she was still scared about being with Roman. Another thing was she was thinking about forgoing having her own business and just doing something simple.
She thought about getting a job as bank teller or changing her major to Early Education and become an Elementary School teacher. Something that, if she was on her own she afford to have her own place and own a house or a condo to live in.
The more her life seemed to spiral out of control the more stable and simple job she wanted. Hell working as a receptionist at a doctor's office sounded really good to her now. She was giving up the owning a bar dream and the dream of being a country singer. She couldn't move back to Nashville because Roman would never let her and second she wanted something more stable than a bar.
She felt herself changing and had no idea on what to do about it. Yes some of it might have been the alcohol, but then again who knows.
"I am calling Roman. Now don't look at me like that. There is something about us ferals unless we are away working we need to at the very least sleep beside the ones that we latched every single night. It's just instinct. I know you are not ready to do anything, but he just wants to hold you and be close to you," said Dave.
"Dave I am scared. It would be one thing if you weren't leaving but you guys are. Dammit!" Tracy ranted.
She was about to say more when the doorbell rang and Belinda got the door and it was Roman at the door. Walking in he saw his nearly drunk mate on the couch.
"You ready to go," he asked gently as he kneeled down in front of her putting his hands on her thighs.
Tracy was tired so she just nodded. Roman lifted her in his strong arms and carried her out to the car. Once again Renee was with him and she was driving. Smiling at the two she put the car in drive and drove them back home.
"Hey you okay Tracy?" asked Renee as they walked inside the compound.
"I just am going to miss my mom and Dave after they leave. I feel my life is taking off on me before I am even ready for it to," said Tracy.
"Hey we are all here for you," said Renee hugging her before she went upstairs to the master bedroom.
"Lets go to sleep sweetheart," said Roman rubbing her back. Half drunk and half asleep Tracy said nothing and just followed Roman upstairs. Changing into what she normally wears to bed she climbed into the large bed and just crashed.
Roman looked at her with a tender gaze. She was feeling lost at the moment and he promised himself that he would do whatever he could to make her love him and be comfortable around he and the rest of the Shield.
He needed to get some sleep. There was another run to Louisiana and back the next day and he needed his rest. Stripping down to his boxers and nothing else he crawled into bed and just held her. One thing that people mistook about ferals was that they needed sex all the time with the ones that they latched on to. Not true at all. Yes they were more sexual than the regular male but just being able to hold her every night and just having that connection was all that they needed.
He knew there would be nights because of work that he wouldn't be able to hold her throughout the night, but anytime he could he would. That was why he insisted that she come home from her parents that night. Sighing he fell asleep breathing in her scent.
Tracy groaned as she felt the sunlight come through the blinds right into her eyes. Rolling over she threw the covers over her head. She was feeling slightly hung over and wanted to sleep some more. Then she realized that time was ticking and she only had four days left with her parents.
Getting up she took a quick shower and put on a pair of lowrise white denim shorts and a read halter. Throwing on some red flip flops she grabbed her purse and walked out of the room and downstairs. She saw Zahra, Renee, and Naomi in the kitchen making breakfast.
"Good morning. The guys are on a run. Come join us for breakfast," said Zahra.
"Actually I'm going over to mom and Dave's and spending the entire day with them. I guess you all have heard that they have to move for Dave's job. Oh I quit school. I do not want to own a business. I want something simple out of life since living the life of a baller's girl isn't stable," said Tracy grabbing the keys to the Escalade since Roman once again took her car and walked out of the room.
"You know it doesn't matter what job you have. It does get crazy here," said Naomi.
"She is scared. It's too much at one time for her and lets not forget she is still young. Only eighteen," said Renee.
A/N: Sorry I have such a block. I hope you enjoy!