BRUH, So I guess the Lapis was blue diamond is a blow, but lets pretend this story is on a whole different universe. XP

Steven placed in another room, he sniffled on the floor. Tears still in his eyes, creating a small puddle on the floor. As the ship flew, he got farther and farther away from home.

"Why did I do this...I didn't think this through, as always." Steven said to himself. He looked at his gem. "What would you have done, if you were still here?"

'Steven, don't compare yourself to me. You did what you had to do Steven, and If I were in your shoes, it would have been completely different.'

"No kidding, you would have stopped the Cluster, and stopped Yellow Diamond."

'No, Steven. I would have been helpless. You made many friends that would be willing to protect you.'

"So? Pearl, Garnet and Amethyst would have fought for you."

'But, would Connie, Peridot and Lapis have fought for me? If it weren't for you, we never could have known about the Cluster.'

"I can't, I just can't help but feel stupid."

'Steven. Please, don't.'

"I bet you think, I am stupid too."

'Steven, n-no. I don't feel that way.'

"You said, that when I love myself, it's you loving me, being me. If I hate myself, is that also you, hating me?"

'No, Steven. That's not, no. I mean- I... I don't feel that way about you Steven. There is not one regret about me giving up my form to make you.'

"I wonder, how am I able to talk to you now. I can't see you, but it's like you are here, how is this possible."

'I don't really understand it, but ever since Yellow Diamond, you know, um, I have been able to contact you. I don't really understand.'

"It's okay..."

'Steven, I need to tell you something.'

"Alright, go ahead."

'Don't worry about being alone forever, I am sure they will be back to save you.'

"What? No!"

'It's okay, I know you don't want them to, but-'

"No, I don't want that! I don't want anyone to die for me!"

'Steven, don't.'

"I am not letting them risk their lives."

'Steven!'

"I am doing this, and, and you can't stop me."

'Steven, you are losing yourself to the poison.'

"Poison?"

'The syringe.'

"Whatever, I have to stop them. No poison is going to stop me."

'It's not a poison that will kill you Steven. It made you a monster, and I know that some of it is left inside you.'

"I DON'T CARE! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" Steven punched the wall, and he could no longer hear his Mom's voice. He ran out of the room, and began searching the ship for the control room. "Where is it? I can't remember where that room is! Grr, this stupid ship is to big." Steven wasn't looking where he was going and ran into a wall. "Ow!" He rubbed his head, he looked up and saw a fairly big door. "Here it is..." He knocked on the door. He knocked once more. "Y-yellow Diamond?"

"What is it that you need? I thought we agreed you would stay in that room." The door opened fully, and Yellow Diamond sat on her chair, directing the ship.

"Um, I have a feeling my friends are coming, and will try to save me."

"I know that."

"So, are you going to attack them?"

"If I need to, yes, they are trying to interfere with a compromise, I won't let that happen."

"Please! Can't you just stop them, back on earth?"

"I suppose, it is less of a hassle."

"How will you do it?"

"An electromagnetic pulse."

"A what?" Steven asked.

"It will get rid of all electricity."

"Isn't that dangerous?"

"Minor causalities."

"But- I don't want anyone getting hurt at all." Yellow Diamond didn't respond to him at all. He knew those were one of the two options. His friends and family, or the world. If the Crystal Gems come to save him, they will be wiped out and there will be no one protecting earth. "I guess, a few causalities is okay."

"I will be sending the pulse in a few moments, I will be sending along a package too."

"A-alright."

"You made the right decision, Steven."

"Y-yeah, a few sacrifices is okay. Hehe, a few is okay." He sat on the floor and smiled. "It's okay, it's okay, it's okay..." He began crying. "It's okay. If this was a war, It shouldn't matter. Earth needs heros, I made the right choice."

'Steven...' He didn't recognize that voice, it sounded so, distorted.

"W-who's there? Mom?" He whispered to himself.

'No, I am you.'

"I don't sound like that. Do I?"

'No, no. I am merely your other half.'

"What?"

'I am your hatred, your anger. I am your human half.'

"No, there is no way, that I would be like that."

'Your mom's gem is the one that is purifying your natural human emotions.'

"No, humans are not like this."

'Well I guess, your Mom's ORIGINAL personality has been sent into me.'

"I don't want to hear you anymore... Wait, how am I even able to hear you?"

'Because, that syringe unleashed me as well as your mom.'

"That explains a lot."

'Well, if you want me to leave, too bad.'

"What?"

'Just letting you know, the more bad decisions you make the more you make me stronger.'

"You aren't me, are you."

'Heh, you caught me. I am your bloodlust, and I will only get stronger. Until next time, I will just be laying dormant within, alright?'

"Ugh, Just go."

'You hear that?'

"What?"

'You completely forgot that Yellow Diamond is Right there, about to send out that pulse. Are you okay with that?'

"I don't know, I guess."

'Heh. Toodles.' The voice stopped. Steven could no longer feel his presence. He snapped out of his daze, and saw Yellow Diamond preparing the electromagnetic pulse. He watched her, as she prepared it. He just watched, and did nothing as she pushed the button and launched it. He knew the consequences, but still did nothing.

Deep within Steven, his bloodlust became stronger, even when he didn't realize it.

Okay, I know some of this is out of Steven's character. But I will explain.

When Yellow Diamond's poison was injected in Steven it awakened his blood lust, and from there it would grow stronger. He was able to fight it when he was with his family, because they were there to calm him down, and give him love. But when he left, negative emotions came and he had no one there to help him. But of course his mom was there, but his hatred and his negative emotions grew strong, from his depression. And the more it grows the less he has his Mom there to guide him.

Anyways, if it is too confusing, I am sorry. XP