hey guys long time no see.

I've been...how you say... Working. I got a new job and its snaching all my time away :(

but I'm back!

So lets get this show on the road.

Also I'm going to make this one thirteen since I uploaded 12 twice

Al's POV:

After I reluctantly turned Ed down I walked out of the room. Attempting to get my mind back on track I walked down the hallway to Riza's office. She seemed the most composed after all that happened. She was sitting at her desk shuffling thru papers. I knocked on her already opend door.

"Riza? You got a min?"

"Yes. Close the door."

I shut the door to her office and sat down in the leather seat in front of her desk. I looked at her worriedly and spouted:

"Are you okay Riza? He was your colonel. I mean we all have cried but you don't seem-"

She slammed down the papers she was sorting and startled me. She got up from her seat and locked the door. She faced it for a while then spoke.

"Alphonse...Do you believe in love? Not romantic but the kind of admiration for someone that you would just...lay your life on the line for them at any opportune moment?"

"..yes"

She turned to me with one tear falling down her cheek. She was smiling though.

"That's how I felt about Roy. I knew about him and Ed so I did not allow myself to even entertain the thought of being romantically involved with him. He was so beautiful to me Al...just perfect in every way. I once had a vision of our future together that I know could never come true. I never let him know this of course but I told him, every single day, 'I will always be by your side'."

"Oh Riza..."

I gave her the most apologetic look I could muster but she just smiled more.

"That's why I didn't cry Al. Because it wouldn't be what he wanted. He would have wanted me to remain his soldier till the day he died. So that's what I'll do."

I started to smile at her when she finished her sentence. She was right. Roy was a crazy guy but he was also a soldier, a lover, and leader to so many people under his command. Even in death he is still alive thru them.

I got up and walked out of her office. Riza always had words that could push me along even when things with Ed got...well like this.

The way he, kissed me, held me...the way he had me, I never felt so alive.

Ed's POV:

Angry and frustrated I got up from the floor where Al had left me half hard and very confused. I shouldn't have jumped on him like that. I wasn't right. I just wanted Al. Hot, hard and right fucking now. I know I have a job to to and I know that its probably not the best time but damn it! I need him!

I heard a knock on the door as I was going thru my horny rant. I opened it and it was Hughes. He was jut looking at me and asked to come in. So I did.

"Ed can I tell you something...and don't be upset."

I glanced skeptically at him.

"Why?"

"I may have accidentaly...called Al Roy and not explain why...leaving him angry and confused because then I rushed him out of my office..."

"THE FUCK HUGHES?!"

Al is already a fragile snowflake but oh! ontop of that you want to mistake him for my dead boyrfriend and your dead bestfriend, well congraja-fucking-lations ass hole. Well fucking done.

"Hughes! What the hell?! I mean I know that I'm going thru enough as it is but Al doesn't need to be thinking about shit like that, I think he wants to take on this assignment by himself to. He's been acting weird ever since he found out that...never mind."

Hughes came from hiding behind his hands and asked me"

"What? Tell me."

"No its nothing, don't need to know."

He leaned forward and pestered me more

"Tell me! Tell me! Tell me!"

"Idatedmustang"

"Wha?"

"I had been...romantically involved with colonel Mustang."

"Okay...but this affects Al why?"

Was he really gonna make me say it. UUgh!

"It affects him...because, uhm..."

"SPIT IT OUT ELRIC!"

"Because...I was involved with Al to..."

It was silent. Hughes' face was just in shock more than anything. I began to explain.

"Hughes this thing with Al has been going on since we were small. I didn't mean for it to get this bad but I really do love Al and-"

He cut me a look of disgust. He opened his mouth.

"Ed...You are...A selfish son of a bitch! Excuse my french but how could you!. I knew you had done something to Al but I had no idea it ran this fucking deep! If you knew how Al felt...what I've seen Al go thru is just sickening! You know he's been cutting right!? He's so depressed and fucked up because you his own brother have just jerked around his heart for...well from what your telling me a fucking long time! I know I usually never swear because I have ladies in the house at home but damn it Edward you have really sunk to a new low."

Hughes' words stung. They really cut me deep.

"I-You're right. I have been a selfish brat. And Al dealt with me anyway. God I'm fucking stupid..."

Hughes stood up and smacked me over the head (naruto style). I yelled in pain.

"Yeah...you are."

He walked out of our room soon after.

Al's POV:

I passed Hughes in the hall, he looked pissed but still waved to me. I opened the door to my room and saw Ed sitting in a chair looking at he floor intensely.

"Ed? You okay right? I mean I'm sorry for dashing off like that, it wasn't you I swear."

He stood up and hugged me. I felt like this was about to go in the direction it was headed for earlier, but this time I wanted to do nothing to stop it.

"...I'm so sorry Al."

"Ed..."

His lips were on mine soon after. I was going to be swept away. I could feel it in my bones.

Okay I know a really sucky way to end this chapter but fear not!

I can promise you by this time next week you will have a lemon then after that we get some exciteing news about the killer!

So bear with me lovelies :)

Ciao for now