Kissing in the Rain
Chapter 13
Ellie's POV:
It wasn't a lie. I truly don't know what I want. I don't know what I want! No matter how many times I've tried to figure out what I want but in the end I come up with nothing. She didn't say anything. She just walked off. She didn't say a word. I'm shocked she's talked to me at all. I picked up my books and walked to class. I scribbled on my notebook as a sub tried to take attendance. Amy walked into class late. She straightened her skirt and put her hair over a fresh hickey. I can't believe I made out with her. I can't even blame the vodka. I knew very well what I was doing. The bell rang and I walked out of class.
Usually I would get a ride home from Marco, but I felt like walking today. The wind picked up and the clouds covered the sun. I looked down at the sidewalk as I walked. It started to drizzle. I saw the spots land on the sidewalk in slow motion. Each raindrop took over a different section, until the sidewalk was completely soaked. I walked to the ravine. It was empty at this time of day. I flopped down to the grass and let the rain pour on me. Chills ran down my spine as the thunder cracked above me and the lightning flashed through the sky. I screamed into the emptiness. Every emotion inside of me, every emotion that I had kept hidden deep inside me, just came out. It was unstoppable. I sobbed and kept screaming. The thunder seemed to speak with me and cracked and hissed louder and untamed. Storms are free. Rain, snow, hail, it just pours down whenever it feels like it. It doesn't give a damn. I want to be free. My storm is caged though. Will I ever be free? I closed my eyes and tried to become one with the storm. Each shrill cry that came from me was the thunder. The lightning symbolized my love, flashing through the shy for all to see. I don't know how long I laid there. The storm slowly ceased. I was breathing heavy and still sobbing. I took a deep breath and counted to ten. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
I didn't feel like going back to Ashley's place so I walked to Alex's. I knocked on her apartment door. She opened the door. The good thing about Alex is, she doesn't ask questions. She opened the door wider and I followed her inside. Her mom was passed out on the couch. I knew that feeling. Alex grabbed some blankets out of a closet. I followed her to her room and she put the blankets on the floor.
"Sorry we don't have a guest room." She said with a smirk and threw me some extra clothes.
I laughed and went to change in her bathroom.
"Hey El-" Alex said.
"You might want to wipe the mascara off that's running down your face. People might get the wrong idea and think that you'd been crying or something." She said and then turned off the light and went to sleep.
Heh, Alex, she has a way of letting you know she cares without smothering you. I changed and walked over to the blankets on the floor. I yawned and closed my eyes. Man, I love walking in the rain, because than, no one can tell your crying.
Author's Note: It might be awhile until I update again. I'm drawing a blank and I don't want to write something sloppy. I'm working on another fic "Drifting Away" check it out if you wish. I'll try an update soon. Much love all