upon a glimpse

by theherbflower

I'm woven in a fantasy, I can't believe the things I see. The path that I have chosen now has led me to a wall And with each passing day I feel a little more like something dear was lost. JPLE RLNT Marauder era. SBOC

13. When everything is made to be broken

Authors Note: Cheers everyone! I do hope you like this lovely chapter, I did kind of.

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rated T for a reason... la...^^

Disclaimer: I disclaim any ownership of and to the Harry Potter world. Its all J.K's mess. Not mine^^

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Upon a Glimpse.

Chapter Thirteen: When everything is made to be broken...

It was February 15th, the day after Valentines day and I was finally released from the Hospital wing. There were a few catches though, I couldn't eat any food from the great hall due to the fact that it could be poisoned and I had to eat directly from the kitchens, Dumbledore's orders. Although on a higher note, it was a happy Saturday and all I wanted to do was listen to Queen, get my spirits up, because I feel as though today just might need it... hmmn. Anywho, I was skipping happily up to Gryffindor Tower, my long blond hair swishing behind me as I went. The late afternoon sun was shining through the snow clouds, bathing me in gold. I must say today has been quite strange, this morning when I woke up I found both Frank and Sirius sitting in chairs around my bed sleeping. It was a few minutes later that Madame Pomphrey came to check on me and kicked them out. I then had a nice breakfast containing an apple, a piece of toast and some strawberry jam. Besides that, I was free! No more stuff hospital beds! No more Madame Pomphrey driving me nuts with crazy ass potions! And best of all.... I was warm. Oh so warm and toasty and I was loving it soooo freaking bloody much woot hoot!

I had finally reached the fat lady who was looking rather bored and sullen.

"Hello my dear lady, whats wrong?"

She smiled down at me.

"I am afraid that something is rather troubling Sir. Linus the Limp down on the third floor, he hasn't been up to see me in quite some time now..."

"Well that must not be to nice." I sighed. "I do hope he gets better."

"As do I my dear. Password?"

"Sugarplums!"

"Yes indeed." she said before slinging open and revealing the Gryffindor common room.

I skipped over to James and Remus who were both entranced in a game of wizard chess.

"Knight to E5." Remus said triumphantly.

"Morning Guys." I chirped happily kissing each of them on the cheek. "Where are the other two?" I asked plopping down next to Remus.

"Sleeping, well Padfoot is, was gone most of the night. Probably had some bird he needed to attend to."

I rolled my eyes.

"Should I take offense to that?"

James looked up at me funnily.

"What do you mean?"

"Frank and Sirius were both next to my bed when I woke up this morning."

"Oh." Remus nodded. "Are you going to move or not James?"

"Aha Moony. Queen to E6. Oh and Moony, check mate."

"Damn." Remus sighed. "So I see that Madame Pomphrey released you..."

"Yup! I am no longer poisoned with foghoren, and I'm oh so warm and toasty for once." I grinned pulling out the box of left over truffles James had brought me yesterday. I popped a raspberry one into my mouth and sighed oh so happily. "So how was your date with Sarah last night?"

Remus went brick red.

"It was ok..."

"Ok meaning?"

"Well we snogged, and had a nice dinner. Talked about stuff, the usual works. But it was good, and the snogging.... really good." he grinned still blushing. "We're going out again next weekend."

"Well thats good." I grinned at him. "I'm happy for you."

"Yeah, I'm pretty excited about it too. I only worry about the whole furry problem that no doubt when she finds out will run for the hills." he sighed. "Everyone does in the end."

"Not true!" I huffed. "That is the farthest thing from true that anything can ever get Remus Lupin!" I made him look at me. "Not everyone is prejudice, yes a good sixty percent of the wizarding world is but that is most certainly not all of them. And you have a good dozen friends that aren't like that so suck the despair up Remmy, we all love you and not one of us is going to leave you."

"Ok, sheesh! I get it, your all super furry problem activist and stuff."

"Yes! So don't be harsh on yourself around me boy! Because I'll slap it out of you." I said grinning at him. "So isn't it a wonderful day? No more nasty rain and sleet! Only happy fluffy snow."

James smiled and sat back comfortably.

"Yes, I say we all go out for a snow ball fight when Sirius and Frank wake up, and of course when Pete gets back from getting his daily tail."

"Are you sure he's out getting tail?"

"Well where else would he be?" James asked reaching over and grabbing a chocolate. "I mean really, thats all he brags about getting anyways, gets a bit annoying really." he sighed. "We could check the map." he said pulling out said map and opening it up. "I solemnly swear that I am up to no good."

The map appeared and a I scanned said map for the rat bastard.

"Here he is." Remus pointed to the upper right hand corner of the map. "Thats strange, he's on the third floor corridor with...."

"Snape, Rosier and Mcluber."

I pulled the map over to me and found where he was looking at.

The third floor corridor...

The room of requirement which would mean that I was right, he's getting the cursed weaponry.

"I need Frank and Sirius, and I need them now." I said before I stood up and stormed up the boys staircase.

I felt each stair fly beneath my feet as I tore up the staircase. This was not good, I read about what those weapons can do, and getting one of them used against you would not be a good thing. But how would he know? He wouldn't know if Voldemort didn't know and if.... Voldemort placed the diadem there, that means he had to have seen them. Shit! I should have gotten them sooner, I knew they were there and yet I didn't get them and hide them some place safer. If anyone died they blood was on my hands and I don't think I can live with that which leads me only to one other possible conclusion.

When I finally pushed they're door open I found them just as James said I would, sleeping. I went to Sirius's bed first, I threw back the curtains and shook him awake.

"Sirius wake the hell up!" I shook him again. "You and Frank need to get up now!"

"What?" he asked sitting up groggily. "Whats wrong? Why aren't you in the Hospital wing?" he demanded trying and failing to stand up.

"Its Wormtail, he's going to try something. I know it, I can feel it." I told him moving over to Franks bed. I ripped open the curtains to find an empty bed. "Where is Frank?"

"He wanted to go and plant or something." He said walking over to me. "What do you mean the rats going to try something. How do you know?"

"On the third floor corridor is a room called the come and go room or the room of requirement. In the room of requirement there was a whole slew of cursed weaponry that only two people knew about, me and Voldemort. If Voldemort sent the rat and his faithful death eaters to get them then that is a bad thing. A very very bad thing Sirius, they could and probably will kill someone."

"So what do we do?"

"We get to Frank, and we get to him now..."

ooOooOOooOoo

The sun was beginning to set as we reached the grounds, there was snow everywhere and we headed strait for the green houses where Frank was, we had the map and so far the death eaters were still in the third floor corridor. Sirius looked freezing, shivering up a storm as he was only wearing a pair of sweats and a thin short sleeved shirt. I pushed on, I had to let Frank know, he had to be protected.

"Sirius I'm going to go in wolf form ok?"

"Alright." he nodded.

I transformed quickly and ran as fast as my four legs would let me. I heard the snow crunching beneath my paws, melting away from the heat that my paws left. I heard Sirius call out behind me, but that didn't matter, Sirius would be ok, that much I was sure of. I reached Green house five and pulled open the door. Frank was planting Hippeastrums in a large wooden troff. He looked so happy there, tending his plants, tending his flowers. He looked up at me with a smile which quickly faded.

"Lyla, move!" he exclaimed at me.

I turned around quickly to find Peter Pettigrew standing about four yards off with Sirius only Peter had a knife up against Sirius's throat.

"Well well, lets see the brave Lyla save the day now." the bastard cackled. "Would you like to watch me slit his throat."

My gut clenched into knots, I should have turned back when Sirius called out to me. How could I have been so stupid, only thinking of Frank. Merlin how selfish was I?

"Let him go Pettigrew. Its me you want, its me who you've been after so let him go."

Peter just smiled ruefully at me.

"Why? Why should I? With him dead no one knows. With him dead I can do what is needed of me." he cackled on, his squeaky laugh falling into a deep evil laugh. "The Marauders minus Padfoot and his Clover, oh how tragic and sad..."

"Let him go Pettigrew." I glared at the bastard. I turned my gaze to Sirius, we made eye contact, silently I told him to transform quickly. "This isn't his fight, its mine and yours."

"No." he said simply. "Now tell me, do you know what it is I have pressed up against his oh so delicate neck?"

I lowered my gaze to the blade, it was white and looked faintly of bone.

With a sickening crunch I realized what exactly that was, it was the Werewolf bone knife I'd read about all those months ago...

"Let him go Peter." I repeated. "Please, he's your friend. How could you want him dead?"

"He is no longer my friend, that much he said yesterday. I only care about power, you should know that by now Lyla. After all, you are from the future are you not?"

I closed my eyes and felt tears begin to prickle them. This was not happening, it would only over my dead decomposing corpse.

"Peter, please let him go. What will killing him bring? His birth is recorded." I started to fish. "If you kill him you go to prison, if you kill me nothing will happen. I'm not supposed to be born for another forty years." I gulped. "Let him go."

Peter just kept my gaze, he was reflecting on what I'd just told him.

"Give me your wand Black."

Sirius was glaring up a storm, I know what he's thinking, he's thinking that there are things worth dying for and I'm pretty sure that he thinks this is one of them. Only, I would not have him dead. That wont happen. Sirius did as he was told and handed Pettigrew his wand. Peter pushed him forward towards me and I stepped in front of him.

"Dont do this Clover." he told me seriously. "Prongs and Moony are bound to come looking for us."

I pointed my wand at the stupid rat. I knew that I couldn't kill him, there was no way I'd be able to kill him, regardless...

"Its over Pettigrew, so you have a stupid knife... you have no more leverage over me."

"Lyla, think about this rationally." Frank said coming over and standing besides me. "That may not be all that he possesses." he indicated to the knife.

"Lorcan is right Winchester or excuse me, Longbottom is right Weasley. Now tell me if I'm correct in this theory. If I kill Alice, he will never exist."

"Thats not happening rat." Frank growled threateningly. "The only person who is going to die tonight is you."

"No." Pettigrew said stepping closer. "I am not going to die tonight, in fact now I do realize that one against two, technically three wont do. So I guess this is my only shot."

In a flash Pettigrew was transformed into a rat. He dodged Frank and ran past Sirius. He scampered out of the green house and tore off into the setting sun on his way back to the castle. I took off after him, wand drawn. I was shooting stunners everywhere trying to get him. He transformed back and gave a toothily smile that leaked evil from it. I seen him grab the cursed dagger and hurl it strait towards me. A second later I was roughly shoved out of the way to the ground hitting my head on the sharp end of a rock. My vision blurred by I sat up quickly before someone fell on me. It was Frank, and he had the knife stuck right in his abdomen.

Pettigrew ran off after that, I didn't follow him, I was in too much shock over the fact that Frank had a dagger sticking out of his stomach.

"Frank?"

I stared down into his eyes in horror, they already seemed half there half gone. I felt tears pull at my eyes again and I knew with a sickening knot that he was dying. And that there was nothing that I could do to save him. I pulled him closer to me, as if time and my love would heal him.

"Oh my god." Sirius said scrambling over to me. "I'm going to go and get Madame Pomphrey. What was he hit with?"

I choked a sob back.

"Werewolf blade. Go and get her." I told him quickly.

He took off running without a later thought.

"Frank." I tried to say again. "Just hold on ok. Sirius is going to go and get help."

His eyes fluttered between open and shut. He opened his mouth and moved to speak.

"Lyla, finish what you've started." he said pain evident in his voice. He closed his eyes again before opening them up again with determination. "You have to fix this, because only you can."

"Frank don't talk like that. Your going to make it. Don't quit on me now."

"Lyla, I'm dying. Your going to be just fine. Get Pettigrew, get Voldemort."

"But... I.. please don't talk like this Frank. You'll be there with me to take them down." I coughed and felt the tears I'd been holding back break they're bonds. "I cant do this with out you. Your everything to me."

"Don't hold too much stock in me Lyla. I was never the friend that you deserved."

"But you were more than that." I cried rubbing his arms. "Frank, please please hold on. I cant go on without you."

"I love you Lyla. Your the best friend anyone could have ever asked for. I'm just so thankful that it was me you gave your friendship to."

"Frank no. your not dying, you cant. Please..." I pulled him closer. "Don't leave me. You cant leave me to do this on my own. Frank I..."

"Your not alone Lyla. You have Sirius in more ways than I think you realize."

"Frank..."

"Just remember that I'll always be with you. And don't forget that."

"Please don't go... please?"

His body began to shudder from the poison. He closed his eyes tightly as if trying to deal with pain. He opened his eyes again and met mine.

"Don't forget Lyla, I'll always be with you."

He closed his eyes again.

This time he didn't open them.

"Frank. Please come back! Come back to me. Frank I love you. Don't go please..."

I pulled his body closer to me and let my sobs overtake me. I cried for him. Yet another thing lost. Was this the price I'd have to pay? Is this what it would cost to fix the past? Was it punishment for trying to make a better life for people who didn't deserve to die but yet died anyways? It was my fault wasn't it? It was my fault for messing with time and getting it all fucked up, it was my fault for the stupid damn blade and now it was my fault that I'd lost Frank..

"Lyla...?"

I looked up through my tears to find Sirius and Dumbledore standing over me. I just looked back down at Frank and hung my head. I didn't want to feel. Feeling was just too much for me.

"He's..." I started, "He's gone."

Dumbledore sighed.

"I think it best for you to go to the Hospital Wing. You look like you've taken a bad hit to the head." He gestured to where I hit the rock.

I nodded my head but didn't move.

Dumbledore levitated Franks body with the flick of his wand.

I stood slowly. My body felt like it was moving separate from my brain. Almost as if I was floating but the hallow pit in my stomach was keeping me grounded upon the earth. I stumbled a bit trying to step up onto the road, it was an instant later that Sirius was right behind me helping me up. He didn't say anything, just helped me get back to the school. I smelled the strong scent of pine from the forest while Sirius pulled me gently towards the school. I kept my head hung staring deeply into the earth as if it would solve my problems, my sorrows that I pushed into the back of my mind...

ooOO000OoO000Oooo

I lifted my eyelids and found myself staring into the cool nights sky.

"Frank?" I asked my voice wavering. I heard a twig snap and I turned around to find him standing there smiling good naturedly at me.

"Hey Lyla."

He walked forward to me slowly as if he was taking time to smell the nights air.

"Am I dreaming?"

"Maybe." he grinned.

"Are you really...?" I stopped and swallowed. "Dead..."

"Yes."

"So then I'm not dreaming."

He grinned, his brown hair swishing slightly in the breeze.

"Did I say that?"

"Well no..."

"Your in between. I've come to give you some information."

"How?"

"Well lets just say that death moves faster than mortal life, its already been days since my death to me, though to you it has only been a few hours."

"That must be horrible

He sighed but still kept the grin on his face.

"No, its actually rather peaceful."

"I'm sorry Frank, it should have been me instead of you..."

"Don't say that Lyla. I'm glad that it was me instead of you, don't ever say that Lyla, my death means little to what yours would have meant."

"But Frank I love you, how am I supposed to go on with out you?"

He sighed but smiled.

"I wish that I would have found out sooner, or rather, that you'd have told me at all. It kind of sucked finding out that you love me the night before I died, I wish things could have been different."

"Frank, I have always loved you. You just never took the time to notice..."

"I wish that I would have."

I sighed and looked around me. We were standing out on the grounds where Peter...

"This is the price isn't it?"

He chuckled.

"No, its the reward."

I looked skeptically at him. Right, loosing him was a reward.

"Should you finish the task you've set out on, this would be the ending." he nodded towards a few feet away from him.

"This has already happened Frank."

"Watch."

I seen myself only a few hours earlier. I was crying and holding onto Frank.

"I think that its best for you to go to the hospital wing. It looks like you've taken a bad hit to the head..."

I watched him levitate Frank and myself try and fail to stand and walk.

Sirius came right up behind me and helped me walk, steering me towards the castle.

"I don't underst..."

He pointed back.

This time we were in the hospital wing. I was lying asleep in the bed while Sirius paced the length of my bed and back. Remus walked in and sat down in an empty chair.

"Its been three days. She still hasn't woken up yet?"

Sirius growled and rubbed his forehead.

"No."

"Mate, go and get some sleep. I'll stay here on post ok? And get a bloody shower, you reek like Snivillus one week after last shower."

Sirius let out a small bark of laughter.

"Mate, your right. I do."

I turned to Frank who was gazing out the hospital window thoughtfully.

"I don't understand..."

He turned to me and cocked his head.

"Then perhaps we should proceed."

In a flash of dark we were standing in front of a rather haughty manor and its gates. The wind was blowing rather roughly around us. I seen myself and Sirius standing in front of the gates looking nervous.

"What..?"

Frank just shook his head and pointed to where Sirius and I stood.

"Are you ready?" Sirius asked looking worried.

"I am if you are." I watched myself drop a hand into a robe pocket and pull out a flask.

"Remember, we only have so much time..."

"I know Sirius. Just get to the diary. I'll hold off Malfoy."

"Are you sure that your ready?"

"Yeah." I watched me sigh. "Remember the cup is with your cousin Bellatrix. Get the snake at all costs and win this thing."

"Don't talk like your going to die Lyla. We'll make it though this, and we'll finish taking him down together."

I watched as I rolled my eyes and cocked my head in an attempt to smile.

"Just in case..."

"Mnnhmmn..." he narrowed his eyes. "Remember to act responsively just like we practiced ok." he rested his hands on my shoulder reassuringly.

"I know. But what if.."

"He wants more than a snog?"

"I guess I'll just have to wing it. We need the damn horcrux. I'll stop at nothing to get it."

"You ready then?"

I watched as I uncorked the flask and downed the contents. My hair grew longer, if possibly whiter and sleek. My features changed from they're curvy ones to more narrowed prominent ones.

"Shall we?"

"Don't smile like that, he'll know its not her in an instant."

I watched a Narcissa Black sneer.

"Much better."

I looked back at Frank.

"Ok, what is this supposed to mean?"

"Pay attention to what you don't look for."

"What in the hell is that supposed to mean?"

Look. He nodded behind me.

We were in a dimly lit room. I seen Sirius pace back and forth next to an unconscious me. The door banged open and in walked Remus who was carrying some potion of some sort.

"Remus.. you've got it right?"

Remus nodded and handed over a goblet filled with blue liquid.

"Brush it over her burns and they'll disappear. Other than that all we can do is wait for her to wake up."

I turned back to Frank.

"What the hell is going on here."

He just shook his head and nodded back over my shoulder.

The scene had again changed. We were in a meadow that was decorated for a wedding. I watched Sirius and James standing nervously by the alter, James in the lead. I watched as Alice walked down the isle with a smile, wearing a yellow colored dress. I followed her wearing a matching dress. I looked up at James and Sirius, James was looking extremely nervous while Sirius was grinning. I watched him wink at me before the music changed and Lily accompanied by Remus walked down the isle. Lily was in an older style muggle wedding gown while Remus was in a tux. She was blushing a lovely shade that nearly matched her hair. She was beaming radiantly, holding a bouquet of white roses in her hands.

"I still fail to see why..." I broke off looking at the scene.

Sirius was gazing over at me with this look on his face, a look that I sometimes seen my father give my mother.

I turned to Frank who was smiling lightly.

"Caught on finally. Jeeze Lyla, your blind."

"Oh..."

He nodded back over my shoulder.

"The scene has changed."

We were back in a dim candle lit room. I seen myself sitting watching someone sleep.

The room, although dark, was yellow. There were pictures lining the walls and stuffed toys haphazardly tossed in a corner. The someone sleeping turned around and revealed itself in its sleep. It was a young boy with brown hair, grey eyes and dimples.

"Is that...?"

I heard a door open behind us, I turned to see Sirius standing there looking sheepish.

"Am I too late?"

I watched myself sigh.

"Yes. He's already asleep. How long is the Ministry going to keep this up? And why cant they just find him already..?"

"I dunno. Is that why your in here? Watching over him to make sure nothing happens to him?"

I watched myself roll my eyes.

"Of course. I put up anti animagus shields just in case."

"Uhhh! What about me? You know how he likes his Padfoot." Sirius said waggling his eye brows.

"I put your dna in the shield. Don't worry you can come and wake him up in the morning like usual"

"So how about some sleep then yeah?"

"Yeah..."

I turned to Frank.

"So..."

"Yes."

The scene again changed.

I watched myself write something on a piece of parchment.

"Mum! Mum! Uncle Remus and Auntie Nymphadora are here." came the shouts of a black haired blue eyed boy who was carrying a toy broomstick.

"Regulus, what did I tell you about flying?"

"But mum... Uncle Remus and James bought it for me. Harry can ride his broom, why cant I?"

"Enough Regulus. Wait until your father comes home."

The boy shifted under gaze.

"Yes mum."

Remus and a rather pretty pink haired Woman walked into my line of vision with a small long blond haired little girl who looked exactly like my mother.

"Mummy! Uncle Rem and Auntie Nymm are here." she grinned hugging a stuffed rabbit to her chest.

I watched myself look up at them and smile.

"Hey. Long time no see. How was the honeymoon?"

The pink haired woman blushed darkly.

"It was good."

"Mum!" whined the boy, Regulus. "When is dad going to get home...?" reminding me a great deal of Sirius.

"I am home." came a warm voice from the doorway.

"Daddy! Daddy!." the girl exclaimed happily running and jumping on Sirius.

"Hey princess. How was the day?"

"It was awesome. And Uncle Rem and Auntie Nymm bought me a bunny in France!"

"A real rabbit?"

"No silly, a stuffed one." She pulled out her toy.

"Well thats wonderful Princess." he looked up at the boy. "What about you kiddo?"

"I got a broomstick! Mum said I had to wait for you to get home to fly it!"

"Good. Good. Why don't you two go out back and wait for me. I wont be but a few minutes."

"Ok Daddy!" the girl jumped down and ran up to the pink haired woman Nymphadora and Remus. "Bye Auntie Nymm. Uncle Rem."

"Bye Rhea. We'll see you soon ok?" Remus smiled down at the girl who then dragged her brother off to the back yard.

I turned to Frank.

"Are you kidding me? I have kids?"

He rolled his eyes.

"Its not such a bad thing is it?"

"Whatever." I said looking back at the scene.

"Remus! Nymm. How was France?"

Remus blushed and grinned.

"It was great mate. We went to the Paris underground and all that fun stuff. It was pretty cool."

"You know thats not what I was asking..."

I watched myself slap Sirius on the shoulder.

"Stop being a git Sirius."

"But I'm always a git." he chuckled.

"Whatever." I watched myself roll my eyes.

"So guess what I found at the office today? A picture." he produced an old battered picture from his pocket. "Remember, it was the year after Frank at Lily's birthday/ Halloween party."

In the picture Sirius was dressed as Dracula whilst I was in an angel costume. He was mock sucking my blood.

"I found It behind the picture of the kids."

"I remember Sirius."

I turned to Frank.

He was watching the scene with a light smile on his face.

"If you should succeed. This is the ending."

"I'm going to miss you..."

"I will be born again Lyla. Jeeze keep up will you." he grinned.

I swallowed.

"I never go back."

"Nah, but you'll still be born to Luna and George Weasley. There just will be two of you in existence at the same time."

"Frank..."

He drifted towards me and cupped my face.

"I wish you'd have told me. I would have acted. But maybe just maybe when I'm born again and we live again, I'll act then."

I leaned into his touch as I felt tears prick my eyes.

"Oh Frank. Why'd it have to end up like this?"

"Things happen."

"I'm going to miss you so much."

"Hey, I'll always be with you." he wiped a teardrop from the corner of my eye.

"I know." I hiccuped.

He leaned forward then and kissed me lightly on the lips.

"When you go out flying in the sun, and the wind whips through your hair. Thats where I'll be."

"This is it then?"

"Yes. Turn to him Lyla, he's going to always be there for you."

"I will." I closed my eyes taking in his touch.

"Open you eyes Lyla."

There were extremely bright lights in the room.

"How is she?" I heard a husky tenor voice ask towards the foot of my bed.

"Hey Remus. She's doing better, hasn't woken up yet though. Find the rat yet?"

Remus sighed.

"No, not yet. He's escaped the grounds. Do you think that..." he paused. "that she's going to be alright after this? I mean he was her best friend..."

"She's stronger than most give her credit for Moony. She'll be ok."

"I just cant imagine..." he paused sitting down by my feet. "It would be like loosing... maybe I can imagine. Pete was our brother..."

"I know Moony. Prongs with Lily?"

"Yeah, they said they'd be up in a bit."

"Do you think that maybe she's faking it? Awake but not moving?"

"Would you blame her?"

Another sigh.

"No."

They're words were pounding in my ears. And merlin above I had such a horrible headache.

I moaned and grabbed my pillow before smashing it on my face. The light hurt.

"Lyla?"

"What?" I asked irritatedly through the pillow that smelled faintly of strawberries.

"Are you ok?"

"No."

"Do we need to go and get Madame Pomphrey?"

"No."

"Are you going to keep saying no?" Remus asked.

"No."

I felt the pillow being pulled from my face. I opened my eyes to find Sirius staring down at me worriedly

"Are you sure your alright?

"Yes."

"So then I should go and get Madame Pomphrey...?"

"No Remus. Please and Merlin above don't go and get her, she'll only fuss over me and right now that is the last thing I bloody need." I moaned before closing my eyes again.

"Has anyone found him?" I asked keeping my voice strait. I could not afford to cry right now, he needed to be found and dealt with.

"No, we've searched everywhere for him. Dumbledore thinks that he's left the school to join Voldemort." Sirius sighed rubbing my shoulder.

"And where is Frank?" I asked tears beginning to prickle my eyes. "Where is his..." I felt a dry lump in my throat. "Where have they put his body."

"They put it on ice until you woke up, we wouldn't have... not before you woke up." Remus said from my other side.

"Ok." I said before burying my head back under my pillow.

"Lyla?" Sirius asked me. "Are you ok?"

I pulled my head back out from underneath my pillow and shook my head, my eyes filling up with tears.

"He died because of me. I'm never going to be ok with that."

A second later Sirius had his arms around me and I was crying into his shirt.

"Lyla... Clover. He died to save you, this isn't your fault." he told me while rubbing my back.

"No! He did die because of me, this is all my fault!" I cried. "What am I going to do now? How am I going to deal with this?"

"Losing someone is always hard." Remus said sitting down on my other side. "Your going to get through this though, I promise."

"Remus is right Clover." Sirius said into my ear. "We will get you through this."

"You will?"

"Yes Clover, I promise."

Authors Note: Well there it was. Sad eh? Review please, tell me what you think.... I'll give you a hug! Every one knows that hugs make the world go round.