Whisper In The Wind;
Whisper In The Wind;
Chapter 13;
LATER THAT NIGHT;
Jeff's POV;
It had been a good day; once she had gotten used to being out in public again Shayne had relaxed and was back to the bubbly, full of life, up for anything girl that she was when we were at home.
The girl that she was; was definitely the girl that I was falling in love with. I didn't care that it was quick. If truth be told; I fell in love easily and Shayne was just making it all the easier to fall in love with her.
My house was drowning in her amazing rich spicy perfume that went straight to my head. It just seemed to be everywhere; even on my own cloths.
I had never felt so blissfully turned on by a scent before, but Shayne had me feeling things that I had never experienced before.
"Jeff!?" My brother was waving his hand in front of my face.
"Sorry man," I came crashing down to the present with a thud and a crimson tint flushing my face.
"Damn dude where were you…? ShaynesVille?" He chuckled as I realized that we were the only 2 stood at the long polished wooden bar.
"Like you wouldn't believe,"
"Damn you've got it bad brother,"
"Yeah tell me something I don't know,"
"When are you guys going to stop circling each other and get it on already?"
"She's not ready dude and I'm not pushing; it will happen when it's meant too and not before,"
"But…"
"No! Matt what I feel for that girl isn't anything that I've ever felt before and I don't want to blow it 'cos I think that we could really have something special,"
"Fare enough! You know what you're doing I guess," He shook his head in disbelief. "What do you want to drink dude?"
"Vodka Ice," I replied lighting a cigarette.
And again my mind drifted to Shayne and before I was aware of it there was a smile on my face.
At the girl's request, all the men had come out alone and the girls were going to follow on in a cab.
Shayne and Sky's designer friend had flown in with an original dress for Shayne to wear and although the women had seen it, they had refused to allow me a look of it.
I had been informed that I would see it when Shayne walked in to the bar.
Taking the bottle of Ice from my brother; I was surprised at how busy the bar was. It was normally busy but not jam packed like it seemed to be tonight.
The sound of my phone ringing grabbed my attention as Matt and I began making our way back to where Shannon, Leland, Rob Bourdon and our other friends Shane Helms and Andrew Wright were at our normal table.
"Hey beautiful," I answered once I saw Shayne's name flashing waiting to be answered.
"Oh thanks Skittles," Ky giggled softly.
"You're welcome," I chuckled placing my bottle down on the table. "Is everything ok?"
"Yeah Shayne is in the toilet; she wanted me to call and ask where you guys are?"
"You're here?" I asked feeling my stomach start to flip flop madly at the thought of seeing Shayne.
"Yeah dude; we're in the bathroom,"
"Ok sit tight! I will come get you,"
"K bye,"
"Ok see you in a few,"
Ending the connection, I grabbed my drink and started to head away from my friends.
"Woah where's the fire dude?" Shannon asked grabbing my arm.
"Shayne's here," I replied.
Instantly Shannon let me go and nodded.
By the time I made it to the toilets; my stomach was threatening to explode all its contents out in one painful retch.
I stood just outside the toilets waiting and looked back in to the main area of the bar and I was pretty sure that I had just seen M Shadows walking past.
I went to move to see if it was him when the ladies toilet door opened.
Sky was first out and she smiled that beautiful smile of hers.
If truth be told; if there was a world without Shayne then I could see myself falling for Ky but in a world with no Shayne I would be miserable.
"Hey," She smiled.
"Hey," I smiled back as Claire followed Sky, then Kat.
Then finally Shayne; my eyes were instantly drawn to her legs that I swore could render a grown man to his knees.
Black chunky high heeled shoes with lace straps that wrapped around her beautifully white legs stopping at the mid thigh area; where the start of the black mini dress that clung to her frame as if it were a second skin.
Oval shaped hoops were placed at either side of her hips showing more milky white flesh. Still my eyes moved on; up over her amazing frame until I reached her neck; the dress was looped around one side leaving the opposite side exposed; showing off her tattoo.
By the time I met her face I was certain that I must be drooling and if I wasn't then the smile that she flashed at me had me all but fall to my knees and plead submission.
Shayne's POV;
I had told Kat what I had wanted and she had done exactly as I had described and I loved how it came out.
Although I hadn't been sure about wearing it to the bar tonight, it didn't seem like it was that kind of place but the others had informed me that I needed to let my hair down, get myself back to who I was before this whole thing with M had blown open.
And to do that I needed to dress up, to take a little pride in my appearance and just go with the flow.
Who cared if it wasn't this kind of bar?
All that mattered was that I felt good about who I was now that I was out of M's shadow.
Seeing the look on Jeff's face, I knew that I was having the desired effect. Over the past week we had become tighter than I had ever thought it was possible to be with one man.
The things that we were sharing seemed to surpass anything that I had ever had with my ex. And I found that I was comfortable with this man, that I could trust him…it was still a new feeling but I could feel it growing at a rapid rate.
"Wow!" He smiled as he moved towards me.
"Wow good?" I asked as he stopped just short of me and again his eyes slowly moved over my frame at an agonizing slow rate.
"Definitely," He growled low and raw, as he licked his lips suggestively, which seemed to do little to calm the fire that was racing through my veins.
"Well that's good…I think!" I giggled softly running my hands through my hair nervously.
"It's definitely a good thing…although I think you may cause an accident when we get back to the table," He chuckled.
"So how about we go for a dance first?" I asked stepping forward until I was pressed hard against his solid frame.
Instantly I was rewarded to the feel of his body trembling out of control and his breath turning ragged and labored.
"O-Ok!" He managed to get out as a slow ballad that was one of my favorites came over the speakers in the busy bar.
I listened as Jeff told the others how to get to the table where the others were. They thanked him and took off in search of the rest of our party.
Moving out on to the dance floor, Jeff gently wrapped me up in to his powerful hold where I instantly felt like I was drowning. Watching him closely his eyes never once left mine as we began to move slowly against each other.
"You know I have been thinking," He said suddenly.
"You have? About?" I asked letting my fingers traced over the tribal markings that he had, had me shave on to his head before he left with the others earlier.
"About me and you…"
"Mmm and what have you been thinking?"
"Just how much I enjoy having you here…it feels like my house has finally become a home you know?"
"Awe Jeff that is…that's really…" I could feel the tears stinging my eyes.
"Hey, hey I don't want…I didn't say that to upset you…"
"I know you didn't! I just…I don't think that anyone has ever said anything that sweet to me before," I whispered softly as one tear slipped on to my face. "Thank you,"
"There is no need to thank me sweetie; I am just telling it as it is," Slowly his hand came to my face and tenderly wiped away the lone tear. "I just think that having you at the house…it has made me realize that…"
"What?" I asked watching him closely as my fingers slowly ran through his hair, and I could feel his body trembling under my touch.
"I don't want to scare you…"
"Jeff nothing you could say could scare me! I trust that you haven't lied to me yet and I am beginning to really believe that you never would,"
"I never would Shay; you mean more to me than I could ever express, having you with me this past week, I just feel like I am really ready to settle down…" He admitted holding my gaze as I thought about his words.
Did that mean he wanted me to be with him?
Did he want to settle down with me?
Did I want to settle down with him?
Looking away from the pull of his eyes, I realized that the thought of settling down with him didn't scare me half as much as I figured settling down would have.
The thought of being with Jeff was a comforting thought; he hadn't lied to me yet from what I figured, he had been completely open and honest with me and that was something that I had never really had before.
"I've scared you," Jeff said softly. "I'm sorry Shay just forget that I said…"
"I didn't say that you scared me,"
"But I can see from the look on your face that…"
"What?" I asked turning back and looking in to his steely green eyes and could feel everything fading in to nothing as I watched the concern that he felt for me shining back at me brightly.
"You just seem unsure…"
"I am a little," I admitted.
"Let's go outside and talk?" He asked me softly.
"Sounds like a good idea," I smiled as I removed myself from his arms, instantly he slipped his hand in to mine.
I could feel the effect of his touch rocketing through my frame until I was feeling out of breath and my body was struggling to maintain any type of control.
Jeff's POV;
I couldn't believe that I had blurted that out.
Where had the stubborn streak, of taking this at her pace gone too?
With just one look in her eyes I had known in that moment that I wanted to be with her forever, that I wanted her with me and only me.
I wanted to give her all the things that no one had ever bothered to give her. I wanted to be the one to restore her back to the woman that I knew she could be.
I didn't care that there was 10 years between us, I didn't care that people would think it was too much of an age gap; I didn't care about anything other than being with this woman.
I wanted to love her like no one had ever loved her before and I wanted to give her everything that she deserved.
Sitting down on the picnic tables that were situated on the decking of the bar.
Finally we were alone with no one to interrupt us and I could feel the butterflies going crazy inside the pit of my stomach until I didn't think that I could actually get out what I wanted to say.
"Shayne you know how I feel about you…"
"Actually, I don't!" She whispered softly.
Was she kidding me?
She really couldn't see the way I felt about her?
Then I silently scolded myself as I realized that it was hard for her to believe that anyone wanted to be with her after everything that she had been put through.
"Shayne I am…" Oh God what if this wasn't really what she wanted?
What if I told her how I felt and it just made her realize that she didn't want me as much as she thought?
Suck it up Hardy and spit it out! I told myself.
"I'm in love with you Shayne,"
"Y-You…w-what?" She asked looking in to my eyes and I could feel the world sinking away until it was just me and her.
"I've tried to fight what I feel, I have tried telling myself that I don't feel this way, I have tried everything that I can to stop myself from falling for you but you…"
"I what?" She asked me.
"You seeped under my skin, you are crawling through my veins and there isn't a damn thing I can do to stop it from happening,"
"Wow," She said finally giving my heart a rest she looked away from me but something told me that, that wasn't a good thing, my heart suddenly felt cold from the lack of her attention.
Reaching my hand under her chin and gently turning her back to look at me to see that her eyes were swimming in tears that threatened to spill on to her face.
"Shayne I didn't want to upset you…I didn't tell you all of that to…"
"I know you didn't," She laughed softly. "I have never had someone…confess how they feel about me in quite that way before,"
Silently the tears spilled on to her beautiful face and my thumbs quickly caught them and wiped them away; trying in earnest to make her see that I would never hurt her the way she had been hurt previously.
It just wasn't my nature to hurt women; even when things didn't work out I tried to make sure that I stayed friends with all my exes and I was happy to say that I had indeed managed to do that.
Even the ones who hurt me, I still talked to them; we didn't hang out but if we saw each other there were no awkward scenarios. Which I had to admit I was grateful for.
"You really meant that?" She asked her voice cracking slightly as she struggled to keep her emotions under control.
"Every word!" I replied hoping that she could see that I was being sincere, that I was being honest and that I was the man that she could finally trust.
"You really want me?"
"Shay sweetie, there is nothing I want more but it isn't about just wanting you…I want you in my life, I want you and I together, I want us to share everything," Gently pulling one hand away from her face, and gently placed it over her heart. "I want you to let me in,"
"I-I…I don't know if I can do…"
"It will take time Shayne; it will take a hell of a lot of time and patience considering everything that you have been through but I am here and I ain't going no where,"
"Kiss me?" She asked in a whisper.
"Excuse me?" Had I really just heard her right?
"K-Kiss me?" She asked a little louder confirming my thought.
Smiling at her, she smiled back and I could see that she was fighting with everything inside her to let go and let herself believe what I was saying to her.
"You're sure you want me to do that?" I asked still softly wiping the tears from her beautiful face with the one hand that I still held her face in.
"Mmhmm," She nodded her head in agreement to her voice.
Slowly bringing my thumb down to her lips and tenderly dragging it over the flesh as she trembled next to me.
"Its ok baby, I'm not going to hurt you,"
"Y-You promise?" She asked her voice barely even a whisper but I still managed to hear her properly.
"With my hand on my heart beautiful," I whispered back still letting my thumb tenderly run over the soft, smooth flesh of her beautiful lips.
I didn't want to rush this; I had been waiting for as long as I had known her to get to this point and I wanted to remember every single moment of it.
My eyes held her own; instantly I was drowning in the deep dark brown of hers, spinning in to the safety they held, sinking in to the passion that I was sure we were about to find in each other.
Slowly I moved myself a little closer to her body until I was pressed hard against her, holding her painfully close to me but still I didn't kiss her.
My lips lingered dangerously close to hers, feeling the chemistry building between us until I was sure that there should be sparks flying in the air around us.
I was so close to kissing her that I could literally feel my own lips throbbing with a hungry desire that I had never truly experienced with anyone before.
Slowly as if she were unsure, she began to inch her hands up my arms.
"It's ok princess," I whispered softly and the movement caused my lips to gently graze against hers.
Instantly I was rewarded to the sound of her gasping deeply and her breath racing away from her.
Finally she hooked her arms around my neck and pulled herself so close to me that she was sitting on my lap; her eyes never once leaving mine as the chemistry between us started to ride higher.
Darting my tongue out of my mouth until I was gliding over her full red lips then slowly inching my tongue in between the parting of her mouth until our lips crashed together softly.
Kissing her with all the passion and hunger that I felt for her; she instinctively matched everything that I poured in to her.
Moving my hands until they were wrapped around her waist, holding her as close to me as possible. The feel of her body trembling seemed to rock through to my own body and I could feel everything inside me reaching explosion.
This girl was everything that I had ever wanted, she was all that I could or would ever want that much I knew for certain.
Running her long smooth soft fingers through my hair had me lost in the tenderness of her touch for a mere second but she slowly brought me back to her and I was loosing everything about myself in this girl.
But I had known that should we come together in this way, I was in great danger of loosing me in her but I welcomed it, I wanted to loose myself in her, I wanted to spend the rest of my life lost in her and there was nothing that anyone could say or do that would stop me from allowing that to happen.
Reluctantly I pulled myself from the kiss and held her gaze.
"That was…" I panted unable to catch my breath.
"Amazing?" She asked softly resting her forehead against mine.
"And then some," I growled softly. "But I need to pee,"
"Ok babe," She replied gently removing herself from my lap.
"You going back inside or are you just going to wait here for me?"
"I'll wait here," She smiled up at me as I stood to my feet.
"Ok I will be right back princess,"
Heading inside my thoughts were on Shayne and that kiss we had just shared, I wasn't stupid enough to think that by the time we got home tonight she would be ready to take our relationship to the next level 'cos in all honesty it was more probable that it would take some more time before she was ready for more and I was happy enough with that at least I knew that she wanted me the way I wanted her.
I was so lost in my thoughts about Shayne and the things that we could have that I didn't even notice M Shadows walking past me and heading straight for Shayne.
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