A/N I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING! SORRY FOR SUCH A LATE UPDATE GUYS! I HOPE THIS CHAPTER MAKES UP FOR IT. THANKS TO MY AMAZING AND WONDERFUL BETA ELENA RAIN!
Kimberly had promised to come get him when she was ready to tell him, but what he didn't know was that she was never going to be ready because she didn't plan on ever telling him. She was going to spend forever with secret and nobody was ever going to find out what really happen.
The vampires continued to practice and train all night. The humans stopped and went to sleep for the night.
The next morning everyone was in the basement was showing off their powers. Kimberly had remained quiet and closed off from the others just staying close to Tommy and not speaking much. Everyone knew Jane's return had shaken her up even if she wasn't there to see it.
"What is Carlisle's power?" Jason asked suddenly.
"His compassion." Esme answered with a smile, "but he's also one of the best doctors."
Carlisle chuckled. "If you ask her, she'll say everything is my power."
Everyone laughed. "Speaking of which though, Kim, I never gave you a exam after you were kidnapped."
Kimberly froze and buried her face in Tommy's shoulder and shook her head.
"She's a vampire is it really possible she was hurt?" Jason asked.
"It can't hurt to check, we already missed one scar already. I'd like to check just to make sure we aren't missing anymore."
"No!" Kimberly shrieked fearfully. "Don't touch me, no!"
"Kimberly, you know I'd never hurt you." Carlisle said gently.
"No! That's what he said too! Then he bit me and touched me in places I didn't want him to!"
Everyone froze.
"Kimberly, what are you talking about?" Emmett asked.
"HE TOUCHED ME! ARO TOUCHED ME IN PLACES ONLY TOMMY HAS EVER TOUCHED AND HE KISSED ME IN PLACES ONLY TOMMY HAS KISSED! IF THAT WASN'T BAD ENOUGH HE LET ZEDD HAVE A TURN! THAT DISGUSTING MONSTER HAD HIS HANDS ALL OVER ME!" Kimberly screamed no longer able to keep quiet. She was crying hard, even though she had no tears.
The comments and questions came like wildfire after that.
"WHAT!" Jason roared. "ZEED TOUCHED YOU! THAT'S IT! HE'S DEAD! HE IS WORSE THAN DEAD I'M GOING TO KILL HIM WITH MY BARE HANDS!"
"Were you raped?" Rosalie asked.
"Did you fight back?"
"What else did they do to you?"
"He dead! I'm going to kill Zedd!"
"Zedd is a monster I'm going to make sure he pays."
"Kimberly I swear when I get my hands on him I'll…"
"STOP!" Tommy yelled as Kimberly sunk down to the floor pulling her knees up to her chest and wrapped her arms around her legs and buried her face into her knees and whimpered.
Tommy sighed and knelt in front of her. "Beautiful?"
There was no response. Tommy sighed. "She's gone again."
"Can you get her back?" Jason asked.
"Of course I can…but I'm not going to."
"What?" everyone asked?
"Not when the second I do you're all going to continue to harass her with questions. I'm going to bring her back, but I'm going to make sure when she comes back she's is somewhere safe."
"But you can't leave the house, people know you." Rosalie said.
"I'm going back to Angel Grove, that all I'll say."
"What if you run into someone you know?" Trini asked.
"That's the perks of being invisible; nobody can see me or Kimberly." With that Tommy lifted Kimberly into his arms and turned them both invisible and they were gone.
They arrived at the Angel Grove Park and went over to their spot. They were still invisible when Tommy sat down. He kissed Kimberly on the head and closed his eyes. To his surprise he hit a mental wall. He couldn't get through. Kimberly wasn't letting him in. He sighed. He knew why, she was scared to death. She had finally told him that Zedd sexually assaulted her and now she was scared he was angry with her because of it. He hated Zedd before but now he really hated Zedd and vowed to destroy him and Aro first chance he got. He hugged her close to his chest. He kissed her head and tried again. "Beautiful, if you can hear me, please let me in. I'm not angry with you. It wasn't your fault. Zedd had no right to touch you, Aro had no right, and please Beautiful let me in."
For a while it was quiet but finally Tommy was allowed in. He found her sitting at the same spot as always right by the lake just watching the water. Only this time she was crying into her hands. Tommy's heart broke. He went over to her and wrapped his arms around her. "Beautiful, please don't cry. I'm not angry with you. This wasn't your fault."
Kimberly turned to look at him. "I knew what Aro did, I remembered that. I didn't remember what Zedd did until I saw him on that screen but everyone was angry enough at me I didn't want to make it worse! "Tommy I'm so sorry! I'm so, so, sorry! I tried to stop him! I did, I fought with everything I had but Aro had me pinned down and Jane made sure I stayed weak and….and…" She fell into his arms crying hysterically.
"Shhh, Beautiful, Shhh, don't be sorry, it's not your fault. I know you fought as hard as you could but sometimes it's not enough." Tommy kissed her head as he hugged her tightly. "Baby, it wasn't your fault. I'm not angry with you, I'll never be angry with you."
Kimberly just cried hysterically into his chest.
"Just let it out, Beautiful, let out all the pain and hurt they caused you. It's just us here, nobody else. Just let it all out."
He knew she never really had a chance to do it before and now she did and he wanted to make sure she did it.
"Oh Tommy, it was so awful! Jane came in every day and tortured me! She would try and brainwash me into believing you didn't love me, and when it didn't work Don would come in a make me see you dying over and over again. Then they called Rita and Zedd and they knew all my weaknesses and how to hurt me both physically and mentally."
"Is that when they put that thing on your back?"
Kimberly nodded. "It was their first attempt at getting me to doubt your love for me. But it didn't work."
"What else did they do to you? Talking about it will help you heal."
"It was mostly Jane hurting me every day and Don showing me visions of you dying. Rita and Zedd tried but really didn't hurt me."
"He touched your private places though."
"That was towards the end, same with Aro. It was right before you came to rescue me."
"Is that why you went catatonic?"
"Part of." Kimberly squeaked out as new tears filled her eyes.
"It was that little girl wasn't it? She's the reason you went catatonic?"
Kimberly nodded and squeezed her eyes shut.
"What happen to her, Kimberly? What happen to that little girl?" Tommy asked her as gently as he could.
"I can't tell you!" Kimberly whimpered so brokenly it broke Tommy's heart.
"Can you show me? Please, Angel?"
"No, no." Kimberly cried shaking her head. "I can't, I can't, please, please!"
"Ok, ok, shhh, shhh, you don't have to do anything you aren't comfortable with. Is the little girl the reason you won't hunt?"
"Part of…" she squeaked out.
Tommy sighed. "Kimberly, Baby, please. What happen to you, it's more than just Jane hurting you. There is more, I can tell."
"No, I can't, I can't." Kimberly said frantically. "I'm sorry…"
The next thing Tommy knew Kimberly was gone and he was back in the real world. Kimberly had actually pushed him out. He growled and punched the floor. He had pushed her too hard and now she was shutting him out. "Baby, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, please let me back in. I promise I won't push you anymore. I'm so sorry. Please, Baby, let me in. I won't push you anymore. I promise."
A few seconds ticked by and finally he was allowed back in. He sighed. "Thank you, Beautiful."
"Tommy, I wasn't trying to shut you out."
"What? But I…"
"I was trying to come back with you, but every time I opened my eyes I was in the same place as I am now so I kept trying, but now I'm a little worried I'm stuck and can't get out."
"No, no, no." Tommy said quickly. "You are in the same place as you are now. I took you back to our special place and turned us invisible."
"Oh, so I was out?"
"Yes, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you."
"It's ok, just…in time I'll tell you what happen and why I can't hunt anymore. But for right now I'm just not brave enough to talk about it."
"That's ok, Beautiful. I understand. I won't push anymore."
They shared a passionate kiss and both left the mental park and opened their eyes to see the real park.
"I personally like this park better." Kimberly said softly.
"I know, so do I."
"Do I really have to let, Carlisle look at me, Tommy."
"He would never hurt you."
"I know that, Tommy. I'm not scared of Carlisle."
"So what does scare you then?"
"I don't know." Kimberly sighed.
"I think I do, I think you're scared of what we're going to find. Every time you go to the park and the longer you're in there, memories of what happen fade. You're scared that us finding something will bring back more memories you don't want to remember."
Kimberly nodded softly and leaned further into his arms. "I like not knowing what happen to me. I'm scared of what could have happened to me."
"But, Baby, you'll never be able to move on from what happen until you remember everything that happen to you."
"I know." Kimberly whimpered. "But that's what scares me. Tommy, what if…what if Aro and Zedd really did…" Kimberly had a hard time getting the words out until she finally managed to choke out "What if it wasn't sexual assault but…but rape?"
"Oh my Baby!" Tommy cooed hugging her closer to his chest. "If it did happen we will get through it together."
"I'm scared to know the truth, Tommy."
"I know, Baby, I am too. But we need to know, we can't go the rest of our lives living with the wondering."
"I know." Kimberly.
"Hey, no matter what happens, no matter what we find out, Kimberly, I will never stop loving you, I will always love you."
"Will I always be your Beautiful?" Kimberly whimpered out crying softly.
"Oh Kimberly!" Tommy cried out hugging her as tight to his chest as possible without breaking her half."Oh Beautiful, Beautiful, Angel, Baby, Oh my sweet, sweet, sweet, Angel. You will ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS, BE MY BEAUTIFUL! That's not even a question."
Kimberly nodded and buried her face into his chest.
Tommy hugged her close and kissed her head. "Are you ready to go home?"
"No." Kimberly whimpered
Tommy sighed.
"I'll never be ready, just take me home." She whimpered again.
Tommy lifted her up and carried her out of the park. Tommy knew they both were going to feel better when they got their answers once and for all.
They got back to house and Tommy went inside. He could hear everyone was still downstairs in the basement. Their topic of conversation…Kimberly. He heard Edward coming up the stairs and met him half way in the kitchen.
"Hey, I wouldn't go down there. Everyone is still in an outrage of what Kimberly told them." Edward said softly and gently so he didn't upset Kimberly.
"Yeah, the doesn't surprise me. Is Carlisle…"
"He feels guilty. He was just trying to help, not make her blurt out anything."
"Of course, we know that. Kimberly is just mainly scared of what he's going to find."
"I can understand that. But I'll help anyway I can."
"Thanks, do you think you can get everyone out of the basement and Carlisle can do his exam down there? I'd be more private for her?"
"Of course, Kimberly, is there anyone you want to stay down there?" Edward asked softly.
"You…Jason…Tommy…Tommy." Kimberly answered in a soft voice only vampires would hear.
Both Edward and Tommy chuckled. "All right, so I'll have Jason stay down there."
He left the room and Tommy set Kimberly down on her feet but kept her close in his arms. He kissed the top of her head. She hugged him tighter. "I'm right here, My Beautiful. I'll always be right here." He whispered softly.
Everyone came upstairs and stopped and stared when they saw Tommy and Kimberly. Tommy lifted Kimberly back up and walked passed them into the basement.
Jason, Edward, and Carlisle were waiting. Tommy went over to the couch and tried to set Kimberly down but she clung tighter to him and whimpered. "NO, no, no, no!" she said frantically.
"Ok, Ok, My Beautiful, shhh." Tommy cooed. He tuned and sat down keeping her on his lap, holding her close. "How are we going to do this?"
"Anyway that makes Kimberly as comfortable as possible." Carlisle answered.
"I know, but I mean…we're not human our bodies naturally heal when hurt."
"That's what we all thought, but whatever Aro used to cause that scar on her back, is powerful enough to not heal so I just want to be sure she doesn't have any more damage."
"Wouldn't we be able to feel it, like if I touched it or something?" Tommy wondered.
"Maybe, or maybe not. But to be safe we need to check."
"How?" Tommy asked once more. Kimberly was too scared to speak so he'd ask all the right questions and say all the right things before anyone got close enough to touch her.
"We have two options, one you'll be able to help with. We simply press on her body and if it causes her pain then we look more into it. You could be the one pressing on her if it makes you both more comfortable."
"What's the other choice?" Tommy asked.
"I got scan from Zordon we can simply scan her body and it will pick up on any damage."
Tommy kissed Kimberly on the head. "It's your choice, My Beautiful. What do you want?"
Kimberly only shrugged.
"Kimberly, if you pick the scan you'll be able to lay on Tommy's lap as we run the scanner across you. If you pick just pressing you would have to lay on your own." Edward explained further.
Kimberly didn't speak to them, but they had a feeling she was still communicating with Tommy,
"She wants the scan." Tommy answered for her.
"All right, I'll go get it, Kimberly lay down on your back, Sweetheart." Carlisle told them.
Tommy gently eased Kimberly away from him and down onto her back keeping her head on his lap as he stroked her hair. He could feel her fear.
"Shhh, you're safe, nobody is going to hurt you."
Jason knelt down by her side. "I may be a human, but I'll die before I let anyone hurt you, especially Zedd. I'm sorry I scared you before. I was angry at Zedd and I lost control."
"Love you, Jason." Kimberly muttered.
"I love you too, Baby sister."
He kissed her forehead. Carlisle came back with a small hand-held scanner. "Now just lay still and this will all be over soon."
He went over to Kimberly and started to scan her body. Jason and Tommy just stayed by her and soothed her to keep her calm and from moving too much.
As soon as it was over Kimberly sat up and snuggled back into Tommy's side.
"Everything looks ok. Some cuts and bruises but not too serious. Also, I'm sure you'll both be please to know that there was no damage done to Kimberly's…well private area." Carlisle said. "So she was not raped. They did touch her, she had some bruises on her chest but down below is perfectly fine."
"Thank you, Carlisle." Tommy said.
"You're welcome. I'll leave you too, alone."
Carlisle went upstairs leaving the others alone.
"See, that wasn't so hard." Jason smiled.
Kimberly didn't respond. Jason looked to Tommy worriedly.
"She isn't catatonic. Just quiet." Tommy explained.
Jason rubbed her back. "That's ok. As long as she is still here with us I'm happy."
"She only goes catatonic if she feels threatened." Tommy explained. "She feels safe right now, but still shaken from what she told all of us so she's quiet."
"You really do know her so well." Jason chuckled.
Tommy shrugged. He didn't think it was anything special. He knew his wife, any good husband did.
"Jason, no leave." Kimberly whimpered.
"I'm not going anywhere without you." Jason smiled and kissed her head.
"I bad, you're going to leave."
Now Jason was confused. She sounded like a little girl. "What did you do that was bad?"
Kimberly didn't answer him.
"I won't push you for answers. Just know that no matter what you did, I'm always going to love you."
Kimberly was quiet again. Jason sighed. "I'm going to check on, Trini."
He kissed her head and went upstairs. Edward followed.
"Tommy, I want you to see." She whispered.
"See what, Angel." Tommy said softly kissing her cheek.
"Why I won't hunt."
"Are you sure? There is no pressure."
"I'm sure, I won't be able to ever tell you. Talking about it just hurts too much but I can show you."
"Ok, let's go back to the park then."
Kimberly nodded. "I just have one request."
"What's that?"
"You don't tell the others."
Tommy nodded. "Nobody will hear it from me."
Kimberly nodded. "Let's go."
They both laid down on the couch and faced each other their foreheads touching and they closed their eyes.
They arrived hand in hand at the park. They went over to their favorite spot and sat down. Tommy kissed her head. "You can stop whenever you want. I won't press for more."
Kimberly nodded and inhaled and exhaled a deep shaky breath. She closed her eyes for a moment and opened them again. Tommy and Kimberly had been moved to the corner of the small room, Kimberly had once been held in. The other Kimberly was laying on the cot staring at the ceiling.
"I was thinking about you here. How much I missed you and couldn't wait for you to come save me. As much as they tried to make me believe you wouldn't come I knew better."
Tommy kissed her head. "I'll always come for you, Beautiful."
Suddenly the door opened and the real Kimberly tensed, her breathing picked up. Tommy held her tighter. "It's not real, you're safe. I'm right here."
(Bold Kimberly's vision/regular is real life.)
Aro walked over to the fake Kimberly as she sat up. "What?" Kimberly growled.
"I've been thinking…"
"Normally, I'd say don't hurt yourself but that would be a lie because I hope it did hurt! Please tell me it hurt!" Kimberly bit back.
Tommy laughed. "Nice."
Kimberly giggled. "They really didn't break me till the last that. I mean, they were mean and did bad things to me but this is what really broke me, Tommy. This is why I went catatonic in the first place."
Aro growled. "Normally, I'd have Jane punish you for that. But I can tell you're weak. You haven't fed recently. So I brought you a little snack."
"I'd rather starve before I drink from a human." Fake Kimberly answered.
"I think you might change your mind…FELIX!"
Felix walked in with a small girl. She was no more than four years old. She was shaking and crying in fear. Fake Kimberly gasped and quickly went over to the little girl. She stroked her hair and hugged her to her chest trying to comfort her.
"What have you done!" Fake Kimberly growled.
"I was hungry, and she did smell good but I couldn't hurt her. I knew I could control myself long enough not to hurt her." Real Kimberly explained. "I was scared for her though. I didn't want Aro to kill her and she was so scared." She choked out.
"I found this little girl wondering around outside. I thought you might like a treat."
"She's a baby, how dare you!" Fake Kimberly stood up stilling holding the child close in her arms.
"She's a human that's all I care about. Now drink from her."
"No!"
"Drink. I know you're hungry."
"I'd rather starve!"
"I see you're going to need a little motivation."
"Jane can do her worst. I won't feed on this small child!"
"Oh no, my Dear, I won't need Jane for this."
Everything froze for minute as the Real Kimberly spoke. "I was fast and I was strong but Aro was faster and stronger than me."
"I understand. Carlisle always warned us that animal blood kept us alive just not as strong as regular vampires." Tommy nodded. "Can you finish?"
Kimberly nodded and everything started to move again.
Aro grabbed the girl by the arm and pulled her from the Fake Kimberly's arms. He grabbed her wrist and bit into it drinking and drinking as the small girl screamed and cried hysterically. Blood was dripping down her arm.
"The blood was calling to me, but her screams and cries were louder. I had to do something. Aro was going to kill her." The Real Kimberly choked as tears filled her eyes.
"What did you do?" Tommy asked as gently as she could.
Fake Kimberly growled angrily and ran at Aro and grabbed the girl tightly in her arms and ran towards the door as fast as she could. She reached the huge doors and opened it and pushed the little girl out of it. Just then she dropped to her knees crying out in pain. The little girl turned and looked to Kimberly. "I can help, I get mommy, she help you!"
"No! RUN! JUST RUN!" Kimberly screamed on top of her lungs.
Feeling scared the small girl took off running. The door closed and Kimberly didn't know what happen after that. She could only hope she found her mom.
"That wasn't smart." Aro growled.
Kimberly just laid on the ground screaming and crying out in pain. Jane stood by smirking.
"That's enough, Jane." Aro said.
Jane stopped and walked away.
"Is this when you went catatonic?" Tommy asked.
Real Kimberly shook her head and wiped her eyes with her arms. "There is more." She whimpered.
Tommy sighed. "What else?"
Aro grabbed Kimberly by the arm and dragged her weak body back to the room. He threw her roughly on the bed. "You need to be fed, and you will be fed even if we have to force it!" Aro growled.
Jane, Felix and a few others walked into the room. They all held her down to the bed. Kimberly squirmed but was weak enough from Jane's attack, and she hadn't had any blood since before she and Tommy were married.
Aro came in with another human, she was older and not as scared. Kimberly knew what was going to happen so she sealed her lips shut. Everything stopped and The Real Kimberly shook her head.
"This is when they touched me. I wouldn't open my mouth so they touched me knowing I'd protest and when I did they shoved the woman's wrist into my mouth and I was forced to drink it!" Kimberly cried hysterically, shaking uncontrollably, hyperventilating trying to catch her breath.
"Oh my Baby!" Tommy cooed hugging her tighter to his chest. "That's why you won't feed? Because you were forced to drink human blood?"
"I WAS FORCED TO DRINK THE HUMAN BLOOD AND I LIKED IT! TOMMY! IT WAS THE BEST THING I'VE HAD IN 11 YEARS! IT WAS AMAMZING!"
"It's ok, all the Cullen's have had their taste of human blood."
"IT WASN'T JUST A TASTE TOMMY! THEY NEVER PHYSICALLY REMOVED THE WRIST FROM MY MOUTH!"
Tommy sighed. Now he understood. Kimberly had killed the woman and when she died the wrist slipped out of her mouth. "That's why you won't hunt anymore, you don't want to kill anymore?" Tommy asked finally understanding everything.
Kimberly nodded crying just as hard. "I can't kill anymore, Tommy. Every time I hunt, I cry because of all the animals I hurt and I've finally become a monster and I killed another human. I killed someone, Tommy. How can you ever forgive me? How will Zordon ever forgive me!"
"My Beautiful…"
"NO!" Kimberly screamed "I'M NOT BEAUTIFUL! I'M A MONSTER! I'M A MURDERER! WHY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?"
"No, you're not. Kimberly! You didn't ask for this human to be brought to you, you didn't take her wrist in your own hands or worse bite her neck. It was forced you were forced to drink human blood. Kimberly, listen to me…" He gently turned her face to look at him. "A real monster, a real murderer wouldn't have risked herself more pain or torture to save that little girl's life. A real monster would have taken her life the second he got a chance. Aro, he is the monster. He feed off that little girl like she was nothing. You, risked your life to get her out of there. You got her out of the horrid place and back to somewhere safe. A real monster wouldn't have done that."
"I sent her off alone! She could have gotten lost or hurt or someone else could have kidnapped her! I don't know I did her any good!"
"Kimberly you saved her life!" Tommy said sternly. "She would have been killed if you hadn't gotten her out of there. Kimberly, listen to me and listen to me good, YOU. ARE. NOT. A. MONSTER. YOU. ARE. NOT. A. MURDERER!"
"Yes, I am."
"No, you're not! You never have been and you never will be! Listen to me, Kimberly, what happen to that woman was not your fault! You had no choice! A real monster killed by choice. You are not a monster. I'll tell you that until you believe me."
"I feel like such a horrible person." Kimberly cried.
"But you're not."
Kimberly just cried into Tommy's chest. She thought she'd feel better after telling him the truth, but now she only felt worse. When would she start to feel better?
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