WARNING: EMOTIONAL SCENES AND DEPRESSING.

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Santana had walked into the hospital with a big smile on her face, holding two teddy bears in her hand and her father, who was also smiling happily, looked down at her "They made it San, we were so worried they wouldn't, but they did"

"They weren't going to make it?" Santana questioned, worried for her baby sisters if something bad had happened to them. Her father shook her head "Never mind, they just didn't get enough oxygen the doctors thought they needed but they're okay after all" he smiled relieved "Come on" his hands were still shaking on her back, Santana could feel it, but she knew they were going to be okay.

Santana was the oldest out of her sisters, Quinn and Brittany were still at their aunts but they were coming soon. She walked over to the beds where two beautiful babies were sleeping, her father motioned for her to be quiet as her mother was sleeping too. Santana kissed her mother lightly before looking down at the other two babies. One looked slightly awake, more then the other and Santana sighed at the peaceful look on their faces.

"One of them looks smaller then the other" Santana stated "And the bigger one has less colour" she commented. Her father moved forward and looked "Oh yeah" he said quietly. Her mother stirred and opened her eyes tiredly "Hey San" she yawned "Aren't they adorable? They're my little babies" she said as she looked at the new newborns. Her face suddenly paled "Um..why does that one look...?"

"One second. Nurse!" Santana's father called. Santana looked down at the babies "I have two presents for you" she told them "They're bears and they both smell like chocolate, one for you" she placed one of the teddies in one of the beds "And the other one for you" she placed the other teddy in the other babies bed.

"They're going to be-" suddenly she was shoved to the side a little as a nurse looked over the baby. The other little one had started crying, and the nurse quickly called over the others. Lots of nurses suddenly came and machines were turned on and her mother bursted into tears while her father hurried and went over to hold her. One of the doctors noticed Santana, the young girl standing on the side looking shocked and scared. He signalled a women to go over there and one lady came out of the rush and bent down to talk to her "Come on sweetheart, let's go outside, yeah?"

"What are they doing?" Santana asked.

"It's complicated" the women stated "But..we're going to wait outside, okay?" she took Santana by the arm and lead her out quickly. Santana turned around, just in time to see...

The next time Santana went to the hospital, one of the beds was empty and the only thing left was the chocolate scented teddy still on the side. Santana gasped and blinked away tears, being young she was not stupid, she knew something had happened. That was all the fuss, that was what she saw. Brittany picked up Quinn and showed her the baby, and ignored the empty bed beside her.

Before Santana could ask her parents, her dad pulled away "We'll talk later, okay? You're Mom can't explain to them now" he looked at his wife and saw her sleeping with red puffy eyes, obviously had cried herself to sleep. Santana nodded and looked back at her sisters. The smaller one was the one that was still here. She swallowed a large lump in her throat before clearing her throat and running out of the room into the bathrooms outside.

She could hear Brittany come after her "San? What's wrong?"

"Nothing Brittany" Santana blinked back tears as she tried to keep it together. She wasn't going to tell Brittany right now, that was her parents job, even at a young age she still looked after her siblings, with help of course as she wasn't allowed to be home alone until she was fifteen, but she still looked after her sisters.

"Are you sad about not having two sisters?" Brittany asked.

"What?"

"I know San, I know that one of them isn't here I'm not blind"

And five seconds later, Santana found herself sobbing in her sisters arms. Brittany cried into Santana's shoulder as well, but she knew Santana was going through a much harder time. Because Santana had actually saw the other one.

Their parents sat them down months later, after the small funeral they had for the baby, since she had breathed, even if it was only for minutes or more. Her mother hadn't been the same, she avoided them as much as possible, all of them and kept Rachel so close to her, that they barely saw her. She named the survivor baby Rachel. But Santana was just the same, wanting to hold Rachel as much as possible. To get attached to the smallest baby that had made it out of there. But instead, she forced herself not to get too close, all she brought back was pain and she hated that, she hated that her baby sister brought back them stuff for her, but she did. Didn't mean she didn't love her though.

"The baby, the one that died" Maria started slowly "Was bigger then Rachel but Rachel came out first, Rachel lost some oxygen but it was okay because Rachel was so small and was quicker to get out of there, so doctors worried the other one might lose just as much if she was bigger, and that happened" Maria stated "San, you saw your sister..you saw your sister, d-d.." and suddenly Maria and Santana burst out in sobs "So when I was, giving her the present she was slowly..." Santana asked through tears

"Yes" Maria nodded. Their father came and gathered them all up in his arms "It's okay. It's going to be okay, we have Rachel" he pulled away and looked them all in the eye "We're going to get through this"

Brittany nodded wiping away her own tears. But Quinn was too young to understand it and just snuggled up to Brittany's chest.

"Rachel may have some problems when she grows up, there's so many possibilities..."

"Let's not think about that right now" their father cut her off "Just think about, that we at least have her now" he told them and Santana and Maria nodded before looking down to the tiny baby in Maria's arms.

As the years went on, they started to move on. But every time Santana knew something was wrong with Rachel, she ignored it because she was scared. What if they were right and Rachel did have problems when she was older because of the lack of oxygen she had, so Santana decided to contact someone.

"The baby that sadly passed, was a severe case" the doctor informed her "But Rachel, since she is still here, the damage could have caused development disability or attention deficit hyperactivity disorder" he stated. Santana choked back tears "Does she show any of them symptoms"

She was. But Santana couldn't bring herself to say it "I don't know" she said quietly, the only thing stopping her from crying was how she was pinching her leg hard when the doctor wasn't looking.

"Have you ever told Rachel about the baby?" her counsellor asked her. Santana shook her head "No, we don't need to, we've moved on"

"Have you? You've told me you get overprotective and scared over her" her counsellor reminded her.

"Yeah but, I just can't!" Santana blinked back tears again.

"How do you feel about your mother getting pregnant again?"

"Excited but worried...very very worried"

"One day Rachel's going to find out, and how do you think she's going to take it?"

"I don't know, I don't want to burden her with the truth..."

Incoming Call: San Xx

"Hello?" Brittany questioned as she picked up her mobile. They were all watching a movie and Brittany paused the movie when she heard how distressed Santana sounded.

"Brittany" Santana started "I told her, and she's..she's gone"

"What do you mean she's gone?" Brittany shouted "And what did you tell her?"

Of course. No one remembered but her, because apart from her parents she was the only one who saw her, so it effected her the most.

"Never mind, I just need your help to find her"

"Okay San, I'll be there just tell me where to look" Brittany said getting up and throwing on her coat as she motioned Quinn up to do the same.

"I'm- RACHEL!"

Sorry it's so sad. If you need any more information u can just PM me as I may not have put that much on here. It was just too sad to write about losing one of your sisters which is why she's so protective over that one and Rachel might have, as I've planned from the beginning, ADHD although I was thinking about Aspergers instead. But I don't know.

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