Authors Note: Sorry I took so long! Here you guys go!

White walls. Pristine clean white walls filled his every sight. He couldn't himself to care about anyone else around him except the girl laying on the hospital bed in front of him. She's his world. His whole entire being depended on every breath she took. She lay in front of him, still and pale. If it wasn't for the constant beeping of the heart monitor next to her he wouldn't even know if she was still alive. Slowly he reached for her hand and gripped it tightly in his. 'I'm so sorry Red, please forgive me' he thought.

He doesn't even know how long it's been since they took his wife from his arms and rushed her in through those doors. Alec sat next to him trying to comfort him while Izzy sat on his other side and Magnus and Sebastian sat to their sides respectively. His parents were on the chairs opposite of him. No one was talking and the silence was filled with footsteps of nurses and the beepings machines made.

The door suddenly barged open as a doctor walked out calling for Mr. Herondale. His scrubs had blood on them, a great deal of blood and his body tensed as he wondered if that was Clary's blood. "T-that's me. How's my wife? And our baby? Please tell me they're alright," he rushed out all in one breath.

"I'm sorry Mr. Herondale but they're both in grave situations. I'm afraid we'll have to ask you to make a decision to save your wife or your child. We'll do everything we can to save them both for the mean time but right now, I'm afraid you'll have to think about it". He would've collapsed on the floor if Alec wasn't there to steady him. Robert and Alec helped guide him back down to his seat as he couldn't find it in himself to take a single step. Choose between his wife and their child. This wasn't supposed to happen, this wasn't a part of the plan. They were supposed to go baby shopping this weekend, he promised her he would even build the crib and that she has all the decisions on the paint of the room. Now he was gonna lose one of them. He couldn't choose, this was so unfair. He loves Clary so much, god knows how much he would trade places with her right now. He would gladly sacrifice himself in place for her or their child.

"Son, look at me. This is a hard decision and we'll all support you no matter what you choose," Maryse whispered to him as she crouched down in front of him. He looked up at her and everyone else around him. "We'll be here for you no matter what, you already know that Jace," Alec told him as he nodded at him and Izzy smiling to show her support. Deep inside he already knows his decision. It's Clary. It will always be Clary. She would hate him, he knows that. He might possibly even lose her but he would choose to lose her knowing she's alive and breathing even if she hates him than to know she would never be there. At least she can have another child, it might not be with him and the thought itself could've killed him but he wants her to have those experiences. To touch your child for the first time or see their first steps. She would never go through that if he lets her go now. 'I'm sorry baby. We love you so much. I'm sorry' he thought as he closed his eyes and pictured a little baby with the perfect mixture of him and Clary.

Code Blue. Emergency Room Code Blue. The speakers burst with this announcement as other people in scrubs came running in to the emergency room. As the doors started to close he caught sight of where they were headed and his heart stopped as he saw them rushing to a figure on the bed with bright red hair. People kept coming in and out and he couldn't help the tears that rushed over his cheeks as he heard the words "heart stopped, we need to resuscitate her, there's also a baby, there's no more chance". A nurse rushed out after a while and immediately set her eyes on him. Once again she too was covered in blood. He knew why she was there and his heart stopped.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Herondale but you'll have to decide now. There's no more time, her pulse stopped for a while and we were able to resuscitate her but if we use more time we won't be able to save either of them any longer".

"My wife. Save my wife please," Jace mananged to choke out through his tears. As soon as the doors closed he slid down the wall he was leaning on and burst into a fit of tears. Maryse rushed over and sat on the floor with him as she hugged her son to her. "He doesn't deserve this. He's been through so much already. When will it stop for him, he's a good man he doesn't do anything wrong. Please God help him" she thought. He's never cried in front of her. He can count on his hand how many times he let his emotions go and cried but it was all in front of Clary. She helped him get through it every single time. Now as he laid in Maryse's arms crying for his wife and their lost child, he didn't care who saw. He didn't care that this was probably the only time everyone here saw him cry but he couldn't help mourn the loss of their child and possible the loss of Clary's love for him.

"Jace," Clary croaked out. He immediately lifted his head and hovered over her.

"Shh don't talk just rest".

"Our baby Jace, is our baby okay"?

"Clary please just rest you're still in pain".

"NO I want to know what happened to our baby Jace, tell me Jace"! She didn't know why she was asking. She already knew, his eyes confirmed it for her. "NO! TELL ME I'M WRONG JACE! TELL ME OUR BABY'S FINE! PLEASE!" she yelled. Nurses came in as they tried to sedate her and his heart just kept breaking further and further as he saw the pain in her eyes before they fluttered close.

It wasn't long before Clary woke again. He hovered over her prepared for another outburst but she simply looked at him. "Kiss me please Jace," she whispered. It certainly wasn't what he was expecting at all but as she kept looking at him he could see the pleading in her eyes. Gently, lowering his head he meant to give her a quick kiss but she kept a tight hold on him. It wasn't until he felt her tears that he took her hand to release her grip on him. "Shh don't cry. I'm so sorry baby. I'm sorry," he whispered to her as he gently laid next to her to cradle her. He would gladly take it from her if he could but he couldn't. So he held her tightly to him as he she mourned for the child they lost.

Sorry I know this is sad but it's a major part of the story! Please review :)