Laying Emilia down in her crib, Sarah makes her way to her bed where a half asleep Steve lays. She slipped into the covers and snuggled up to Steve, needing his warmth. Steve yawned and put his arms around Sarah. "You ok?" He asked, sensing a small hint of tension. "He knows." Was all Sarah said, yet that was enough to almost completely wake up Steve. "Who knows what?" Sarah looked up at Steve with sad eyes. "Tony knows Emilia is his." Steves eyes widened. "What did he say?" Sarah shook her head. "We had a fight, he called me a whore, and a liar. I dont know, maybe I am." Steve brought a hand to Sarahs face to caress her. "You are not a whore or a liar Sarah. Tony is an ass, an though I can understand why he might be angry, he had no right to say those things to you." Sarah felt guilt build in her stomach. Here Steve was sticking up for her, yet she had betrayed him. She had cheated on him with Tony after everything they had been through. Sarah couldnt take it. "I slept with him." Steve frowns. "I know." Sarah looked at him confused. He sighed and rubbed Sarahs arm. "I knew you were lying when me and Pepper asked you where you and Tony had gone. I didnt say anything though. It hurt and I was angry at first, but when I thought about it. You came back to me in the end. So I let it go, because I love you. I only hope, that once Tony is married, and we move on, you will forget what you feel for him, and be able to give all of yourself to me. For now though, Im willing to except any pice of your heart I can recive."
Sarah had trouble sleeping that night. Steve was to much. He loved her so much..and she..she couldnt return the feelings. Not yet. Even though she loved Steve, she wasnt nealy as in love with im as she was Tony. Sarah felt she didnt deserve Steve, but she was so close to having everything she ever wanted, and yet it was everything she didnt. The next day was very hecktic. Since Tony and Pepper would be married tomorrow, everyone was making sure everything would go to plan. The wedding had been held off for so long, and there was no turning back now.
Tony looked over the set up for the wedding, that was being held not in a church, but in this nice park like area. There was a large fountain, and lots of room. It was also where Pepper had picked. Through most of the planning Tony had done very little. When he was asked what he wanted he simply told Pepper whatever she wanted, or randomly chose. Planning weddings wasnt something that Tony was familure with, nor was it the first thing on his mind. Sarah and Emilia were what he was thinking about right now. Tony felt like he had no more control over his life. It's a sign of weakness, of not being up to the task. Still there are times when it just gets away from you. When the world stops spinning and you realize that his shiny suit isn't gonna save him. No matter how hard he fights it, Tony falsl. It's scary as Hes not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to go and get married. Even if it isnt to the woman you really love.
Pepper was nervous. Her wedding was tomorrow. Pepper wanted to belive that she was just excited, but deep down she knew that wasnt the case. She was getting cold feet. Pepper wanted to marry Tony, but not if he didnt actually want to marry her. She needed to talk to Sarah, she needed to know what Sarah thought of all this, she needed to know that tomorrow was not going to be a mistake. quickly she made her way to Sarahs room, where she found her playing with a giggling Emilia. "Sarah..?" Sarahs smile that she held while playing with the small child went down a bit when she saw Pepper. Pepper figured it was because of the hint of distress that was held in her voice. "Are you alright Pepper?" Pepper stepped further into the room and sat next to Sarah on the large bed. "Do you love him?" Sarah raised an eyebrow. "Do I love who?" Pepper looked into her eyes. "Tony? Do you love Tony?" Sarah was surprised by this question. Why would Pepper ask that now? "You see I need to know." She continued. "I have a feeling that he still loves you, and maybe that will change after we are married, but if you love him back...I dont think I could compare." Pepper put her head down and twittled her fingers. "No." Sarah said, causing Pepper to look up again. "Pepper, I cant love Tony, I have Steve." Pepper wished she could accept that answer. It was now clear to her that Sarah did love Tony, but would neve admit it, even to herself. Its only becasue she cant admit it, that Pepper gave a small smile and left without another word.
Sarah watched as Pepper left the room. She felt bad that it was part her fault for making her feel that way. Like there was doubt in Tonys mind. Was there? Sarah though about going to see Tony and finding out but what would she do when she found the answer. The idea scared her. Sarah picked up baby Emilia and went to go see Bruce. He was wise beyonde his years. "Sarah hey!" Bruce said greeting Sarah kindly. He was meditating when she arrived. Sarah smiled at him. "Hey Bruce." Bruce got up and took Emilia from her, bouncing her in his arms. "Hey there little lady!" Emilia giggled in responce, and started to play with his nose. "Bruce can I ask you something?" Bruce looked away from the infant in his arms to Sarah. "Whats up?" Sarah sighed and shrugged. "I dont know, there is just so much going on. Its just overwelming." Bruce chuckled slightly. "Yes well that what happens when people get married, everyone is effected." Sarah sat down in a chair near by. "Yeah I suppose." Bruce put Emilia down on a mat, hadning her a stuffed animal to entertain herself with. Bruce crossed his arms and looked at Sarah. "Whats really going on Sarah? You havnt been down here to talk about such things as how overwelming you life is, in a long time. Why now?" Sarah shook her head. "I dont like to bother people with my issues all the time. Right now though..I dont know. I could tell you a million different things and break down. I could tell you how I cant get into cars very long anymore because Im afraid I might go through another window, I could tell you how as much as Steve loves me I cant love him back, I could tell you how everytime I think about Tony with Pepper it makes me want to cry, or that somedays my heart hurts so much, that all I can think about is ripping it out of my chest. Right now though I really need to go. I need to not talk to you like I thought I should before, so that the option to break down, and fall apart, will go away." Sarah got up from the chair and grabbed Emilia before quickly leaving Bruce. Bruce himself didnt know what to say. For once in his life Sarah had come to him and he had no idea how to help her, or if he even could.
Sarah walked passing many people through the hall. She didnt mean to be so harsh to Bruce but as soon as she felt she may lose it, Sarah knew she had to leave. To be away from others. Sarah slowed down feeling out of breath. When she got to the living room she placed Emilia in her play pen. "Beautiful day." She herd from behind her. She sighed and closed her eyes. "Tony not now." Tony shrugged. "I was just making an observation." Sarah turned to face him. "Stop Tony, just stop. She walked over to him, as he was a few feet away leaning against the wall. "You wanna know something, yes Emilia is yours congradulations for your brilliant observation, but this needs to end. I love you Tony, and I will always love you. But I dont want to! I want to be happy and Steve makes me happy. You need to stop pulling at me. Because if you dont I am going to come back to you!" Tony just stared at her. "I am, Im getting married tomorrow, this is me letting you go. Now its up to your to walk away." Sarahs heart clenched as she turned away from Tony and did just that. She walked away. Sarah left Emilia in her play pen, seeing she was not needed by her at the moment as she continued to her room.
Tony clenched his fists as Sarah left, feeling his world slowly come to a hault. He told her to walk away, that he was letting her go, but was he really? Tony wasnt sure. He walked over to baby Emilia and picked her up. She gave a cute smile that Tony couldnt help but smile back at. Emilia was his. His baby girl. Yet none but him, Sarah, and supposivly Steve knew that. It was going to stay that way to. Tony was going to marry Pepper, she would never know about this. Tony had already hurt her enough, he wouldnt go as far as to bring Emilia into it. Emilia would be better off without him anyway. Sarah and Steve together were much more capable than Sarah and him. Tony could barley take care of himself. He was a child. Tony heard that it's possible to grow up - Hes just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope...Tony had to hope that everything would work out in the end.
Sarah went to her house. Not her room in the Avengers home. Her own house. She left Emilia behind, knowing she would be ok. There were many people to watch over her while Sarah was away for an hour or so. When she got to her home she was was welcomed by silence. Sarah did the one thing she alaways did when she was upset, she went ito the bathroom, locked the door an laied on the white fluffy floor mat. Sarah didnt know why she did this, but she found it comforting. Sometimes she would even sing to herself.
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true, I was made for you
I climbed across the mountaintops
Travel across the ocean blue
I cross over lines and I broke all the rules
And baby I broke them all for you
Oh because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do, I was made for you.
Natasha and Steve walked up to the apartment looking for Sarah. He looked up as her herd her voice through the open bathroom window. Natsha looked up at Steve with confused eyes. "She does that." He said as he unlocked the door to get into the building.
You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
All of the friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know I'm in this mess
No they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through Like you do, and I was made for you
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
Oh but these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to It's true,
I was made for you
Oh yeah, and it's true that I was made for
you..
Steve opened the door to the apartment with Natasha right behind him. "Sarah?" He called out. "Im in here!" She called back from the bathroom. Steve walked over to the bathroom door an knocked. "You ok, I heard you singing from down staires." He heard the door unlock. Opening the door he saw Sarah laying back down on the mat. "Was I that loud?" She asked looking at the celing. Steve shook his head. "No, but the window was open." He said. Natasha came in. "Hey you, Bruce is watching Emilia. Are you alright?" Sarah dosnt look at Natasha. " I feel like I'm moving in slow motion. Like I'm moving in slow motion and everything around me is moving so fast and I just wanna go back … to when things were normal, when I wasn't poor Sarah laying on the bathroom floor in her. But I am. So I can't. And. I'm just stuck ... And there's all this pressure cause everyone's hovering around me, waiting for me to do something or say something or flip out or yell or cry some more. And I'm happy to play my part. I'm happy to say the lines and do whatever it is that I'm supposed to be doing if it would make everyone feel more comfortable. But I don't ... I don't know how to do this. I don't know how to be this person. I don't- I don't know who this person is." Natasha kneeled down and sat beside Sarah with Sad eyes. "Sarah.." Small tears formed in Sarah eyes. "How did this happen? How did we end up here? Why am I alone?" Natasha hugs Sarah tightly. "Your not alone Sarah."
Sarah got up from the floor and walked into the living room. Steve was sitting on the couch thinking to himself. Sarah sat down next to him, leaning her head on his shoulder. "After the wedding I have to leave for a while." Steve said looking down at Sarah. She looked back at him. "Why?" Steve smiled. "I have a mission, is all, I will only be gone a few days." Sarah nodded. "Steve I dont know if Im going to the wedding." Natasha sat down across from them. "Why not?" Sarah sighed. "I just dont think Im up for it. I dont feel so well." Natasha nodded. "Well we will see how you feel in the morning. ok?" Sarah nodded. Soon the three of them made their way back to the Tower. It was nearly dinner time. Sarah found Bruce holding a very sleepy looking Emilia. Bruce smiled when he saw Sarah. "She had a big day today." Bruce said handing Emilia to Sarah. Sarah smiled. "Listen Im sorry for earlier, I just.." "Dont worry about it." Bruce intorupted. "You have got some stuff going on, its alright." Sarah sighed in relife. "Thanks."That night Sarah had another hard time falling asleep, she didnt know what she was going to do tomorrow. She didnt think she could go to the wedding. It would hurt to much. She would let Emilia go. Though she ws a baby, Sarah was sure Emilia would enjoy the wedding. Heh. Emilia would enjoy the wedding, the wedding that her father would be marrying someone else at. How Ironic. Maybe that wasnt the term she was looking for, but still.
The next day Sarah was surrounded by buzzing people. Everyone passed her by getting ready for the wedding. Sarah felt like they didnt even know she was there.
Tony looked at the scene before him. Pepper running around putting things where they need to be. Her ginger hair flowing behind her. He had everything he wanted. The door to his new life was opening, while the one he was leaving behind started to close. The one that held Sarah in it. The one that held Emilia. There was no turning back now was there? Tony wasnt sure.
Steve looked at Sarah who was getting ready. He could tell that eevn though she was putting on her make up and dress, that she wasnt sure she would be going. "You know, sice your a bridesmaid, not showing up would be a small problem. Pepper had 5 bridesmaids. Sarah, Kelly, Natasha, a woman named Darla, and another name Mary. Darla and Mary were cousins of Pepper who lived in Rode Island, they didnt go with dress shopping or anything but they were at the Wedding Party. Sarah chuckled. "Im sure if it came to it, she could last without me." Steve shrugged. "Whatever you say Sarah."
It was time Everyone was in place, The band was playing, people were finding there seats. It wasnt a large crowed. Just a few close friends and Family, the Sum came to be about 120 people. Compaired to some others who would be around 400, it was small. Tony stood at the fountain. Steve, Bruce, Clint and Rodney beside him. Tony felt his heart clunch. The music Started, the wedding was starting.
Sarah sat outside a small resturant a little further down the street from where the wedding was. She could still hear the music being played, the march that signified Pepper was making her way down the isle. "You missing the wedding." A voice said. Sarah looked up from her coffee to come face to face with Colin! ( Did you forget about him? I did for a little bit too.) Sarah eyes widened. "Colin what?" Colin sat down. "I got a call from one of your Avenger buddies. Scared the hell out of me. Tonld me you might need me today, so tell me why are you missing the wedding?" Sarah sighed. "Because the man getting married is Tony Stark. And even though hes an ass to people most of the time in my mind he's great, he's the greatest guy, and I might even be in love with him, but it really doesn't matter at this moment because he is getting married to another person, right now." Colin nodded. "This is nice, having a conversation, just letting the truth out." Sarah chuckled. "Yeah, so much fun." She said Sarcasticly. All of a sudden another voice came. "Aww, that's nice. It's nice to tell the truth. The truth is fun, isn't it? Like were you telling the truth when you said you might be in love with me?" Tony. Just then Tony sat down smiling in his Tux. Sarahs eyes widened. "Tony what are you doing here?" Tony leaned forward resting his arms on the table. Its a funny story actually. I was standing infront of this beautiful fountain, music was playing and everything was going great. The only problem was, the one I love was not with me." Sarah raised an eyebrow. "She wasnt?" Tony shook his head "She was not." Sarah shifted. "So you didnt?" He shook his head some more. "I couldnt."
Colin shifted akwardly. "Ill just leave you guys to it." "You couldnt. "Sarah repeated amazed. "Now please tell me you feel the..extra..crazy going on wiht us?" Tony asked hopefully. Sarah shook her head. "Tony, I dont know, I mean, what if you wake up tomorrow and realise this is real, not some crazy dream." Tony smiled. "You the only real thing Iv had in my life." Sarah could feel her heart beat faster. "But..Shes beautiful, and sweet, and I.. Im not that. Tony. He nodded. "Yeah, shes..shes great but shes not you." Sarah looked at Tony seriously. "Iv got a kid Tony, I cant just drop her off a cliff." Tony chuckled. "I love Emilia, I want to be with her like 23 hours of the day." Sarah raised an eyebrow. "What about the other hour?" Tony smirked. Sarah laughed. Slowly, but surley they leaned in and kissed. Sarah and Tony could feel the weight lift off their shoulders. "Wooooooooohhh!" The heard from around them, to find Natasha, Clint, Bruce, Emilia, and the others smiling. Sarahs eyes widened. "Wait but what about the wedding?" Tony smirked again. "It didnt go to waist. There was a wedding." Sarah looked confused as she turned to the others to see Natasha holding her hand to see the ring on her finger. Clint held tightly to her wasit and kissed her cheek. Sarah smiled. "And Pepper?" Pepper revealed herself. "I do love Tony, but I love him enough to let him be with the one he loves, eve if that isnt me. Besides, I got my eye on someone." Pepper smiled looking at Rodney. Sarah then looked at Steve who held a small smile. "Steve I.." Steve shook his head. "Its ok, I love you, but I wont keep you from what you truly want." Sarah got up and ran to Steve hugging him tight. "Thank you for everything." She whispered in his ear. He kissed her head. You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. Today for Sarah it did.
THE END! SO DID YOU LIKE IT? I hope so because I worked reallllly hard on it...a good 4 hours
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