AN: Okay, normally I would have waited for more people's opinion on the last chapter, but I was really excited to put this one up. So, here's chapter thirteen!!
Chapter Thirteen: Hurt
Amy's POV
I broke away from the kiss almost immediately. However nice Hamilton was, and a good friend, I didn't really think of him that way. Hamilton was like a best friend, in a brother-y was.
I was going to start talking to Hamilton about his feelings, when a flash of color caught my eye.
Standing behind me, with a pained expression on his face, was none other than Ian Kabra.
My mouth opened to explain what had just happened, but Ian started talking first. "So, you and Hamilton, huh?" he said in a flat tone, but it was wavering slightly, as if it was hard to keep it that way.
"Well---" I started, but Ian cut me off. Now, emotion colored his tone.
"Amy, I came here because I had something to tell you," he told me. "I came here because I wanted to tell you that I love you. I know you might not believe it, but it's true. I think about you every day. I wish that I had never hurt you, or betrayed you. But Amy, Natalie made me! She put a dart gun against my throat and threatened to hurt me! Or hurt you. I figured, at least if I have to hurt you, I won't make it fatal. Not like Natalie would. I'm sorry for what I've done, and now I've decided I don't care what my family thinks. I don't care if they threaten me. I can stand up for myself. Losing you, however, was something I couldn't deal with. But I guess you're already taken."
Ian's forehead was scrunched up and his mouth was twisted into a frown. I felt so awful that I had been the one to put that pained expression on his face.
Before I could speak, Ian said, "Goodbye, Amy." Then, he got up, and walked out the door.
Hamilton spoke up, "Well, that was quite the show." he chuckled a little.
Without meaning to, a few tears leaked down my face. I could tell, this hadn't been a show. When Ian had taken the clues, he hadn't seemed quite as... sincere. But now, I could tell. He hadn't been acting. Ian was in real pain, all because of Hamilton. If he hadn't kissed me, Ian wouldn't feel so bad, and everything would have worked out fine.
I hadn't had much time to think about it, but I did love Ian back. No matter what he had done, I still loved him. Maybe it was because, deep down, I knew he loved me too.
When we were in Korea, that one moment of doubt flickering across Ian's face. That one slip of his show told me his true feelings. Now that I thought about it, while he was over before, after he had found out I was a Madrigal, there were a few slip ups, too. Sometimes, he would look away, or a knew expression would show in his eyes.
"Amy?" Hamilton interrupted my train of thought. "Are you all right?"
Was I alright? What did it look like? Suddenly, I was furious at Hamilton, for producing this disaster. "No, I'm not. Hamilton, if you hadn't kissed me, I wouldn't be in this situation! Besides, I don't think of you like that! You're a good friend, but I don't love you. Now, I'm not sure what you are. You just messed up my love life, you idiot!" I practically screamed at him. I never knew I was so temperamental.
Now Hamilton was angry. "Well, excuse me for thinking you loved me back! You hugged me and congratulated me and I'm sorry for getting the wrong idea!"
"I'm sorry too! Now, I might not ever get Ian back!"
"Whatever. I'm leaving. Bye, Amy." And then, Hamilton left me.
"Hamilton, wait..." I mumbled, but I was too late. The door had already slammed shut. Even if I didn't love him, Hamilton was still one of my good friends, and I didn't want to lose that friendship.
How could I have been so stupid? Now, both my love and my close friend had left me. Now, I was almost completely alone. The only person I had left was Dan. My mother, father, Grace, Irina, and now Hamilton and Ian. How could that have happened? I already missed them. Ian, especially. I wish I had told him I loved him before that dreaded kiss with Hamilton.
Not knowing what to do next, I laid down on the bed and cried.
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