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I slowly walked into my house and paused in the doorway as I noticed my dad sitting in his chair massaging his temples. "Hi Daddy", I said looking at him and putting my purse down.

He stood up and made three long strides over to me before wrapping me in a hug causing me to wrap my own arms around him.

"Bonnie, where did you go?"

"I went to the cemetery…I wanted to talk to Grams for awhile, I just didn't feel right until I spoke to her alone".

My dad frowned and shook his head, "Bonnie, you really shouldn't be out at night…whatever killed Mom could still be out there and what happened to your dress".

"I went to Elena's and changed and I can handle myself Dad", I replied walking into the kitchen and opening the refrigerator door.

"Can you? Since I've been home, you haven't eaten a thing…you disappear for long hours…you barely talk to me…I think you need to come back with me to Europe for awhile".

I shook my head, "No…I can't do that".

"Yes, you can…Bonnie, I don't know what's going on with you…but something's not right and now with Mom gone, there's no one to keep an eye on you here".

"I can stay with Elena", I answered.

"Jenna has her hands full with Jeremy and Elena already".

"Dad, I can not leave town…I have to stay here".

"Why…what reason do you have to stay here?" he asked staring me down.

"I…Dad, this is my home, not Europe and I have school".

"You can go to school in Europe".

"Dad, I can't leave Mystic Falls", I stated.

"Bonnie, I'm not asking you anymore…I will go to the school tomorrow and make the arrangements to get your records together", he replied.

I closed my eyes. I could not count how many times I wished my dad acted like he wanted to be a dad to me. My parents divorced when I was 3, but moreso, my mom took off for parts unknown and I was left with my dad. He never embraced the whole 'Daddy' role, because he was a rising star in his advertising company and traveled a lot. When I was younger, I spent most of my time with my Grams and when I became a teenager, I stayed by myself with Grams checking up on me or the Gilberts allowing me stay over.

"Bonnie, I know that this is going to be hard for you…you lost Mom and now you are losing your friends, I know that you don't want to do this".

I looked at my dad and took his hand as I took a deep breath, "I am not going back with you", I stated slowly looking directly into his eyes.

"You are not going back with me", he said quietly.

"And I am fine…you don't need to worry".

"You are fine and I don't need to worry", he repeated.

I smiled as I wrapped my arms around him, "I love you Daddy", I whispered.

"I love you too Bon Bon", he whispered back holding me tightly as I bit back tears.

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After my dad went upstairs to get some sleep before his early flight the next morning, I sat on the porch on the swing in front of my house. It was a little chilly (amazing that I could feel the chill), so I put my hands in my hoodie.

"You're actually cold?" a voice said from the side of the house.

"Perils of being a hybrid", I answered.

Damon chuckled as he made his way up the stairs, "I was sure that your dad would lock you away in a tower after you disappeared today".

"He ordered me to go to Europe with him".

"He did what…but you can't go to Europe, I doubt Katherine's there and if you want to…"

"I'm not going to Europe, Damon…but I appreciate your reaction", I smirked.

"Daddy dear dropped the issue?"

"I made him drop it".

Damon looked at me and his mouth dropped, "The little honorable vitch compelled her Daddy…I am shocked".

"I am disgusted with myself".

"Oh don't be…everyone does it", Damon said as he waved his hand in the air.

"I don't care, he's my dad and he was only trying to protect me".

"Or trying to ease his case of the guilts".

"What do you know about my dad?" I snapped looking at him.

"Oh Bonnie, I know more about your family than you know…how your mother left him with a 3 year old that he never thought he would have to raise by himself…how he basically pushed you into your grandmother's life and forced her to raise you…I know a lot".

"Ok...fine…but I don't like compelling my dad, but finding Katherine and killing her is more important", I answered.

"So it is…", Damon answered.

"Damon…do you still love her?" I asked looking at him.

I was convinced that I was asking this question to make sure that there would be no doubts about where his loyalty lied when it came time to fight Katherine; but I also wanted to make sure that whatever was going on between us, wasn't some plan to get back at Katherine.

"What I had with Katherine was sick…twisted…and most of all, it wasn't real for her…how could I love her?" he asked.

"That's a perfect non answer", I smirked.

"That's the answer you are going to get".

"And us…what's going on with us?"

"You tell me Bonnie…I've always been grey towards you, but you hated me and now…you can't keep your hands off of me most of the time".

"I can keep my hands off of you".

"Oh really…let's see…the floor of your house…the wall of your house…your bed…the shower at the boarding house…my bed…"

"Damon, it was only twice…"

"Twice…funny math there, wouldn't you say?" he smirked making his eyes blue eyes flicker.

"I don't know what's happening…maybe it's a side effect of turning, my taste in men takes a dive".

"Oh what…Tyler Lockwood was some good upstanding guy?" Damon scoffed.

"Tyler was just a one time thing…you are not a one time thing".

"And what am I, Bonnie?" Damon asked leaning closer to me as I felt my body's temperature shoot up.

I looked at him, "I don't know", I heard myself whisper.

Damon raised his hand to my cheek, "Do you want to know?"

I looked into his ice blue eyes and shook my head, "No", I whispered as he leaned closer to me and kissed me.

As we kissed, I could feel the heat increase as Damon pulled me onto his lap and started trailing his hands up my shirt, "I want you…now", he growled in my ear before place his lips on my neck.

"Damon…we…have…to…stop", I panted.

"Why…we can do what we want now", he said pulling me closer to him.

"Not on my porch", I said tearing myself off of his lap, "definitely not on my porch with my dad inside the house".

"Fine", Damon said standing up, "I guess I should hit up the university for a little co-ed who won't be as prudish about her dad".

"Damon..."

"Have a nice night Bonnie, call me when you find Katherine", he said starting down the stairs.

"Damon…are you seriously going to go find a co-ed right now…after we…"

"After we what?" he asked turning to look at me and challenging me with his eyes.

I opened my mouth, "After we… nothing…have fun…try not to kill her or kill her, I don't care", I said marching over to my door.

"Bonnie!" Damon called behind me.

"What!" I asked turning around to face him.

"Have a nice night", he winked as he disappeared before my eyes.

I blinked a couple of times and then I realized the tears…darn it…I hate being a vampire/witch hybrid!

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"Caroline…you can't ignore us forever", I sighed as Elena and I sat across from Caroline at the Mystic Grille in an attempt to make amends.

"You've been ignoring me for weeks", she pouted.

"We haven't been ignoring you and Caroline, honestly Bonnie's been through a lot over the past couple of weeks…consider her feelings for a couple of moments please", Elena replied.

"Well…I know that you two are keeping something from me and Bonnie, Tyler is worried about you too by the way".

I felt my stomach drop at the sound of Tyler's name, "Why?"

"I don't know, he says that he doesn't really remember the last time you two talked, but he has a feeling that it didn't go well", Caroline answered.

"I will talk to him".

"Good…and I have an idea, since you two feel soo bad for ignoring me lately, we need a girls night redo and I have the perfect idea".

Elena and I exchanged looks, "Umm…and what would that be?" Elena asked.

Caroline response was a grin.

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I twirled around in the new black dress I brought to wear to this college party that Caroline was desperate to drag Elena and me to. I was still trying to locate a spell to find Katherine, but I figured that this night would be good for me. Since that night on my porch, I hadn't heard from Damon. There was a part of me that wanted to dwell on the whys and the fact that I felt like I had a rock in my throat every time I thought about it, but then there was a part of me that wanted to enjoy tonight. Ever since the last girl's night out months ago, my life hadn't been the same. This is the perfect time to play the role of a normal girl. I looked in the mirror and smiled, "Bonnie, you can do this…you can", I whispered.

"Nice dress…are you trying to find you a college guy?" Caroline grinned as she entered my room with Elena.

I looked in the mirror at my very slinky black dress, "No, I just want to have some fun…something that I haven't had in months…I need it…I want it", I smiled.

"And we will make sure that you have it", Elena said hugging me.

"You two have to make sure that I do", I answered as I picked up my purse.

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Caroline drove us to the fraternity house that wasn't far from Mystic Falls, just outside of the city limits. When we pulled up, I could hear the bass from the music from outside and all of the laughing. I could feel a happy feeling come over my body. This was exactly what I needed. We walked inside and immediately was accosted by some frat guys. "Hey Ladies…soo glad that you could make it Candy", the guy said kissing Caroline on the cheek.

Elena and I looked at each other and mouthed, "Candy?"

"Well Josh, you said this would be the best party of the year…so how could I resist".

Josh grinned as he pulled Caroline onto the dance floor.

"So its just us again", Elena smirked, "just like at Ty…"

"You can say it, just like at Tyler's…Elena, we can talk about that night, its ok".

"I know".

"I just rather not talk about it tonight".

"Ok…I think we can accomplish that", Elena grinned as two frat guys, one was absolutely gorgeous with the smoothest caramel skin and big brown eyes, walked over to us.

"Ladies…I'm Rick and this is Victor", one dressed in a red t-shirt with Greek letters said.

"Hi", I smiled looking at Victor, who winked at me.

"We were wondering if you two ladies would like to dance?" Rick asked.

"I'm not much of a dancer", Elena smirked.

"We shall see about that", Rick said pulling her on the dance floor.

I watched Elena on the dance floor with Rick as I sipped on a cup of punch. "So you don't dance?" Victor asked.

"I do…I'm just not right now", I smirked.

"Oh…so tell me…the rumor is that you ladies are high school girls, is that true?"

"High school girls at a fraternity party…surely you jest".

Victor looked at me, "Hmm…well…you sure don't look like a high school girl, you are gorgeous".

"Awww", I grinned smiling from ear to ear.

"You are…but...there is something about your smile…it's not reaching your eyes", he said leaning in closer.

"Nice line".

"It's not a line…what's your name?" he asked.

"Bonnie".

"Bonnie…well…nice to meet you, are you sure you don't want to dance?"

"I am sure".

"Well I'm not exactly into partying either".

"You could have fooled me".

"I'm not lying…I'm actually just here making sure that we don't get sued, that's my job in the house".

"And how are you doing your job by talking to me?"

"Bonnie…come on…give me a chance here, I'm trying to be your friend", he pouted.

I looked at him and smiled, "Fine…fine…we can go somewhere and talk".

"My room?" he asked and rushed to add, "I won't try anything…I promise".

"Don't worry, I can defend myself", I winked as he led me away from the party towards the stairs.

The old Bonnie would have never followed a frat guy to his room after meeting him only ten minutes before; but the old Bonnie is gone.

When we reached his room, I felt my body start to warm up as I looked around. "Well this is cozy", I smiled plopping down in a chair.

"Thanks…"

"And a lot of books…what's your major?"

"Political Science…I'm going to law school after this".

"So you're pretty smart huh?"

"Kind of", he smiled, "so tell me about yourself Bonnie".

"I don't know what to say…"

"How old are you…we can start there?"

"Asking my age may get you into trouble".

"That's what I thought", he nodded , "soo, I know you didn't want to dance downstairs, but how about in here?"

"There's no music in here".

He smiled as he turned on his computer and held out his hand, "Bonnie…want to dance?"

I smiled as I took his hand and we began swaying in his room. I put my head on his shoulder. So this is what it felt like to be normal. This is what it felt like to be with a normal guy. A guy that didn't strike out and hurt you when he feels rejected, a guy who didn't have a joke for everything…a guy who you were sure didn't have ulterior motives…I like this.

As we danced I could feel Victor start to kiss me on my neck. I wrapped my arms around him tighter. I wasn't sure that this was what I should be doing, but I wanted to do this…I need to feel normal again and not have to worry about being a vampire or a witch.

I could feel Victor moving me closer to the bed and I let him guide me as he slowly lowered me to the bed. I could feel his hands trailing up my dress as I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. As soon as my eyes were closed, I saw a flash…a flash of Damon and I…in bed. I sat up suddenly, "I can't do this", I said.

"Bonnie…what's wrong?" Victor asked kissing me.

"I think we should go back downstairs".

"Did I do something wrong?"

"No…no…you did nothing wrong, it's all me", I said sadly.

"So I guess…we can't finish our dance, can we?" he asked.

"We can finish it downstairs", I smiled.

He sighed loudly, "Ok…fine…you know, you're lucky that I care about my future political career, Bonnie".

"Right", I laughed as I followed him out of the room.

By the time I got home, I was exhausted and just wanted to get in my bed. That vision of Damon and me in bed really messed up my entire night. Why is it that when I am with a very handsome, smart, regular guy in his room having him kissing me and I think about Damon? What a way to ruin a perfectly good night and a perfect way to highlight the fact that my life will never be normal again.

I opened the door to my house and closed it slowly behind me. I immediately knew that there was someone inside. "How did you get in?" I asked throwing my bag on the chair and kicking off my shoes.

"Bonnie, you invited me in...remember?" Damon smirked still cloaked in the darkness.

"Remind me to rescind that invitation".

He chuckled, "Oh Bonnie…this is just like old times…so tell me, how was the girl's night out?"

"It was great", I grinned, "I actually met a guy…went up to his room and…"

"And what…played monopoly?" Damon answered.

"If that's what you want to call it", I smirked brushing past him and entering the kitchen. I opened the refrigerator door taking out a bag of blood and emptied it into a mug placing it in the microwave.

"If you expect me to believe that you and some frat guy got it on after just meeting tonight, you must think I'm a fool".

"Hmm…obviously you don't know what I think of you", I said taking a sip of my blood.

Damon rushed over to me and pushed me up against the counter, "Who's the guy?" he asked staring into my eyes.

"None of your business".

"Who's the guy Bonnie?" Damon asked again.

"Who's the girl?" I countered.

"What girl?"

"The girl that you went to find that night when I turned you down on my porch".

"Oh Bonnie, are you jealous?"

"Are you jealous of the guy I was with tonight?"

Damon smiled as he moved closer and sniffed my hair, "You know, I can smell him on you…I can find him and rip his heart out".

"And I could do the same with the girl you've been with".

"There is no girl".

"And you're lying".

"What if I am…I can't believe that you would care, I mean…the thing between us…it's nothing right?" he asked looking down at me.

"I…I wasn't with that guy tonight, so there's no need to find him", I replied moving away from him and sipping my cup of blood.

"Oh I know…no one can compare after you've been with me", Damon smiled, "it's ok Bonnie…you can admit it".

"How is there enough room in my entire house for your head?" I said shaking my head as I walked out of the kitchen.

"Oh come on Bonnie, you can admit it…you like being with me…you feel comfortable around me", Damon sung following behind me.

"Damon…please…"

"I am the only person that you feel as though you can be yourself with…that you don't have to act with".

I swung around to face him, "Fine…you're right…I can be as mean as I want to be with you, I don't have to act like I'm fine with everything with you and yes…I like that".

"And you like seeing me naked".

"I did not say that".

Damon walked over to me and placed his hand on my cheek, "And you like seeing me naked", he repeated.

"I did not say that".

"But I will say it…I like seeing you naked", he said bending down and kissing me.

"Damon", I whispered as he took the cup out of my hand and walked me backwards over to the couch.

"Shh…I think we communicate much better when we're not speaking", he whispered as he went to my neck, lightly nicked it and then licked the blood that trickled out.

You know, as he lifted me up to straddle him, I realized he's right…we do communicate very well without words.