Chapter 13 A Painful Pleasure

Warning sexual content! I just hope it's not too bad, but I need to stop procrastinating. ^-^ For this chapter if anything is in '….' Then it's what's going on inside in Jacobs head.

~Edward~

I just laid there, next to Jacob… listening to only his babbling thoughts. Not knowing how much time had passed or what else was happing in the world, but none of that mattered, only him. I guess I really didn't know how much time had passed, because one second I'm in the bed and next I was thrown against a wall. I looked at the bed and all Jacob did was sit up. His eyes were only focused on whatever was in front of him. He got up and walked as if he were still asleep or a robot. All he was saying in his head was 'hunt… food… find'

I followed; he disappeared out the door and on to the front lawn. Gai was there waiting for something and I realized it was Jacob he was waiting for. Like animals they ran in a pack and hunted the cows one by one… they didn't have a chance. Even after all the hunts I've been on, all the things I've killed, I just couldn't watch what was happening in front of me. So I looked away.

"You know you should eat one too." I looked and Kashi was standing right next to me watching like he'd seen it a hundred times before… and he had, he's probably seen worse too. "You haven't eaten in days, and probably wouldn't have another chance for awhile."

"I'm not hungry…"

"Let's just say, you should eat… It'd be for Jacob's benefit if you did… would you rather be full and out of control or hungry and out of control?"

I didn't say anything I did what was best for Jacob. I eat and watched as Jacob came up to me, blood dripping all the way down his body. He walked past me shifted for only a second. I wondered why? 'Follow… time… come' He shifted just to get his clothes off faster, I realized. I walked closer to him. It hit me, his scent had changed ever so slightly, but it was mouth watering. He ran, I followed. I don't even know where we went… but it didn't matter.

I found him laying on his stomach, ass in the air, on a mossy field waiting for me. 'Come mate…' He wiggled a bit, positioning himself even more. 'Please.' I couldn't control myself. I had to do as I was told and even when I tried to stop, that smell just wouldn't let my body stop. I was behind him with one hand griped on his waste clenched hard, afraid he'd try to get away and I well knew he wouldn't. The other hand was undoing my pants. Without any warning I just pushed in, I knew he was expecting it that way but I was so forceful. There was a ripping sound, scream and a dripping sound. But Jacob didn't care 'MOVE' and I did, with every trust there was ether a crunch, snap, rip, cry, or a hiss… but then there was a moan. It had to have been the best thing I've ever heard. So I continued trusting even harder.

His body is just so warm. There was a howl and he got tighter and warmer. So tight, I had to grip on to one of his shoulders just to push back in. I wasn't going to last much longer and I moaned and released as deep as possible. 'BITE!' he snapped. I didn't have time to think about it he hissed at me to bite him again… so I did, on his left shoulder the one I wasn't holding. He might smell nice but he tasted awful. Jacob breathed a sigh of relief and thought 'thank you' His body went limp and he was unconscious again. 'Must heal'

I came back to my scenes; Jacob's scent went back to normal. I truly didn't want to look at what I had done to my beautiful love but I did. He had bloody and deep scratches all over his back, hand prints where ever I had my hands. His beautiful bronze skin was now purple and blue and who knows how many broken bones, he was so torn up.

I couldn't look at him anymore it was all my fault, and I couldn't stop myself from hurting him and I can't do anything to help him now. All I could do now was bring him home and wait.

And I did.

I'm nothing but a monster.

Jacob, I'm sorry.