Chapter 13

Adrianna POV

I shouldn't have been out here like this, it was the middle of winter and it was freezing cold but for once the sun was out. I had been smart enough to bundle up to try and keep warm.

"You should really be inside where you can stay warm" I didn't say or do anything to make it seem like I had heard Nikolaus, he walked over and sat down next to me on the bench

"So what happened over Christmas break for you to cause that much trouble?" I finally looked at Nikolaus.

We were back at St Vladimir's and classes were starting up tomorrow but I couldn't sleep, I had spent a couple of hours tossing and turning before I came out here.

"Nothing, just kept something from my family that I shouldn't have and it got blown way out of proportion"

"Then how come on the plane ride here I overheard Hathaway, Belikov and your father talking about increasing the amount of Guardians here?"

I looked at him confused, I assumed he knew enough about me to know I was special or did that get kept out of my file? I knew why I had been given him as my mentor, he was one of the best and it didn't matter that he was sent here for his three year stint. My family wanted me to have the best so I did, again this was something I shouldn't know but did anyway.

"What do you know of me? Not my personality"

"Aside from you being an Ivashkov and having the Moroi eye colour trait nothing why?"

"I'm apparently special, I'm assuming you know my dad is a Spirit user?" he nodded at me and I took a breath before continuing. "Well, some of his Spirit ability has been passed to me but we don't know how or why. I have no magic what so ever, the Spirit isn't strong enough"

"How do you know all of this?"

"One of the known Spirit abilities is aura reading, Spirit users recognise each other by this strong gold presence in their auras. Mine has gold as well but not as strong as a proper Spirit user, they don't know why yet. It's why we got paired together"

"Because despite why I'm here I've got the most amount of kills in such a short amount of time"

"Exactly but again I'm not meant to know that, someone knows about me and he's made a threat about coming after me. It's why they want to increase Guardians here so I'm protected, they don't see the point in pulling me from school with only a couple of months left."

"Increasing the amount of Guardians won't help if this person already knows you, think about it. Nearly every single one of the Guardians that do shift work know you sneak out of your dorm and every single one of them know you don't anything but sit here, most of the time you'll talk to me for a few minutes before coming inside. What if that person worked here? What if they spotted you out here, you'd be gone before we realised"

"Is this you trying to convince me to stop sneaking out" I smirked at him and he shook his head.

"This must serious if they're that worried"

"Dad seems to believe that they are a Spirit user as well, between dad and Spence chances are they would have spotted them the same way they spotted me"

"Can a Spirit user change their aura?"

I shrugged, "No idea, I don't know too much about Spirit"

"Is this all why Hasting calls you goldie every now and then?"

"How did you know?"

"I've been in your classes and overheard you and your friends in the cafeteria"

"Yes it's why Spence calls me goldie, it's how we worked out he specialized in Spirit. He can't heal but he does extremely well in his other abilities"

Nikolaus nodded, I guess he wasn't too curious in the whole Spirit thing. "Come on let's get you inside before you freeze"

"I think I'm already frozen" I laughed a little, I ended up being out here a lot longer then I intended to be.

I grabbed Nikolaus' outstretched hand and he pulled me up. "What made you think it was a good idea to come out here anyway?"

"Couldn't sleep and this normally helps" I shrugged and then we headed back to the novice dorms.

When I woke up in the morning I had a message from Spence that I must have missed the night before, I smiled at it before climbing out of bed.

Good morning babe, I missed you over Christmas break. I still can't believe I forgot to give you your Christmas present so I will see you at breakfast.

I didn't reply, I didn't see the point. I honestly figured he would change his mind and end up sleeping through breakfast and I would just see him at lunch but after my morning workout with Bri and Damon I was shocked to see Spence and Bas sitting at our regular table and Josh was laughing with them about something.

Bas was the one to notice me first and he winked at me before turning back to the conversation, Spence must have noticed what he did and he looked up trying to see who Bas was into this time around but he noticed me and a huge smile appeared on his face, I walked over and sat down next to him kissing his cheek.

"Morning, how come you didn't reply to my message?" Spence whispered as he wrapped an arm around my shoulders and kissed my head.

"I thought you sent it last night and figured you would end up sleeping through breakfast like usual, you normally do"

"I guess" Spence grumbled as he retracted his arm and went back to his conversation, I looked over at Bri and she shrugged her shoulders but when I looked over at Damon he didn't look happy.

Nikolaus was right over Christmas break when he said that Bri, Damon and I were protective of each other, more so Damon over us but Damon's past was the reason for that. Bri and I had learnt to deal with it and normally it was fine but of lately with all my issues with Spence Damon had grown more protective and I was working harder to make sure Damon and Spence didn't fight, verbally or physically.

Half way through breakfast Spence and Bas had gotten up saying something about seeing a feeder but when Spence didn't even look my way I was worried, I got up and followed them but Spence didn't say or do anything until I made a grab for his arm in the hallway outside the feeders room.

When I grabbed his arm I must have shocked him and in turn he pinned me against the wall but when he noticed it was me he didn't loosen his grip and the anger didn't leave his face making me wonder if he knew I was following him the whole time.

"You following me back here is the last thing we need right now" he growled at me and it wasn't the usual playful growl he had, he was actually angry with me.

All of this made me wonder what happened to the smile he had when he saw me first thing this morning, I knew I was excited at seeing him for breakfast but he had been acting cold towards me since first arriving and I didn't know what to expect.

"Right, I'll just go" I spoke so quietly it shocked him and when I pushed him away from me I shocked him even more.

I left the hallway heading outside instead of going back into cafeteria not wanting to deal with the questions I knew Bri would have or even the looks that Damon had about knowing I was hurting once again because of something Spence did.

"Dri wait" I stopped walking and placed my head in my hands not wanting to deal with Spence again, not after what he just said.

"No, Spence I'm done with this. I'm sick of the fighting, the lies, the secrets, I'm just done with it all. You need to figure out what the hell you want from me because I'm sick of playing referee between you and Damon, Damon's furious that I'm constantly upset with the idea of us always fighting and you know what? I'm fucking sick of it as well. Now leave me the hell alone!" I snapped at Spence before turning and heading towards the novice dorms to grab my things before class started since I didn't have time after training this morning.

I made it to my room and I wasn't at all surprised when Spence entered behind me, I just wished he had taken what I said and listened. I was sick of us constantly fighting, it was now I realised we weren't going to make it and that's what hurt the most. After almost two years it was ending and I didn't know when it was going to happen.

Spence didn't say anything, he just gripped my wrists and pinned me against the wall before kissing me hard and deep and I couldn't help it when I fell into the kiss and kissed him back. It didn't matter how mad I was at him, this was normal for us.

He lips left mine and travelled down my neck and I couldn't help it when a moan escaped my lips and he ended up moving my legs apart and he pressed himself into me and in turn pressing me harder against the wall.

"I missed you so much" Spence whispered once he pulled his head away from my neck but he still had me pressed against the wall

"Doesn't seem like it" I managed to get out and Spence pulled away from me and my knees went out on me, I didn't realise he was the realise I was still standing upright.

"You didn't reply because you assumed I wouldn't turn up? When have I ever stood you up?"

"You haven't, it's not the point Spence. You never come to breakfast, even at the beginning of last term you skipped breakfast and we didn't see each other all summer. I figured if you wouldn't do it then why now?"

"Because I was worried for what you would be walking into during breakfast, I wanted to be there for you if it turned ugly. I heard people still talking about the rumours last night"

"That's why you snapped at me when I followed you"

"I did and I'm truly sorry for that, I just…I just didn't want people to think anything worse. I was trying to protect you and you following me won't help but did you mean what you said when you said you were done?"

I looked up at him and noticed just how worried he was but what shocked me the most was the fact that he looked like he was on the verge of tears, I had not once seen him cry even when his grandfather passed away last year.

"I don't know, I meant it when I said that you need to work out what you want with me. I can't handle us fighting anymore, I honestly think it's pointless and there will come a point where I can't handle it anymore. There's going to a point where we snap and won't be able to fix things"

"I know babe, I don't want to fight with you anymore. I know I shouldn't have gotten angry with you like I did for following me into see the feeders but I honestly didn't want to make things worse for you and us"

"I know and I trust you Spence, I just don't want to fight anymore and I mean that. Who was speaking of the rumours last night?"

"Bradley"

Bradley fucking Bradley, he was the slime of the senior royal Moroi, back before I started dating Spence he was constantly trying to win me over and when the relationship started that was when things turned nasty. I was thankful he had left me alone all year, I had hoped he had given up on me but with this well it made me wonder if he was the one behind the rumour.

What made all of this worse was that Bradley also happened to be Spence's cousin.

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