Koutai: Woohoo! Nick is alive! Ok, originally I wrote two chapters, one with him alive and one with him dead. My friends read and voted after I changed the names and 60% of them voted for the alive one. Ok, on to the story! Oh, and potter8 is awesome for taking the time to look in the book Brisinger or online to translate my messages for you all at the bottom. Woohoo!
I HAVE NEVER, DO NOT AND WILL NEVER OWN JONAS OR ITS SONGS!!!!
NICK'S POV
I nodded. "I always hated being stuck in bed." I said, pouting a bit. Raven laughed and sat next to me, her back resting on the headboard.
"Do you want us to tell your brothers about you?" She hesitantly asked.
I mulled it over and shook my head. She was right; it was my place to tell them or to show them. But right now, I still wasn't sure about forgiving Joe…that would be the hardest decision I would ever have to make. Raven nodded and scooted down, putting her head on my shoulder and I wrapped my arm around her, still lost in the war of my torn heart. Three days…what am I going to do?
JOE'S POV
I don't know why, but when I woke up, I was hopeful. Hopeful for what, one might ask? I don't know the list off hopes is endless; Nick is alive, Nick will forgive me, Stella will…Ok, I think anyone asking gets the picture. I threw off my covers and got ready for school in record time and watched TV as I waited for Kevin to finish up.
"The Fallen have not been spotted in a few days, until last night that is. Four of the five Fallen have been seen all over town doing small acts of kindness for those in pain or need. The girl rescued a cat from a tree, stopped a group of thugs from beating up a kid, and even spoke briefly to the police before disappearing into the night. Her words are not released but by the sound of it, it was a warning to all abusers. Has the Fallen turned over a new leaf? And where is the fifth? That's all for today, I am Jackie Manse, Reporting live, 8 Action News."
I turned off the TV, my heart falling a bit, but my hopes not dying. This is what I expected to see…even if Nick was alive…the Fallen would still take revenge and stop all of the bad people. In fact, I am surprised Scythe hasn't come calling for us. Maybe Raven stopped him, or maybe Nick lived so his threat would be nothing. I looked around and noticed something was missing.
"Kevin?" I called. He looked up, putting on his sweater. "Where is Nick's guitar?"
Kevin looked away. "I didn't want to tell you this Joe, but Scythe came over yesterday and before he could say anything, I gave him Nick's guitar. Nick would want it in life or death…I know that much about him."
My hope died with that news. So Scythe did come…does that really mean Nick is…Nick…no…I am so very sorry little bro…where ever you are…
NICK'S POV
Everyone except for Raven left for school today. Shadow said he did not want me to be alone quite yet and Raven willingly volunteered to stay behind. As much as I appreciated them doing this, I wish they didn't go through all of this hassle; I've taken care of myself with open injuries all alone before, in fact, I was a pro at it.
Raven was taking a shower and I was still stuck in bed, strumming my guitar to a new tune that has been running through my head ever since I put on that white mask. I wrote down the lyrics in a notebook Raven had found for me and re-read them, titling it "Don't Charge Me for the Crime," and underlining what I imagined Joe would sing…a rapper, maybe Common, could do what I bolded.
This is life in this world
Some things go right
Some things go wrong
It's just how the world can be
People just want to be free
Yeah...
The verdict came in and it said I was guilty
I looked at the judge, "Hey America built me"
Tried to get rich but they labeled me filthy
Only God can judge me, touch me, feel me...
My friend calls me at 9 o-clock
Says, "Get the car it's time to rock"
Never heard him speak this way
I grab the keys and hit the road
It's all a flash but who would know
How the story would unfold
Don't charge me for the crime
(Wrong place, wrong time)
Don't charge me for the crime
(Wrong place, wrong time)
Don't charge me for the crime
My friend gets in the car with bags
Filled to the top with loads of cash
Throws his pistol on the dash
Says, "I'm sorry for the crime
That I've involved you in this time
You're the only friend I've got."
So don't charge me for the crime
(Wrong place, wrong time)
Don't charge me for the crime
(Wrong place, wrong time)
Don't charge me for the crime
I start to freak and scream so loud
Just like the females in the crowd
That's when he gets in my head
You could live just like a king
With everything you'd ever need
All the dreams of every man
Don't charge me for the crime
(Wrong place, wrong time)
Don't charge me for the crime
(Wrong place, wrong time)
Don't charge me...
Siren sound and my heart was poundin'
I looked at my man as the cops surround him
A teen on the scene with no objective
The American dream can be so deceptive
Now I see the flashing lights
There goes my future and my life
Now I've got to do what's right
I stop the car and throw the keys
Out of the window sets me free
I throw the pistol in the back
I throw him out of the car
I Say, "You know me well
I'm not going to jail
I'm not paying your bail"
Believe me when I say
They wont charge me for the crime
(Wrong place, wrong time)
Don't charge me for the crime
(Wrong place, wrong time)
Don't charge me...
Satisfied with the lyrics and the fact I finally got them down on paper, I put the notebook down and strummed a random tune…
I'm a one man show
I don't need no one
I'll be fine alone
Oh yeah
You can call me but
I won't pick up my phone
'Cause I'm a one man show
Oh yeah
I don't need you Joe…
I cringed as my heart protested and my mind agreed. A war within myself, this ought to be interesting…and painful. I started another song, letting my heart chose it for me.
Can't make it alive on my own
But if you have to go, then please Joe
Just leave me alone.
Cause I don't want to see you and me going our separate ways.
I'm begging you to stay
If it isn't too late…
I sighed in frustration and banged my head on the headboard, hating myself for not knowing what I should do. I was Nick Lucas, I always knew what I needed to do, I always knew what was best for me…but now, when I am caught between two lives, I am not so sure…
My heart sings of one emotion and my eyes rain from it. Glistening over and threatening to overspill the barriers I built around my soul. Drowning in it as if it were water and holding it back as successfully as holding back the wind.
Never before have I lost my path as blindly was I have now. Never before have I broken into many pieces of stone. Never before have I let emotions, especially this one, rule my life, change my mind, and confuse my soul. There had always been light, no matter how small, that resided in my being, but all there was to see now was total blackness of a heart torn in two.
The dams of my eyes finally broke, spilling my hot tears against my face as I sat, utterly alone, shrouded in the shadows of my own personal night, unseen, unheard, unloved. Lost in my own sorrow of being eternally lost.
I was happy Raven wasn't here, but then again, I did not wish to be alone. I did not want to make this decision alone, though I knew it was only mine to make. If I revealed myself to Joe, then my parents would come for me and force me home, or try to. And if I stuck with the Fallen, my family would be broken about a false death.
I heard Raven enter and I tried to compose myself…and failed terribly. She wrapped her arms around me and whispered sweet nothings in my ear.
"I don't know what do Raven." I told her, uncaring how broken my voice sounded.
"You may not now, but when the time is right, you will. For now Nick, follow your heart." She whispered.
Follow my heart? My heart told me to go home, hear Joe out, give him a chance…but it also told me to be careful; I won't be able to take another let down on his part. They broke me enough…but then why did I want to go back?
And what of Raven, Omega, Shadow and Scythe? I couldn't leave them…not right now. They were the closest thing I had to an actual family. They took me in and helped me. Saved me from myself as well as Joe's rage.
What do I do? Why me?
RAVEN'S POV
My heart wept for Nick as I watched him cry from frustration, uncertainty, and fear. I wished I could help him, but it was not my place. Only he can make this choice, and whatever choice he makes, I will always stand by his side, as will the others. I know Nick knows this, but right now, he is too strung up to see it.
I flashed back to the lullaby I used to sing to Noah when he was scared or sick. I found myself singing softly into Nick's ear.
Cierras ya tus ojitos.
Duermete sin temor.
Sueña con angelitos
parecidos a ti.
Y te agarrare tu mano.
Duermete sin temor.
Cuando tu despiertes,
yo estare aqui.
He pulled away and looked at me, his eyes still wet. "What does that mean?"
I smiled and brushed a loose curl from his face. "It means; Close your eyes little one and sleep. And dream while the angels watch over you. I will hold your hand. And when you wake with the morning, I'll still be here. I used to sing that to my little brother before he passed away."
Nick nodded and wiped his eyes. "Sorry for breaking down like that." He started.
I shook my head. "Everyone, even the great Nick Lucas, has to cry sometimes."
MACY'S POV
School was boring today. I missed my Calculus buddy and judging by the way our teacher always looked at Nick's seat when he asked a question, he did too. I walked by Joe and Kevin and greeted them and only Kevin responded. They missed Nick too, which is odd…I thought Joe hated Nick…or did something happen? I looked around and saw the hall was empty.
I pushed Joe roughly into the lockers and he grunted in surprise.
"Macy what?"
I silence him. "Where is Nick, what did you do to him?"
So they told me, everything, and my heart broke about fifty times as I thought of my crush, lying somewhere in the ground, never to move again.
But I did not cry, though I wanted too. I looked away from Joe, letting him fall go and took a few steps away, averting my gaze. I now knew, even though I did not want too…at least, now I didn't. Ignorance is truly bliss.
"So, two more days?" I asked. Kevin nodded.
Stella walked into the hall, saw me and ran forward, and then saw Joe, but not before I grabbed her.
"Listen to Joe's story Stells, please?" I begged. She nodded, only because she couldn't break my grip.
So Joe told her and Stella actually did cry and hugged Joe tightly, sobbing into his shoulder.
"I had no idea…I am so sorry Joe!" Stella ranted. Kevin and I left them and walked into the atrium.
He turned to me. "So Mace, how long?"
"How long what" I questioned, although knowing what he was going to say.
"How long have you had a major non-fan-girl crush on Nick?"
I acted surprised, "What makes you say that? I don't…" I trailed off as he raised his eyebrows and crossed his arms. "Fine…about a year ago actually, when we started having classes together and became secret friends. He told me a lot you now…more than I wanted to hear, but I listened anyway, knowing he would never tell anyone else this."
Kevin was thoughtful and silent. "What did he say?" He finally asked, but he looked torn between wanting to hear, and wanting to run.
I played with my hands. "How much he hated his life...he always asked me why him? Why did God put him in the one family that hates his guts for no reason? He also mentioned once how much he wished he had brothers that loved him…"
NICK'S POV
The gang came home with all of Raven's and my missed work…fun. And to think, I would be doing Calculus without Macy…
When I thought her name my heart ached with loneliness. I missed my best friend…the one person I had before all of this started. The only one who was brave enough to stand up to my brother's for my sake. I though of her heart shaped face, large brown eyes and her smile that could brighten the darkest of my days. I missed her…
"Any news?" I asked the boys.
"Joe and Kevin seem pretty shaken up still. They told Macy and Stella and Joe and Stella are back together. That's about it. Oh and your Calculus teacher wishes you a speedy recovery." Scythe summed up.
I nodded, though a bit surprised at Joe telling Stella and Macy. Shadow asked if he could check my bandages and I nodded, lifting my shirt. He gently undid the white strips and inspected my side. I finally looked down at it, pleased with what I saw.
It was just a line, a scar with stitches. Yeah it still hurt a bit if I moved wrong or was on my feet for too long, but other than that, it was fine. Shadow smiled.
"I think the stitches can come out in two more days. Just to be safe." He informed us. I nodded and Omega clapped, causing Raven to giggle and Scythe to chuckle. "In fact in to days, you can go back to school…granted in two days it's a Friday…"
"I'll go." I finished. Shadow laughed.
I have two more days…will my heart make the deadline?
Koutai: Boring I know. Next chapter will be epic and I really want to write it! And the one after that too! Yay! Until next update!
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