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Realisation

"Bella! Bella, wake up."

I groaned uneasily, I felt like I'd been run over by a speeding train. Every muscle in my body ached and my head was throbbing worst of all.

"Wha-what?" I managed to stutter.

"Oh, Bella! Thank God you're all right. I thought they'd killed you!"

I lifted my heavy eyelids to see Emily leaning over me. Her face were pinched, like she'd been crying. Why? I thought, managing to congregate a thought through the haze of pain.

Then it came flooding back to me.

Leaving Edward in the woods.

Being attacked by Paul, and perhaps Sam as well?

I tried to sit up, but had to lie back down again as a wave of queasiness rolled through my sore body. Emily's hands fluttered uselessly over me, she didn't know what to do.

"What happened?" I croaked.

"Paul attacked you, and Sam tried to pull him back. But he pulled too hard and they both fell on top of you. I don't think being hit by two heavy werewolves was very good for you."

"No, it wasn't." I managed a weak smile, "But why am I still alive? Why didn't Paul kill me?"

"Three of the Cullens came smashing into the clearing and yanked the guys away from you. I pulled you to the side, and then they all ran off through the trees. What has been going on here, Bells? Why didn't you tell me they were back?"

I ignored her question and managed to sit up properly.

"Which Cullens were here?"

"Um, the big muscled one, the thin blond one, and the leader."

What?

Normally, I would've worried about Emmett, Jasper and Carlisle getting hurt. Or about Jake, perhaps he was fighting them? But these things were eclipsed by the one question that blazed painfully through my numb head.

Where was Edward?

Surely he would've wanted to save me? Had I hurt him that badly?

Sadness, guilt and a searing pain swept through me. What had I done?

In that moment, I made a subconcious, instantaneous decision. I needed Edward.

"Where's Edward?"

"Edward? I didn't see him."

I jumped to my feet, ignoring the pain that coursed from the top of my head to the tip of my toes. I had to find him. What if he did something rash? I began to run back through the trees, following the nearby trail this time.

"Bella?" Emily called, coming up behind me. "Where are you going?"

"I have to find Edward." I said, before rushing on.

"Fine! But you have to explain this to me later. I'll stay here and wait for Sam and Paul to come back."

I kept on running, not bothering to reply as Emily disappeared from view. Normally, I would have felt guilty for leaving her. But I had no time.

I saw Edward's pain-stricken face in my head. His eyes burning into mine as I'd walked away. I hadn't meant it, not at all. It was a spiteful way of showing how he had made me feel a year ago. It had been selfish and wrong of me.

My heart hammered as I flew through the trees, he wouldn't be that stupid, would he? Part of me knew he would, he had already contemplated suicide once that day. So I kept running, my breath coming in sharp bursts.

I couldn't live without him. What had I done?

Please, God. I begged PLEASE.

I battered through the thinning undergrowth, until I came to the place that we had parted.

The sun was setting now, I must have been unconscious for a while.

It was twilight again, the end of another day.

As my eyes focused on the area, I screamed. I heard it echo back in the silence, as the wind shook the leaves behind me.

Edward was where I'd left him. His bronze hair shining in the remaining sunlight.

I'd never seen anything so beautiful, or so sad.

It was Edward.

My Edward.

Lying motionless in the grass.

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