Thinking Out Loud Chapter 13 Lovers On The Sun, a true blood fanfic

A/N: Sorry it took so long to update! I've been busy (at least that's what I tell myself...) and there's few things that have changed. I've changed my pen name from Eirasmom to momostly, rating has been changed from T to M and the story has a beta now, thank you ElvenVamp!

Chapter 13. Lovers On The Sun

Let's light it up

Until our hearts catch fire

Then show the world a burning light

That never shined so bright

We'll find a way

To keep the cold night

From breaking in over the walls onto the wild side

The hunger satisfied

We're burning up

We might as well be lovers on the sun

We'll never know

What stands behind the door

But I got a feeling and it's a feeling that's worth dying for

Just close your eyes and hold your breath because it feels right

We'll keep it moving until we make it to the other side

And let's enjoy the ride

Godric came back to the house at some point while Eric and I watched Twilight. When he entered the living room, he gave both of us curious looks. Eric turned to look at him. "Do not leave me with her again, master! She made me watch the movie with sparkling vampires."

I faked a shocked gasp, "He's lying, he wanted to watch it! He even told me to shut up so that he could focus!" I said pointing at Eric, who sent me a glare. "By the way Godric, where were you?"

"I took to the skies, it helps me to clear my head. Perhaps you would like to join me next time?" He asked and I nodded my head up and down eagerly. "Really? Of course I would!" I beamed brightly as Eric just rolled his eyes and stood up. "I will take my leave now, master." He said, bowing his head in respect. Godric nodded. "Yes, thank you. I will be in touch." Eric smiled before disappearing out the door and into the night.

Godric sat down next to me. "How was Eric?"

"I mean it was overall okay and he's never going to really like me, but we did talk." I said and he looked thoughtful for a moment. "He should like you."

I sighed, my brows furrowed in disagreement. "You know you can't force people to like me. It just doesn't work like that."

"He would try if I told him to." He stubbornly said to me and I just looked at him. Godric truly could be a child sometimes and I wondered just how many arguments he and Eric have had in the past. Probably beyond the count of many.

"Well I don't want you to. We get along, that's enough. We don't have to be best friends."

His face scrunched up before saying, "Very well. I will do what you wish this time." I just couldn't help myself and playfully flirted, "Oh no, you do what I wish all the time."

He smiled teasingly, "But that would be too boring, now would it not?" I laughed, "No way! I would have someone to order around and make my every wish come true." Although his face became stoic, his eyes still held that playful glint as he whispered, "And what would you wish for?"

I blushed. He had suddenly become very close to me, leaning even closer to my face, never breaking eye contact. I stared, frozen, suddenly remembering the dreams I had of him every time I closed my eyes. The way his hands and lips moved on my skin, doing things to me I didn't know were even possible. "I think you know." I managed to breathe out.

He smirked, looking satisfied and took my face between his hands, leaning in and pressing his lips against mine. I immediately responded to the kiss by parting my lips and giving his tongue access to my mouth. My arms snaked around his neck, bringing him closer to my body and I moved to straddle his lap. My passion was returned eagerly as his hands grasped at my blond locks.

Godric de-tangled his hands from my hair, downward until they reached the hem of my shirt, slipping underneath. I sighed in pleasure as his cool fingers caressed my bare stomach, feeling a sudden ache in my lower abdomen. His nostrils flared, smelling my arousal, and his fangs came down with a loud 'click', accidentally nicking my bottom lip. He licked the red bead of blood and let out a pleased growl. I weaved my hand into his hair, feeling the softness of it, while Godric's fingers had found their way under the back of my bra. Within seconds he had unclipped them and I shivered when he started lifting my shirt above my head as the cool air hit my skin.

When my shirt and bra were out of the way, a sudden wave of self consciousness hit me as not many people had ever seen me like this, and I considered myself very inexperienced when it came to pleasing men. Godric broke the kiss, seeing that I needed to breathe, and I moved my arms to cover my bare chest, but he grabbed them before I could.

"Why do you hide yourself from me?" He inquired and I looked away, feeling embarrassed. "I've never done this before and I'm not attractive like you and I'm just not used to people looking at me... like this," I rambled on.

"You are very much attractive and you should not think so lowly of yourself." He objected, releasing one of my arms, and delicately tracing the side of my right breast with his fingertips. My gaze snapped back to him, my breath hitching. His eyes were dark with desire, lips slightly parted and fangs out. In my eyes he appeared to be fierce and wild, almost like an animal but still somewhat... lonely. For the few moments we stared at each other, our breaths the only sounds that could be heard. I was still on his lap, so I made the advance, dipping my head down and capturing his lips with my own.

Godric finally released my other arm and I brushed both of my hands underneath his shirt, feeling his toned muscles. His light caresses on my breasts sent shivers of pleasure through me as I turned my head to the side when he moved his mouth to lick and nip the sensitive skin on my neck. I tugged at his shirt and he stopped his ministrations on my neck to lift his arms so that I could take it off. I discarded the piece of fabric on the floor, marveling his sculpted torso.

My lips found their way to the side of his neck, and I licked the cool skin, tasting him. I nipped the skin gently and he let out a low growl, making me smile against his skin. His hands moved to my sides and he easily lifted me up from his lap, laying me down on the couch. His eyes raked up and down my torso, making me blush once again. I had noticed the bulge in his pants and when he was about to lie on top of me I pushed against his chest. "Take those off." I whispered, glancing at his pants.

He looked at me before standing up and starting to undress. When he had gotten rid of his pants and boxers, I gulped. He was huge, not that I had anything to compare it to, but I was sure that not all men matched his size and it made nervous. When he looked hesitant, sensing my nervousness, I lifted my hips up. "Mine too." He reached down, slowly unbuttoning and pulling them off, looking at me all the while, until I was left only in my panties.

I reached my hand out, grabbing him by the arm and trying to tug him closer. He climbed on top of me and I placed my legs around him, yearning for him in a completely new way. I wanted him, all of him, closer and more than ever before. The look on his face confirmed that he wanted me just as much. I pulled him in for a hungry kiss, sucking his bottom lip while his hands roamed my body until he shifted his weight to the side and I felt him rip off my panties with ease. He touched me like no one had ever before, caressing, teasing, making me writhe underneath him and when I finally felt one finger sheathed inside me, I gasped.

He moved his finger slowly in and out, before adding another one and I arched my back when a strange feeling of pleasure surged through me. "Please," was all I could say, the need for him growing. "Are you sure?" He asked and I hurriedly nodded. And I was ready, all my nervousness gone. I knew it was going to hurt, but that it would be worth it, especially when it was Godric. I opened my legs wider as he positioned himself at my entrance, his gaze intense. He slowly bent down to kiss me before slowly pushing himself inside.

I knew he was being as gentle as he possibly could but it still stung and I closed my eyes tightly when I felt him start to move. We continued the sweet kiss and after awhile the pain slowly subsided as the pleasure quickly replaced it. My hips moved to meet with his thrusts, first in a slow and careful pace, but then faster as his hands moved from my thighs to my hips, helping me move easier. I had decided to do this with a vampire so I bared my neck to him. "Bite me." I knew those two words were all he needed, knowing that I wanted this just as much. I felt his tongue lick the skin on my neck before fangs sunk in and with one deep thrust he hit a spot inside me I didn't know even existed.

The feeling stole my breath away completely, I felt everything and nothing at the same time, losing myself in the amazing sensations and I think some sort of an embarrassing sound escaped from my mouth, but at that moment I didn't care. It was just him and I, and nothing had ever felt better.

When I came down from my high, Godric was licking the last drops of blood from the side of my neck. I felt him stll inside me as he lifted his head to look at me. "Are you feeling well?" He asked, his eyes soft as I probably had a goofy smile on my face, but I was happy and he looked pleased as well so I pulled him closer, kissing him leisurely and I felt him smile against my lips.

I don't know how long we stayed that way, but at some point I fell asleep, feeling him caress my sides, with long, gentle strokes.

I woke up when I felt Godric kiss me, nipping my bottom lip. "Dawn is close. Will you join me in the basement?" He asked and I nodded. My old bed had been moved down to the basement when my dad had gotten me a new one, it was small but Godric and I would just fit in it. We both stood up and I felt somewhat sore, but I didn't mind. We walked downstairs to the basement completely revealed to the world but strangely enough, I didn't feel the slightest embarrassed.

We lay down on the bed, and Godric put his arms around me. I buried my face against his chest, feeling tired but peaceful. "Sleep well." He whispered into my ear as I closed my eyes, falling to a dreamless slumber.

When I woke up, I immediately panicked. Something was holding me down and I wasn't in my room but somewhere cold and dark. I took a deep breath and smelled... Godric? and then I remembered last night. We had had sex, made love, or whatever you want to call it and that goofy grin from last night returned to my face.

I looked up to see Godric's face and I noticed he was still in his day rest, looking somewhat different from how he did when he was awake, more peaceful. His entire face was relaxed, lips slightly parted and he looked beautiful. I tried to reach out my hand to touch his face but noticed that he had his arms around me in a steel-like grip, effectively keeping me from moving. I frowned, not that I had something against staying here next to him but I really had to take care of my human needs and I was craving for my coffee.

I tried poking his chest, prodding anywhere I could reach which only made me giggle hysterically when nothing happened. Eventually I was able to wiggle my body free and I stood up, stretching my limbs and heading upstairs. The area between my legs felt somewhat sensitive, proving that last night definitely wasn't just another torturous dream but very much real, and I happily skipped upstairs toward the bathroom to take a long, warm shower.

The warm spray felt good on my skin and I sat down on the tile floor, relaxing. I wondered what would happen next between Godric and I, how should I behave around him, I didn't even know what we were. This was all very new to me, what if things were awkward between us, or worse, he regretted what happened? I knew I sure didn't. We might not be a couple in a traditional way but having sex changed things, right?

I stood up, sighing, and turned the shower off. I was over thinking things, everything would probably be just fine.

After I dried myself and got dressed, I went back downstairs to make my coffee and to eat something. I hadn't eaten nearly as much as I should have lately, but I had had other things to do and had just forgot to eat.

While I waited for my coffee, I checked the fridge and noticed it was almost empty, I had even forgot to go shopping. Finally I decided to just go with some cereal, since I still had some milk left that was not spoiled. I grabbed the coffee and cereals and sat down, and suddenly felt cool arms snake around me, making me let out a surprised yelp. I looked over my shoulder to see Godric's face inches away from my own and I automatically blushed. "Don't sneak up on me!"

He just chuckled. "Hello to you too." I smiled. I definitely felt somewhat embarrassed, not sure what I was supposed to say. To break the awkward silence, he leaned forward and kissed me. I was too surprised to do much more than stare until he broke the kiss and asked "Do you want to go flying with me tonight?"

I nodded eagerly, suddenly feeling very excited. "Yeah! I'll just eat first and then we can go." He let go and smiled, "Yes, no need to rush. We have all night." He sat down on to the stool next to me, watching closely while I ate.

When I was done, I stood up and plopped the dishes into the sink, not bothering to wash them. I turned to face Godric. He stood up, offering his hand to me. "Shall we depart?" I took his hand and he lifted me up into his arms bridal style, before speeding out of the house vampire speed style.

When we were outside, Godric took up in the air toward the sky with such a speed it took my breath away. Stars illuminated the otherwise dark night and when he slowed down, I took a good look around us. We were above a forest, floating in the air and not a single sound heard, except the rustling from the trees which swung in the wind. I looked up to meet Godric's gaze. He watched me, with a strange look in his eyes and I stared back. I had seen handsome men before, but none of them compared to Godric. He was unique.

I looked around before I spotted a nearby body of water. "There's a pond nearby, can we go there?" I asked him, pointing to it. I was getting a bit dizzy from the heights and felt I needed solid ground under my feet. He nodded. It didn't take us long to reach it and I took a deep breath when we landed, smelling the forest that surrounded us. Godric let me down but kept his arm around me. I was glad for the support, since my feet felt shaky.

We sat down facing the bond, with the moon was reflecting off its surface, making me smile. "It's really beautiful out here." I whispered. Godric turned his head to look at me and was about to say something but was interrupted by a rustling sound from nearby bushes. We immediately stood up, me startled and Godric ready to attack if need be.

A man emerged from the surrounding woods, except that he was no man, but a fae, the very same one we had encountered in the clearing where I had first met Godric. His cold blue eyes scanned Godric before landing on me. "I see the curse did not work as I hoped. You are not dead." He said shaking his head disappointedly.

"You did this?" I hissed at him, slightly surprised by my own reaction but too angry to care. The fae looked amused by my words, "Obviously. Death boy over there was supposed to slaughter everyone in his way, including you. What an enchantress you are, to get him to spare you." He laughed and I could feel my blood boil, for the first time in my life I was ready to kill a person. A sound close to a snarl escaped from my throat and the fae looked dumbfounded when he saw fangs descent from my gums.

"What the hell are you?" He asked taking on a defensive stance. However before I could even utter a word, Godric sped toward the fae faster than my eyes could follow, stretching his hand out to grab the fae by the throat. I could see a smirk on the fae's face before a bright light flashed and Godric froze mid-stride, just inches away from him. The fae took a step toward Godric and grabbed his immobile wrist, twisting until it let out a sickening snapping sound, the bones breaking. "You are no match for me leech, your presence surprised me last time but it won't happen again. Now, be a good boy and stay still." The fae mockingly teased, letting Godric's wrist go and patting his head as if he was a dog.

"Release him and give him back his memories and I'll come with you, willingly." I offered him desperately, I couldn't let Godric get killed because of me. "And why would I? I have him right where I want him and even those fangs won't make you dangerous." He rebutted, looking highly dis-interested at what I could possibly say to make him reconsider.

"That's where you're wrong. I have fae royal blood coursing through my veins and have mated with a two thousand year old vampire, I dare say you are no match for me now." I had no idea how to use my powers but the fae obviously didn't know that since he noticeably paled before a dubious smile rose to his lips. "You are lying. There is no way for you to have mated with a vampire."

"I'm not lying. But go ahead, test me, I don't mind getting rid of your miserable existence." I said shrugging my shoulders, trying to appear relaxed. The fae looked thoughtful for a moment before coming to a some sort of a conclusion. "Fine. I have no use for him anyway." He reached out and touched Godric's forehead and a beam of light burst out from his fingertips sending Godric flying in the air.

I ran up to where Godric landed on the grass, kneeling down next to him and shaking his shoulders gently. "Godric! Are you okay?" He didn't respond to me in any way but just laid there motionless, not even opening his eyes. I moved my gaze to look at the fae's mocking face. "If he's hurt the deal is off and you won't make it out here in one piece." I threatened him, my eyes tearing up.

"Oh please, he'll wake up soon. Don't be such a drama qu-" He was cut off by fangs piercing his throat, ripping it open. I screamed, there was blood gushing from the gruesome wound as two blond figures attacked the fae, drinking his blood down, making loud slurping noises. It didn't take long for the fae's body to be drained of all its blood and turn into a pile of dust.

The two figures stood up looking a bit unsteady and I sighed, relieved. "Eric! Pam! How did you find us?"

Eric smirked while Pam just let out an unexpected giggle and licked her bloody lips. "Oh Eric, that was the best I've ever had! What was he?"

Eric's eyes landed on Godric as he staggered toward us, ignoring Pam. "Did that son of a bitch do this to him?" He asked me and I stared at both them, confused by their behavior. "What's wrong with you guys?" As soon as the words left my mouth, Godric stirred and opened his eyes looking around him frantically.

"Thank god you're okay! I wasn't sure the fae kept his word, how do you feel?" I asked, helping him sit up. He didn't say anything for awhile and just stared at the ground, looking confused. After a moment he turned to face Eric who tried to keep himself balanced. "What happened?" He asked with a quiet voice. "After you were knocked out Eric and Pam came out of nowhere and drained the fae, and now they're...well, like this." I said motioning toward Pam who laid on the ground talking to herself.

"It is the fae blood. They are high from ingesting such a large amount of it. My son, take Pamela to your safe house, she can not take care of herself right now." Godric told Eric who nodded his head before walking up to Pam and lifting her up into his arms. He glanced at us one last time before speeding off into the woods.

Finally Godric turned to me with an unreadable expression on his face. "You remember." I stated and he nodded. "Yes. I apologize for not being able to protect you, I have failed you."

I frowned, there was nothing he could have done and I didn't blame him for anything. "It wasn't your fault. Besides we're both alive, isn't that what matters?" I asked and he looked away, sighing. "Of course. But if it wasn't for you and Eric, we wouldn't be."

I stood up and shrugged. "These things happen. Right now I think we should get back to the house." Godric stood up as well, still avoiding my gaze. "I think it would be for the best if I stayed with Eric and Pamela tonight."

I laughed at my own stupidity, of course he would want to look after them at the state they were in! "Sure, when will you come back?" I asked and Godric finally looked at me before sighing again. "I will be returning to my house. It is better I distance myself."

"What are you saying?" I was feeling confused, what did he mean by distance?

"I believe things have gone slightly too far between us, I have not been myself due to my memory loss and have done things I would have not."

I suddenly felt nauseous, his words sinking in. "So, you don't want me? Look, if this is about what happened with the fae, I'm not blaming you for anything!"

"It is not related to what happened tonight. I have not developed feelings for you, therefore I would not wish to continue this any further. I will watch over you to prevent any further attacks but that will be all."

I was at a total loss of what to say. He was telling me that everything we've been through and done together meant nothing to him. I tasted my own tears before even noticing I was crying, I felt more betrayed than ever. I had given him everything, my trust, even my goddamn virginity and he didn't want to see me again?

"You're joking right?" I asked with a shaky voice and my heart sunk when he didn't answer.

I couldn't look at him anymore, so I turned away wiping my face clean from the tears. "Okay, I get it. I-I think I can find my way back." I said and before Godric had a chance to say anything I ran in to the woods as fast as I could, wondering just how did things change so quickly between us?

The lyrics are from a song called Lovers On The Sun, by David Guetta