Happy Mother's day Everyone! :) I hope you're all having a great weekend.
thanks for the reviews! :) I hope this one isn't too bad..
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Tilly just got home from Uni, she obviously didn't make it to her first class but pleased to know it was just a lecture which she doesn't really mind missing. Her and Jen exchange text throughout the day as both promised.
Arriving at the flat, she could hear people laughing not really sure who it is. Esther and George shouldn't be home just yet. After removing her coat she went straight to the kitchen where the noise is coming from.
'Hey babe' Esther cheerfully said hauling Tilly giving her a full on kiss on the lips. This amused Esther's friends.
Tilly was taken aback by Esther's exploit, she didn't really want to respond to the kiss but choose to not reject her in front of her friends.
'So guys, this is my girlfriend Tilly' Esther proudly introduces.
'Oh really? We would've not guessed it!' One her friend joked causing them to all laugh aside from Tilly.
' ermm, so what's the occasion? Wine and shots in the middle of the day?' Tilly asked
' Nope, no occasion. Uni was done early so i thought I invite this guys over for a quick drink, later we'll hit the club. Want to join us babe? Esther replied who look rather happy and careless compare to her mood last night.
'I have work in an hour, sorry.' tilly cringe.
'Call in sick or tell them you have Uni still' Esther suggest.
'Yes, come on Tilly.' One of Esther's friend agreed
Tilly frown, not quite sure about Esther's boldness today. She's not typically a party girl and definitely not on weekdays when she has Uni the next day. Even asking Tilly to skip work, something's not quite right. Tilly thought.
'Ah, no, not today sorry. And it's only Thursday. Some other time, maybe?' she respond. Then she looks at Esther.
'I was hoping i could talk to you if you got a minute?'
Esther finished off her glass of wine before responding to Tilly.
' hmm.. Sure babe. Where do you want to do this? She openly said
'Waahheey, go get a room you two.' Came from one of her friends causing another fit of laughter.
'Oh you guys stop it, be back in a little while, help yourself.' She winks with the look of naughtiness which causes her friends to cheer.
Tilly watched her the whole time, surprised by Esther's forwardness. She's never seen Esther act like this. Though it's unusual, she's a bit happy Esther's making friends. Today though she was set to be honest with her, there was no going back. There's no waiting another day or two, because the guilt is weighing so much on her. It might have been too low of her to trust these groups of friends Esther have, but she was hoping she can confide with them. Besides they're all girls and aside from wanting to party in the middle of the day, they seems nice.
As they got to the bedroom, Esther slowly move towards Tilly wrapping her arms around her waist and went for a kiss. Tilly looked away dodging the kiss.
'Hard to get eh? Esther mumbled kissing her neck. Tilly gently pushed her.
' Esther, I.. Ahm.. Tilly can't find the right words.
'What? Esther frowns
' I can't.' her eyes twitching a little, she hates doing this.
'You can't what?'
'I can't be intimate with you anymore.' She begins.
'But why? Esther said with shaky tone, she's hurt from the rejection and for Tilly to tell her they can't be intimate. She's close to tears but held it back wanting to listen.
' I..' She swallowed hard, ' I don't think this is working Esther, Us. I don't want to be unfair to you, you are giving me more than what I deserve and I just can't return it back. And the fact that I wasn't as loyal as you think in the past couple days, it kills me that I did this to you. And I want to put an end to my lies so I think it's best if we, If possible go back to just being friends.' The whole time Tilly was talking, Esther was looking straight at her, she felt numb, and her eyes filled with tears afraid to blink as her tears would escape easily into her cheeks. She had hoped to look tough, but she's failing miserably.
She did heard Tilly and George's conversation the other night, she knew this was coming but when the moment finally arrived she's shattered, she loves Tilly so much that losing her felt like she just died. Then she recollected the conversation she heard, so Tilly is still in love with her old flame, she didn't have any idea it was Jen. Tilly did mention being in a few short relationships on her first year in Uni which she automatically assumed it was one of them.
'You cheated on me?' she cried
Tilly can only look down, she has to come clean now if she genuinely care for Esther's feelings. Lifting her head, she gasps.
' I don't know how to start, but it's Jen…. She…'
' what? Esther cuts her out, she had the look of fury in her.
'Miss Gilmore?' She asked with an angry tone.
'Listen to me..' tilly begs.
'No! Are fucking kidding?' she spat out.
'No.. Listen. She works at the Pub, ok' Tilly trails, trying so hard to catch Esther's attention who is now intensely pacing the floor.
'Oh my God! She stops pacing and looked at Tilly shaking her head.
' No it's not what you think! Tilly argued
' Not what I think? Tilly are you screwed? So how long have you been working there, almost a month now right? So that's how long you've been fucking with me then!' Esther by now is deeply mad.
' Nooo… Tilly argued.. 'When i found out that she's working at the pub, I wanted to tell you right away but what's the point when I am definitely not taking the job anyways knowing she works there. But..
'But what, you wanted her back so you go behind my back like we aren't together? Is that what happened?' Esther snap her mid-sentence.
'Esther trust me, It wasn't my intention to hurt you. I was only going to try and help her. She was being made fun of, I guess I felt so bad for her. I know it's a lame excuse but it made me realize that i still have strong feelings for her. 'Tilly looked away after her last words, she knew it was too much for esther to handle.
Esther stared at her, tears wear gushing down her cheeks. The look of sorrow and rage is quickly increasing inside of her.
' I can't believe you have done this to me tilly, of all people. She sniffs.
'Esther, I am so sorry.. Believe me, I didn't do it to hurt you. I've been meaning to tell you this sooner but i just didn't have the guts to do it. I swear i didn't mean to do this to you, it would only be unfair to you if we continue to be together and I don't feel as strong as you do towards me ' she tried to reach out for Esther but she moved back raising her hands up.
'Don't you touch me! She howls
' fuck Tilly, really? Jen?'
' that bitch almost ruined your future, don't you remember what she's done to you, to me?' She tried to lighten up Tilly's mind.
But Tilly already know all of this, it does looks stupid of her to be getting back with Jen after everything she's done to her but she's got her personal reasons. She won't be discussing it with Esther at this moment.
' Esther, I'm so sorry.. She cried, i swear to you i didn't mean to drag you in this situation.'
As mad as Esther felt, she truly love Tilly, she wants to fight for what they had.
' no tilly, listen' hey maybe you're confused. Esther step closer to Tilly cupping her face. ' after what she's done, i mean' how can you still feel anything but resentment towards her?' Esther tries desperately to convince her.
Tilly shakes her head.
'Sometimes I wish I did but the whole of me says otherwise.. she carefully respond.
' I'm soo sorry.. ' Was all tilly could say as she cried giving Esther a tight embrace..
When Esther realize Tilly was dead serious about this she forced her way out of the embrace, as it's starting to feel like a parting hug.
Not saying a word she left the room.
'Esther wait.' Tilly shouts, but Esther quickly disappeared downstairs.
She composed herself then followed her downstairs.
'Let's go' Esther told her friends. They weren't sure of what's happening. Esther walks out of the flat, so they just followed her.
Tilly was too late, they were gone when she made it downstairs.
She slump herself on the kitchen chair and sobbed. 'What have I done' she whispered.
Half an hour later Tilly pulled out her phone. She called George letting him know she's done it. He said he tried to get a hold of Esther with no luck. They decided to let her settle down, hoping she'll come back home that night or the next day.
Tilly was debating if she would skip work today and go find Esther. She can't calm down until she knows she's safe, she won't be able to forgive herself if anything happens to her. She tried to call Esther's phone a couple times but it's going straight to her voicemail.
Then her phone starts to vibrate, it's a text message from Jen.
' Hey, just letting you know I switched sched with Kent so I will be working with you tonight. I can't wait to see you in a bit. x Jen'