A/N
Sorry this story hasn't been updated lately. Been trying hard to update.

Logans POV

I stared at Kendall while he slept. He looked like an angel. I felt my heart throb a little as the fan swirled above us, gently lifting Kendall's soft hair. I longed to thread my fingers through his hair.

I slowly sat up, so the bed wouldn't squeak and make Kendall think I was trying to do something. He always slept light now, listening just in case I tried to keep up my purging addiction. It really stressed him out, but no matter how much I lied and said I wouldn't, he continued. He could see through me. I hated that he tried. I hated it because now that I'd started eating again, I'd gained all the weight I'd lost.

My belly would be a small round bump after meals and I hated the feeling of being full. I felt so awkward, walking through the halls. I tried to hide how much I ate, complaining I couldn't do it, that I was fat.
Kendall always tried to reassure me, but I always turned him away. I liked to focus more on my homework and schoolwork, but my thoughts nagged at me.

How many times had Kendall slipped his hand into mine and I pulled away? How many times has he gone to kiss me and I rejected him? I felt bad he was forcing himself to be with me when he could be with someone better.

But then I always had to remember what he said to me, not even a week ago. He told me I was beauiful, smart, amazing. I let a small tear fall and land on the bed spread as my heart beat rapidly in my chest. I began softly crying. No one had ever been this good towards me, and yet I rejected him.

I threw the covers off and padded over to Kendalls side, gently moving his books and clothes out of my way as I climbed next to him without hesitating. I wonder how many times I lay awake at night, crying and thinking such bad thoughts about myself, when I could have simply done this.

I watched as Kendall awoke, eyes opening quickly, the sight of my wide, tear filled eyes startling him. I curled around him and sobbed gently, leaning in closer as his arms snaked around me.

"Logan? Logan, Logan? Shhh, it's okay, shh, tell me, what's wrong?" he whispered. I shook gently.

"I-Im so-sorry! Y-you're just being s-so nice and all I-I've done I-is be such a burden towards you!" i whispered. I felt him rub the back of my head and sigh.

"Oh, Logan. How long have you felt like this? You're not a burden, trust me. We're all at this school for a reason and we just gotta learn to get past those problems and focus on other things. You've got bad problems, I understand how hard it is to trust people. But you are NOT a burden on me." he kissed the top of my head and I looked at him, sniffing a bit as my tears rolled down my cheeks.

"I-but I always reject you! You're always trying and all I do is shove you away!"

"but see, you came to ME this time! That's improvement! It means you're starting to open more!" he kissed the top of my head again and I shivered.

"but-"I started.

"No buts Logan. What I said last week is still the truth. And I'm never leaving your side." he hugged me as I let out the remainder of my tears.

"Oh and Logan?"

"Y-yes?"

"If you are ever having these horrible thoughts, don't hesistate to come to me okay?" I nodded against his chest as he yanked the covers over us.

"okay. Thank you Kendall."

"Youre welcome."

I curled into his warmth and sighed.

******BTR******BTR******

I slipped Kendalls jacket on over my clothes, the jacket hanging on my shoulders. I smiled at Carlos as I brushed my teeth, him brushing his hair beside me.

"Ready for school?" he nods and smiles at me. I can see how happy he seeks lately and it makes me happy too. I brush my teeth and leave the bathroom, spotting Kendall yanking on a black beanie. I blush when he looks at me and he laughs. He comes to my side and hugs me.

"Let's go, okay?" I nod and reach over to pick up my books from the desk, nodding at Kendall as we leave. I wave bye to James and Carlos as we head to the cafeteria, grabbing some breakfast. Kendall gives me a stern look when I don't get anything. I sigh and grab two pieces of toast.

Kendall doesn't seem satisfied, so I sigh sadly and grab a small tray of fruit that had a few pieces in it. Kendall seemed happy when I bit into the toast, and I felt my guilt diminish a bit. The buttery toast did taste good, though. I chewed it slowly as I continued with walking to my first class with Kendall.

"Im glad you're eating again." he smiled and linked our hands once I finished the fruit and toast. I blushed when he gently pulled me close, and I curled info him as I saw the disgusted looks people shot at us. A few people passed us, slamming into my shoulder and a few hissing at me.

"Fags!"

"Freaks!"

"You deseve to die in Hell." someone whispered.

Tears pricked my eyes and I felt Kendall tug me to the side of the hallway. I glanced around at any teachers in the hallways, and to them nothing looked wrong. All these kids could hide the insults aimed towards us, and nothing seemed wrong. We were all here because we were messed up; crying wasn't a new thing.

Kendall pushed me against the sides of some lockers, where no one would really notice us. I buried my head into his shoulder and my body wracked gently with sobs. He hugged me closer.

"Do NOT listen to them. Don't! Their just jealous." he whispered.

"Why would they be j-jealous?" I sniffed.

He pulled me back gently and gave me a small glare.

"Logan, why wouldn't someone be jealous?" he gently cupped my face.

"Youre so beautiful and smart." I rubbed my watery eyes.

"B-but w-what about s-someone l-like Ha-Hanna?" he gently planted a kiss on my lips and brushed away my tears.

"She's gorgeous," I felt my heart lower," but nothing compared to you. You're so beautiful. You make my heart race." he took my hand and placed it over his heart. I felt his heart race a little and he leaned a bit more over me.

I cowered a little as he planted his lips against mine and I whimpered. I slowly started to kiss him back, but I wasn't fast enough. Kendall was tapped on the shoulder and he stopped and turned to see an African American teacher standing behind him. I knew her as the algebra teacher.

"! How are you?" he smiled at the teacher, gently pushing behind his back. I cowered gently, hiding. The teacher raised an eyebrow at us and gently stood on her toes.

"What is going on here?" I saw her look at me suspiciously and Kendall coughed.

"Just showing my boyfriend how much I love him." her eyes, and mine, went wide and he gave her a look that said," you got a problem?" she backed off gently. Kendall grabbed my hand as he lead me to my class, holding me under his arm.

He pushed past all the students in the hallway and led me into the classroom. He knocked aside a few plastic pumpkins, a decoration for the Halloween party happening on Friday.

Kendall helped me into a seat and I curled into him.

"Youre okay. You're fine." he whispered. He rubbed my back and I smiled up at him.

"boyfriend?" I whispered. He shrugged.

"Wanna be?"

"I thought I already was?"

"Well, I hope you like it because that's what you are now." he kissed me and I smiled, feeling my heart lift. I didn't feel sad around Kendall. I didn't feel upset or ugly. I didn't even mind eating that much. I pulled my knees up and hugged them gently as Kendall cupped my jaw and continued kissing me deeply.

"Ahem."

We both stopped and turned, not focusing on the other students in the room, but the teacher. I felt my heart drop and shivers went through me. My heart was suddenly surrounded by fear, fear I had not felt for nearly four or five years.

The man that stood in front of me, brown hair in the front and a bit if blonde just barely visible in the back, grey eyes that pierced right through me. He was built, tall, and made me feel like I was ant. Fear squeezed my heart and I felt sick to my stomach as my jaw dropped.

"M-Mackenzie?"

A/N

Damn me and my cliffhangers ) have fun with that.