"There's no place like home," Rose said quietly as she walked down the hallways towards her dorm room. "Home is the best place" Artie replied with a small smile as he followed Rose down the hallway.

"What's wrong?" Artie asked when he noticed Rose looked confused when she stood outside her room.

"My door's different"

"Oh yeah, that"

"Something you're not telling me?"

"Well when you ran away from the party remember we came to find you but you'd obviously locked the door so I had to kick it down to get in there"

"Oh"

"But don't worry it's all been paid for, you just need the keys to get in" then Artie fished the keys out of his pocket and handed them to Rose. She then opened the door and stepped inside and looked around, "Wow it's tidy in here"

"Yeah we had to clean up"

"Was it that bad in here?"

"We just had to move some things around so that the paramedics could come in and get you out" Rose just looked down at the floor feeling awkward as everything was coming back to her. She'd spent about 3 days in hospital resting and getting her energy back and now she felt a lot better. But coming back to her apartment now, all of the memories were slowly creeping back into her head.

"Are you okay?" Artie asked as he noticed that Rose looked uncomfortable.

"Yeah I'm er-"

"Rose you can tell me"

"It's just that everything is coming back to me that's all"

"Do you want me to stay with you for a couple days? I know you say you're ready to be on your own again but are you sure?"

"Artie I couldn't do that to you, you've been glued to my side for the past 3 days and you need some proper rest and a good night's sleep. But thank you for offering and thank you for everything you've done" Rose smiled at him making Artie smile back.

"Just as long as you're sure"

"I am sure"

"Good, well you've got my number if you need me"

"I will definitely call you if I need you"

"Okay then, and make sure to give Alex a call soon. She's been worried about you"

"I will I promise" Artie smiled and then pulled Rose into a hug, she hugged back and smiled. "I best take off then" Artie said pulling away from Rose who smiled and said "Okay then, I guess I'll see you round" she still felt awkward about everything that had happened between them, especially when she admitted her real feelings for Seth.

"Hey don't look so down okay? We're still good friends Rose and I want it to still be like it was before, with you coming down to the studios and having a laugh with the guys"

"Artie come on I can't keep doing that, surely you're all busy and I can't keep intruding there. Sooner or later I'm gonna outstay my welcome"

Artie pulled a face but then said, "You can still come down to hang out for a while"

"I'll think about it okay?"

"That's all I ask" Artie then hugged Rose once more before waving goodbye and heading out the door leaving Rose alone.

"So… I guess its back to the normal routine" Rose said to herself as she looked around her apartment again. She walked into the living room and looked down at the floor and shuddered. It was where she collapsed after overdosing and it sent chills through her when she thought about it. Part of her felt stupid for doing it, she was much stronger than that yet she fell into Harriet's trap and made herself feel weak and worthless. She wasn't that at all! She was bright, smart and had a happy positive outlook on life. Her life was only just beginning yet she almost threw it away over jealously… what was she thinking?!

"Move onwards and upwards" Rose mumbled as she headed into her bedroom to change into her some clean clothes. Artie had been nothing but generous when she was in the hospital, he brought her clean clothes, gifts, flowers and everything else. He was the only one who'd been to visit her in the hospital which did make her feel upset. Why hadn't anybody else come to see her? They claimed they were her 'friends' so why didn't they come and see her?

"They're obviously not worth it" Rose said as she gathered her washing up to put it in the washing machine. "Obviously they weren't friends, that even includes Seth" Rose frowned at that, if what Artie had said was true, Seth was in love with her yet couldn't be bothered to visit her in hospital? That wasn't right in her mind, if you loved and cared for somebody you'd do anything for them and accept them for who they are. So what if she had a little hiccup in her life, at least she grew stronger and taller and could move on!

"You're all in my past now and can stay there" Rose said as she slammed the door shut on the washing machine and then started it on the low wash. She felt angry about this situation now, if they were friends they'd be trying to talk to her or at least pay her a visit in the hospital!

Ever since she'd won that competition her life had done nothing but spiral out of control. She lost her 'best friend', met and fell in love with Seth MacFarlane, dated his assistant, become best friends with Alex Borstein and then tried to kill herself… and all of this happened within 6 weeks!

Rose had always lived a normal and good life; she did everything to the best of her ability and never broke any rules. She was a complete bookworm, she loved writing and drawing and was often referred to as a nerd. But she didn't care; at least she hadn't screwed her life up! She hadn't had a baby at a stupid age, slept with everybody in her class, flunked her classes and skipped school. She was pretty normal but ever since winning that competition she had stepped out of her box and it felt weird. She'd managed to gain confidence, make people laugh and have a LOT of fun, a thing she rarely did. But that didn't feel right, she was used to living in her own world, but Seth, Alex and everybody else had brought out a side of her she'd never seen before.

It was the fun, happy and confident Rose, not the quiet, shy and scared Rose everybody else knew.

"Maybe it's best to move on and forget them," Rose said as she sat on her couch and thought about everything. Would it be better for everybody if she just moved on and forgot them? Obviously they'd forgotten about her as they couldn't be bothered to get in touch with her, ask her how she was doing or if she needed anything or anybody. So why bother with them? Even Seth hadn't even spoken to her; he couldn't even say anything at the party to help her! Harriet had tried to do everything in her power to humiliate Rose and she'd certainly succeeded.

Everybody had been making comments and even laughed at the scars on her back, it was so humiliating! Their laughter still rung in her ears and it made her sigh in sadness. She was probably a laughing stock at Uni and now she had to face going to class seeing everybody. Harriet had probably done her best to make sure everybody knew about what happened, twist and turn it so that she looked like the victim and Rose was the one who caused all of the trouble.

With how many celebrities and paparazzi there were at Seth's party, there were probably hundreds of rumours spreading around the newspapers and the Internet. This was certainly gonna be difficult to get through but Rose just had to keep her head held high and forget about it. She had a lot to focus on with her Uni assignments, she'd slipped behind since being in hospital and now needed to keep her head down and get some serious work done. Forget about Seth and everybody else, they weren't important anymore; it was her work that had to come first and thinking about what she wanted to do with her life in the future. But she knew for definite that her future didn't lie within Seth, it was time to move onwards and upwards!

"Oh my god girl what happened to you?!" Amy said to her friend once she opened her front door and saw the state of Rose. "Hey" is all Rose said as she tried to keep the tears from forming. She hadn't been able to open up and talk to anybody for days and now seeing Amy, she wanted to open the floodgates and let everything go.

"Oh Rose, honey come here" Amy said pulling Rose into a hug once she saw just how upset and fragile she looked.

Since being in hospital Rose's weight had dropped dramatically and now she only weighed about 110 pounds, which wasn't healthy, she needed that 10 pounds back otherwise she'd be back in hospital again. "I'm sorry" Rose choked out as she held onto Amy who was rubbing her pack for comfort.

"Honey let's sit down and talk" Amy said leading Rose over to her couch so they could sit down and talk. "Now tell me what's wrong" Amy said when they were both sat down and Rose had managed to contain her tears. She then went on to explain everything to Amy who looked surprised at everything she'd told her, but she gasped and held back tears when Rose explained what happened and how she was in hospital.

"Oh Rose honey" Amy said tearfully once Rose had finished telling her everything. Then she pulled her into a hug causing both women to start crying. Rose was too emotional to speak and crying it out made her feel better; it was comforting talking to Amy about it instead of bottling it up.

"You've been through so much, why didn't you come and see me? I could have helped!"

"I thought I could handle it" Rose replied as she wiped her eyes from the tears. "Rose I know you try and handle everything and battle your way through, but its okay to ask for help from time to time"

"It is?"

"Yes of course it is! Rose you can't try and do everything, you should have come and got me I could have helped!"

"But you've been tied up with Charlotte and Jack and I didn't want to get in the way"

"Honey they're fine, they'd have tried to help too"

Rose smiled a little but then said "I just didn't know what else to do"

"But trying to kill yourself Rose is going too far"

"Amy please don't lecture me on this, I need some support"

"I am supporting you honey, I'm just surprised that's all"

"I know and I'm sorry about it, but what Harriet said just got to me"

"If I see that girl-"

"Just don't bother Amy, she's not worth it"

"But all this time she's been jealous of you! Tried to ruin your life and now saying she'd laugh if you died? That's just sick!"

"I know and I wish I could do something but I'd just like to put it behind me and move on from it"

"Well if that's what you feel comfortable with"

"It is"

"Then I'll support you through it, if you need anything then I'll be there" Rose smiled slightly but then Amy said, "So what's gonna happen with this whole Seth thing?"

"How'd you mean?"

"Well if you admitted you loved him and if he loves you-"

"Nothing is going to happen"

"Really?"

"Yep"

"Why?"

"Because I just wanna move on Amy, he hurt me by not even bothering to come and see me"

"But you must still love and care about him"

"I do, it hurts so damn much whenever I think about him, I love and admire the man but since meeting him my life has changed too much"

"Changed how?"

"I finally saw the true Harriet and stood up for myself and got her out of my life, Seth changed the way I look at life, I've made people laugh and that's a thing I don't do often, I've managed to gain the confidence to send off my student film to Korea to get coloured and animated, I'm changing"

"So why is that bad?"

"Because I'm not used to it"

"But Rose you've gotta accept change, it happens all the time and we just have to accept it for what it is. Ever since I've known you, you've always cared about what others think, and this Seth has obviously changed the way you feel and made you step out of the box you've built around yourself. It's a good thing and you've just gotta embrace it and accept it for what it is"

"So you're saying, I've gotta accept this change?"

"Yeah of course! You've been confident in yourself in the few times I've seen you around, you even stood up for yourself with Harriet! That's an amazing thing to do Rose, and I'm proud of you"

"Even after what I did?"

"Well yeah, even though what you did was foolish and stupid I still love and support you. It was just a small hiccup in your life and I'm happy that you're strong enough to move on from it" Rose smiled but smiled wider when she saw Charlotte toddle through the door with her cup of milk.

"Hey beautiful" Amy said picking Charlotte up and sitting her on her lap and kissing her head. "Ro" is all Charlotte said pointing to Rose who smiled and held Charlotte's small hand.

"Hey sweetheart" Rose said softly getting a toothy smile off Charlotte in return.

"Well that sounds like Jack, I'll be back in a moment" Amy said handing Charlotte to Rose before heading upstairs to go and fetch Jack who was crying down the baby monitor.

"Ro been sad" Charlotte said putting her hand on Rose's cheek, "Hap" is all she said before kissing Rose on the cheek making her smile. "Rose hasn't been happy lately Charlotte but I'm all better and happy now" Rose said to Charlotte with a smile and then kissed her head.

"I think a little young man knew you were here," Amy said once she'd come back into the living room with Jack who was babbling away and chewing at his hands. Rose just smiled at Jack once Amy had sat down carefully and sat him on her lap.

"Aww he's so beautiful" Rose said, "Can he laugh yet?"

"Nope not yet, I've been trying but obviously I'm not funny enough"

"Aww don't worry he'll laugh soon"

"I can't wait to hear it"

"I'm sure it'll be amazing"

"Wanna take em' for a walk?"

"Huh?"

"You know… in the stroller? Maybe we can all go to the park?"

"Yeah that'd be nice"

"You don't sound too sure on that"

"Oh I am don't worry it's just-"

"Just?"

"There were a lot of celebrities and paparazzi at Seth's party and if they heard what happened I'd be followed"

"Nonsense! Trust me with me around they won't come near you, I'll set Charlotte on them" Rose smiled and then laughed when Charlotte started blowing raspberries, "See she can use her secret weapon on them!" Amy said and then laughed when Charlotte laughed to herself. Rose smiled widely at that, the first real smile in days!

Maybe she was finally moving on after all!

"See isn't this fun?" Amy said to Rose who was finger painting with Charlotte on the blanket that Amy laid out on the grass. "Yeah I gotta admit this is fun," Rose said cleaning her finger to choose another colour. "Nobody is bothering us and it's another beautiful day" Rose smiled and then looked up at the sky, it was clear blue and the sun was shining down brightly. Amy had chosen a spot under a big oak tree so they were sitting in the shade, but the warm breeze was blowing lightly keeping them warm.

"I'm sorry for being so paranoid about everything"

"Don't worry about it Rose, obviously you'd have some doubts whether somebody would say something but people don't care anymore"

"You sure?"

"Of course" Rose smiled again as she turned her attention to Charlotte who was still painting and having fun.

"Want some ice cream?" Amy asked getting out her purse, "Err yeah sure but I'll pay-"

"Nonsense I'll get it" Amy replied with a bright smile and then said to Charlotte, "Want some ice cream sweetie?"

"Yes pwease"

"Okay come"

"Come wif come wif" Charlotte said getting up and going over to Amy.

"Okay sweetie you can come, Rose you gonna be alright with Jack?"

"Yeah we'll be fine" Rose said with a smile as she looked at Jack who was babbling and kicking away on the blanket. He was dribbling a lot but at least he was happy. Rose smiled as she watched Amy walked over to the ice cream stand with Charlotte but then she turned back to Jack. "Hey gorgeous" Rose said as she touched Jack on the nose, "You having fun down there" Jack just gurgled and made more noises as he watched Rose. But she smiled and then decided to try and make him laugh, so she pulled a few faces and blew raspberries and was surprised to hear him laughing.

"Oh wow you're laughing!" Rose said excitedly as she watched Jack laugh as she pulled more silly faces. "You're so beautiful! You're laugh is amazing" Rose said picking Jack up on the floor and then held him up, she pulled more faces and laughed when Jack laughed again. But the voice behind her startled her, "Hey" she turned around and saw that it was Seth standing there.

"Hi" is all she said as she put Jack back on the floor and gave him a rattle to play with. "Can we talk?" Seth asked as he crouched down slowly to Rose's height.

"I've gotta watch Jack" Rose replied as she tried to calm her nerves. As much as she told herself to forget about him, he could still give her so many butterflies in her tummy she felt giddy!

"Look Rose-"

"You're actually lucky I'm with Jack right now otherwise I would have walked off"

"Just let me-"

"There's nothing to explain okay? I get it, you just don't care"

"That's not true Rose"

"Oh really? So why didn't you come and see me in the hospital?"

"Because I-"

"Or phone me to see how I was doing"

"I-"

"If you all cared about me like you say you would have come to see me"

"Look it's not that simple Rose!" Seth said loudly causing Rose's eyes to widen in surprise, "I was stupid I'll admit that but there were reasons we couldn't come and see you"

"And what are they exactly?"

"We were just so shocked about it"

"From what I've been told, you even chickened out on coming to find me when I ran away"

"Because-"

"If you cared about me you would have chased after me instead of standing there looking like an idiot, it was like you believed what Harriet said!"

"I didn't believe her Rose"

"Then why didn't you say anything?"

"Because I was foolish alright? I was just surprised to hear what she said, let alone how the hell she got on my property past security"

"I just can't believe you didn't come after me"

"I was just so surprised"

"Out of all the people there, I wanted you to chase after me and try to stop me, comfort me and make things better again"

"Life isn't always like that though Rose"

"Don't you dare try and crawl out of this! If you love me like I love you then you would have done something, and then come to see me in hospital!"

"Rose I hate hospitals"

"That's not good enough"

"Okay then how about this, I hate hospitals and couldn't face it because the girl I'm in love with was wired up to machines keeping her alive! I couldn't go through that, what if the nurse told me you'd died!"

"But I was fi-"

"When Alex rang me on the night they found you, you were barely alive, if they'd have found you just a little bit later you'd have been dead. I couldn't afford to hear that you'd died otherwise I'd go insane, my life isn't worth living without you Rose" Rose just listened to Seth's words but she was still too angry to take any of them seriously.

"You're just lying Seth, just trying to worm your way back into my life"

"I'm not-"

"It doesn't matter okay! Ever since I won that competition my life has just spiralled out of control and changed too much for my likings, so I'm changing it back! I just wanna move on Seth! It's too awkward to see you knowing you weren't there for me when I needed you"

"But-"

"When I forced all of those tablets down my throat I realised it was a mistake but it was too late, I was fading to black and felt my world crumbling around me. The last person I saw in my mind was you, I uttered your name before I passed out and that's the last thing I remember. It wasn't Artie, or Alec, or even Danny… it was you! But you didn't come" Seth was left speechless at her words and just looked down at his shoes feeling awful. "So I think it's best to just move on Seth, yes I may love you but I just have to move on. It's best for me and probably best for you, all of this drama has probably affected your reputation and I don't want you to get more paparazzi following you around and criticising you"

"Rose it's not about the paparazzi"

"Plus you deserve somebody much better than me, maybe somebody famous!"

"Rose there's nobody better than you"

"But it's been nothing but trouble since we met"

"It doesn-"

"It does to me Seth, I don't like causing trouble and making people fall out. I like everything to be normal and happy"

"But-"

"So it's best to just move on Seth" Rose then looked down at the floor trying to fight tears, her heart was screaming for her to take back what she said but she was ignoring it. She didn't want any more drama in her life so moving on from Seth was for the better.

"Well if this is what you want Rose" Seth said with sadness in his voice, Rose could have sworn she heard his voice crack but she didn't read into it.

"It is" is all she whispered and then looked down at her shoes again. "Well then… goodbye" Seth said sadly as he got up from the floor slowly and stood to his full height. Rose couldn't bear to look at him as he walked away; this was the second time she'd done this to him and both times she felt horrible afterwards. But this was for the best; she didn't need him in her life causing more drama and frustration. Everything had changed since she met him and she didn't know whether it was for the best or not.

"Girl you better explain to me what just happened" Amy said once she'd returned from the ice cream stand with Charlotte. She'd watched the whole thing but she never expected to see Seth walking away with tears in his eyes.

"I let him know the truth" Rose said tearfully as she still stared down at her shoes. "Oh honey come here" Amy said setting the ice creams and drinks down on the floor so she could hug her friend. "I love him so much" Rose said finally cracking and crying again. Amy just held onto her as she cried and felt bad,

"There's still time to make this right you know"

"No there isn't, I don't want it to change. I just wanna move on Amy"

"Okay then, just remember I'm gonna help you through this"

"I have made the right decision haven't I?"

"I can't answer that for you sweetie, this was your decision and whatever choices you make I'll support them" Rose just clung onto Amy as more tears fell from her eyes; she was hurt and broken inside. She needed Seth but she had to move on from him to cut the drama out of her life. Everything would be okay soon though right?

She'd made the right decision; she didn't need Seth… did she?