Chapter 13

1x13 What Happened to Frederick

YES so Lucy/Alice is Belle and Rumple's child, we're just going to say that they had sex before he kicked out Belle of the dark castle ALSO Once Upon a Time in Wonderland is irrelevant here, it's not even on my radar I have never seen it nor plan to so disregard any facts/storylines about Alice in there…But Thanks so much for reading! Father/mother/daughter reunion won't come until after the curse is broken but I'm trying to hurry up and finish season 1 to get to that point because that's the really interesting and fun part to write that I'm anxious to get to ;) so please stick with me I hope you're all enjoying.

I was sitting on the counter in our kitchen eating an apple when Henry walked in. "Hey Hen what's up?"

"Mom gave me this." He stomped over and threw down a box next to me. I looked at him then looked at the box and realized it was a brand new video game controller with a game.

"Wow this looks cool…" I treaded cautiously.

"No it's not! She just gave me this so that I would forget about my book. She has it, I know she does."

"Henry maybe she just feels bad about how it's her fault your book is gone and she's trying to make it up. I mean I told her that you were having a hard time and she seemed really concerned-"

"Wait? What." He interrupted.

"No I mean the other night I told her you were really upset about your book and she seemed concerned…"

"You mean she thinks I'm crazy"

"No! I mean when I told her about Alice she thought it was funny that…"

"You told her! And now you're both laughing at me?" Henry imploded.

"Henry no, I mean we were just talking and I casually mentioned it in passing that you think I'm Alice in wonderland. Nobody was laughing."

"I can't believe you told her. Now that she knows she'll try to get rid of you."

"Henry enough! Okay I know who you think she is, but she is our mother she would not try to get rid of us! This is all fine and dandy but your taking this operation Cobra thing a little bit to far, this is just a silly make believe game."

I regretted those words almost the instant they slipped out of my mouth. Henry's face fell, "So that's what this is to you Lucy? A game? This whole time you thought that? I thought I could trust you, that I could count on you and this whole time you were just lying to me, you never actually believed in me or what I was saying, you're not even my sister anymore."

Henry turned around and walked out very calmly. "Henry, no wait!" I called but it was useless.

When Mom got home that night for dinner I said I wasn't feeling well and stayed in my room. I was too ashamed of myself to face Henry. He was right. I was a horrible sister. Even though none of this was real it was all very real to him. And I basically just called him crazy.

I tiptoed into his room and sat on his bed he was tucked under the blankets facing away from me. "Henry, are you up?" I whispered. No reply. "Henry please talk to me, I'm sorry about what I said."

He rolled over and looked me directly in the eye, "Go away Lucy. I don't want to talk to you. Ever." Then he turned back around.

I walked slowly back to my room mortified. It was always Henry and I we were partners; siblings. I knew I was going to have to do something big to win back his trust and I knew just what I would have to do; find his book. I sat at my desk and pulled out my notebook and started making a list of all the possible places it could be and I knew just where to start. That new guy in town who nobody knew, but who seemed to know everything about us, August.

I walked into Granny's diner the next morning and saw August sitting at the counter. I slammed down my bag startling him. "Where is it?" I said rather sternly.

He looked up, "Excuse me?"

"My brothers book."

He narrowed his eyes, "Henry told me you were very interested in it and now it's missing." I said.

He raised a brown questioningly, "As I heard your brother buried it and your mother in fact obtained it."

"She doesn't have it." I answered

"But how can you be so sure." He questioned cautiously.

"I searched for it, I just know she doesn't have it."

"Well things we lost always have a way of coming back to us." He replied.

"I know you have it, I just, I need it back." As I turned to leave he spoke.

"Tell me Alice have you always been this inquisitive."

I froze and slowly turned around, "What did you call me?"

His face froze, he looked like he'd let something slip. "I said Lucy. That's your name isn't it…"

"That's not what you called me." I said incredulously.

He stood up and looked me rather menacingly in the eye. "Really? What did I call you?"

I stumbled backwards and muttered, "Nothing, nevermind, just please give me his book back." I turned and practically sprinted out of Granny's.

Just when I was walking out of the gate I practically ran into Mr. Gold.

"Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry!" I said.

"Oh, it's quite all right dearie, you just need to watch where you're going more." He said rather nicely.

"I'm sorry I just don't know where my head is at these days." I gave a small smile.

"We all have days like that" he smiled, "Okay well I really need to get going, nice running into you Lucy."

"Yeah you too Mr. Gold." I smiled back and started heading down Main Street.

Mr. Gold turned around to watch Lucy leave. He couldn't quite figure out why but something about Lucy seemed familiar, very familiar. He wasn't sure why but he had taken a liking to Lucy Mills. Something about her made him feel very comfortable and at home...

As I was walking I saw a box sitting under Emma's car. Curiously I went over and opened it. And there was Henry's book! I was awestruck until I looked up and saw August standing around the corner staring at me. So he did have it! Something about him was weird but I didn't get the feeling that he was a bad guy. I smiled at him and ran back home with Henry's book in tow.

I barged through the front door and immediately ran upstairs causing Mom to yell, "Lucy! What are you doing? Slow down!" But I didn't care. Ignoring her, I ran up to Henry's room where he was sitting playing his game on his bed.

"Henry?" He didn't even look up. "I have something for you…" That peaked his interest and he looked up where he could see me holding up his book.

"My book! You found it!" Henry leapt off the bed and snatched it out of my arms.

I smiled sheepishly "I knew how much you missed it, …and I felt guilty about what I said."

Henry threw his arms around me, "Lucy, it's not your fault you don't remember. And I didn't mean what I said. You're a great sister."

I sat on the edge of the bed, "That's another thing Henry. You know you always say Mom, our mom isn't really your mom. Do you think I'm really you're sister?"

Henry sat next to me on the bed, "Well technically you aren't, you're my adopted sister, but you are my real sister Luc, you're the only one who's really ever looked out for me."

I smiled, "Good because I think of you as my real brother Henry." I put my arm around his shoulder and he leaned into my chest. "Hey does this mean I'm part of operation Cobra again? Considering I saved the most important part?"

Henry perked his head up, "Maybe, I need to think about it." He said jokingly.

I just laughed and gave him a little shove. I was just so relieved to have him back on my side, he was right we were brother and sister and he was the only one I could count on and I am the only one he can count on. Or at least I used to be. Now he had Emma. That night laying in bed I wondered what that was like. To have a birth mom come back, and to suddenly have more than one person that wanted you and loved you. I would never tell mom but to be truthful I felt a little bit neglected. Emma and Mom both wanted Henry and Mom was so focused on keeping Henry I kind of felt like she had pushed me off to the side. I wanted to be wanted and loved by someone and I just wished I knew who my real parents were.

Back at the shop, Mr. Gold was carefully cleaning and examining a chipped cup for any marks or scratches inflicted by Mr. French. As he was, he thought about Belle and that fateful night. The one he had regretted every day since. After Belle had kissed him at the spinning wheel they had promptly retreated to the master bedroom in the dark castle where they had a passionate night of lovemaking. It wasn't until the next morning that Belle had told him that a woman had told her that every curse can be broken by true love's kiss. Rumple had over reacted thinking Belle was using him to try to make him weak, and he threw out Belle on a whim, because he was scared, scared to open his heart up to love, unaware that she would soon be carrying his child. And Belle was right, before she left she had told him, "You were freeing yourself! You could've had happiness if you just believed that someone could want you. But you couldn't take the chance. You're a coward, Rumpelstiltskin. And no matter how thick you make your skin, that doesn't change. You just don't think I can love you. Now, you've made your choice. And you're going to regret it – forever. And all you'll have, is an empty heart – and a chipped cup." Mr. Gold felt a single tear escape from one eye, Belle was right. He did regret it. For the rest of his life, he had lost the love of his life and another child that yet again was his fault. All he had left was an empty heart and a chipped cup.