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Jeez, some of you guys were heated about the last chapter! Sorry, but it just adds character to the story, but thanks for the reviews/ alerts/ and favorites! I appreciate them, even though some of them weresecret messages telling me to jump off of a bridge lol xD

In this chapter... you get to see everything from all for of the guys point of view and you get to see what is wrong with Kendall and James, btw when you read it, you mayunseeable to understand where this is going.

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Chapter 13

Logan POV

I am so stupid! How could I let this happen. I've been sitting on this couch for who knows how long now crying over my stupidity and my mistakes.

Why didn't I just tell Carlos that Dak raped me after it happened? Oh yeah, I let myself be intimidated by Dak. He took advantage of me and stripped me of everything I loved. I hate him. I hate how he came in here and made up a complete lie!

Why did he feel the need to do it? I will never understand. Why couldn't he just let us be happy? Oh Carlos...poor Carlos. He already has our son to worry about and now I just made it worse. What if he miscarrys from stress? What if he does something to himself or the baby.

I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I can barely live with myself now. Carlos doesn't deserve this at all. He's such a sweet and harmless guy. He thinks I never loved him, which isn't true at all. Why wouldn't he just listen to me! I could have explained all of this from beginning to end.

You know, really as I look back on that night, this is Carlos' fault. He sent me out in the middle of the night because of his stupid cravings! He should be the one to blame and he should be the one guilty! Wait...what am I saying? I can't blame Carlos and he cant help his cravings. It's not like he knew that I would be raped, he just wanted his well deserved snacks. I shouldn't be mad at him, this was all Dak.

Kendall and James hate me now. They seemed to believe Dak to and immediately took Carlos' side without listening. I don't really blame them though; even though, Kendall did seem more upset about me being pregnant (possibly), which is weird. What will Mama Knight and Katie think? They'll probably hate me, especially Katie.

Another thing to deal with is the possibility of me being pregnant. It's really hard to doubt now, all signs point to yes. I'll go and visit Dr. Martin tomorrow to know for sure. What if I am pregnant? I'll have to abort it. It's caused so many problems for me already. Actually that was Dak. The baby is innocent and abortion is wrong. I guess I'll just have to he a single parent.

Everything is so messed up right now, and I don't know the first clue to fixing it.

Kendall

I am beyond pissed at Logan! How dare he do this to Carlos! I was in rage mode and I felt like that at any point, I'm gonna snap! Logan doesn't deserve how lucky he's been, he had a baby and a man that loves him! He should be grateful, not fucking people behind his back.

As much as I'm pissed at Logan right now, I don't hate him. He's still my best friend, but I don't think ill be able to even look at him without punching him for at least the next month. And Dak, oh god, the next time I see him, he's getting it! Not just from me, but probably from James and Carlos too.

I wanted to believe Logan, but it was hard with what Dak said. It sent me over the edge with the fact that Logan might be pregnant. This is why I say he was lucky. He had a baby and he just had to have another one, but Im sitting here wishing I could have half of that!

The truth is that James and I have been trying for a baby for a while how, ever since Logan and Carlos got together and before they knew about their baby. We've been trying for almost 6 months now! We haven't succeeded and our relationship has been suffering.

James and I argue over the fact that I can't get pregnant. We've tried countless times and our love making has just turned into senseless fucking. It's not the fact that I can't get pregnant that leads to arguments, it's the fact that James refuses to try and see if he can get pregnant because he doesn't want to ruin his figure! What the hell! Forget your fucking figure! You have to sacrifice for love! I wanted to play professional hockey, but I gave that up for his dream!

So yes, I'm more pissed at Logan for that and I know it's bad, but I can't help but be jealous. Logan gets what I've wanted TWICE and I don't even get it once! I just don't know what to think anymore, but we need to find Carlos, he needs us!

James

Man, did Logan mess up big time. I kind of feel sorry for him. Yes, I'm upset that he did this to Carlos and don't want to talk to him right now, but all of this doesnt add up. It's not like Logan to be a cheater and I wouldn't think he would go that far.

I want to stay mad at him, but I have a feeling he was telling the truth. I mean of course Dak sounded convincing, but Logan was obviously upset and wanted us to believe that Dak raped him. I'm starting to regret leaving Logan all alone without hearing him out, I'll just have to remember to talk to him.

As for Kendall, I knows he's raging and is probably really pissed about the second baby. We've been trying so hard lately to have a baby, but it's a fail attempt every time. Then he argues with me because I don't want to give up my figure to carry a baby. It's not my fault we can't conceive, but I don't want to give up my figure and he should keep trying... The Kendall Knight that I know never backs down from a challenge. I don't have time to think about us though, we need to find Carlos.

I followed Kendall as we searched the entire palm woods for Carlos. We searched the lobby, the pool, the car, the roof, Palmwoods park, everywhere and he was nowhere to be found. I was starting to worry. We decided to check by Camille, Lucy, and the Jennifer's, none of them seeing him and also wondering why we were looking for him.

Our search ended at Mama Knights apartment, I was praying he was in here. Kendall knocked and we waited. Finally Katie answered the door and let us in.

"Is Carlos here?" Kendall asked panicked.

"Yeah he is," Mama K said.

We let out a sound of relief as we heard the good news.

"Where is he?" I asked.

"In the guest room, but I suggest you leave him alone for now, he needs some alone time."

"Yeah, why was he so upset?" Katie asked.

Kendall sat and spilled the whole story to them, down to every last detail.

"That doesn't sound like Logan," was the first thing Mama K said.

"I don't care, Logan's dead next time I see him! How dare he?" Katie raged.

Now Logan was in trouble. Katie isn't someone to mess around with...at all. We talked more about the situation and waited patiently for Carlos to come out of the room and talk to us.

Carlos POV

I ran out of the apartment as fast as my waddling body would take me. Tears were coming down my cheeks fast and I couldn't stop them. I ran out of the apartment and down the hall to Mama Knights' apartment. I don't want to talk, but I need somewhere to just rest. I knocked on the door and waited for an answer.

A few seconds later, Katie answered the door. She smiled when she saw me, but it quickly faded when she saw my condition.

"Carlos?"

"Can I please come in?" I choked out.

"Sure," she said stepping to the side, with concern on her face.

Mama Knight saw me and immediately stopped what she was doing, looking concerned.

"Carlos?"

"Can I use the guest bedroom?" I asked between sobs.

"Sure, whatever you need. You know which one is available, but sweetie, what's wrong?" Mama Knight asked.

"I-I don't want to talk about it," I said as the sobbing started again and I ran down the hall to the guest room.

I opened the door and slammed it behind me, plopping on the bed and letting the tears fall. How could Logan do this to me after all we've been through? It's not like Logan to be unfaithful like that, but then again it's not like Logan to have drunk sex and knock a man up. Okay, that's not helping.

I regret everything, including my feelings for Logan. It was alone huge mistake. Falling for Logan, going to that club on my birthday, having sex with Logan, keeping this baby, and spending all this time was a stupid mistake.

Well actually, the baby wasn't a mistake. I can't be mad at him because I love him more than my life. You never realize how much you love something until you've carried it in your belly. I understand the special bond a kid has with their carrying parent now and I'm not letting this baby go, especially when it's the only one I have left. Speaking of which, I can't stress, I don't want to miscarry, but it's hard when you have a broken heart. I really thought that Logan loved me, but I was wrong.

I was knocked out of my thoughts when I heard the door open and I heard voices. Kendall and James. They must be looking for me, but I'm not ready to face them yet. I need some time to myself. I laid on the bed until I was done crying, maybe two hours later before I was able to move without sobbing.

I wiped my eyes and walked over to the door, opening it. I'm pretty sure Kendall and James told them what happened so I wouldn't have to relay that horrible experience to them. As soon as I stepped into the living room, I was attacked with hugs from Kendall, James, Mama Knight and Katie.

"Oh sweetie, we're here for you," Mama Knight comforted.

"I can take Logan down for you, or Dak," Katie smirked.

"No need," I said. They still deserve to be happy with their family that they will raise right?

"Listen, don't worry about Logan, we're gonna get your stuff and you can stay here," Kendall said.

"Really?" I asked.

"Yeah, you can't be around Logan and maybe moving in here for a while, or at least until the baby is born will help you cope," Mama K smiled.

"Good. I don't think I can handle going home," I gave a small smile.

"Carlos, just remember that we're your best friends and we will always be here for you no matter what," Kendal, hugged me again,

I gave a small smile as I sat at the bar, I was ready to talk everything out because there's no one I trust more than these people in this room. It would be hard, but I'll eventually get over Logan. Little Michael, or Ethan, or Antonio or whatever will be my main focus at all times. Even if this baby only has one father, he'll be loved...

Next chapter, a lot happens, which MAY include James switching sides and becoming a detective xD and also Logan finds out the truth. Theres more, but that's enough for now.

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