Sadly Beautiful

I put quite a lot of effort into this chapter, not that I don't normally but this one has extra effort.

More of a personal note ish but my arms aren't fucking awkward Jaz, that made me cry. Congrats on 12k views and 120ish reviews, it's impressive! Your latest chapter was really really good as well, I'm impressed. Once again this chapter is for you again, even though you chose a really shit car for Bella in your story ;) Joking, joking. Enjoy the chapter, much love.

On a side note. I've had a migraine for the past week ish and it's made it difficult to write. I'm used to headaches and migraines for the most part though, so they shouldn't slow the story down by too long but I am trying to make the chapters longer, which means more of a wait between chapters.

This chapter is longer than my others but I'm happy with the result. I'd like to clear up a few things from my last few chapters. I'm not going to go through everyone's names because that's effort but I'll try and clear up any questions I've seen.

Firstly, someone asked about the wolves whether or not they would be involved more in the story and whatnot. I say whatnot too much but anyway, I do play to have the wolves in the story, they add good drama, which is good because it adds extra depth to the characters. So yes, there will be wolves and yes, it will be fucking amazing.

Also, people were asking if the dreams were Bella's power... The controlling of dreams is Sauns gift and it's not Bella's. A bit off subject, I don't know if I'll be giving a Bella a gift yet, I haven't decided yet but I think that I need to flesh my characters out more.

A few people commented on the fact that Saun is quite a mean character and that he's a 'sicko.' I agree with this but I'm not going to change him, it's really easy to write a twisted, dark character and it's also more fun. Although some of you might start feeling a bit more sympathetic for him later, once his background and whatnot - Fuck stop saying that - is more fleshed out.

Finally, I'd like to say thanks to everyone who's Favorited, reviewed and just read the chapter, it means a lot to me and I'm glad that you lot are enjoying the story, and I hope that you continue to enjoy it. I always like reading your opinions of my 'work' because I'm quite self conscious about it, and it helps knowing that you guys like it.

Chapter thirteen - Promise

The car purred to life. I knew that Bella would associate this noise with me and I knew I'd made the right decision with this car. I only hoped Bella would like it, I could look into the future and see but I didn't want to. I wanted to see her reaction for the first time, I wanted the moment to be special and for it to be the first time that I had seen it.

So much had happened this week. Bella had been teased relentlessly for being gay, she didn't deserve that, she didn't deserve anything bad to ever happen in her life. She was perfect and nothing bad should ever happen to her, she has done nothing to anyone else and she doesn't need any negative things in her life. Not to mention, she came out to her Dad this week, something that I knew was really difficult for her, I could see the emotions written on her face and the indecision to tell him.

Then there was Saun... She didn't need the pain and the stress that he has brought her, she is too good for that, she doesn't need it and I'm sure as hell not going to let her have that. I will wrip that fuckers head off and scorch him, then spread the ashes across the globe. This thought calmed me down, I released my grip on the steering wheel before I broke it, I didn't want to have to replace this car just after I'd bought it.

I shook my head to erase my thoughts, not that you ever could as a vampire, and quickly pulled out of the dealership. I marveled at the handling and finesse of the car, it really was a pleasure to drive, I knew without even looking into the future that Bella would love it. I'd have to decide which car to take to school with her though, I wanted the drive in the morning to be between us. As much as I loved my family, I didn't want Emmet making jokes or Edward reading our minds in the morning.

I wanted to spend as much time with Bella as I could, I needed to protect her and to show her how much I loved her. I knew that we'd end up taking the Reventón to school, not that I really minded. I did feel bad for Jasper though, he'd have to deal with so many emotions when we pulled into the parking lot. Mainly lust and jealousy, I mean who wouldn't be jealous of this car and as equally turned on when two hot lesbians climbed out of it.

I chuckled at my little joke and continued to think about Bella. I was deeply, inconsequentially, irreversibly in love with Bella. Nothing could change that, I'd do everything in my power to make sure that she is as happy as she could be and that no harm comes to her. Ever.

The best thing was that I knew that she felt the same way, I could see it in her eyes, hear it in her voice. We felt the same about each other, and I knew that she would always love me. She gave me a reason to live, she made my long dead heart a reason to beat.

The next hour or so of the journey passed by smoothly and uneventfully, albeit comfortably. When I was almost home though, I slowed down because I was nervous about showing Bella her new car, and seeing her in her weakened state. The image of her writhing on the floor was enough to almost bring me to sobbing.

I pushed the image quickly out of my head and focused on making sure that everything was perfect for Bella. I reached into my pocket and pulled out the small silver bracelet, it wasn't a flash, 'showy' bracelet. I had already decided on a simple and emotional gift before I remembered the only item I had on me when I 'woke' into my new 'life.'

I remember the day clearly, as if it only happened yesterday. The sounds, the smells, the thirst. I shook my head quickly, not wanting to travel down the memories of death, destruction and blood. So much blood. Fuck, not going there, stop thinking Alice.

I'd only made one change to the bracelet, the moment my eyes fell on Bella's, I decided to engrave the back of the bracelet with the words: 'Only you my love.' I hoped that she'd realise how much effort I'd put into the gift and how important it was to me.

I sped the car up again, the purring causing me to giggle again, and I arrived at the house a few minutes later. I parked swiftly in the garage, expertly avoiding the figures waiting for me. I hopped out and looked around, all of my family except Bella were around the car. I could see the admiration in their eyes, a spark of jealousy in Rosalie's and an emotion I didn't recognise in Esme's.

"I'd like this to be a surprise for Bella when she wakes up, which means no jokes Emmet. And please can everyone give us some privacy when I show her?" I said to them all, while I placed the bracelet in some packaging. Before I wrapped it up, I breathed onto the bracelet, letting my scent settle onto it. It's probably a stupid idea, but I like the thought of Bella being able to smell my scent if I'm not there, so she know's I'm still here.

They all nodded at me and began to disperse, except Edward who walked towards me and leaned forward. He moved his mouth so it was almost touching my ear," It's not stupid, it's one of the most touching, endearing thoughts I've ever heard." He didn't give me a chance to reply, almost as soon as he was finished speaking he ran into the woods.

i shook my head, surprised at the comments my brother had made. He wasn't normally an affectionate, emotional sibling, he preferred to remain quiet and thoughtful. I can't say that his sudden change of attitude, however brief it may be, was a bad change, Edward has always been one of my favorite siblings and I was glad he seemed to be able to involve himself in my life a bit.

My vision glazed over suddenly and an image of a beautiful figure waking in a bed immediately replaced the view of the car. I only had a few minutes before Bella woke and I needed to make this perfect.

I quickly dashed inside and grabbed a big white cloth and draped it over the car. It wasn't a great decoration and it didn't really suit the room but ah well, I'm sure Bella wouldn't really care. Happy that my work was complete, I placed the box with the bracelet in it onto the top of the car. I stepped back, admiring my work, before quickly backing out of the room and turning off the lights.

I skipped happily up the stairs, ignoring the looks from Rosalie who was lounging on one of the sofas in the living room, and arriving quickly outside my room. I stopped outside and took a minute to calm myself. I ignored the feeling of anxiety in my stomach, threatening to overflow at any moment, and focused on the sound of Bella's breathing and the steady beating of her heart.

This calmed me but I still felt anxious and I wasn't sure why. We'd already said we loved each other, I could see that she did in her eyes. We'd given ourselves to each other physically and mentally, so why was I standing outside of my room, too scared to walk in. I knew that I was being stupid, I hated the fact that I felt so insecure. Maybe it was due to the fact that I had no memories of my human life and the only interaction I'd had previously with people involved me wanting to sink my teeth into their neck and suck them dry.

I shook my head to clear my thoughts, for about the hundredth time today. Wow I really needed to start learning how to control my emotions, I had the second best control of the family when it came to blood lust. I was second only to Carlisle, who had perfect control and Esme was only slightly behind me. Not that I was bragging to myself, well maybe I was a bit.

I was interrupted by my thoughts when Carlisle put a hand on my shoulder and spun me around gently. His golden eyes burned deeply into mine, smoldering with love and sincerity. "Alice," He started gently. "She loves you, we all know it. Jasper can feel the love radiating off her body, you can see it and feel it. Do you understand?" He asked seriously.

I heard Bella's heart flutter for a second from the room behind me, I turned slightly back, not that I could see through the door. Carlisle noticed this and smiled, waiting patiently for my reply.

I nodded numbly, not taking my eyes away from his. He smiled warmly and clasped both my shoulders in his hands. "Good, she loves you and you love her. Don't be nervous." When he finished, he shoved my gently through the door and turned around, chuckling lightly to himself.

I turned and saw Bella, sitting up in the bed and looking at me carefully. She smiled warmly at me and I felt my dead heart beat, now I knew that there was no reason for me to be worried or anxious. It's just Bella and I... Forever.

Bella POV

I woke up after a blissful sleep to sounds of voices in the hall. I recognised the voice as Carlisle's, I wondered who he was talking to and looked around for Alice. I panicked for a second when I couldn't see her and my heart fluttered nervously. I relaxed when I realised that she must be outside talking to Carlisle and my heart returned to it's normal pace.

A few moments later Alice walked into the room, she looked incredible like she always did. I stared at her and she locked her eyes with mine and I felt the familiar connection flow between us, causing me to relax sub-consciously into my pillow.

She walked slowly towards me, her eyes twinkling with love. She climbed onto the bed and pulled me into her lap and began to knead my hair softly, purring while she did. I smiled and kissed the top of her head softly, pulling her closer to me.

Being held here in her arms, I could forget about every negative thing in my life. Saun didn't matter, the bitch's from school didn't matter. Nothing did, this was just Alice and I being together. Forever hopefully. That is if she wants to change me, I was instantly paralyzed with anxiety about whether Alice would want to spend eternity with me or if she'd grow tired and leave me.

No. Alice wouldn't do that to me, she loves me. You know she does, so stop thinking stupid things and just enjoy the moment. I silenced my thoughts and focused on the purring noise's she was making. I sighed in contentment and kissed her lips lightly, my tongue tracing her lips, asking for entrance. She opened her mouth slightly, my tongue darted in and wrapped around hers, fighting for dominance.

She let me win easily, sensing that this was what I needed at the moment. We stayed like this for a few minutes, our tongues dancing and our bodies intertwined, before she pushed me gently off her and onto the bed.

I landed lightly on the bed, almost as soon as I touched the bed, she was on top of me and straddling my hips. She leaned forward and gently kissed down my neck, sucking gently and causing me to moan. She kissed lower down my neck, her tongue gently caressing my collar bone before moving lower.

She growled in frustration and ripped my top off and threw it away, before gently kissing down my cleavage and down my abdomen. I moaned loudly, causing her to grin wickedly at me and silenced me with her mouth. I groaned into her mouth when her hands cupped my breasts and started massaging gently. Her ice cold hands hardening my nipples instantly and causing tingles of pleasure to travel down my body.

She pushed herself against me, rubbing roughly against me, causing me to groan and moan wildly. Suddenly she moved down and ripped my jeans and underwear from my body and threw them away. "I love you," she whispered hoarsely, her eyes black with lust. I couldn't reply, I didn't trust my voice to not come out as a throaty whisper.

Her head moved between my thighs, her short hair tickled lightly against me. I forgot this thought instantly when she thrust her tongue into me.

Her tongue was warm and wet against me, and I couldn't stop the groan that ripped through me. She pressed the flat part of her tongue against my lips and sucked my clit into her mouth before she began licking all around it, but never directly on it.

She was teasing me, bringing me close without giving me the last push I needed. I growled lightly, she smiled mischievously at me, causing vibrations throughout my body. She slipped a finger inside me and I felt my stomach clench, knowing I was close.

She kept at this for a few minutes and I felt myself getting closer and closer. After a few more seconds, I was screaming Alice's name breathlessly. She beamed at me when I was finished, and pulled me gently up.

"As much as I'd like round two, and believe me I would. I have something to show you." She told me quietly, almost shyly. She picked me up and carried me to her closet, and helped pick an outfit out for me. Designer jeans and a, slightly too small, shirt, also designer. Not that every item of clothing in their house, except for mine, wasn't designer but whatever.

She even helped dress me, I knew that she must have been excited about whatever it was she had planned. I wasn't complaining of course, being dressed by your hot vampire girlfriend wasn't a bad thing. I chuckled internally at my little joke and let Alice pick me up into her arms.

She carried me slowly down the stairs, slightly slower than 'human speed.' I was quite confused, I thought the main reason that she'd picked me up, was so that she could get me to our destination faster. I was thinking hard about this and didn't notice Alice staring at me, laughing at my confused expression.

"I just wanted to be close to you. Oh, and the suspense must be killing you." She stuck her tongue out at me after she had said this. I chuckled at my girlfriends immaturity and relaxed into her arms. She carried me down the stairs and I passed the living room. Emmet and Rosalie were both in there, each with a controller in their hands.

When we walked past, or rather Alice did with me in her arms bridal style, Emmet turned to face us. "Did you two have fun? I don't think they quite heard you in China Bella." He joked, before being smacked on the back of the head by Rosalie, causing him to wince and rub his head gently.

I blushed furiously and buried my head in Alice's shoulder, ignoring Emmet's booming laugh. Alice hissed viciously and turned her body away from them, sparing me from Emmet's gaze. She hissed again and glared angrily. "You two, out of the house. Now." Emmet looked insulted and looked like he was going to argue but Rosalie shook her head and ushered him out of the house.

Alice remained motionless until they had both walked out of the door and ran into the forest. She sighed quietly, "Finally, alone at last." She said smiling. She set me down and gently took my hand, directing me towards the garage. She stopped me just outside the door and cupped my cheeks with her hands.

"Bella, I don't know if you like presents or not but I've got you two and you're not going to say no to them. In fact, you're going to love them, I don't even need to look in the future to know that." She said cockily.

I was slightly worried about what these 'gifts' would be, I knew that Alice had a tenancy to blow things out of proportion, I only hoped that she handed spent that much on me. I didn't need lots of money spent on me, in fact it only makes me feel like I owe Alice more. She's just so perfect and I'm so plain and ordinary, everything she does for me, is just something for me to have to try and repay in some way later. I guess I'll always feel this way, not that I was going to tell her this. This was her moment, so I'd just smile along and try to enjoy myself.

"Of course I'll love anything that you've gotten me." I said to her, even though it felt odd, I did genuinely mean that. She beamed at me happily and ushered me through the door of the garage. I stopped inside in the dark room and she quickly flicked the light switch, illuminating the room.

It took a few seconds for my eyes to adjust to the light, I could feel Alice waiting patiently beside me. When the spots in my eyes had finally cleared, I was able to see all of the Cullen's cars, except there was one extra but it was covered by a white cloth. No... She couldn't have... Did Alice get me a car?

As much as this should make me feel bad, I just couldn't. It seems quite stupid, but it means that I'd always be with a part of Alice when I was driving, even if she wasn't there then at least the car is a gift from her. I smiled at her and noticed a box on the front of the car. I released my hand and moved tentatively forward, reaching out and plucking the box from the car.

My hands were shaking with excitement, so I struggled to get the lid off of the box. I don't know why I was so excited, normally I hated any kind of gift, ah well. Alice saw that I was struggling and gently undid the ribbon and pulled the lid of the box off.

I stared down into the box and spotted a beautiful silver bracelet, it instantly reminded me of Alice, it was just so perfect. Everything about it was finely crafted and exquisite, much like my girlfriend. I gently picked it up and turned it over, spotting the words, 'Only you my love' engraved expertly. I felt tears building in the corners of my eyes, but I didn't want to cry before I'd at least tried the bracelet on.

I slipped it over my wrist and found that it was a perfect fit, not only that but it felt amazing against my coolness of the metal reminded me of Alice's skin, making me love it even more. Alice was staring at me, assessing my reaction, she seemed satisfied. "Smell the bracelet, I put my scent on it, so if I'm not there with you, then you can be reminded of me." I could feel the emotion in these words, causing a single tear to spill over. She caught it quickly.

I lifted my arm and put the bracelet to my nose, inhaling deeply. It smelt absolutely amazing, her scent had been captured and preserved perfectly. The smell caused me to relax instantly, I knew that this bracelet would come in handy at school, I could just subtly sniff it whenever I was stressed or anxious.

I didn't know how to tell Alice properly how much this meant to me, so I wrapped her in a tender hug and kissing her gently, trying to convey my emotions into these simple gestures. She smiled at me and kissed my forehead gently, "I know Bella, I know." She said happily.

She was practically bouncing on the balls of her feet now, I couldn't tell if she was excited for me to see my new car or if she was happy that I liked the bracelet. I figured I might as well find out, so I quickly, in one motion, pulled the cover off of the car.

I gasped loudly, I was staring at the most beautiful car I'd ever seen. It was a dull black sexy Lamborghini. I instantly loved it. The whole car screamed sexy and powerful, exactly like Alice. I wanted Alice to know how much I loved the car, so I leaned over and placed a quick kiss on the bonnet, before turning and capturing Alice's lips. She pushed me gently against the car and kissed me deeply.

She quickly scooped me into her arms and pressed her lips to my ear. "It's called a Lamborghini Reventón, it's very rare and exquisite. Like you my love." She whispered lovingly, before lifting the door up and placing me in the driving seat.

I melted instantly into the amazingly comfortable seats, if this wasn't my first time in the car, then I would have just fallen asleep in the seat. Alice climbed into the passenger seat and I turned the key in the ignition.

The car purred to life, reminding me of Alice straight away. I hadn't even driven it yet and I already loved the car, I wonder if Alice knew I would. I think that she probably did, she had a knack at knowing when things were going to happen, I mean she could see the future but it's still impressive. I laughed at the expression on Alice's face and pulled out quickly of the drive way.

I marveled at the cars superb handling, I watched the speedometer rise steadily. I laughed excitedly, I'd never driven so fast in my life and I was loving the feeling. Alice was laughing happily at my expression, smiling endearingly. I didn't know where I was driving to but I just loved the feeling of Alice being beside me and the feel of the car beneath me.

For the first time in my life, I felt complete. I had everything that I'd ever wanted. I hadn't noticed before but there had been a void in my life, something was always missing. I'd found that missing piece, in the form of my pixie-like, cocky girlfriend.

We drove like this for a few hours, she had her head on my shoulder and was cuddling close to me. Eventually I pulled over in a secluded parking area. Alice leaned in close and kissed me cheek lovingly. "There's actually something I wanted to talk to you about. but I don't want to scare you or make you uncomfortable." She said nervously, fidgeting in her seat.

"Alice, you could never do those things. Please just say what you need to say." I urged.

She took a breath unnecessary breath, "It's about you becoming a vampire when we've finished school. I was just wondering you'd want that." She looked at me carefully assessing my reaction. My face was blank for a few seconds, and I could see start to worry, before a giant smile etched itself across my face.

"Oh my god, are you being serious? I thought you wouldn't want me, are you sure you do? I love you, when should we do it?" I was rambling and she quickly silenced me with a kiss. She hugged me closer to her body and started running her fingers through my hair.

"Have I ever told you that I love your hair?" She told me lovingly, before answering my questions. "Of course I want you Bella, you're my soul mate. We can do it after graduation, there's the problem of Charlie and whatnot, but we can easily sort that out. We should probably get home, I had a vision earlier, Edward wants to speak to you."

I was confused, why would Edward want to speak to me? I wasn't going to let this thought ruin the moment though, Alice wanted me, forever. I sighed happily and pulled out of the parking lot.

The rest of the drive passed uneventfully, comfortable and luxurious but uneventful. Alice and I were happy to lapse into a comfortable silence, neither of us feeling the need to break it. I pulled into the garage at home and walked into the living room.

Edward was sitting on the sofa, his attention switching to us the moment we walked into the room. "I'll leave you alone for this Edward, if you upset her though." Alice threatened, she didn't finish the threat, leaving it open to Edward's imagination. She might have finished it in her head though, it's hard to tell with this family.

Alice walked out of the room and Edward gestured for me to take a seat opposite him. When I'd sat down and was comfortable, he began. "I know that you want to become one of us, I just want to urge you away from it. We're monsters, we have no souls and we're damned for all eternity... Even though we've chosen this life, we're still not natural and you'd be better off without us."

He stopped talking and studied me, "I can hear your thoughts, I'm not convincing you, am I?" I shook my head and he chuckled. "You can't blame me for trying." We both stopped talking and lapsed into silence. After a while I decided to learn more about him.

"So... Mind reading?" I said awkwardly. He laughed again.

"Yeah, it's not as cool as it sounds though. I've graduated from school countless times and because of my ability I'm now an expert on Justin Beiber and other artists that I normally wouldn't listen to... If you'd like I could name all the members of Girls Generation and their favourite colours and..." I quickly cut him off.

"No I'm good thanks, save that knowledge for when you get a girlfriend." I teased.

I heard Emmet's booming laughter from upstairs and slowly everyone filtered into the room. Alice sat down next to me and pulled me into her lap, Rosalie entered behind her and quickly turned on the television, before sitting down on Emmet's lap.

"What are we watching today then guys?" Esme asked, as she walked into the room. Everyone started to bicker with themselves, Alice started getting quite headed and began shouting obscenities at everyone. I was laughing and enjoying the vibrations her shouting caused.

They continued this for a few minutes, until Emmet got frustrated and playfully tackled Jasper. Everyone turned their attention to this, Emmet was huge but Jasper was much more skillful. When everyone was distracted, I grabbed the remote off the floor and changed channels, looking for something to watch. I decided on 'Chasing The Saturdays.'

I looked around the room, feeling euphoric. This was were I belonged, I loved everyone in this room, they were all family. I loved the feeling, I truly felt accepted into this unique family. They all had their quirks and I loved them all for it, especially Alice's, although it was a slightly different love.

I loved Carlisle for his never ending, loving compassion and his quiet, thoughtful intellect. I loved Esme for her mothering attitude and zero tolerance for anyone doing anything to hurt her family. I loved Emmet for his ability to lighten a situation with humour but also for his seriousness and loving attitude. I loved Edward and Jasper for their quiet and thoughtful nature, but also their ability to be playful when they want to. I loved Rosalie, for being well... Rosalie. There was no other way to describe her, except maybe, 'loving bitch.'

Alice... Well I loved her completely. Everything about her pulled at my heart. I loved her cuteness, her ability to make me laugh. Her immature and adorable attitude, the way she could easily become serious if she wanted to. We amused ourselves endlessly by laughing at each other when we both turned serious and stared at each other. I loved her soft, short hair, her petite body. But most of all, I loved just being with her.

I turned my attention away from my thoughts and back to the tv and the wrestiling. Time passed by quickly when I was watching and before long, I was yawning and snuggiling into Alice's arms. She looked down at me and kissed my nose, before carrying my upstairs to our room. Odd, I now thought of her room as ours, I guess that's what being in a relationship feels like.

She set me down on the bed and pulled me into her arms. I tucked my head under hers, so her chin was resting on my forehead and cuddled into her. "Don't worry Bella, Saun won't bother you tonight... Sleep" she cooed.

I wasn't going to argue with her. After a few minutes, Alice began to sing to me, it was a beautiful sound, so sweet and clear. I felt myself drifting into the realm of sleep not long after she started.

The last thing I remember before going to sleep, was my guardian angel singing me to sleep.

A/N

I know I seem to end lots of chapters with someone falling asleep, ah well.

Like I said, this chapter is longer than the rest but I hope that isn't a problem. As always I'd appreciate if you'd tell me what you think but I won't force you. Not that I could but I guess that's not the point. If you do review, tell me what you think about Alice point of views and whether you thought this was a good chapter. I personally thought it was, I liked the cuteness:3

I felt like an Alice and Bella 'intimate' scene was overdue and I know how much you guys and girls love some Bellice action.

I hope you liked this chapter Jaz, I know you wanted me to make them longer, so here you are 3

Until next time :)