Short blurb about Tony leaving to find Ziva, with a bit of a slashy twist to it. Ziva is my least favorite character, I'm actually starting to like Bishop more than I ever did Ziva, and I know a lot of people don't like her, but last night when she got into Gibbs face, was amazing. Anyway, this is Tony leaving and just my idea as to why he would go after her, if not because he liked her that way, which in my universe, he doesn't. I'm going to post one hopefully tonight tagging last nights episode, it inspired me, but I have to put finishing touches on it before I put it up. Enjoy.
"I'm going," Tony says, picking up his bag and heading for the elevator, Gibbs following and Tim watching from the end of the aisle where their desks are.
"To what end?" Gibbs demands.
"I have to find her Jet," is the repeated response and the other man scowls.
"Is there something that is going on between you two that I should know about?" he asks, a question that has been bugging him since Tony said he was going to try to find Ziva.
"No Jet," Tony says, turning back to him, a pained look on his face, "that's not it, I just have to find her, I can't leave it like this."
"With her gone, we're down one person Tony, we can't afford for you to run off to Israel on a wild goose chase. She's not interested in being found."
"Jet, please understand, I have to do this," Tony pleads again, hoping that his lover will let it go and let him do this.
"No, DiNozzo, I don't understand, why-"
"Because we never got to say goodbye to Kate!" Tony nearly shouts and the floor goes silent, almost everyone had turned to watch them, they're argument wasn't quiet and everyone seems stunned, especially Gibbs.
"What?" he asks, shocked by his outburst, barely noting when Tim moved closer.
"We never got to say goodbye Gibbs," Tony says, keeping his eyes on his boss and trying to suppress his emotions, "she was standing right there one second, the next she was gone. Do you ever think that if you knew then what you know now, what you would have said to her?" Gibbs sighs and takes a look around before motioning both Tony and Tim into his 'office', presses the down button and then the stop button a moment later.
"Where is this coming from Tony?" Gibbs asks, his tone softer than its usual brusqueness.
"You never think about it?" the other man asks, looking between the other two, "I don't think about it all the time, but sometimes it just hits me, and I try to analyze if there was something else that could have been done, if we could have saved her somehow. I think about how I would have spent more time with her outside of work, maybe lightened up on the teasing, let her know she was doing a good job more often. She was one of my best friends and I never got to say goodbye, and it bugs the hell out of me."
"I think about it," Tim says quietly and the other two look at him, "I mean, I know I was new to the team, but Kate was a good agent, a great friend."
"Yeah, all right, I think about it too, I think about her and Pacci and all of the others that we lost over the years, unfortunately, death is a risk we take every day in this job," Gibbs points out.
"I know that Gibbs," Tony says, sounding annoyed, "but this isn't Ziva dying, this is her disappearing without a word, without an explanation, if she's dead, we need to know. Mossad says she's missing, but I can't leave it at that, I have to know for sure."
"Tony, if Ziva doesn't want to be found, you're not going to find her."
"I have to try Gibbs," Tony explains, "I can't let her go without knowing why, if there's a valid reason for her to go, then she owes it to us to explain herself. I need to know, it will eat me up inside if I don't, we can't lose another part of our family without a reason. I'll take a week, poke around, and come back if I don't find anything."
"No," Gibbs said and Tony opened his mouth to protest, "take as much time as you need, just check in as much as possible, let me know when you get there."
"Yes boss," Tony said and Tim looked away as Gibbs gives Tony a quick kiss. They ride the elevator down to the lobby and watch Tony leave.
"Do you think he'll find her?" Tim asked.
"I think that if anyone can, it will be Tony," Gibbs says and turns back tot he elevator head back up.