A/N: Thanks for reading it means a lot. It's been two weeks since the last chapter in time, so if you're keeping up with my characters Christmas break is over and Monica and Nic are back.

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I didn't feel anything, I didn't eat, I didn't sleep, and I didn't tell anyone what happened in that girl's bathroom. I hadn't talked to Tom since then but I always thought about him, and I know I shouldn't but I couldn't help it. Monica and Nic came back but they respected my silence and said when I was ready they'd be here for me. Some of my professors started to notice something was wrong especially Professor Merrythought. She was always one of if not my favorite teacher every time I came in I would always put my head on my desk. Today was no different I entered and did exactly what I've been doing for honestly I've lost count.

"I have some exciting news!" She sang out to the class "you'll be learning how to cast a patronus!" I twitched a little I've always wanted to know what my patronus looked like, but I don't think I can with the way I'm feeling. Professor Merrythought explained just how to conjure one why'd he have to do this. I wanted so desperately to participate but I couldn't bring myself to. Merrythought asked us to form a circle around the room, I stood up.

"Are you sure?" Nic pulled on my sleeve, I nodded.

I stood against the wall in farthest corner I wanted to avoid everyone. One at time Professor Merrythought had the students come to the center of the circle and there they would cast the patronus. I looked on to the circle I wish I could find a happy memory but all I can think about is Tom Fucking Riddle! I let out an audible growl. It was Monica's turn, it took a couple tries but she did it! She conjured an owl it was fitting for her. I was so proud, it was awhile before Nic went when he finally did his patronus was an eagle. I didn't pay too much attention to the rest I only wanted to know what my friends were and of course mine.

I stood quietly hoping Merrythought wouldn't see me or anyone for that matter I thought about all what my patronus would be or what I wanted I was so lost in thought I didn't even notice Tom.

"You haven't talked to me a while" he joked, I wouldn't look at him "are you going to?" he poked my side. I brushed him off how can he not see how much he hurt me! Was he really that arrogant? The asshole kept touching me and I wanted puke.

"Hey! Leave her alone" Monica stood directly in front him this can't be good, Tom pinched my side. "Fine." I slumped to the floor.

"Hey hey" Monica caught me "It's gonna be ok we've all gone through a bad breakup" but oh god it's so much more than that. I've debated for awhile whether or not to tell her I was a wreck but I feel like if I least don't tell someone!

"Monica," I swallowed hard "I have to tell you som-"

"Everyone!" Professor Merrythought interrupted "Great job I'm so proud of all of you!" I guess I'll tell her later. I walked back to my table for my bag,

"Astrid I'd like to see you in my office after class" Merrythought smiled shit. All of the students began to shuffle out except for me of course I waited until the room was empty before I went to her office.

"I'm a little worried about you" Merrythought sighed "you were one of my best students." I couldn't look at her.

"Is everything alright?" my eyes watered

"Yeess" that was it I broke down, it didn't occur to me until now how much pain I was in. I didn't know what was worse feeling nothing or all at once. I couldn't speak or think, I could only cry and I cried a lot. Why now? Why couldn't I have cried earlier? I didn't even cry when it happened! It hurt everything hurt the pain I felt 20 times worse than what it actually was. I couldn't breathe was I dying? My vision was spotty I felt the darkness take me over. This was it I was dying I had to be right?

"Astrid?" I awoke to the sound of my name "Oh good she's awake" where am I?

"When's the last time you ate Miss Folles?" what? "When is the last time you ate Miss Folles?" The Nurse repeated.

"Uhhh" I don't remember I looked down at arm and saw a steady stream of purple and white liquid suspended in the air which entered my body through a small hole in my arm. How'd that get there? I reached to touch it

"Don't touch that!" The nurse yelled. "You need those nutrients, this is a very delicate magic we must be careful."

I was in the hospital wing for 2 weeks apparently not eating or drinking can mess with you. I was eating again well kinda I could only eat foods approved by The Nurse. Nic and Monica came to visit me everyday it was very sweet a couple others came too a few professors as well. It was nice except that I still haven't told anyone what happened in that bathroom and I don't think I was ever going to now. They told me I was healthy enough to go back to my classes after 2 weeks I was a little excited but more relieved.

The next day I would try to forget everything that's happened to me and then Tom Riddle strode into the Hospital Wing. what the fuck does he want? He pushed my legs aside and sat on the bed.

"Hi" I growled "No need to be so hostile I came to apologize" WHAT!?

"Apologize for what?" I snarled apologize for sending me into a deep depression? Apologize for making me feel worthless? Apologize for raping me! He didn't say anything he just took my hands I tried to pull away but I was too weak. I wanted to scream and beat him make him feel exactly how I felt these past few weeks but I couldn't. I sat in silence when he kissed my knuckles you need to fucking stop Tom! How can he do this?! I tried to speak out but couldn't it's like my lips were sewn shut.

Tom leaned in closer god I wanna punch you in your fucking teeth he softly smiled before kissing me. NO NO NO NO! He can't be serious! I was finally able to get some strength back and pounded my fist against his chest. All the anger I had been harbouring suddenly came pouring out. I kicked and punched but he kept kissing it was like he was trying to prove something. He grabbed my hands pinning them to my sides I refuse to let this happen again I opened my mouth and sunk my teeth into his lip. I bit until he bled his blood mixed with my saliva who's weak now I let out a small laugh when he pulled away.

"You bit me?" he wiped some blood away.

"I think you-"

"Make way! Clear a bed quickly now quickly!" Several people came rushing carrying a student on a stretcher what the hell happened to him? Tom shifted on the bed but I knew he was trying to hide his enthusiasm prick.

"What happened?" one professor asked

"This student was attacked" I rolled over facing away from all the comtion, I wanted Tom to leave and wanted to sleep. He rubbed my back please go away hot tears streamed down my face

"Please" I spoke softly "please go away."

To my surprise Tom left and I prayed to every deity that he'd never come back. Why was I so stupid!? More tears ran down my face I never want to see Tom Riddle again!

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