~Chapter 13: Lucky Number, Eh?~

MACEY! AHHH! PANIC.

I figured that I could really use your advice, because I am in way too much drama to ask anyone else. I don't think that even made sense. Okay, whatever. You better reply soon or I'll freak out even more.

To prevent this from being a giant block of words, I'm just gonna put these in paragraphish paragraphs...oh who am I kidding? My English teacher would never approve! Anyway, back on topic. I tend to do that a lot. Must stay focused.

Okay. So, basically, I met this guy at the start of the school year. And we kinda became best friends. And my best girlfriend liked him...but it's kind of weird, since she liked a bunch of people, then later said she didn't really like them. Wait, before I go on, this is about friend conflict, guy problems, and personal issues! Have fun reading.

I'll just skip forward a bit. In December, I told him I liked him (which is like a HUGE deal around here, so I must've been pretty crazy that day), and he said he liked me back. Which is great and all. Except...two of my friends like him. He's just that kind of guy who everyone likes, but he thinks no one likes him. I used to be cool with him being really close to all of my friends. We were like this group of friends at first, which was weird, cuz he was the only guy, in a group with 4 other girls. But by the time I told him, it was kind of just me and by best girlfriend and him. And then us 4 girls. I did like him for a while, but I couldn't tell my friends, because even though we were a group, my two friends who liked him didn't know that the other did. So...by the time I told him, we were kind of starting to split because of various reasons.

On the night I told him, we agreed to not tell anyone. But then we told my friend who didn't like him. She told my other friend. And of course she was hurt. I felt really bad, but...I didn't know what to do, since I really liked this guy. All of us completely fell apart after that.

I was friends with my best friend (let's call this person A), my friend who didn't like him (B), and I was really really close to him (C). As for my friend who liked him, and knew he liked me back (D), it was kind of awkward. We still talked a lot in school, and laughed together, but then I soon started to realize that I wasn't one of her best friends anymore. I don't even know if I ever was.

Okay, so A found out from me and C later. She was really really annoyed. And she got really mad, and said that our group was officially over. She said that she would only be friends with me, since...well it was complicated. She was mad at B and D, and decided that she would only be friends with me and C (the guy).

B stayed friends with me, but we were never really close. We would be friends when we saw each other, but we only contacted each other when we were in some pretty deep trouble. Then, we would rant to each other all day, she would get mad at me for still liking C, I would get mad at her for being so against C, and we wouldn't talk to each other the next day. Then, we would forgive and forget. This repeated many times...

Now, on to C. He's the sweetest guy in the world. Completely naive, and so honest. We're still too young to date by our nerd population's standards, so we just kinda hovered in between friendship and more. I depended on him, and only him for a long time. This caused my friends to get mad at me not caring about them anymore, and it really hurt me. He never got mad at me when I did stupid things. He always boosted my low self-confidence by saying sweet things. "You're amazing, beautiful, fun, etc." But this was during texting, or when we were alone. At school, and around other people. it was almost like I didn't exist. And the thing is, he always talks to girls. It made my mood drop to an all time low. I mean, here was my best guy friend, my...unofficial boyfriend, I guess, talking to other people and acting like I don't exist. Do I have extreme jealousy issues? I just don't know. I know the type of person he is, and A said that he did it because he was insecure, and just wanting to make everyone accept him, in turn hurting me, pretty much on purpose.

And I just wanted everyone to know that he was MINE. I know, it's all possessive and stuff. Oh, right. I forgot to mention that this kid was my whole world. He said that the only person he really cared about was me, aside from family of course. And I knew that I was in some serious trouble. This is going to be one person that I'll never forget.

We agreed not to tell anyone, but suddenly, I kind of wanted everyone to know. So basically, I didn't do anything to hide it. I wouldn't betray his trust, cuz I didn't exactly TELL anyone. Let's do a little time skip. Near the end of the year, almost everyone that knew us knew about us. I remember that all my friends were really loud about it, and it kinda just spread. This one guy kept being obnoxious and telling C about us all the time. Soon, his friends all knew, and yeah. By this time, we also got REALLY close. As in I barely even talked to my other friends, other than A. He didn't talk to anyone but our original group of friends. Me, A, B, and D. He claimed that he honestly didn't really care about A or B.

See, A is kind of that mean girl. I didn't really like her that much, but we had some good times that I couldn't let go. So naturally, she acted really mean to C, and they kind of ended their friendship. Honestly, I was pretty much the only thing that was holding our group together. But...D STILL liked him. And that really bothered me, cuz she was close to him...she and I made up, and she said that she wished us the best, and wouldn't do anything to ruin me and C.

And I was kind of happy...C and I pretty much blocked out the rest of the world, and we were really close, even in school. Unfortunately, no PDA allowed. XD so, he kind of got this lecture from my teacher about putting his arm around me, hahah.

I'm trying to cram a year's events into this, so I'm sure I make no sense, sorry.

Let's just skip to now. He was my first kiss...that's something really special. I also think I'm in love with him. Like for real. I have all the symptoms, and we've been "together" for almost a year. We can't go a day without talking to each other, and it's like a perfect relationship. But...sometimes I feel like it's always me starting the conversation and me suggesting dates, and stuff like that. So, ms boy expert, is it true that girls usually give a lot more than guys? I mean, it's him doing all the physical things, like hugging and stuff. And he says sweet stuff all the time. It's so darn confusing! I miss him and react badly when he doesn't reply. Then I don't talk to him, but he doesn't really start the conversation.

I asked him about it, and he said he was really busy over the summer, but sometimes I text and he replies in a few seconds. Am I getting desperate? Am I going crazy? I mean, I CRIED when he was a tiny bit mad for like two seconds. And I think D STILL liked him the last time I checked. Which was in the beginning of summer, but seriously!

Aghh. So basically, I have a complicated relationship that I don't know how to deal with, but I'm not willing to give up. Complicated friends...I still talk to A every day, but I just feel bad if I ignore her texts. B and I are on good terms. Not close though. D and I are good too, but I'm kind of upset still. And C? Right now, I'm really annoyed at him...sigh...

HELP ME! And sorry. I'm sure it was torture reading through this jumble of words.

I love you to death...that is, if you help ;)

~Skye

Omg. That looked horrible! Why was it so long? I felt like I skipped a bunch of events!

I have a horrible love life. That only consisted of three people. All of which I ranted to you about. Not that I actually loved the first two. It was a schoolgirl crush. Now I feel bad, since the only people I've ever like actually liked me back. Some girls would really want that. Oh well! I'm sorry. Soooooo soooo sorry! Will you forgive me? I promise I'll stop bothering you now! PROMISE!

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Oh my God, Skye. That made my brain hurt. Like you don't even know. I had to like stand up and walk around my house for ten minutes while attempting to get rid of the pounding in my skull. LOL.

You know, usually, I say stuff like "never let a guy get between you and your friends," "chicks before dicks," and things of that nature.

But that's always been when the guys a player. Or he can't choose which one he likes.

But he obviously likes you.

I've had a lot of difficulties with my friends over guys. It got to a point where Liz had liked this guy since kindergarten (...well actually she still likes him...) and he had liked her. But finally, she got pissed that he was too scared to make a move, so she pretty much dumped him as her "almost boyfriend" (as you put it). So we all figured he was toast and that she didn't like him anymore. So naturally, him and I were friends. And I started to like him. So then of course (because nothing in my nonexistent love life ever goes right) Bex went and made out with him like a total ** and they dated for a while.

And guess what me and Liz did. Even though it hurt us, even though we were totally jealous, and tangled in a "I like him, he likes her" issue. We sucked it up. We got over. We don't even hold it against each other. Because we were still friends. And even though we were jealous, we were still able to have good times together. To laugh together.

And then of course when he dumped Bex a month later, we were there to pick up her pieces.

That is an example.

Here is another example that is completely contradictory, mainly because of the fact that in this situation, the friends aren't in love with the same guy, but totally hate him like you said A hated C. (if I got those letters correct...0.o)

Anna Fetterman was after this guy for the longest time. And me and Liz were CONSTANTLY telling her to dump him. It's not that we were jealous. It was that Anna Fetterman was totally lovestruck by this guy, therefore blind and unaware of WHAT A TOTAL CREEP HE WAS.

FINALLY, after like a MONTH of trying to talk her out of this, she listened. And dumped him.

This is an example of how love is blind. Therefore, Mr. Lover Boy may not always be who you think he is, ladies.

Keep that in mind.

Skye your message is so long and confusing I honestly have no idea how much I covered so feel free to repeat questions in your response, hahahaha.

So I guess the moral of that story is that "guys come and go, but besties are forever."

Unless those girls aren't actually your besties. And you have absolutely no desire to keep fighting with them because they sound ridiculous. And then you can just leave them alone. But that means if Mr. Lover Boy ever dumps you, then you will have no one to TP his house with.

Love,

~m

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I'm so so sorry! I just wanted to pour it all out. Sometimes it takes just that to make the world seem a little brighter. You should be honored that I chose to torture you. ;)

Oh, he's not a player. I know that much...for various complicated reasons. He was my best friend first, and I can honestly say that I know him really well. He's not that type of person. It's more like an insecurity thing...he thinks he's unpopular and always alone. Never fitting in, etc.

Now I feel stupid. He does like me! I feel really bad now. It's kind of like...I know that he wouldn't betray me, just because of our history, but it still annoys me. What if people start thinking he likes someone else? I get really annoyed at rumors like that. Although now that I think about it, there haven't really been any...

But I'm going crazy about him! And I don't know what's supposed to be more important, the way he treats others, or the way he treats me? Because I'm supposed to be all supportive and stuff, and be there for him even if everyone hates him. This probably doesn't even make any sense! Everyone likes AND hates him. What is this screwed up world we live in?

They're not really my besties, and yes. They are ridiculous.

Okay, thank you so much! I feel much much much much much much better! Are you magical? 0.o

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Yeah... I'm magical. You haven't been able to tell from all the girls I've helped and love I have made in the lives of these people? LOL.

Okay, so I hope you feel better.

I can't think of what else to say. Feel free to ask more questions.

Love,

~m

Here's by sort-of boy problem:

There's this boy that I sat by in English all year and he was really annoying and kinda mean especially to me but one day when I asked him to edit my essay and I told him it sucked he said he doubted that it was bad. And another time I got a really good grade on this really hard assignment we had, and he told me good job and gave me a high-five but yet all the other times he wouldn't shut up and was mean.

What does this mean? Does it even mean anything? I'm so confused, totally new to "boy stuff", and not quite sure if I like him. Please help!

~gallaghergirlalltheway

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Can you give me examples of how he was mean?

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Erm...well he wasn't completely "mean" but he would flick mine and my friends heads really hard and he would say really rude stuff to us...

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I would like to say that this guy sounds like a jerk. Mainly, when I guy is rude to you, flicks your head, and insults you and your friends, it means he doesn't like you.

He probably said that your essay didn't suck because he knows you're a hell a lot smarter than he is. You are a lot smarter than he is primarily for the reason that YOU don't go around flicking people in the head or insulting them. (But I mean IF you do, then that's totally okay too...no judgement here. Flicking people is fun...)

Anyway, if I were you, I wouldn't waste my time liking some jerk like him.

But then again, if any of us could help who we fall in love with, this story wouldn't exist.

Love,

~m

So Macey,

I had this best friend, we were really close, but suddenly one day it was over. One day out of the blue she sent 14 messages saying 'We can't be friends anymore' .

I guess she thought once wasn't enough to hurt me so she had to send me the message 14 times and it really hurt me to the point I was crying (Ive lost friends before but they didn't mean as much as this one, so I didn't cry over them).

So I was crying most of the day (during school) and now when I look at best friend stuff it just reminds me of her, and sometimes I feel like crying.

- Angie

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Angie,

Fighting with your friend, especially your best friend, is always one of the worst feelings in the world. Your entire body just feels heavy, you feel rejected. You feel stupid. You feel like you weren't good enough.

And you're always left questioning what went wrong, because it's not like you can read their mind, right?

In all honestly, she probably rejected you because some rude thing someone said about you. Or drama. Or both. Some people are so shallow. People like this aren't worth your time, Angie. She wasn't worth it. And even though I'm sure you guy had a lot of a great times together, a lot of inside jokes, sleepovers, laughs, smiles, it's all over. But that's okay. Remember the good things. Remember the happy things. But also remember that SHE was the one who was superficial enough to walk away.

Remember that what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. And now you are stronger as a person. Better as a person.

One of my favorite quotes is from Marylin Monroe:

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you can learn to appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so, eventually, you learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes, good things fall apart so that batter things can fall together."

Yours Truly,

~Macey