I planned on going outside and just getting some space. The elevator opened and I stepped out, and quickly made my way outside. I had my head down, so I didn't notice that I was about to collide with some. I walked into the person's chest, and said "sorry" without even looking up.
"Its fi - Rocket?" I snapped my head up when I recognised the person's voice.
"Hi Matt." I said quietly. "Hey. Why are you so... underdressed?" Matt asked, with a confused look on his face.
"It's a long story." I replied. I didn't wanna talk to anyone, I just wanted to be alone with my thoughts.
"Are you okay? You look really upset." Matt said.
"Not really." I answered truthfully.
"Do you wanna come up to my hotel room and talk about it? I'm a great listener." He said.
"Thanks, but I just wanna be alone right now." "No, you'll freeze out here dressed like this. Just come on Rocket, I don't wanna see you like this. Please?" Matt pleaded.
I sighed. Maybe it would be good to talk to someone. If I was alone, I'd probably end up over thinking everything and making it worse.
"Okay, thanks Matt." I replied. He smiled and grabbed my hand, and began to pull me back into the hotel. I gently pulled my hand away from his and stuffed them into my hoodie. He gave me a weird look, but I pretended not to see it. We walked silently into the elevator, and waited for it to bring it to the room.
"Wheres the rest of your band?" I asked.
"In their rooms."
"Why were you outside?" "I just wanted some air."
When the doors opened, I followed Matt out and into his room. When we entered, Max and Chris looked up from whatever they were watching on TV. "Hey guys." Matt greeted, before throwing himself down on the empty double bed.
I leaned against the wall with my head down, while I played with the hem of my hoodie.
"Hey Rocket!" Max said happily.
"Hi Max." I said shyly.
Coming up here sounded nice at the time, but now I felt really intimidated, and I didn't know why.
"You okay?" Chris asked. I then realised that my face was probably still red and puffy from crying.
I nodded and tried to smile, but I knew it looked fake.
"Come and sit with me, Rocket?" Matt asked.
I shifted my weight from the wall, and perched at the end of the bed. I heard Matt sigh, before I felt arms around me, and before I knew it, I had been pulled up to the top of the bed, right beside Matt.
"Why are you so shy today? You're not normally like this." Matt pointed out as he wrapped an arm around my waist, and pulled me close to him. I wanted to pull away, but heat was radiating from his body, and it felt kinda nice to be close to someone. I let myself become comfortable, leaning more into Matt and resting my hand on his stomach.
"I'm just having a bad day." I replied quietly.
"Wanna talk about it?" He asked as he messed with my hand.
I glanced over at Chris and Max, and saw that they looked engrossed in what they were watching.
"It's Zack." I sighed.
"What about him?" Matt asked.
I thought about how I'd say it. I didn't want to come out and say it so bluntly. "I can't see him anymore." I settled on.
"What do you mean?"
"I think it's just best for us if we stay away from each other. It'll make everything easier. I'm no good for him." I tried to explain.
Matt looked down at me, with a very confused look on his face.
"I have no idea what you mean." "It's complicated, Matt. Basically, we need to not see each other anymore, but there's a part of me that dosn't want that. And I'm just really confused and upset right now."
I looked up at Matt and saw that he had his eyebrows furrowed together.
"Well, since I don't really know the full story, all I can say is that you need to do the right thing. And if not seeing Zack is the right thing, then you need to do it."
I frowned. I knew that already. I just wished that it didn't hurt so much.
"Thanks Matt. I hate fucking drama." I complained.
"Everyone does." He replied as he rubbed my head.
I chilled in Matt's room for the next while, and talked to him. He took my mind off everything, and he just made me laugh. He was a really great friend.
I yawned and rubbed at my eyes. They were sore from crying, and from staying awake for so long.
"Are you tired?" Matt asked from the other end of the bed.
We had moved so we were sitting opposite to each other.
"Yep. I wanna sleep and forget this day." I replied.
"Do you wanna go back to your room?" I frowned. I actually didn't. I was having fun here.
"Not really." I answered honestly.
"Do you wanna stay here tonight?" Matt asked with a smile.
I nodded happily, and Matt reached down the bed and dragged me up to him. I arranged myself around him, so he had his arm around my waist, and my head was on his chest. I just felt comfortable around Matt, the same way I do with the guys in my band. It's a really nice feeling to be that way.
I closed my eyes, and Matt rubbed small circles with his finger into my back. I relaxed completly, and soon enough I fell into a deep sleep.
*
My eyes fluttered open, the sunlight coming through the windows just barely being blocked out by the curtains hurt my eyes. I yawned, and tried to stretch, before I realised that there was arms around me. I turned my head and saw that Matt was still asleep. He had his hands resting on my stomach, in an almost protective way. I gently tried to sqwirm out of his hold with out waking him, and after a bit of moving, I finally got to slip out of the bed. I quietly walked out of the room, and made my way to the elevator. I got inside and pressed the button that would bring me to my floor. I exited the elevator and walked up to my room. I opened the door and walked in, closing the door slowly behind me. It made a quiet click, and then I heard someone moving around. Kelan ran into view, and he smiled when he saw me.
"ROCKET!" He yelled, before throwing himself at me and gripped me in a hug. "Morning." I replied.
He pushed away from me and put his hands on my shoulders.
"Where the fuck were you?" He asked with an angry tone to his voice.
"I was in Matt's room." I said.
"Why didn't you tell anyone, we thought you were missing!" My face fell, and I realised that no one knew where I was last night.
"Oh God, I'm so sorry Kelan!" I cried. "Is Drew really pissed?"
"He's more worried. You can't do that Rocket, we have to stay together." He told me.
"I know, I know, I just wasn't thinking." I replied.
Kelan sighed. "Just don't do it again." I nodded and pulled him into a hug.
"I'm sorry Kelan." I said again.
I released him and he smiled. "I'm gonna go to sleep, I've been awake all night." He said as he walked away.
"You shouldn't have done that." I told him as I followed him.
"I was worried."
Kelan slipped into bed beside a still sleeping Oli, as I grabbed my phone off the table. I texted Matt and told him where I was, so he wouldn't panic. I threw my phone on the table and decided to go back to sleep, since it was only 8am. I jumped into mine and Ash's bed, and cuddled into him, before drifting off into a light sleep.
A/N Sorry I havn't updated in so long, I'm back to school now, so updates will be less frequent.
Tell me what you think about this, and I'll love you forever. I also realised that I put You me at six lyrics into a chapter a little while ago, and said they were from Fireworks, but I just realised they were from Always attract. I AM THE WORST YMAS FAN EVER! I still can't believe I did that.
Also, I put up blogs on my tumblr about the two gigs I went to last week if you wanna read them - . and if you wanna tweet me - emmalive_ [two underscores]
thanks for reading, I'll update soon. :)