AN: Sorry for not updating this story :( forgive me? Hope you do :) I kind of laughed at the end of this chapter... Well, without further a due…

I sat in my car for a few seconds forcing myself to think of something else…anything else. This dream is just…too real…or complicated. It continues to room its way into my mind and I find myself crying. I do not know why…maybe it is overwhelming me…I need to go to work, and take my mind off things…If I can.

My eyes are on the road and I am concentrating on driving. My phone rings after a minute. I look at the road and use my right hand to rummage around my bag and I grab it and touch the green-lit icon.

"Cabot." I answer.

"Hey, baby…is everything alright? Olivia said you left an hour ago and…you are only about ten minutes away to here from there…I was worried." She sounds flustered, not her normal confident…'I can get Alex Cabot to love me' self.

"I just have a lot to think about. You know…work and everything…feels overwhelming." I sigh. "Look, I just pulled in... I'll see you at the office." I shut the phone just as she was preparing to say 'I love you.' I just do not want to hear those words right now.

Am I stupid? How can I let a dream shake me up like this? I am the fearing, relentless, brave, confident, Alexandra Cabot, and if I let a dream like this bother me…then I have torn down all that I worked to be.

I breathe in once and exhale and enter the building headed straight to my office where a woman, not too shorter than I, starts following me and telling me what I have scheduled. I tell her to make several changes and by the time I know it, I am at the door to my shared office with my beautiful redhead. I thank her and I enter my office.

I do not see Casey and I am going to assume she is in court…but how could that be? She just called me…

"Blahh!"

I quickly jump back and hit my head to the wall. "Fuck! Shit, Casey…you scared the shit out of me!" I scream at her and I bring my hand to touch my head.

She quickly runs and grabs a seat and makes me sit.

She starts cracking up. "Sorry…Sorry…I thought it would have been cute to see your horrified face." She blushes quickly. "Sorry…I can kiss your boo-boo away. It usually works with my nieces." She smiled at me shyly, obviously cursing herself for my clumsiness.

"It's ok…it doesn't even hurt…and my heart is beating normally now…nothing to be sorry for…was my face cute? I do not what to disappoint you." I tell her smiling.

I swear I saw her eyes twinkle as she bent down and looked up at me. "You are always cute…so no…you didn't disappoint." She moved up to kiss me, but before I could even get into the kiss, she ends it.

"I love you." She smiles and pushes my chair behind the desk. "Now, get to work Ms. Cabot. These cases aren't going to argue for themselves." She walks to her seat and sits there.

Then it slips…I do not even know where this has come from. "Why?" I ask her. I quickly give all my attention to the pen, chiding myself.

"It's your job…" I can feel her overpowering glare at me.

"No…I mean why? Did you do all this for me?" I state, my eyes ogling the red pen in my hand.

"I don't follow…" She trails off to get me to elaborate.

"This," I gesture with my hands. "You took me shopping…You helped me find an apartment. You shopped for my son…Why?" I ask her. I finally meet her gaze at the other side of the room. Her expression is a mixture of confusion and amazement.

"I love you-"

"But, you were doing this…before…we…were together. Why?" I force out.

She suddenly turns cherry red at the cheeks. "I do not know…I…I told you already…I was in love with you…before we ever started this…where is this coming from?" She smiled slightly and walks over to me and lifts me off my chair…I am suddenly dizzy but I decide to worry about that later.

"Alex…Just know whatever I do for you…I do it out of love…I only had good intentions. Trust me." She pulled me into a hug and I whispered in her ear. "I trust you." I stifle a cry and Casey notices.

Notices that there is something bothering me…I have only known her for a couple weeks and she already knows me. Am I that readable?

She cups my face and searches my eyes, "Alex, something has been bothering you all day…You have been acting weird. What's wrong?" She asks concerned.

I shake my head, and before I can say, 'nothing, I am fine' she gives me a death glare.

I stay quiet.

"Alex, you just said you trusted me." She looks into my eyes.

"I do." I assure her. "I just…It's not important…We have job to do and I think these victims are more important." I tell her and in a forfeited sigh, she walks off to her desk.

We didn't talk for the rest of the day, granted we each did have court and I ate lunch alone while she was getting warrants…we still didn't talk when we found ourselves together again.

It is around nine and I am done with my cases, and I know she arrived to the office by taxi and I see her wrapping up too so I push my rolling chair to her desk and grab her hand, which she immediately takes back and stands up.

"Casey…" I begin.

She lifts her hand to stop me. "Good Night, Cabot." She opens the door and turns back to say something but does not.

I head to my desk and compile my personal items and leave quickly to follow her.

I finally get her at the parking lot. "Casey…Look this relationship thing…is hard for me…I keep hurting you…unintentionally…I…just divorced Olivia…and…"

She quickly whips around and her complexion is similar to the expression she gave me when she heard what I told my mother.

"Alex!" She raises her voice at me, "Don't you get it…you don't trust me…If you trusted me enough you would have told me what was bothering you and trust that I would help you and now you are pulling excuses out of your ass…" She inhales and stalks away.

"I had a dream…" I start and she suddenly stops walking but does not turn around. "It was horrible and…" Somehow, I start crying and she is comforting me.

"Aww, baby, it was just a dream…why didn't you want to tell me?" She asks in a soft soothing voice.

"It was…about you…" I do not want to get into the details and she does not push either, why was I so afraid…I should trust her…what has she done not to gain my trust.

"It's ok…It's late. Let's go home and rest." She lifts my chin and smiles.

I wipe my tears and shake my head, "I have to tuck in Max…" I smile slightly.

She nods and seems like she is contemplating. "Ok…we can fit that in." She smile and enters the passenger side and takes my free hand in hers.

I arrive to my- Olivia's home, and I tell Casey to wait for me in the car. I grab the spare key and walk to the front of the door.

The closer I get to the door, I hear a louder and louder scream, coming from inside the house. I quickly unlock the door and adrenaline starts rushing through me.

The scream is coming from Olivia's bedroom. She could defend herself from criminals…Right?

As my thoughts are flying a hundred miles an hour, I think of where Max could be. On the other hand, has he already been killed? No, A Cabot does not think like that.

So I decide to help Olivia and I run to her bedroom door and open it and What I saw was…I just shut the door quickly, while Olivia covered herself up…Amanda Rollins…who would have known she was a screamer.

I rub my temples and pass my hand through my face. Apparently…Shocked…

Olivia gets out of the room a few minutes later with a robe on. "You don't read your damn messages?" She screams and whispers at the same time.

I shake my head and absentmindedly pull out my phone…Its out of battery. "No…you are having…while our son is asleep in the other room? For god sakes Olivia! What type of parent are you?" I ask her in awe.

"The one that sends her child to a babysitter." She stares me down.

"I thought you were in danger…I heard screaming and I…"

"I can handle myself…Now…can you please leave as I try to clean this mess up?" She roars at me.

Like a berated child, I quickly stride out of the house… "She's louder than me." I tell her over my shoulder.

I can feel a smile break out in her face as she answers, "Way louder…"

I know my cheeks are burning red and there is no way I can hide my embarrassment in the car.

"How did it go?" Casey asks smiling.

"Uhm…awkward…Max wasn't there." I answer her and I buckle up and start the car.

I explained to her what happened on our way home and she could not stop laughing…literally.

"I can't believe you tried to rescue somebody who did not want to be saved…" She pauses. "Wow, Amanda Rollins…She will be so embarrassed to ever ask you for a warrant." She starts chuckling once more.

I nod, "I know…It's so embarrassing!" I sigh.

"Look at the bright side…you don't have to worry about Olivia…she found happiness too." She smiles.

"Yea…" I yawn.

"I still can't get that picture out of my head." Casey starts cracking up.

"You were not there! I was…" I use my free hand to playfully hit her shoulder.

"I know…but, I have an imaginative mind." She answers. "I mean can't you imagine…one day, one of our kids walking in on us having sex…"She starts giggling.

"What makes you think we are going to have kids?" I ask her playfully and wondering what her answer might be.

"Well, when two people love each other…"

I hit her before she finishes.

"I love you." I tell her parking the car.

"I love you too."

Yes, by far today has not been the best day but I know spending it with a certain redhead can change that.

AN: What do you think? Will try to update every week or twice a week as with the others also, because now I am free, no school :)