A/N: An update for my dear readers dogseoleul jeulgiseyo! ^^
It was almost dark, the orange heavens indicate that the sun will be bidding good bye anytime soon, Shingyouji spent few more minutes beside the window, watching the lights turning on one by one before he headed to took his coat and made his way towards the bed.
He winced a little upon the contact of his lower area on the mattress as he sat down. Taking time to stare at the sleeping angel, a small smile appeared on his lips, shaking his head lightly upon remembering how they've spent the whole day loving each other until they couldn't move anymore. The look on Misu's face the entire time they've been making love is just too much for him to handle. He felt too cherished, too loved.
Shigyouji reached for the other's cheek, opting to caress it yet millimeters away from the fell of the other's skin, his hand form into a fist. For some reasons, he couldn't find the courage to touch Misu. Maybe it's because he's afraid that someone as precious as the older would break once he dared to even lift a finger on him. Or his filthy hands might just dirt on the guy's flawless skin. Right at that moment, Shingyouji felt so low of himself. He's ashamed on how he acted on impulse because of the brat and selfish jerk he is. He wants him all on his own yet he couldn't bring himself to accept the other's heart. All Misu does is to love him. And sadly, he knows he doesn't deserve any of it.
Misu deserves more, the best for that matter. And for that, Shingyouji had already come up with the perfect plan. He was done seeing Misu's sacrifices for the sake of his happiness. He had enough of it. This time, he'll be the one ensuring Misu will indeed be happy. Just as he rates.
Planting a very light chaste kiss on the other's lips- a deed he couldn't himself help not to execute- Shingyouji brushed his angel's face softly before standing up. He heads for the door and opens it carefully guaranteeing he won't be waking the younger up. He slid himself out and shut the door as quietly as he had opened it. He then wears his coat with a particular destination in his mind. Today, or tonight perhaps, he's going to aim for Misu to realize how much he's worth.
It was nearly dawn, yet some kids were still playing at the school's little playground. Some were waiting for their guardians to pick them up while some live just around the school, permitting them to play in there just as much as they want.
Shingyouji watched the children chasing each other playfully, a bitter smile crossing his face. How he wished life could be as simple as when they were younger. That misunderstandings and petty fights could be resolved with ice creams and lollipops. That there won't be keen eyes judging you for who you are, what you become, or who you want to be with. The world might be a better place to live in if it's like that.
He was busy staring forlornly into space when he felt something tugging his sleeve. He turned to his side and found the little girl he had always loved to play with yet he kept forgetting to ask for her name. he beamed his gummy smile before tapping his lap, motioning the girl to sit on there and the other gladly obliged, grinning happily as she climbed.
Shingyouji smiled at the little princess who reminds him so much of Misu, the expressive brown eyes, pretty thin lips are dead give away. At the same time, he also noticed how fair her complexion that the girl could pass up as his and Misu's daughter; if only that isn't ridiculous enough to happen. Sadness crossed his face again, how he wished he could be the best for Misu.
His moping was befuddled when he felt two tiny hands cupping his face. He turned to the little angel on his lap and chuckled a bit seeing her frowning cutely. The girl beamed seeing him laugh, tapping his face gently, encouraging him to smile more.
"Oniichan looks so sad today. Did someone made you cry?" the little girl asked cutely and he shook his head before kissing the girl lightly on her cheek, gaining him an adorable giggle from the other.
"No one made oniichan cry, he's just…sad over something..", he supplied.
"Doushite?"
"Because he did something…bad."
"Bad?", she blinked her eyes as if she's trying to figure out what Shingyouji had said.
"Hai… oniichan apparently made an angel cry."
The little girl frowned, seeing Shingyouji seemed to be really upset, she felt the urge to solve his problem, or whatever that bothers him.
"You should say sorry then!" she exclaimed.
"Eh? Sorry?" he asked, quite amused, and the little girl nodded vigorously.
"Hai!, I'm sure the angel will forgive oniichan as long he shows him he meant it.", she explained like a grown up she's trying to portray and Shingyouji chuckled upon the very stern expression in her pretty face.
"And besides, we're talking about an angel here. Okaasan said angels are good, therefore they also forgive. Angels only knows how to protect, how to take care of someone, just like how okaasan takes care of me. I don't think they would ever be angry with anyone. They're too kind to be like that." the little girl assured like she's been friend with angels.
Shingyouji felt more ashamed of himself however though. She was right, he won't be surprise if Misu will still take back with welcoming arms after all that he had put him through. The feeling of self-discouragement and worthlessness dawned upon him again. How dis he ever deserve Misu? He wonders what the other had seen in him. He already had given the choice to leave him when he lost his memories and yet he chose to stay. He continued loving him with all his heart while he on the other had did nothing but to hurt him. He owes so much to him he doesn't even know how to start paying back. And as if Misu will oblige him to do so, he already know the fact that just as much as Misu wanted him to love him to love him back, his happiness comes first. So whatever Shingyouji wants, Misu will be willing to comply , even if it'll break him, he wouldn't care. That was the least of his priority because Shingyouji will always comes first. And Shingyouji can just hate himself more beacue of that. really, what exactly have he done in his previous life to be love by a person like this? Like an angel like this?
"The angel will forgive oniichan, Kiyoko-chan forgive Tetsu-chan whenever he makes her cry," the voice of the little girl startled Shingyouji, cutting him out of his reverie. Yet what really caught his attention isn't what the girl had said but on a particular name she mentioned just now.
"Ooh, what big hands you have!" she exclaimed, amazement visible in her face as she compared their two hands, trying to interlink their fingers but Shingyouji's is too big and hers is too small to fit in.
"K-Kiyoko?" he stuttered to say the name, ignoring the little girl's musings. The said girl then blinks cutely, gazing ate Shingyouji. She then beamed her toothy smile before pointing to herself.
"Hai! That's me! Oda-Kiyoko desu!" she said proudly and the man was apeechless at once. Really, of all the names, could it be mere coincidence that this girl he's completely fond of possesses the name he wants to give to his future daughter he was given a chance.
"My mother named me Kiyoko because, it means pure like my parent's love for each other. Oniichan is really purrty. Purrty purrty face!" Kiyoko beamed, cupping his face as she observes his features. "Kiyoko-chan really likes oniichan, really really really really like him." She said adorably. "How about you? Does oniichan like Kiyoko-chan too?"
shingyouji smiled softly before bringing the girl's head on to his chest. "of course! Oniichan likes Kiyoko… love actually..."
"I wish someday… if God will permitted me… I could have a daughter just ike you…", he uttered as he gazed on those beautiful orbs, thin lips, and the pretty face of an angel he knows he would love seeing in every waking morning of his life. Along with a familiar firgure he knows who possesses the same eyes and lips the girl had.
"I would love to have a daughter just like you…"
Misu's in a hurry.
He thought of passing shower but thinking the search might take long, he went through it, a very quick one. He quickly snatches the first shirt and pants he got a hold of his closet, wearing it all in an instant. To hell with the time, he knew the younger is still on leave and he needs to see him, the hell with the rules he need to forgot it just for him.
He grabbed his phone and keys, no particular destination in his mind and yet he's determined to find him. May it be all over Tokyo, Japan r the whole world, there would be no stopping him on finding that particular man he had spent the whole day making love to.
He doesn't know why he left, although he got the faintest idea why but he refused to think he was just been played at. No, Shingyouji won't step on his feelings like that. he doesn't know what waits for him the moment he sees him but he'll leave it for later. Right now, the most important thing is to see him. And maybe start to clear things out. Because as of this moment, all Misu know is tah… Shingyouji made love with him. And he wanted to believe that he's still his.
Bringing some cash and his passport in case he and Shingyouji decided to hide overseas (which is kinda absurd since they are still minor and they can't go out of the country without informing their parents and they are still in high school for heavens sake.) he turned the knob only to startle a little upon seeing Akaike and Gii at his doorstep. And what's weirder was the expression they were both sporting now. Something like fret, uneasiness, both exchanging uncertain glances facing Misu.
"Shimada-sensei said he needs you in his office, there is something he needs to tell you urgently"
The warm breeze of Japan's summer night greeted him as soon as he got off the car. He inhaled deeply before letting out a heavy breath, quite nervous on what's going to happen ahead. He's clueless on how this will go but he knows he has to take the risk. This is now or never. He was done hurting hurting Misu. He needs to straight things right once and for all. He should have done this long ago. This, which was the right thing that has to happen since the very beginning. Looking at a house he had never dreamed to return but pluck all his courage to go there to do what he has to do.
"Are you ready?" A guy appeared beside him, clasping his hand tightly on Shingyouji's.
He heaved another sigh before nodding once.
"Hai! I'm ready."
A/N: Yes I did an update after seeing the followers of this story it motivates me more to and also for those who tagged this stories as favorite thank you so much for those who leave review I am glad that you want this story and for you guys I gave an update So I want to thank everyone who had enjoyed this story: for those who add this to their favorite story list: AngelWolf95, Daimao896, kamiwings, KatoKimeka-chan, June-chan, onyxinlife, puu264, SakuraMei97, TokyoDaylight, 7, , AoryutochanZ, Foyet, anime92, ceciflo, kurosusayuri, realistic-historic-futuristic thank you for your patience of waiting for the update for and for your reviews and for patiently waiting for my updates. For the legendary writer I always look up to; Tat-chan and Serenity-Chan, Lady Kyenia thank you for being my insipration and for the motivation and support from the time I started writing I will make you proud of me ^^ Fighting!
So What will Shingyouji do? Why was Misu called at Shimada-sensei's office?
For those who would ask I choose Kiyoko because in Japanese it means pure, we know that MisuxShin pairing starts in Pure so I kind of choose something near to that name, I know I don't made any sense. Oh well ignore me much so I hope you enjoy it, I know you will have mixreactions i assume so till next chapter. Daume ddo bayo!( I am currently learning korean language ^^)