Chapter 14

Meredith arrived home later that night having done a lot of shopping, it was the first time she had a shopping day in a long time. At least she wouldn't have to hide any of this from Mark, ordering herself a pizza before pulling the wine out of the fridge and pouring herself a glass. Before she walked upstairs into the bedroom that she shared with Mark; looking around the room and for the first time, she realised that this wasn't her home. Walking through the house and looking around there was nothing in this house that belonged to her, there for no pictures of her except for their wedding photo; a part from that she was like a ghost in her own house.

She walked into her office, even this room, her own private room had nothing in that was her, she realised much Mark took away everything even her past away from her. She walked over to the bookcase, and pushing it, until she saw her little private cupboard that held all her photos. Has she pulled them out, and opened the box, the door bell went, she got up, walked down the stairs grabbing her purse to pay the pizza man, and opened the door.

"Hi, Meredith" Meredith stood there in shock at the sight of the person stood in her doorway.

"Well, aren't you going to let me in?" Derek asked her.

"Of course" Meredith spluttered; stepping back and letting him in. Closing the door behind her, she found hersrlf in his arms, and his mouth of her's. The kiss started off passionately before going into a slow kiss, god she had missed those lips.

"When Mark due back?" he asked her, when he pulled away, but rested his forehead against hers.

"Not until Sunday" she told him ; Derek recaptured her mouth with his. Meredith felt herself melt into his arms, and let his tongue explore her mouth, and feeling before pulling away from each other breathlessly.

"What are you doing here, Derek?"

"Well, I left Seattle a couple of days earlier than planned, because I have meeting with a representative of MSF here in New York. And since Mark was away thought I would come to see you"

"What if Mark hadn't left and he answered the door?"

"Then, I would have said that I had the wrong address. If you want me to go, I will" Derek said going to pick up his bag, Meredith felt a wave of panic overcome her.

"No, I don't want you to go. I have a spare room, and you can stay there. That is if you want too"

"I would like that" Derek smiles. The doorbell went and Meredith throws him a smile, before paying for the pizza.

"Well, i suppose i should show you to the spare room" she said placing her purse with the pizza on the table in the hallway.

"Mer, you should have dinner first"

"Suddenly I am not hungry" Meredith said holding out her hand, which he takes, grabbing his bag. Showing Derek the guest room, she left him alone when the phone rang. From the cold tone of Meredith voice, and he was shocked to hear how cold it was; he knew exactly who it was. Her voice was colder than he had ever known. When he heard the phone go down, he made his way downstairs and found her standing in the living room, staring into space.

"Meredith" he said quietly, and has his fingers brushes her hand; she flinches and jumps away from him.

"Mer, I am not going to hurt you" Derek said reassuring her.

"I know that, Derek, I'm sorry" Mer says quietly, looking down at her feet. Turning to face him, she lifts her head up as Derek takes a step closer to her, she is looking him directly in the eyes and has they gaze into each other eyes, they finds themselves getting lost in them. Neither of them realising what was happening until their lips met, Meredith pulls Derek closer to her, entangling her fingers in his hair, pulling him closer to her, until their bodies are touching, all the pent up passion quickly boiling to the surface, Derek picks Meredith up, who wraps her legs around his waist, has their tongues explores each other mouths, until they come up for air.

"Mer, I think we should stop" Derek says breathlessly.

"Derek, I want you" she tells him, her hands pulling his shirt out of his jeans that he was wearing.

"Mer, I love you, you know that, but I don't want to do anything that could get you hurt" Derek tells her, placing a small kiss on the tip of her nose. Meredith unwraps her legs from Derek's waist, trying to push him away and Derek knows to let her go.

"Derek, maybe you should stay at a hotel" Meredith says silently.

"Don't push me away Meredith" Derek pleaded with her.

"You don't want me" Meredith says so sadly that it breaks Derek's heart, walking over to where she is standing and so he is standing right behind her.

"Meredith, of course I want you" he told her, intertwining his fingers with her's "I have never wanted someone as badly as I want you Meredith, but you are married to a bully and I am not going to risk him hurting you. If something happened to you when I was away because of me, I couldn't live with myself" he told her, turning her to face him.

"He won't"

"You don't know that Mer" Derek says quietly to find Meredith smiling at him.

"I do, Derek, because I won't be here" she told him.

"What? Where will you be?"

"With you" Meredith tells him. Derek looks at her with a look of confusion at first, until he realised what she meant.

"You coming with me?" he asked; sounding surprised

"I am" Derek pulls Meredith into his arms and kisses her.

"God, I love you Meredith. Are you sure about this?" he asked when he pulled away.

"Derek I have never been more sure in all my life. I want to share this with you"

"And I want to share it with you"

"I love you, Derek" Meredith tells him, capturing his lips with her own. Knowing that she made the right decision to accompany Derek to Africa and that she wouldn't regret it.