Chapter Thirteen

Wow... That's strange. The whole yesterday was like a nightmare, I still can't believe, that every part of it really happend. When the telephone rang, first time I heard, that Robin is going to bear, when Becca and I went to the hospital, when I kissed Becca, when Lily kissed me just to know that I kissed Becca, when Marshall said Dr. Sonya was a serial killer, the first time when I saw Barney's and Robin's daugther, Rose, when I went back to Becca's guitar, and I saw the roses from Val... It was such an irrealistic night.

Now I'm at home in my bed, and thinking about the yesterday. I promised to Robin and Barney, that I'm going to visit them in the hospital in the forenoon, so I should get dressed. I'm getting out of my bed, getting dressed, and going into the kitchen, and having a breakfast.

When I'm ending my meal, I'm going into the livingroom. Becca is sitting on the sofa, and watching TV.

- Good morning! - she says.

- Good morning... - I'm repating.

- Where are you going?

- Don't you remember? I promised to Barney and Robin, that I'm going to...

- Visit them. Really. - Becca is ending my sentence. Although she likes them almost as much as I do, she seems bored. - Sorry. I'm a bit tired. I couldn't sleep at night.

- Nobody could sleep at night. - I say, and than I'm saying goodbye, and driving into the hospital.

When I look at Robin, I'm not really sure, that she's the Robin I knew. Or the Barney, who's standing next to her is the Barney I knew. The baby is sleeping in Robin's arm, and they're looking at her as the gold digger looks at the biggest treasure he ever found.

When I'm looking at Robin, I'm not sure she ever could let her daugther go. And I swear during the ten years I know Barney, I've never seen him smiling as much as he's smiling right now, when he's looking at Robin and Rose. When he sighting of me, he's smiling much more.

- Hello. - he says. Robin is looking up, and she's smiling at me too.

- Congratulations, guys. - I say with a smile on my face. - She's beutiful. - They're looking at each other. Now, that I see that they haven't been so happy as now, the thought, that a few moments earlier I thought they're going to be horrible parents, and Barney doesn't deserve to be with Robin is ridicolous. I can say it honestly: They're perfect together. And first time I'm really happy for them.

- Thank you, Ted.- Robin says. There's a short silence, Barney and Robin are looking at each other again, and then Barney is starting to speak.

- Look, we talked with Marshall and Lily about a few things, and Robin and I decided that... Whatever, do you want to be the godfather of Rose? - I'm a bit surprised. I thought, this ship went out.

- Well... - I'm a bit embarrassed. - Of course, that I do. This is... I don't know, what to say, I love you guys so much.

- But just as friends, of course. - Barney completes my sentence, and then we're starting to laugh. I know, that they still remember for that night, and we never will forget it, but they forgave to me, and they want to give me a second chance. And the fact that they want me to be the godfather of their child means maybe they could trust me again. It's the greatest honour I've ever had.

- Than you, again. - I say. - And calm down. You're my best friends guys, but nothing more.

This is the moment, when Lily and Marshall are arriving. When I see Lily, I remember, that I have to speak to her about Becca. Funny, sometimes I'm not exactly sure, that the yesterdey really happened, but I clearly remember, that I realized I'm in love with Becca. And the worst thing, that it's harder in every moment. I don't think I can hold it for a long time, so I really need Lily's help.

- Oh, how sweet little girl! - Marshall says and she joining to Robin and Barney to watch how nice Rose is, when she sleeps. Lily is looking at Rose, and I see on her face that she wants to be with the baby as much as her husband do, but first of all she's looking at me, and saying:

- A half day passed. Do you want to speak to me about her? - she asks. Lily can read everybody's mind. I'm nodding.

We're going into the floor to speak more comfortable.

- So, do what's up, Mosby? - Lily asks with a pretty serious face. It's weird in some way.

- You know it as much as I know. Or better. - Lily is nodding.

- Yeah, it's true. So are you... Dating with Becca?

- No. Not literally.

- What does 'not literally' mean? - Lily is like a bad cop. And she can do it very well.

- Well... It's just a... Friendship with benefits-relationship.

- But you're in love with her... - I'm nodding. - When did you realize it?

- Yesterday. Look, Lily. I don't think she loves me too. I mean... She's on of my best friend. Our friendship is very specifical, and she knows it too. I don't think she could let it go for a romance. She needs a friend, not a boyfriend. - Lily is thinking for a few seconds, and then she's saying something incredibly strange.

- Then ask her hand for marriage. - she says.

- What?! - I'm asking back. - Lil... It's... It's crazy! Why yould I ask she to marry me?

- Because you're in love with her, and she doesn't need a boyfriend. I think it's clear. Marry her.

- Lily, I don't think it would work. It's just... A friendship with benefits - relationship. Nothing more.

- Yeah. You know, I knew two friends, who were literally just friends, but they always felt much more for each other. And then, in a beutiful winter night the guy knelt down, and asked the hand of his love for marriage. She said yes, and now they're sitting in the room next to us with their baby.

- Okay, but it's different. - I say. - Barney and Robin... Their story is the greatest love story I've ever heard, but the happy endings aren't usual at love stories.

- Why not? - Lily asks back. - You know, I heard a story of another couple. And about a girl, who didn't think happy endings are exist. This couple has a really-really long story. They met at the college, they were young, they didn't think it will be long. But they fell in love, so they stayed together, and then in a beutiful day the boy asked the girl's hand for marriage. She said yes, but she panicked, and ruined the whole thing up. She moved to another city, and they broke up. She realized she's still in love with her ex-fiancé, and went back, but the boy said he didn't want to go on their relationship after all. The girl tried to pretend she's okay, but of course it didn't work. She realized, she made the biggest mistake in her life with let the love of her life go, and she thought happy endings at the real love stories aren't exist. She was jealous of the other girls who were dating with her love, but she couldn't do anything. But you know, what happened? Her ex-fiancé was still in love with her as much as she does, and in a night they got back together. They married, and she realized the love stories could have a good ending, if you're brave enough to come it true. Now they have a beutiful son called Marvin, and she is pregnant with a twins. - she's looking at me with a serious face. - Happy endings are exist.

- Okay, Lily, but these are your stories, not mine Why do you think I will be as lucky as you were?

- Why do you think, you're the exception? - she's asking back.

Marshall is arriving at the door.

- Guys, don't you want to come in? - he asks. We're nodding, and coming into the room. Robin and Barney are still silent, seems like they can't have enough of their baby.

-What about were you talking about secretly? - Barney asks, but he still looking at his daugther. Funny, I never thought, Barney is going to have a daugther. How is it called? Fate? Destiny? Karma? Karma, lik Quinn, Barney's last girlfriend. And then a question occurs to me.

- Where did you realize, you're in love with Robin? - I ask. It was a bit weird, Barney is looking at me for a second, and then at his child again.

- Officially, or not-offically?

- Both.

- The officially version, that when I broke my engagement with Quinn, I realized Robin and I would work better together. I confessed my love when I helped her to break up with Nick, and I thought, it would be a good first point of a trick, so I started to work on my biggest trick, The Robin.

- And what's the not-officially version?

- That I pretended to be in love with Quinn to make Robin jealous, when I saw, she didn't care about it, I asked Quinn to marry me, but she said, she's happy for us, I offered her to run away, but she said no, and she has a boyfriend. I get mad, I broke up with Quinn for some stupid reason, I realized, I acted a bit childish and I started to work in a normal plan. It was The Robin. But I like saying the offical version much better, because the truth is, that I was a real jerk. I don't know, why I thought, I can make Robin jealous. I'm sorry, sweetie.

- Barney... - Robin says with a smile on her face. - I got together with Nick to make you jealous, and when you broke up with Quinn, I wanted to broke up with Nick, to get together with you. When I heard you and Quinn were in engagement, the jealoulsy almost blowed my mind. But it's the past. Now, were enjoying our happy ending, am I right? - she's looking at Barney with a smile.

- Yes, you are. - Barney answers. - But... Did you really talk about me and Robin? - he asks. But my thoughts were elsewhere.

- I'm sorry, but I have to go. - I say. I don't care, how weird is it, I'm walking into the room, into the hospital, and driving home.

When I heard Barney and Robin talking my mind brighted up. I get, what Lily said. If you're brave enough, you can have a happy ending. I sholud have believe in it. Maybe I can get together with Becca, if I really want. Maybe she loves me back.

I'm walking into our little garden, opening the door, and going into the livingroom, where I can find Becca. I want to say her I'm in love with her, I want to be with her, and only her, and yes, maybe I want to marry her. I know, this is crazy, but this is the truth. I don't care, what she's going to say, how she is going to react, I just want to say her all the things she has to hear. And maybe it will make the pain in my heart go away.

I'm arriving at the livingroom. Becca is nowhere. I see something in our sofa. I'm moving closer, and I see the vase of roses she got from Val.

She found it. And she knows, I didn't wanted her to see it.

My blood is frozed. I lost everything.

Next to the vase I'm finding a message. It's a message from Becca.

Dear Ted!

I don't know, when did you want to show me this. But I guess never. Look, maybe it's stupid, and I shouldn't be so angry, but I thought, we're friends. Friends, who talk with each other. What if I give a second chance for Val? Why are you so… I don't know, how to say… Selfish? I'm a bit confused right now. Val wrote me a nice message and I don't know, maybe I'll date with him again. I just wrote it you to know, because I'm not sure, I want to go home today. Damn, I'm so disappointed of you! Why did you do this? Why?

Please don't call, and don't wait me.

Becca

I'm sitting in the sofa, looking at Becca's message. I had right. Happy endings aren't exist for me. I don't know, why is sher hurted so much. I mean… It was just… A vase of flowers, nothing interesting. But Becca wrote like I did the worst thing against her. I didn't know I'm going to hurt her so much. I didn't know, she's going to found it.

I didn't know…

I didn't know anything.

Maybe one thing. My story is never going to have a happy ending.