A/N: Right, this chapter has been in my head from the moment I started this fan fiction, I just have to add that It's been strange for me to write chapters out so fast, but I hope that you've enjoyed the chapter...
Songs that inspired me for the relationship between Tony and Amber...
Once - by Diana Vickers
How to touch a girl - Jojo
The way I loved you - Taylor Swift
The only exception - paramore
Run - Snow patrol
Chasing cars - Snow patrol
Set fire to the third bar - Yup Snow patrol...
Have fun reading this chapter, as I had so much fun typing it...

Chapter 13

No one suspected that I'd been crying, I'd cleaned myself up, shook off the bad feeling, and I was in the arms of Tom, we slow danced to JoJo how to touch a girl, I could feel the lyrics, the way Tom held me in his arms, my head rested perfect on his chest, we didn't move much to the music as I kept my eyes closed. I wanted to be here, I wanted to be with Tom. But no matter how much I tried to push Tony's words out of my head, it would work. My hands touched Tom's back, my eyes closed feeling myself breathing in and out, my heart was beating slowly, I felt each pound of my heart, my stomach had knotted up so much that I felt my eyes slowly open seeing Tony, he stood outside the doors looking in, my eyes meet his, but I didn't look long.

"You alright?" Tom asked while looking down to my face, I kept a smile, this smile was hard to keep myself happy, I had to fake it, I didn't want to upset Tom, no I wasn't going to ruin a real thing because of Tony, not now or ever.

I couldn't believe my smile was fooling him, "You said your house is empty tonight," I said pulled my face closer to his, I wanted to keep to my promise.

Tom smiled brighter, he touched his hands to my waist, he leaned down kissing me, I kissed back, but this feeling made my feel physically sick. "Yeah, all empty," Tom kept looking into my eyes, his hand played over my cheek, he was being gentle, and he was being a gentleman. "Do you want to come back to mine?" he asked slowly, I could feel that he was nervous, and it was sweet.

I took his hand, I didn't answer the question slowly walking with him to the exit, and I'd picked up my clutch bag from the table, mostly ignoring the stares from many people. I didn't speak, not until I got out the door, the air was chilly, the night sky was without a cloud, and then I turned to smile at Tom. "How we getting to your place soon?"

I couldn't believe my voice, I could see the excitement was finally hitting him; he quickly took out his mobile, "Hello, can I get a cab from Roundview College to twenty four saint Paul's street?" he kept grinning, I glanced away reaching into my clutch purse taking out a spliff lighting it up, I needed the edge, I needed to relax as Tom finished off his phone call. "Ten minutes, that's great, yes cab for Tomas," he hung up the phone joining me.

I inhaled the smoke, exhaling smiling up to Tom, "So, Ten minutes…" I kept grinning, if I made it through tonight, I can prove to myself that Tony wasn't going to win, he wasn't going to get to me, I had one up on him, I wasn't going to let him win. "Too long," I exhaled smoke passing the spliff to Tom.

The cab didn't take long at all, "Tomas!" the man yelled, I put what was left of the spliff out, I kicked it away feeling like I was more nervous than before. I felt Tom's hand hold mine, it was making me get a feeling that maybe this wasn't right, but I couldn't stop getting into the cab, I slid over as Tom sat next to me, he touched my face, "you ok?"

"Saint Paul's street?" the cab driver asked, my attention snapped to reality.

Tom broke into a grin, "Yeah, twenty four," I could feel his hand squeezing mine, the cab was moving forward as I closed my eyes, I felt the spliffs effect on me, my stomach wasn't so tense, but Tom pulled me into his arms kissing me, I relaxed into his arms, my hands brushing around his back kissing him back, I needed this, I'd waited too long, before feeling his hand brush up my thigh, I kept my eyes tight getting into the kiss.

I'd not noticed the number on his door, the colour, I'd never been to Tom's house before now, I'd felt him pushing me into the wall, the kiss out of any control, my hand forcing his shirt open, I kept kissing, I kept my eyes closed, my mind turned off. I couldn't think, if I thought about anything I would know what I was doing didn't make sense.

I made the stairs, Tom kisses moved to my neck, my hands moving for his belt, his bed was soft as we fell onto it, I kept feeling his hands trying to find the clasp for the dress, I kept taking deep breathes. I looked into Tom's eyes, the deep mix of brown and green; he kept smiling up at me.

Then he was gone beneath the layers of my skirt, I couldn't breathe as the light kisses started at my knee. He kissed, lightly running his tongue up my inner thigh, his hands helped to guide my French knickers to one side lightly running his tongue over me, I gasped, my hands holding onto the bed, it felt good, but something was missing. I kept quiet feeling myself getting more awkward.

Tom's head popped back; he looked to me, "Amber, are you ok?" he looked seriously worried, I felt stupid.

I laughed, "Yeah, just," I pulled him on my, I rolled so he was laying on the bed, I saddle on him, maybe if I did something, I kissed down his open shirt, feeling his skin under my lips, I lightly licked across his collar bone, down his chest, my hand got to his belt, the awkward feeling didn't seem to go away. Tom's hand touched my face, "I'm fine," I didn't mean to snap, my hands were shaking, I bit onto my lip. "I just need some air," I grabbed my clutch bag, Tom got up looking worried. "Just need to take a walk," I held my hand up, "I'll come back," quickly I ran out the room, I stopped at the door looking back to the stairs.

The door was open in seconds as I closed it behind me, the cold air chill, biting at me as I walked down the garden path not looking back to the house, I felt embarrassed.

I didn't really know where I was walking, I felt like everything was spinning out of control, this morning, I woke up and felt that everything was going to plan, Tom was perfect, he was loved by my mother, my friends found him a laugh. Michelle, Jal, jealous. I felt my hands pulling the pins out of my hair letting it fall down, I brushed it out, feeling my stomach sink, I kept walking knowing I was only a few streets away from my flat, but I turned the other way, a park was gonna be on the next road, as I see the gate locked, I walked to the hole that I'd help make with Chris, Tony and Sid, I bit my lip squeezing through the gap seeing the swing set.

I sat down placing my clutch bag on the floor by my feet; I started to swing lightly closing my eyes.

"Fuck," I muttered, I wanted to not be like this, he was Tony Stonem. He was the guy who made fucking awful joked, he couldn't catch to save his life. I knew that when he broke another girls heart, I told myself I'd never be that girl. I couldn't stand his taste in fast food; I hated how he'd make a funny face when I wanted a serious answer to a question. I hated every time I'd need him, he'd be fucking about when who ever he wanted.

I kept swinging, I loved how Tom would cuddle close to me, and he'd never talk to me when my favourite TV shows were on. Tom would kiss me when I wasn't expecting it. I loved how he'd give me a random gift to cheer me; I loved how he'd get alone with my crazy parents. I loved how he waited for me.

Then it hit me, and I bit my lip getting to my feet walking without direction, I knew where I had to go know, I inhaled and exhaled as I lit up the last of my spliffs, I kept walking.

It didn't take me too long to get where I wanted to be, I flipped my phone open, then typed in a message, Can you let me in?

I'd sat on my bed, I felt like a complete idiot, "I love you Amber," I muttered to myself banging my head on the wall, I couldn't believe I said it, and expected her to say it back, no, I get a beating.

"You know you're an idiot right," Her voice smooth, I glanced to the bedroom door avoiding to look at my sister. Effy moved into the room, "You went to the dance, told her you loved her Tony." Effy glanced over me, her eyes like mine, she kept laughing, "you're a total idiot…"

"Thanks Eff, thanks for letting me know I am a complete idiot," I waved my sister a salute, her hand played on the bed, her eyes going over to my computer. "What else is there to say?"

Effy got to her feet, she brushed her hand into her hair, she shrugged, "So what happened after you told her?"

"Well for one, she slapped me, then she punched me, slapped me and said fuck you," I waved my hands, "I told her I loved her Effy!" I looked scared for the first time, and I could keep playing in my head, Amber and Tom getting in the cab, driving back to his place.

Effy bit her lip, she watched me, then shrugged again, "Guess she beat your game Tony…" she headed to the door, "You're just going to have to admit defeat." She tapped the door, her footsteps stopped at her door, I heard it open then shut, and I was alone again.

I moved over to my computer again, I slowly logged onto Myspace, I clicked onto Amber's photo album again, I found I was turning into that guy, the one who was a complete dick, and when I finally learn I was in love, she wouldn't trust me, and so goes and fucks another guy. A complete loser, I closed my eyes. No I was the loser, the complete wank stain. I glanced over the video clips uploaded to her page. I see a title, Tony and me init mate… I pressed the play looking to the video…

"I am the fucking shit, oh fucking yeah…" Amber sung, I was holding the camera as she was wearing jogging bottoms and a white vest, her brown hair was tied into a high ponytail, she was dancing, she was holding a bottle of strongbow, and in the other hand was a crappy rolled spliff, "Oh, Oh Tony take it over…" she rushed towards the camera, then I saw me, I cringed at my hair cut, it was longer in curtains.

"Amber and Tony, we're running it bitch, we're gonna get ya, we're gonna make you scream…" I laughed listening to myself.

Amber looked to me, she placed the bottle to my mouth I drunk, and she inhaled some of the spliff. "I'm mother fucking Amber of the mother fucking miles, you think you suckers can have me, I'm gonna mother fucking kick yo UH!" her voice was hard to hear over my laughing. I took the spliff from her.

"Tony Stonem, mother of a mic, can't even rap, let alone rhyme, but I'm with Amber, she's a fucking MC, mess with her, bitch better mess with me." I broke into a fit hearing my own voice, but there was more.

"Tony's my bitch, my bro till the end, man gotta love him, his my fucking man," she then burst into giggles. "Tony, I think I'm wasted…" she moved away from me, I could only see her.

"Ber, you know you're fucking awesome," I said while she danced to nothing.

Amber walked to the camera blowing a kiss, she then giggled, "You are my best mate Tony, I fucking love you mate!" she then giggled as the video cut off.

I see the video stopped, I brushed my hand over the keyboard, the mouse in my other hand, I scrolled down to the comment I left, Ber, you're a bitch for uploading this, God I look like such a tosser, take it down bitch!

Then I see she'd written, I felt my stomach turn, Bitch please, you know you love me, and this is some fucking awesome mcing…

I kept looking to the screen, then I see my phone dance across the table, I looked at it quickly, I couldn't believe it, but I rushed out my room, down the stairs two at time, before throwing myself at the front door. I opened it to see Amber standing there, purse in one hand, spliff in the other as she put it out on the wall, "I think we need to talk…" her voice cold, her eyes focused on mine.