Voices echoed around me as I slowly came to. My head pounded. I slowly got up and noticed that I was in a containment unit. I looked out from my cell and saw J'onn and Mon-El standing there. Mon-El had his arms crossed. His face was black and purple and his lip was split. "I told you that you couldn't stop me." I smirked. He clenched his jaw. "But it seems you're in containment." He stated smugly. "Yes, I may be here, but you couldn't take me by yourself. It took the Martian and a kryptonite gun to take me down. Pathetic." I stated. Mon-El's smug look disappeared. I looked away from him. J'onn stepped forward.

"You better let me out, Martian, or you'll regret it." I growled. "Kara, we believe that you've been subjected to Red Kryptonite again. While you were out, we tried to use the antidote from last time, but it didn't work. It seems that it only enhanced the reaction your body has with the synthetic K. We're still trying to work on a cure-" J'onn started. I laughed manically and smiled deviously. "No, ohh no, there was no Red K. This is simply me. You're just trying to blame it on the Red K because you don't believe that this is me. The real me."

J'onn stared me down, but I didn't falter. "You expect that to scare me?" I asked and scoffed. I walked back over to my bench and sat down. J'onn took an extra second of looking at me before walking away. I smiled at Mon-El. "Something the matter, pretty boy?" I taunted. There was something echoing in the back of my mind, but I ignored it. "Kara, don't worry. We will fix this. I know that this isn't you, I know that you wouldn't dare try to hurt those men after they surrendered. It'll be okay. Everything will be back to normal soon." He looked at me with soft and loving eyes.

I clenched my jaw and went back over to the glass. "You don't know me at all, Mon-El. You don't know what I've been through in my entire life. You've only been on Earth for a short time. You don't get to think that we are at all similar. You were, and still are, the overprivileged Daxam Prince who believes that he deserves the world. And I want you to get it through your thick skull, that we will never ever be together. I don't care if we may be the last two non-related people from Krypton and Daxam, but I would rather let our species die out than to be with you." He took in a breath and chewed his lip.

"I know that this is just the Red K talking. Everything will be back to normal. Everything will be okay." He repeated dejectedly, knowing that I was right. I could see tears glisten in his eyes. Anger raced through my body as he spoke. "Nothing will be alright. Nothing will be normal until we get Alex back!" I pounded on the glass. It buckled under my strength, but did not break.

I could see the faintest green glow around my cell. They were only dampening my powers, not taking them away completely.

"But you, Maggie, and the Martian would rather wait it out that take a risk to save my sister!" I heard the door open and Maggie walked through. She looked at Mon-El, who turned on a dime and walked away from me. I smirked at sat back down on my seat. I turned to my side and kicked my feet up on the other side of the seat. I knew Maggie was staring at me, but I paid no attention to her. Instead, I inspected my nails. "Kara." She called.

I ignored her. "Kara." She called again. I finally glanced up to her. "Oh, were you talking to me?" I asked mockingly. She crossed her arms. "Yes, I was." She answered. "What do you want?" I asked. "I wanted to see how you were." She stated. I laughed. "Oho please, I know you don't really care for me. I know that you only pretend that you do because I'm Alex's sister." I pointed out. The sound echoed in my mind again. Irritation ran down my spine, but I shook it off.

Maggie frowned. "Kara, please." She started. "No, like I said before, I don't care what you say." I huffed and looked back down to my hand. Maggie took a step closer to the cell. "Kara, no. It's not like that. Please let me explain. I-"

I cut her off. "Oh, I think you've said quite enough to me lately. I'm tired of your constant criticizing of my actions as Supergirl, and the unnecessary jabs at Lena. Do you know how hard it is to have two lives? I must always make sure that I can't have anyone associate the two together, otherwise everyone I love is in jeopardy, that includes you. I constantly have to live with the fact that I could be the reason why anyone I love could be killed. And that's on me, and me alone. It's a balancing act that I have to go through every day. Do you know how hard it is when I'm at work, and I hear someone crying for help? Or when I'm at CatCo, and I see the news. I wish I could just bolt out, right then and there, so I can save valuable time. But no, I have to make some excuse, wait for the perfect time to get out. So yes, maybe I destroy property once in a while, but I can be saving a life, or stopping a robbery as I do so. I'd rather do that then let someone else suffer." I stood up next to the glass and glared at Maggie.

I clenched my fist tightly. "And Lena's trying her best. She doesn't have an evil bone in her body, yet you think its okay to attack her verbally just because of her name? Do you know how hard she works? How much good she tries to do in order to get people just to look at her like a normal person, instead of the sister of Lex Luthor? Because I do." My voice shook with anger. "I've seen her in tears, I've felt the backlash she's received over the years just because of a stupid last name. The smallest, most insignificant misstep will constantly be thrown back in her face. The last person she needs the abuse from is you." I took a breath.

Maggie's mouth was opening and closing as she tried to find the words. I waited for second before I decided that she wasn't going to speak. I smirked. "You can leave now. I don't need you standing there. I've seen a lot of fish with the open mouth thing. And I've got to say, it looks more attractive on the fish." I turned around pretentiously.

I heard the door open and close. I smiled to myself, but the echo now was followed by a soft pang of pain going through my heart. I furrowed my eyebrows for a second, but the pain disappeared. I shrugged it off.

Again, I heard the door open and close. I looked over my shoulder and saw Lena. I smiled seductively. "Hey babe." I started as I turned around. Lena, instead of reciprocating, stood strong and silent. Her green eyes watched me dangerously. The smile disappeared. "Something wrong?" I asked. "This isn't you, Kara." She said simply. I frowned. "Oh, but it is Lena. This is me, unfiltered and raw. This is me at my best." I stated darkly.

Lena shook her head. "No, it isn't. You, Kara Danvers at your best, is when you sacrifice yourself for others. Kara Danvers at her best is when she encourages her loved ones. Kara Danvers at her best is when she's there for others, even if they think they should be on their own. That is Kara Danvers at her best. Not this. Whatever it is."

I held my head high and crossed my arms. "Well this is me now. Get used to it." I replied. Lena only stared at me, her eyes evaluating me. "Maybe I don't want to be Kara Danvers anymore." I stated. Lena swallowed. "Then I don't want you anymore." She stated, her voice hard as steel. I gritted my teeth. "Fine. That's how it is then." I confirmed. I could see tears forming in her eyes. My body screamed in protest and the echo became clear. Kara, come on! I need stop it! This isn't me! Fight it! It's the Red Kryptonite! I'm being poisoned! Please! I don't want to do this again!

My head felt like it was being split with an axe. I held my temples as I stumbled back. Lena spoke, but I didn't hear her. I clenched my jaw as the pain increased. My nails dug into my scalp. That's it Kara! Come on! I can do this! Come on!

Another side fought back and the pain went away. I took a shaky breath before standing up straight and looking at Lena. Terror was written on her face. "Kara?" She asked cautiously as she looked at me expectantly. I raised my eyebrow. "What?" I snapped.

Her shoulders dropped. "I'm so sorry for doing this." She stated. "What are you talking-" I watched as Lena walked over to the control panel on my door and pulled out a vial of red liquid. The green glow in my cell increased rapidly and I fell to my knees, weak. I panted as nausea crashed over me in waves. I heard the cell door open. I glanced up from the floor to see Lena approaching me with a large needle. "No!" I gasped. I looked away from her to the open door. Escape. I reached one arm out to pull myself up. I stumbled ever so closer to the door. My heart was beating in my chest and my legs shook. The pain was echoing in my head, but I was more focused on escape than the pain. Self-preservation, my mind told me. I shook my head and looked up from the ground. Did I fall? In the near distance, I could see a few blurry figures watching.

I hand reached out and grabbed my arm. I pulled weakly, but the hand held on. I felt the needle pierce my skin on the crook of my arm and I winced. "I'm so sorry." Lena whispered. Coldness started in my arm and spread throughout my body. I gaged as it raced through my body. I pulled myself up and pushed the person that was standing in the doorway to the ground. Something caught my foot and I was sent to the ground just outside the cell. The coldness evaporated before I blacked out.

I woke up again. My head throbbed and I reached up to hold my forehead, but my arms wouldn't move. I glanced down and saw my arms were restrained. So were my legs and torso. I placed my aching head back on the table. The wires attached to my temples moved and I could feel the electrodes attached to my body. In the background, I could hear my heartrate monitor.

Déjà vu reminded me of the first time I was poisoned by Red Kryptonite. I bit my lip as everything I said to Maggie, Lena, Mon-El, and the others came to my mind. Tears blurred my vision. I pulled at the restraints with no intentions to break them. I closed my eyes and let the tears slip.

How could any of them forgive me?

How could I ever forgive myself? I promised that I wouldn't let this happen again. And yet, here I am again. And I hurt even more people than last time. Rao forgive me.

Tick.

Tick.

Tick.

"Rao. Alex!" I searched around for the clock. It was ticking away in the corner of the med bay. That couldn't be right. Alex only had 2 hours left, I was poisoned for too long. I pulled at the restraints again. And instead of finding her, here I am tied down like a criminal. Because you are. I bit my lip harder.