A/N:Okay so I'm Back! I know so exciting! Well there is a notice at the end that you must read!
*Disclaimer:My name is not Veronica Roth! Therefore,I don't own Divergent!
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Tris P.O.V (1 MONTH LATER...)
 So it's been over a month and I still haven't spoken to Four about the whole situation that went down that day in my apartment. Christina keeps encouraging me to confront him, but each time that I see him, even from a distance, I feel like punching him or sometimes I wish that the earth would swallow me whole. Plus the fact that he is always with Shauna, gives me the idea that it's not worth it anymore.
Lately, my head has been in the clouds. I only see my friends at breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Oh and that is only when I decide that I really need to eat. I'm not exactly starving myself because I eat at least once a day. I usually spend my day in the living hell that is my room. Every often, I lay in the net letting myself drift off into sleep.I open my eyes staring at the sky. On occasions when I really need fresh air, I go up to the roof and sit on the floor hugging my knees to my chest. My head resting on them just thinking on how much I've let myself go.
I've hidden myself from everything in the world. I refuse to spend time with Christina sometimes, knowing she'll end up taking me out. I only agree when I know that it has something to do with planning her wedding.
Sometimes all I want to do is go for a swim. At the bottom of the chasm. I also have been thinking of inviting a friend to come along...Death. I can't distract myself with a job at the tattoo parlor since they decided to extend the renovations another 2-3 weeks.
It's also hard to say that I'm going to spend time with friends because:
Christina got promoted to a full time job at the spa and Will is working at the control room. I could pay him a visit but then I remember that Four also works there. I can't risk being in the same room as him.
Uriah,who always finds a way to make me smile at least once a day during our meal time, is a leader in training. Eric didn't hate Uriah completely so he didn't see him as a threat. Zeke also worked in the control room so that was also out of the question. Marlene was a nurse I've had to visit at least twice this month because I almost fainted. She said it was a side effect of me not eating properly. Her brows would crease as she frowned and shook her head at me. Lauren,who I didn't necessarily talk to, was making plans on how to train the initiates that would be here soon. Shauna, the person I've avoided talking to since she and Four started dating, was a faction ambassador. Pretty much there was nobody to talk to. Tori, who has become like a second mother, is the only person who I actually open up to.
I decide to take a walk around the compound today. I go directly to the pit where I find only a few people. I walk into a couple stores only to come out empty handed. After a while of wondering around, I end up at the chasm looking at the water roaring beneath me. I take in the beauty of the waves crashing against the rocks. Suddenly a flashback about my fear appears.
The cold water splashing upwards against my back, myself hanging from the edge. I struggle to lift myself over to safety, as I imagine myself falling to a dreadful death. A scream escapes my lips and it echoes off the rocks.
Tears flow down my face like streams. My vision no longer clear, my head aching and the irritating sound of waves cause my grip to falter as I approach the waves waiting to end another life. I squeeze my eyes shut and as I open them, I'm brought back to reality.I stand in front of the chasm again, gripping the railing so tightly my knuckles are white.
After several minutes of staring at the water, I feel a presence that I wish wasn't there. "Whoever is there,just leave. I want to be alone at this moment. If you dare take a step closer, you'll be sorry."
"Even if he's an old friend?" a very familiar voice responds. My heart skips a beat as I realize who it is. I turn around to face the one and only: Robert Black.
I grin and jokingly say, "Yes,even if he's an old friend." He chuckles and hesitates before responding, "Well than I better watch out." Then he cautiously came closer to me, becoming hesitant, and then finally engulfing me with his protective hug. I feel my own arms wrap around him and I feel his warm breath on my neck. As he pulled away, the heat left me making me shiver. I hope he didn't notice but even if he did, he didn't mention it. "Robert, you don't know how much I've missed you." I say looking into his eyes."I've missed you too, Beatrice." The mention of my name sent some guilt through me, remembering I left my family for my own pursuit of happiness. It was selfish of me but it already happened. "Tris." I correct him after a hesitant moment.
"Tris." he repeats a small smile playing on his lips. "How's dauntless?" he asks curiosity written all over his face. I smile and decide to not mention my problems, not wanting to ruin the moment of happiness. "It's great, although I don't really see much sunlight." I joke around.
He laughs and I ask, "How's your life in Amity?" he stops and thinks for a moment, "Well I really enjoy the life style there. I still get to help people and also there is the harvest fields where I usually work when I'm not busy supervising others or at meetings." The way he describes it, makes me wish that I could go back with him.
"It's not bad or anything but, why are you here?" I ask him curiously. "Okay, well you aren't the entire reason why I am here. I had to deliver something to your leader from Johanna." Johanna...I think she is the Amity leader. I nod in return to his response. "Did you give whatever it was to Max?" he looks puzzled for a moment but then he realizes that is the Head Dauntless Leader's name. "Yes but I can't stay for long, I have to move on to the Abnegation compound to deliver something there too." he says sadness in his voice as he talks about our old home.
"Oh. How much time do you have then?"
"Just until the train stops here again." he says looking at his watch. "Well, then you have plenty of time to at least have a tour of the place." I say eagerly to lift his spirit again. "Well than where to first, my lady?" He says with an English accent. His words, my lady, echo through my mind as I respond, "This way kind sir," I beckon for him to follow speaking in my own accent as well.
"Well of course,"he replies and then we burst out laughing. We spend a good 10-15 minutes walking around talking and discussing memories. As we approach the chasm again, his hand brushes against mine. A tingly sensation jolts through me. "Tris, I have to confess something. I can't stop thinking about you ever since that night when... well you know." he trails off looking down sheepishly, a blush appearing on his cheeks. "It hasn't been easy to live a life without you and your support." I say softly. "Tris, that night in the old house, I meant what I said. I love you." After this it's my turn to blush. "Did you mean it? Do you really love me?" he asks his eyes glued to mine, waiting for a response. "Robert," I sigh trying to find the right way to break it to him without hurting him. "The truth is, I'm not sure anymore. At that moment, I thought I was. I'm sorry but things changed." Sadness is all I see in his eyes now. The spark there just minutes ago, vanished. "You found someone else?" he asks obvious pain in his words. "Not exactly. It's complicated." I say looking down, thinking back to Four. "Well I think it's time I get going." he says looking at his watch again. He shifts closer and wraps an arm around me. Before he can let go, I pull him in for a real hug. His arms automatically wrap around my body. He whispers into my hair, "I'll miss you Beatrice." He pulls away but instead of walking away like I expected, he tilts my chin up and suddenly I feel his lips against mine. When the kiss ends, I say out of breath, "I'll miss you too."

As I fall back on my bed, I sigh and run a hand over my face. I decide I really need a nap so I shake my boots off. I shift into a comfortable position and doze off to a world free of stress.
(3 Hours Later...)
 I shoot up into a sitting position and rub the sleep from my eyes. I take a look at the clock, 5:54 pm. God I slept a long time. I swing my legs over the edge of the bed and decide to pay Christina a visit. As I walk past my mirror, I realize I'm a mess. Seriously! I have drool on the side of my face, my hair is sticking up in every direction, and my make up is all smudged. I drop my boots on the floor and decide to fix myself up. I have an extra 30 minutes to spare anyways. I start off with washing my face to remove all the gunk. I redo my make up quickly but still careful not to mess it up. I soon realized that I've gotten taller since I can finally see all of my face in the mirror above the sink and not have to stand on the tip of my toes. I decide to make another change as I grab a pair of scissors from the cabinet. I quickly untangle it and eventually make a middle part down my entire hair. I bring it forward and start trimming carefully starting from the ends. It took me a good 10 minutes due to the fact it was originally at 3/4 of my back and is now at shoulder length. I run my fingers through my hair once more and leave the bathroom not even bothering to clean up. My stomach had started to growl halfway through the hair cut. I slid my boots on and grabbed my keys and left the apartment.
As I entered the dining hall, some people looked my way and stared. I ignored them all and plopped myself in a chair next to Christina. "Hey Tris. Nice hair cut, how much did it cost to remove half of it?" she asked when she noticed I was there. "Oh I cut it myself actually." I respond. "Obviously not true. It's way too professional." she says not believing me. "What are you saying?" I narrowed my eyes at her, "I'm not capable of doing something right?" At this, she opens her mouth to say, "I didn't mean it like that Tris! I swear!" she says alertness in her eyes. All I do is sigh and say, "I was just kidding, calm down Christina. But I am serious that I did it myself. I have the proof in the bathroom." I say remembering the ring of hair on the floor. "I'll be the judge of that." she says after Will arrives with her food. "After dinner." she adds grabbing the plate of food from Will. He and I chuckle as we also start to eat.
(1 Hamburger and 2 slices of Dauntless Cake Later...)
"Fine. I believe you." Christina says in defeat after like 5 minutes of staring at the blonde hair laying on the floor. As I clean up my mess, I hear a crash. I finish quickly and run into the living room to find Christina kneeling on the floor picking up a broken picture frame. "Sorry Tris. I was holding it in my hands and it slipped." she said sincerely. I got the broom and cleaned it up. I took the picture from Christina who was sitting on the couch. "Was that you?" she asks looking at the radiant little girl out in the rain having fun with her brother. "Yeah. I was 6 years old. I can remember that day like it was yesterday even though it was like 10 years ago." I respond. "Can you tell me the story?" she asks like a little girl. And so I begin
"It was the day after school break started during Spring. My mother had to work that day so she took us over to our father's friend's house to be taken care of. Our father was currently busy at work too. The friend of my father had a son who was at that moment 8 years old. Caleb didn't like him, said he was too reserved for his age. I knew it was true but that was what intrigued me most about him. That and also his eyes. You could look at them for a few seconds and still get lost in their mysterious intensity. They were as beautiful as the deep blue oceans we learned about. Anyways, when we entered their house, I spotted him standing next to his father smiling at me. His smile was contagious. His eyes lit up as they met mine. My mother told us to behave as for still had work to do.
When she left, he told his son, Tobias, to take us up to his room and to entertain us. He nodded and we followed him up stairs. Caleb who had woken up early that day (out of habit) asked Tobias if he could please rest. He was generous enough to offer him his bed. As he started to fall asleep he whispered to me 'Behave Beatrice'. I blushed a little but I'm not sure why. Maybe because I had a crush on this boy but didn't know because I was too young to understand. Tobias walked over to a closet in the corner of the room and swung the door open. I noticed a shiny object in there but didn't mention it when he came back with crayons and paper. "Do you like to draw?" he asked. I nod as he hands me the supplies. "I'll be back in a minute. Okay?" he says. Again all I do is nod. He smiles and walks out of the room. He comes back carrying a miniature plastic desk. He sets it in between us and we both reach down for the supplies. His hand sets over mine as we reached for the same box of crayons. Something happened. It felt like a million little shocks of electricity ran through me starting from my hand where his is over mine.
As I retrieve my hand from his, I say, "I'm sorry." he looks at me with a smile on his face and says, "It's alright." We spend the rest of the day drawing, even when my brother wakes up and joins us. My mother arrives and it's time to go home.
Before I leave, Mr. Eaton asks us, 'Did my son behave properly with you two?' We nod and I can see in the corner of my eye Tobias' posture relax. He smiles at me and then we leave. It's not too late so I ask my mother if we could stay outside for a bit. 'Just until dinner.' she responded. Caleb and I went outside and he said, 'Beatrice, I think it's going to rain." I smiled and said, 'Great!' he looked puzzled when all of a sudden I felt a drop on my arm. Then another on my head. Finally I felt 3 on my face when I looked up.
Then it started pouring soon but I didn't care and made Caleb stay outside with me. Together we jumped around and danced in the water. When we went inside to clean up, our mother didn't seem mad, instead, she was smiling. 'Dinner's ready!' she said and we sat down for our meal. That night, I fell asleep thinking about the best day ever."
Christina is sitting there with a smile on her face when I finish."Awe, that was adorable." she says softly laughing. "Now tell me something, by any chance do those "deep blue beautiful eyes" you described remind you of someone else's? Someone who also happens to be 2 years older than you? Someone who also has the "contagious smile"?" she asks me. I know exactly who she is referring to: Four also known as the boy from my flashback: Tobias. I only look at her for a moment before looking down to my hands.
"Tris, look at me." I do as I'm told. "You can't keep avoiding him you know."
"Why not? It's been easy for the past month." I mumble.
"You have to tell him sooner or later. Better now, don't you think?" I sigh because I know she's right. "Christina, it wouldn't matter if I explained, he's with Shauna now and I don't want to ruin his happiness." I protest.
"Tris, why don't you ask to be just friends than? It's a lot easier than having to act like strangers." I run a hand over my face. "Just think about it." she says before getting up and leaving.
And I do. The truth is that I miss him in my life. He was like an older brother, except for the fact that I like him. I heard from Robert that tomorrow all faction ambassadors were to report to a meeting all day. Anxiousness fills me as I remember Four doesn't work tomorrow and that I will finally get a chance to explain everything. I just hope it's not too late.
A/N: Okay so this was part 1 of this chapter. As you can probably tell, things have been changing. And trust me, it get's even more "eventful" in the next chapters to come!
Alright, let's get to the point. I wanted to apologize to those of you who have started reading this story since day 1.
I know you guys have been anticipating for me to come back and continue the story. Unfortunately, I've been really busy in the last approximately I think 8 months?
Anyway, I'm back now and that's what matters! I wanted to also take time to thank those of you who have been motivating me to keep the story going. It pushed me to the point where I couldn't keep you waiting anymore and decided to hurry the process up. I also want to thank people for their suggestions.
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