Well here it is finally, the site is actually letting me put it up this time so I am much pleased after all this fuss. I'm back in class now so I've got the rather rushed ending done, I'm not completely happy with it and I may come back and sort it out, but for now after all the trouble I've had getting this published I'm just happy it's not finished with chapter 12. I sort of lost the thread a little after this chapter because it went so long so I hope it's ok....enjoy xox

CHAPTER 13

The next morning Harry was woken in a much more pleasant manner. Charlie was trailing kisses softly over his jaw and just as he reached his lips Harry woke enough to respond sleepily. They'd spent the night again in sleep pants of course together in Charlie's bed. Harry flexed and stretched like a big feline making a little mewl of pleasure as he woke to the warm deliciousness of being with Charlie and the peace he always brought. They were not alone long however. Sirius and Remus accompanied by Severus, Ron and Hermione all turned up knocking on the portrait only to be polite as Severus knew the password. They knew nothing too bad was going on inside but it still wasn't too polite to barge in at nine am.

"What is it with you guys and waking atrociously early in the holidays?" Harry greeted them grumpily as he'd had to give up the warm delight of being wrapped up by Charlie's comforting strong arms for the cool leather chair.

"We're going shopping! For your new wardrobe of course. Only Dumbledore said us three could only go if we had Snape and Charlie with those two, because of safety" Ron yawned not so chipper now there wasn't a mountain of gifts to be opened.

"Oh right, we doing that today?" Harry asked brightening up

"No time like the present is there?" Sirius grinned happily.

"Cool!" Harry chirped and rolled off the chair to go get some proper clothes on.

"Since when does he have a pile of clothes in my brother's rooms anyway?" Ron asked just as Charlie emerged freshly showered and awake.

"He has a few spare pairs of jeans and tops and some underwear Ron, because he happens to fall asleep here a lot after tiring days in case you never noticed" Charlie smirked

"Yeah, suppose he does" Ron shrugged

Harry reappeared in a soft flannel emerald shirt that the twins had bought him for Christmas that actually fitted right and made him look very edible in Charlie's opinion.

"See this is why you need your own clothes, that looks hot" Sirius had no compunction in stating as he herded them energetically out the door.

Harry blushed a little and shrugged uneasily.

"You're not going to get me loads of tight 'sexy' stuff are you?" He demanded scrunching his nose up in a way that clearly said anything they thought was sexy he thought was horrid.

"Nope, all atrociously baggy, oversized down to your knees crap just like the stuff your wearing now" Hermione smirked batting him up the back of the head.

"Hey! I like it loose is all" He mumbled self consciously.

"Of course you do, you like to fade into the background, you like to be as invisible as possible, you wear some half decent clothes that show you off a bit and you'll have millions of fan girls drooling over you" Hermione soothed with a grin.

"Oh I changed my mind I think he looks gorgeous in these rags" Charlie quipped.

Harry scowled. He wore his hand me downs like a shield; no one gave him a second look when he looked like a poor ragamuffin. He didn't necessarily like his baggy horrid clothes but he was not buying anything tight!

The apparated into Diagon alley as Hogsmeade didn't really have a lot of clothes shops and he was swiftly dragged through the men's departments. He blushed furiously when the sales girl flirted with him while she took his measurements, only too aware that Charlie was giving her an assessing glare and Sirius and Severus though loathe to admit they agreed on anything were both smirking and throwing him teasing grins every time he looked beseechingly at them for help. Ron and Hermione had wandered off with Remus to pick up some choices for him that were already made. He didn't see why he couldn't buy everything off the rails but Severus, Charlie and Sirius had all wrinkled their noses and shook their heads. Remus had given him a helpless shrug, he was poor enough that was his only option but as Potter and Black heir and his stupid fame and power he had to look 'perfect' and rich powerful people had tailored clothes apparently. Gah! He was going to look like Draco in his specially tailored uniforms! He bore it well the first hour and he even tried on some nice jeans and t shirts while they were still going around piling stuff up. But he was getting a little testy when they started putting fitted jeans and shirts that clung to him or followed the lines of his body snugly. They made him feel self conscious. Though Charlie did go a little glaze eyed when he tried on a ribbed tee and particularly tight jeans which was gratifying. Well until the sales girl stopped and stared too then he just felt awkward and striped them off as quickly as he could. He made the very loud and firm decision shortly after that to go for a dinner and drinks. Hermione's fun was spoilt as she'd been piling up belts and underwear and socks and even some shoes. He scowled at her and she just shrugged and dumped them all in his buy pile. The assistants would have it all bagged along with some of his tailored choices by the time they came back, anything else would be owled to Hogwarts. He walked out onto the street and sighed in relief. Charlie slung an arm around his shoulder and guided him off to the Leaky Cauldron; they all settled rather noisily and relaxed again. Harry wheedled during desert and they were allowed to go visit Quality Quidditch supplies. Then Hermione just had to go the Flourish and Blotts so Harry snuck in some more research books. He had made the decision after his last run in with Voldemort that he needed a lot more training and a lot more spell knowledge. He was hoping Severus and Lucius would agree to work with him. He was going to ask after Christmas break so he figured the more knowledge he had at his disposal the better. Charlie was oddly distant and quiet after lunch though and when they got back to Hogwarts they split off from everyone else and went back to his rooms. Harry followed him waving everyone else off when Sirius gave him a confused look they were all going to go have drinks and snacks in the kitchens. Hermione gave him a reassuring nod and shot a confused look at Charlie's retreating back. Ron just gave his brother's back a strange frown and shook his head. Harry sighed and followed with all his bags silently.

"Charlie are you ok?" he asked tentatively dropping his bags beside the couch and standing there uncertainly.

Charlie turned to him and a weird smile played on his lips. He prowled towards Harry like some stalking jungle cat and backed him into the door with a thud pressing himself firmly against him. Harry blinked at him dumbly and tried to push him off a bit.

"Charlie?" He asked breathlessly as the larger man pressed into him making it hard for him to breathe.

He got no response, except for Charlie's insistent lips on his own and his hands wandering roughly all over his body. Harry tried to push him back again now concerned about his 'boyfriend'.

"Charlie you're scaring me" he whispered as his shirt was lifted or rather shoved up his body by urgent hands.

There was a whole world of difference between this and his teasing after the elf outfit trick. This seemed darker, edgier like an oppressive cloud.

No responses but a growl of frustration when his belt didn't co operate immediately to his rushing hands. Harry tried to bat him away and push away from the door but Charlie used his body weight against him to stop him. He was too big for Harry to push off and he cried out in fright and anger.

"Charlie stop!" He sobbed beating uselessly against the man as his trousers were yanked down and his shirt was ripped down the front sending the buttons flying.

"Please stop" He sobbed uselessly now as Charlie's hand travelled down to the front of his boxers

There was a thump against the door behind him and he shouted out for help unthinkingly through his sobs.

The door blasted off its hinges pushing them into the room. Charlie went over backwards and he scrabbled at his clothes gathering himself together and lunged for the door with another cry of anger and anxiety. Sirius was stood there with his wand out and everyone else was behind him holding platters of food and bottles of drinks from the kitchens looking rather stunned as Harry flew past them clutching his torn cloths together tears streaking down his face. He registered in his panicked mind he hadn't even thought of using his own wand to get away and he fled as fast as his feet would carry him.

Charlie came too groggily and moaned in pain.

"What's going on?" He asked when he registered Severus and Remus staring at him.

"Why am I on the couch, how'd we get back to Hogwarts?" he asked blearily blinking at them.

Ron came into view looking stark white and shakily handed him a glass of water and a potion to clear his head.

He frowned at them all.

"Where are Harry and Sirius?" He asked as Hermione came into view looking shaken and nervous.

"You were put under the Imperious curse Charlie" Remus replied finally very softly.

Charlie got a sinking feeling in his stomach and flicked his eyes around again. Still no Harry or Sirius.

"What happened?" He asked so quietly they only knew what he said because it was so obvious.

"You tried to rape Harry" Hermione whispered back when it seemed like no one could say it.

Charlie shot up and stared at them all desperately.

"Where is he?" He demanded.

"Sirius chased after him, he ran away" Ron mumbled

"I don't think it's such a good idea for you to be around him right now

"He needs time, we'll tell him you were Imperioused and let him calm down" Remus assured him.

Charlie flopped back looking defeated.

"He'll hate me, he won't want to come anywhere near me, I'll just be another Vernon to him now, another adult who abused his trust" He whispered brokenly.

"No Charlie, he'll realise you didn't mean it, he'll know" Hermione said soothingly.

Sirius found Harry curled up in a ball sobbing his heart out and rocking back and fore in front of the blank stretch of wall that led to the room of requirement.

"Harry" he whispered tentatively laying a hand on his shoulder.

Harry responded by flinging himself at Sirius and sobbing onto his shoulder.

"Oh Harry" he sighed rubbing his back and dropping to the floor so he could cradle him in his lap. He didn't really have to worry that anyone would wander across them because of the holidays so he settled them in and just cooed and comforted him with nonsense until his tears stopped and he fell asleep in his arms. Then he levitated him up so he could stand and got him into a good hold of him and carried him gently back to his and Remus' guest room that they'd been given for the holidays. He settled him onto the sofa after some nifty transfiguration into a soft bed and wrapped him in blankets. Then sat and watched his Godson contemplatively. He'd been through a lot in his short life and he wondered just how much more he could take before he just collapsed from it all.

When Harry woke up the next morning both Remus and Sirius were sitting in the room on the two chairs either side of his sofa 'bed' and were talking softly. He stretched and looked at them both with a tentative smile.

"Morning sleepy head" Remus grinned offered tea.

Harry nodded appreciatively and they settled together for the morning.

It didn't take them long to exhaust their efforts to get him to talk to them. He just couldn't talk about it and he felt so awkward and uncomfortable they let up so he didn't flee them too.

"Well I don't feel like I've spent that much time with my Godson in a long time" Sirius finally declared clapping his hands together.

"What do you have in mind?" Harry asked a slow grin spreading across his face.

"Quidditch!" Sirius shouted already up and going for his own broom excitedly.

Harry giggled and happily complied transfiguring his clothes into more comfortable clothes for the high air coldness of snow weather.

"Come on Remy!" Harry shouted racing Sirius for the door.

Remus sighed in exasperation and got slowly to his feet as his lover and his Godson went haring out of their rooms like they were both ten years old. But if this is what it took for Harry to feel better and let go then this is what they would do.

They spent the whole morning in the air. Zara and the twins, Ginny, Ron and some other students that had stayed over the holidays joined them after about an hour of their aerobatic stunts that were giving Remus heart failure as he just swooped at a steady but safe pace lower down and watched them.

Hermione got up in the stands with some of the more land inclined students who were only too happy to watch the impromptu Quidditch match that broke out. Harry out flew everyone doing completely mental stunts that got to the place where they were bordering on dangerous. But he couldn't give it up, the free fall fix of flying like a bird, of doing dangerous things that sent his heart soaring for a different kind of panic and adrenaline than yesterday. The pure joy and happiness of his whooping cries and brilliant smile was all that was keeping even Sirius from pulling him to the ground to cool down. Hermione was watching him through her fingers at one point and was sorely tempted to lasso him with magic to keep him safe. But the day progressed and Zara his new friend started swooping in around him calling teasing challenges that were way less dangerous and soon Ginny and Ron joined in while everyone else concentrated on the balls and they got him calmed somewhat. Ron and Ginny gave her grateful smiles once Lunch was called and they all got safely to the ground again. Hermione threw her arms around Harry and hugged him while scolding him fondly at the same time.

They tramped up to the great hall windswept and laughing all rosy cheeked from the air. Harry had almost forgotten he was supposed to be sad. But it all crashed around his ears when Mrs Weasley and Charlie were talking subdues at the lunch table. Severus gave him one look and indicated for him to join him. He waved gratefully and Zara bravely followed with a cheeky grin at the formidable Professor.

"Hello Miss Thompson" He inclined his head.

Harry arched a brow at her and she grinned again.

"Your friend is one of my best Potions students in Newt level this year Mr Potter" He informed him dryly.

Harry nodded and grinned brightly at her.

"Perhaps I should introduce you t the twins" he waggled his brows.

"You shall not corrupt my best student by introducing her to those menaces to Potions!" Severus scowled.

"He doesn't like me because I'm famous and he never realised I was good at potions and I've been helping make pranks with the twins for ages while he still believed I was a dim witted troll is all" Harry confided with a wink.

"Humph" Severus smirked.

"So Harry, that was some pretty wicked flying out there, I see why you're Gryffindors prize seeker all this time" Zara changed the subject smoothly.

"Nah! I just love to fly" he shrugged

"I'm just real competitive when I do it so I never lose the snitch, I don't get much chance to just zoom about during matches so when I go flying for fun I like to let loose" he grinned happily.

"Seemed like a death wish if you ask me" she teased.

Harry just smiled and shrugged turning easily to his food again.

After lunch he went to the room of requirement and started work on his new training. He had decided to give himself a holiday too but now he just felt like blasting something with everything he had. So until bed time, missing tea and supper he worked non-stop on some of the newer spells he'd read until he could hardly raise his head.

He continued on in this vain for the next week. Zara was the only person who managed to drag him outside when she was up early enough to catch him for breakfast. Hermione had caught sight of him a few times but she let him go thinking that he needed some space and time. Sirius managed to worm his way into a few hours of duelling with him twice and left exhausted and battered.

Charlie just watched from afar feeling torn. Every time Harry caught sight of him he'd flinch or shy away into the shadows like he hoped he hadn't seen him. He didn't know what to do, whether he should try talking to harry or he should just let him deal in his own way. So when the school came back and everyone was starting lessons again they were still in this sort of limbo.

Harry wasted n time n weaselling Lucius and Severus into teaching him an hour every evening and lunch till tea on weekends. They were both ex death eaters and knew what he was up against and wanted him to win. So they worked with him. Lucius didn't give up on his political and tactical sessions though. Even though Harry refused to go to Charlie's or Lucius' because they were so close to each other. They ended up being held before the magic tutoring. This arrangement worked quite well for Harry. He'd get out of class eat really quickly in the hall to avoid everyone as much as possible. Go to the room of requirement and do his homework until Lucius showed up. They'd study whatever Lucius felt was relevant then Severus would show up and they'd get onto spell work and defence. He was coming along pretty well and he'd always see them off and spend all the way up to curfew working on whatever they'd been teaching him that day. The only times this differed was when e had Quidditch, which he also still used for exercise and fitness training. So overall he felt like he was doing a pretty good job of avoiding anything as scary as meeting Charlie or his friends asking him about it. Zara who didn't know about it did have a picnic with him on Sunday when he was doing some jogging around the lake path to get fresh air after being cooped up so long. She made him laugh and they had a really good time sat on the banking under the old oak throwing food in for the giant Squid. His classes seemed to fly by in a blur, he was studying way above most of them and it came naturally to him now. He still had hard work in Creatures and Herbology of course. Creatures because he was trying to hang back and stay out of Charlie's range. Herbology because he didn't have any advanced training with plants who wanted to strangle him or cry him to death. But soon the weeks were flying past and the Hogsmeade visit at the beginning of February surprised him. He hadn't realised how much time had passed. He also hadn't realised he'd lost a lot of weight and he looked like he was working himself to death. His golden skin was tight over his training muscles and he had dark circles under his eyes and an overall air of someone burning the candle at both ends permanently.

Zara pretty much dragged him out to Hogsmeade though. She'd teamed up with his much avoided friends and her own who'd taken to Harry because of her incessant talking about him. They were all gathered and walking into town when Sirius and Remus turned up brightly. Sirius' smile fell a little when he saw Harry but he still managed to brightly chirp.

"We thought we'd come see our Godson, we've missed you since Christmas and we were wondering if you'd have lunch with us"

"Go ahead we'll meet you later in the pub" Zara smiled shooing him off.

Hermione looked a little put out. She's been planning to use the time to weasel Harry about Charlie, she hadn't gotten a chance yet because he was getting very good at excusing himself to 'train'. But she let him go thinking at least his guardians may be able to shake him out of this.

"So Harry Lucius owled us..." Sirius began once they'd started walking.

"Yeah?" harry asked slowly

"Yeah, he and Severus were worried; they say you've been working yourself to the bone. Always thinking they don't realise how much longer you work after they've gone. Always avoiding everyone and never eating enough at meals" Sirius prompted.

"I'm fine" He sighed tiredly

"Of course you are Harry; we're just concerned that you'll wear yourself out. Please just rest a bit more, hang out with your friends in the tower, play chess with Ron and study some more with Hermione. They miss you too you know" Remus softly offered with a kind smile.

Harry sighed and ran a hand through his hair.

"Um, ok I'll try" he muttered finally as they seated themselves.

"Good, then tell us what's been up in your world lately, we've missed you" Sirius grinned irrepressibly

"Nothing much, I'm working, passing class, playing Quidditch, we're winning the cup so far" he grinned

"Cool" They nodded attentively.

"So anything new in my lovely Godfather's world?" He asked cheekily.

"Um, well actually, uh yeah" Sirius coughed looking awkward

"We, well that's another reason we came, to tell you in person, a letter for this just seemed a bit odd" He rambled on nervously until Remus put a hand over his.

"Ok" Harry grinned looking between them speculatively.

"I'm pregnant" Sirius whispered

"So we're going to get bonded so our child isn't a 'bastard' as it were" Remus added just as quietly.

Harry blinked processing that then beamed brightly.

"Am I the best man, can I be its big brother? Or am I the Uncle? Does this mean I get to help pick names? Do you know if it's a girl or boy? You're still my guardian's right? I'll still live with you, the Weasley's are not going to have to move out to make room, I can stay right?" He started to fret.

"Whoa!" Remus laughed as Sirius looked at him intently.

"You don't mind, you're fine with it?" He asked seriously.

"Of course I am!" harry laughed

"Well then, yes you can be our best man, yes you'll still be living with us and the Weasley's at Grimmauld. Yes you can help us pick names for our son and yes you are his big brother, his uncle and his Godfather" Sirius beamed subconsciously rubbing a hand over his flat stomach.

Harry beamed and leant over the table to hug them both.

"Oh this is awesome" He breathed happily

"We'll be a family, a proper family" he sighed

They both smiled at him affectionately.

The moment was broken by a scream and the sound of an explosion and breaking glass from out in the street.....

Ok so this is gonna be 15 chapters for now, I've written the ending and I'm posting them all today, my internet is dodgy and so is the site as it decided randomly apparently whether or not I can post new chapters so now I've got them uploaded onto my manager here i'm leaving it at that and hoping for the best. This story is complete at Chapter 15.