A/N: I'm sorry my chapters are so short, but I don't have much time to write. Since school is starting back up, my updates will be fewer and farther between. Anyway, thanks to all who have read and reviewed my stories!

Disclaimer: I don't own Criminal Minds.

It was as if the whole team had stopped breathing for a second, with the exception of Kate, who had no idea what was going on. "Who's Hastings?" she asked to no one in particular. Everyone snapped out of their shocked silence, and Red was the one to answer Kate. He recounted the whole story, from JJ's backstop to her kidnapping.

Kate was shocked that JJ had seemed unaffected from the trauma that she had endured when she met her. She was also surprised that Emily didn't mention this, but then she remembered that this was probably one of the things that JJ herself could explain better.

Back to the task at hand, everyone had a question in the back of their minds. Rossi voiced it. "JJ, why would Hastings say this during your captivity?"

JJ stood up and sighed, knowing it was time to tell the team. "There was something that I didn't tell you guys about my time in the Middle East. Something that only Matt knows." JJ paused scanning each face before continuing. "Our convoy was traveling across the desert; we were headed to out next set-up site. Hastings was in my truck. A Pakistani operative planted bombs underneath the trucks, and our convoy was attacked. I was injured, a couple of broken and cracked ribs. Hastings was "taken" during the attack."

JJ stopped for a second to take a breath. "Just a week before, I found out that I was pregnant." The whole team collectively gasped. They knew where this was going, and their hearts ached for the woman who had been through so much. "When I woke up after the attack, Matt told me – he told me that I had lost the baby." JJ's voice cracked.

"And when I was in that basement, and Askari knew about my pregnancy, I knew that there was no way he could know that, unless someone told him. I knew Matt wouldn't tell anyone, so the only viable option was Hastings. Right after I told Matt in my tent, Hastings walked in to deliver the news about Emily. He was eavesdropping on our conversation. So when I figured out that Hastings was the only one who could possibly know that I was pregnant, he came out, and he used me to get Matt's codes."

The team had an idea of what Hastings did to get Matt to cooperate, but JJ had to say it out loud. "What did he do?" Rossi asked softly.

JJ looked down. "He – he threatened to rape me. That's why my shirt and pants were unbuttoned when you found me. He didn't get very far before Matt gave up his code, but before he did, Hastings ran his hands over my stomach and said "Maybe I could make you another one"."

The team was stunned into silence at JJ's revelation. "Why didn't you tell us about your miscarriage?" Reid said, not angrily, but not nicely, either. Garcia, who was standing next to him, smacked Reid on the arm.

"No," JJ said quickly, "It's okay. I know I should've told you guys, but I couldn't even tell Will. Telling people would make it real, and I would've had to face the truth. I failed the simplest task; I couldn't even protect my own baby." It wasn't until after admitting her deepest regret that JJ finally showed any sign of emotion.

One tear, leaving its track of grief and despair, was the only evidence of JJ's pain.

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