Hey, long time no see lol! So, I'm on a roll now; expect updates coming quicker now. Then again, this stupid project for social might get in the way, and I have a very important debating tournament coming up soon, so maybe they won't. I'm almost done the story people.

So, this chapter had a song incorporated into the end part, and it's Good Enough by Evanescence.

Oh, and the flashback was from the end of the episode The End part three. Spoilers for the end of season four, so watch out if you haven't seen it yet!

Anyways, so last chapter summary:

We found out that Darkheart, Apolla, Greenfire, and Darkness are all deities, though Apolla and Darkness don't know it. We found about that the Creator rules over these deities, and it has no gender, and it put Greenfire, Lila, and Darkheart in the same body/mind/place in the universe to teach Darkheart a lesson after she tried to destroy all Creation.

We found out that Raven is hopelessly in love with Robin, and contemplating suicide, because she can't live without him, and he loves Starfire.

We found out that Amarilla and Deladria's powers aren't normal on their planet; Deladria is a mutant, while Amarilla's powers were given to her through an experiment performed on her by an eccentric scientist who had been denied humans to experiment on. We also discovered that Amarilla's life is a living hell because of her opposing personality traits.

We also found out that Erick worked with a girl named Elaine, with whom he fell in love.

We found out that Elaine has been reduced to almost nothing by Darkness, and will obey any order from her; Darkness plans to use Elaine, who is extremely powerful, as her secret weapon against the Titans. Darkness also knows as much as the sisters do about the impending 'surprise' attack on her base.

I think that's about it!!!!

Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans, Ipod nano, Evanescence and 'Good enough'. Simple as that.

Claimer: Claimer: I do own the following: Greenfire, Darkness, Lila, Darkheart, Slain, Death, The army of death/the dead, People working for Darkness, Apolla, Erick, Amarilla, Rafaiella, Deladria, Elaine, and The whole thing with the Deities.

So, on with chapter thirteen!!!!

Chapter 13: The Calm before the Storm

Raven woke up at 8:30 am the day before the attack. She lay in bed for another half hour, not meditating, but just thinking. Thinking about what she was going to do with herself.

She rose and threw her blue cloak over her shoulders, and then she walked downstairs to grab an herbal tea. It was dead quiet in the tower; lately, the remaining titans and Greenfire had been keeping to themselves – all with valid excuses of course.

When Raven entered the living room of the Teen Titans, she saw Darkness sitting on their couch, scribbling away on a note pad, while sipping some strange drink. Raven could smell the coffee from her point at the door, and decided that she would be confused if she didn't know Darkness was Starfire and the rest.

"Starfire, is that coffee?" She asked in an interested voice.

"No, it is a drink native to my planet; I just made it." Darkness said, and tipped the glass so that Raven could see a pink liquid that smelled nothing like the coffee she'd smelt only a few seconds prior.

"If you say so." She strode into the kitchen and proceeded to make her herbal tea. "So, what are you writing?"

"I am writing a poem." She said.

"A poem? For whom?" Raven asked, intending to put her enemy in a corner.

"Raven, my friend, may I confide something in you?" Raven nodded. "I am... I have... I harbor strong feelings for friend Robin."

"We all do; we're a close knit group, Starfire." Raven said, inwardly smirking and ashamed at the same time; she would have done the same thing to the real Starfire and had to regrets.

"No, you do not understand. I believe I like him as more than a friend." Darkness tried to clarify naively. Inwardly, Raven smiled cruelly again.

"I suppose you're right. We're all closer than friends here; like siblings, probably closer." Raven said. Darkness smiled.

"You do not understand. I love Robin." Darkness said. Raven's composure didn't falter.

"Well, if that love poem is for him, I'd think twice." Raven advised.

"Why?" Darkness portrayed innocent hurt perfectly.

"Well, he's not the type for love poems and songs and sappy things like that. It's also written in... not English. It's not even Tamaranian. Or Latin. Starfire, what language are you writing in?" Raven asked. She'd noticed that it was written in French or Italian; Starfire didn't know any of these languages.

"It is written in Tamaranian. Perhaps you should look again, friend Raven?" Sure enough, when Raven peered over Darkness's shoulder, the poem was written in Tamaranian.

"You really think he will not like this?" Darkness asked.

"No. The way to tell him is to just tell him. In a few days, though. You have to think about it first. It needs to be profound, but sweet. It might take you a while to do this." Raven insulted her best friend slyly, without even caring that it was Darkness.

"Friend Raven, I do not understand. Are you giving me the insult?" Darkness said. Raven smirked and walked out of the room. She walked back to her room, thinking over that conversation. She had been talking as she would have to Starfire, the real, nice, innocent, Starfire. She was resentful of the alien; she had beauty, innocence, was easily hurt and confused (guys appeared to love that), she was strong... everything Raven wasn't. It was no wonder Robin loved Starfire over her; it wasn't that hard of a choice.

Raven entered her room and locked the door behind her. She then sat on her bed, sipping her herbal tea, thinking about the upcoming battle. Barely a second after she had set the tea cup down, someone knocked on her door. She walked to the door and opened it only a crack. It was Robin.

"What?" She snapped.

"I was just wondering if you could help me with something." Robin asked, almost timidly.

"What?" She repeated, though more gently this time.

"I think I need to learn to meditate. There's so much to do, but I need to take a break, I think." Robin said. Raven opened the door for him and closed it behind him when he entered.

"You do need to learn how to clam down and take a rest once in a while. Lila told me I should try and teach you, because she can hear what you're thinking every minute she's near you; plans, Starfire, worries, Starfire... You're lucky Darkness hasn't found out yet; just by knowing what's in your head, she'd be able to make counter-attack plans and such. Meditating is the perfect way to harness these thoughts. You can do it any time of the day." Raven said. She gestured to the bed, and Robin sat. She showed him the lotus position, and, with some difficulty, he sat in it.

"Good. Now, close your eyes. Don't concentrate on anything." Raven instructed. Robin's face then became an expression of intense concentration. His entire face was scrunched up and Raven almost laughed. A giggle escaped from her, and she clamped her hand over her mouth in order to muffle the sound, but too late; Robin had heard. He relaxed and opened his eyes.

"What? Why are you laughing?" he asked.

"You're supposed to relax, not think of anything." Raven, who had regained her composure, said. "what were you concentrating on?"

"Not concentrating on anything." Robin answered truthfully.

"Okay then, try concentrating on the darkness in front of your eyes. Don't scrunch up your face up like you were doing, and try not to tense your muscles. Just... relax." Raven said. Robin did as he was told, not caring how intently she was staring at him. He found it surprisingly easier when he concentrated on the darkness in front of his eyes. There were images, plans, numbers, names and sounds still dancing around in his head, but he wasn't registering the images anymore.

"There're still sounds, and names, and I can't stop thinking." Robin said.

"Here, try this." Raven opened her bedside table drawer and retrieved a sleek, black, Ipod nano and turned it on. She put the headphones in Robin's ears and searched through the songs. She came upon her list of meditative songs and opened the file. She pressed the play button.

"What is this?" Robin asked, as he listened to the opening of a song he'd never heard before.

"It helps me when I can't stop thinking for meditation. Just listen and concentrate on the blackness in front of your eyes. Can you hear yourself speaking through the music?" Raven asked. Robin nodded.

"Good, now, repeat a mantra and listen to yourself say those words over and over again. It should help you concentrate." Raven instructed.

"I don't have a mantra." Robin replied.

Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.

"You can borrow mine until you find one of your own. Say it now." Raven said. Robin nodded and began to say her mantra.

"Azerath Metrione Zinthos... Azerath Metrione Zinthos..."

Raven watched him silently; this would do him good, she thought, if he could master it without her help. It would help him with his work-a-holic nature, and to calm his nerves and temper if they ever got too bad.

She then took the lotus position and floated beside the bed. She began to repeat her mantra with Robin; her emotions needed to be clamed.

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...

His voice calmed her a surprisingly large amount. She loved to listen to him talk, ever since he had saved her from her father and given her hope.She still remembered their conversation after Trigon had been defeated.

Flashback

"How do you do it, Robin?" She asked.

"Do what?" He didn't know what she'd meant.

"Keep hoping, after everything that happened, everything I did, how did you still manage to hope it could all work out?" All through their journey back to their friends on the surface, he had kept hoping that we would defeat her father. He had had enough hope for the both of them, and she couldn't understand how.

"Because of you. You don't realize it Raven, but you're actually the most hopeful person I've ever met. From the day you were born, they said you were evil. That you were created to do unspeakable things. But you wish for more. You dared to hope that you could be a hero." He told her.

It was then that she realized that she had a future, that she was the hero she had always wanted to be. Now that the moment she had feared her entire life had come and gone and she, her friends, and the universe were all alive and well, she truly was a hero; she didn't have the inevitable end of the world she had thought was going to come hanging over her head every time she woke up and every time she went to sleep. She wasn't destined to do anything that she didn't want to do anymore.

"I thought it was all over. And now, suddenly…"She couldn't put the feeling she was experiencing into words.

"You have your whole life ahead of you. You could decide your own destiny." She smiled. Robin knew her better than she knew herself. How he did, she didn't know. But she knew that at that moment, she fell in love with him.

"I guess, in the end... there really is no end, just... new beginnings."

End Flashback

Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.

"Azerath Metrione Zinthos..." She remembered that day well; how could she forget? Robin had saved her; he had hoped.

A lot of time had passed since they had begun meditating. Raven had calmed herself into her meditative state just by listening to Robin repeating her mantra. It had to have been at least half an hour, if not more. Raven didn't mind.

Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.

"Raven?" It was Robin's voice, snapping her out of her meditation.

"Yes?" She said slowly, still keeping her eyes closed, wishing for the moment that they were perfectly in sync to last forever.

"I should get back to work." He said, trying to mask another emotion with gruffness. Raven wanted to think it was reluctance to leave her, but knew it wasn't.

Shouldn't have let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...

He left her alone in her large, quiet room. She didn't know what to do with herself now. She was done meditating, and knew she wouldn't' be able to for a while. She reached under her bed and pulled out a small silver box with a keyhole in its lid, beside a keypad. She pulled a chain with key hanging off of it out of her uniform and placed the key in the keyhole. She then typed her password – 69136 – into to the keypad. The box clicked open, and she lifted the lid to reveal three small white books. On the covers were dates the first one was from the date of her fifteenth birthday to the month before her sixteenth. The second was from the day after that to the day before her birthday. The last one, which was incomplete, was from the day she had defied destiny.

They were her diaries.

Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.

She had kept a diary since her fifteenth birthday so that she could be rid of her emotions and not have to keep them inside. Lately, she had been writing more and more; she would have to buy another diary soon. She began recording her experience, and could almost feel the weight of her emotions leaving her.

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?

She recorded all of her worries, her hopes, and her dreams. She decided that if she were to die in the battle, she would want Robin to read her diaries. She would leaved the box closed and place a letter in Robin's room, telling him where to find the box and how to open it. She would leave the key with the box.

She wanted him to know how she felt.

So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.

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Greenfire had writer's cramp. She had no computer, and had written all of her letters by hand. She'd written one to each of the three sisters, Lila, Erick, Johnny, the rest of the titans, Robin, and was finishing one addressed to Raven.

So, just to wrap it all up, thanks so much for being an amazing friend. I wish I could have spent more time with you and the titans, but it looks like the time came for me to go.

Greenfire.

She folded the letter and placed it in an envelope. On the front, she wrote Raven, and sealed it shut. She placed it in a pile with the other letters.

"Why are you so sad?" Darkheart asked from somewhere in the land of the dead.

"Why do you think? I don't what to die, Darkheart." Greenfire said.

"But you won't."

"What?" Greenfire was astounded.

"You will live on in the afterlife if you die; you'll finally meet your parents. You will live on in the hearts and minds of those you made friends with. You will not be forgotten, I will make sure of that." Darkheart said.

"No body will remember me forever." Greenfire pointed out.

"Yes, but those who matter most to you will remember you; that's what matters most, isn't it?" Darkheart said.

"I suppose so, but..."

"But what?" Darkheart demanded sharply; she didn't like being kept in the dark.

"But what if they do forget me? What if all of my friends died as well? Who would be left to remember me then?" Greenfire asked.

"Your foes. They will never forget how you tried to bring them down, I can guarantee that." Darkheart said.

"Why would they remember me?" Greenfire asked.

"You ask too many questions. Write a letter to Dominique, and one to Darkness. See how they turn out. It might open up her eyes when she reads them." Darkheart suggested.

"You're insane."

"Yes, I am. Do it." Darkheart instructed; it was no longer an option.

"Okay, okay." Greenfire picked up her pen and began a letter to Dominique, the young girl she remembered so well. She put her memories on paper, and events that she remembered well, and how she had wished to be her friend.

'Oh, Dominique, what's happened to you? You were so kind and good. Why did you have to let your power do this to you? Why?'

That was how she finished it. She then moved onto Darkness. It was a short letter, the shortest of all the letters she'd written so far.

'I suppose I should feel sorry for you, but I don't. I feel sorry for Dominique.

'You made the wrong choices in life, Darkness. I can't blame you for being angry about what happened to you, but I can blame you for letting the darkness control you. It is no one's fault but your own that you have turned out this way.

'I wish it weren't like this Darkness. You are very powerful, and if your mind hadn't been destroyed, ravaged by anger and hurt, you would have been such a wise woman; a true leader.

'I don't feel sorry for you.'

Well, there you have it. Chapter 13. So, how was it? Suggestions, critiques, and the like are welcome!

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