I was lying in bed with Lilly right next to me. My poor baby cried herself to sleep. I frown every time she whimpers Otis's name in her sleep.
I look up as the bedroom door open. I smiled up at Otis who was dripping wet from the pouring rain.
"Did you get them?"
"Ya" Otis takes off his scarecrow outfit and throw it on the floor. He pulls on a pair of sweats before climbing in next to Lilly. "Is she okay?" He runs a hand over her back and a small smile forms on his lips as she cuddled up to him in her sleep.
"Not really, she was so scared that she cried herself to sleep." I didn't want to tell him about her calling out for him because even though he won't show it, it does hurt him.
Otis nodded before kissing her forehead. I give him a kiss on the lips and curl up on my side facing him. I intertwine our fingers and lay them on Lilly's side.
And that was how we fell asleep that night, wrapped up as a family.
The next morning I wake up and noticed Lilly and Otis still sleeping. I carefully get out of bed and walked down to the kitchen. Mama was cooking breakfast while RJ was grabbing his keys.
"RJ!" I called out before he walked out of the room. "Did you… um did you get them?"
"Not yet, Otis needed me yesterday. I will get them today after I dispose of the car."
"Thank you." I hug him around his naked torso before he walked out of the house pulling on his shirt.
"Good morning Candy."
"Morning Mama, what's for breakfast?"
Me and Mama was the only ones eating breakfast as Lilly came trotting down the stairs and into the kitchen.
"Mommy, Odie was there when I woke up!" Lilly smiles brightly and jumps into my lap. I hug her close as I help her eat.
After breakfast was done Lilly went downstairs to see if Tiny wanted to play. I helped Mama with the dishes before walking into the living room. I put on the TV and zoned out.
I guess I fell asleep because I next thing I know, I was waking up in mine and Otis's bed. Baby comes in with a paper bag in her hand. She holds it out to me. "RJ told me to give this to you. Otis tried to see but RJ shoved the bag in my arms and pushed Otis away."
"So Otis doesn't know what's in the bag?"
"No I don't know what's in the god damn bag. But im gonna." Otis snatches the bag from my hands as I was distracted. I jump up and rip the bag from his hands. He grabs ahold of the bag and pulls. We both were so into our struggle we didn't hear the bag ripping until it was too late.
Three pregnancy tests fall to the floor and Otis falls back. He leans on the wall and slides down it. I look down at my feet and sigh.
"You're pregnant?" Otis asked that in shocked while Baby out of excitement.
"Maybe, I don't know yet. I didn't want you to find out, Otis, not until I was sure." I grab all of the tests and run out of the room. I lock myself in the bathroom and fall to the floor in tears.
After an hour or so of crying and listening to people talking and moving. Sometimes they would talk to me, sometimes to other people. But the only voice I never heard was Otis's. He stood clear of the bathroom, making Tiny and Baby do everything for him. He wouldn't leave his room.
I take the tests quickly and wait for them to beep. I try to keep my thoughts clear and it works for the most part. Only one thing stuck in my head the entire time I was sitting here and that was a baby's face.
The baby was pale with dark black hair. Its eyes were Otis's dark gray/blue eyes. It had a cute button nose and thin lips. The baby's dimples stood out on its chubby cheeks. The baby look like a perfect mixed of me and Otis.
That baby was mine and its father was Otis.
In the bottom of my heart, I know im pregnant.
The tests beep.
I stand.
Walk over to the test.
Look down at them.
Read the little screens.
And sigh.
I KNOW ITS SHORT BUT ITS MOSTLY CAUSE IM NOT IN THAT GOOD OF A MOOD AND I JUST WANTED TO POST SOMETHING ...